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I am a married, registered,COLLARED submissive/slave. I wish to meet friends and share experiences.
W/we live this lifestyle 24/7, however I do not parade around all day everyday wearing my collar and cuffs. I do not sleep on the floor, though if he were to say I had to I would without hesitation. W/we are real people with real lives and family. W/we do not have the luxuriy of having me at his feet 24/7. However, even in the company of others who do not know nor understand this lifestyle, he only has to look at me and his thoughts are understood. Even in mixed company(vanilla), I am always submissive to him, and always tend to his needs first above everything. Should I get out of line I am dealt with in private, though the occassional need to "remind me" in front of others does happen.
The reason for the "mystery" is very simple, we both went through very nasty divorces, and do not need the added problems our lifestyle choice would cause. (custody issues). Hence; respect of privacy and discretion are extremely valuable and important to us.
Ultimately I am hoping to find a friend. Someone I can share thoughts with, ideas and experiences. Hopefully someone in the Houston area. .
After talking, perhaps we all can meet, have coffee. A picture can be provided, however,I prefer actualy meeting rather than exchanging pictures. Again, (the need for discretion), besides I find it is much easier to get a true read on someone if you actually meet. No need to prejudge based solely on appearances that you never truely know if it is actually the person or not until you meet.
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It's been ahile since I have been on, but I wanted to let everyone know that Master has PURPOSED to me. We will be married on Oct. 6th. I am so excited. The only thing that could be better than this, is when Master collars me.
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(7/31/2007 11:39:08 AM): I don't really have much to say today.. I'm really only writing because I have too. I don't necessarily have something to say here everyday, but I am required to write in my journal everyday. This past week has pretty much sucked. I had a couple of emotional breakdowns. I have a doctor appointment to have my hormones checked. Master thinks I might be in the beginning stages of menapause. I had a hysterectomy 2 years ago, so it certainly is possible. I can't say that I hope that I am, but It will be nice to have an answer as to why I have been so emotional lately. If I'm not crying, then I'm more than likely telling someone off for something extremely trivial. This is not my typical behavior, yet I dont seem to be able to control myself. Anyhow, it'll be nice to have some answers.
(7/31/2007 11:44:10 AM): Master came home last night. He has been gone visiting his parents in Ohio for the past 10 days. It has been a very, very long 10 days for me. I am extremely grateful to have him home with me now. Even though my emotions are a bit out of control, he helps to calm the storms for me. The least little things seem to set me off, sometimes causing me to become fearful, crying hysterically for absolutely nothing. The worst part is, I haven't lost my mind, just my emotions. Which means, I know there is absolutely no reason whatsoever for my "episodes", but I still can't stop them. Even when I am having a crying fit, and I KNOW there is nothing wrong, and that everything will be ok, I cant stop crying. But Master has a way of letting me know that I am ok, that everything is ok, and he lets me go through the process, without making me feel stupid for it. He helps me through it, no matter where I am when it happens, or what time of day it is. Even if he is in a meeting at work, if I need him, he listens. He truely is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love you so much Sir.
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After talking to you this morning, I realized how very excited I get when you are giving me instructions. I've noticed this before, but the degree has multiplied. Even if you are instructing me to do something I do not want to do, or even if it is something as simple as what outfit you require me to wear that day, I get so excited Listening to your voice, listening to your commands. When I hung up from you today Sir, I was driving, and repositioned how I was sitting. I felt my plug shift , very slightly, and it caused me to cum. It happened and I was unaware that it was going to happen. It caught me off guard. It was slight, but it did happen. It shocked me. All I have to say for an explaination is that I was so excited,
(7/27/2007 9:43:37 PM): and so arroused that when the plug shifted it caused me to cum. I love you Master |
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I am curious to know if anyone else has gotten a message from IC3FBI? Please let me know if you have, it has sprked my curiousity.
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I have been wanting to tell you this for sometime now, but thought I should wait until the right time. I believe this is the right time. Master, most people start to drift apart the more time that goes by, this is not the case with me Sir. The more time that passes, the more in love with you I get. My feelings for you are so deep, so impacted within my soul, that I do not have the vocabulary to express just how very much I love you. Aside from Master/sub relationship, aside from boyfriend/girlfriend, or anyother classification we may fall under, I do not know how to tell you how you make the very fiber of my being feel. Is till get butterflies when you call, I can feel you within me, every breath I breathe, every heart beat, every nerve ending in me illuminates love for you. The Master/sub relationship we have, only intensifies these feelings..The more involved we get..the more I need you, the more in love with you I am, it just continues to grow more and more every moment of everyday. I LOVE YOU, are not strong enough words to convey these feelings I have for you. |
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Today was a wonderful day!!!! MAster told me he has been looking at contracts, WOOHOO!!!!! I am so excited.I have never wanted anything as badly as I want to belong,(PERMENATELY) to Master. After I get my registration number, Master said eventually I can have it tatooed on me. I can't wait. I'm not sure what makes me happier, that Master has been looking into contracts, or that I know that I have pleased him. It feels as though I have been waiting a lifetime for this to happen. Well in reality I have been waiting a lifetime..lol, but I am not collared yet, so I better ease the excitment back a few notches..smiles I think when the moment finally gets here I'll explode from all the emotions I'll be feeling, just knowing he has been looking, makes my heart jump into my stomach. I love him so much, words dont do my feelings for him justice. |
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ok..today was a much better day than yesterday. I am more accustomed to wearing my plug, and have gotten it positioned just right so slippage is not an issue anymore. I wore it while I worked my second job as well, which I was pretty proud of myself, because yesterday i was unable to do this. Master instructing me to use lubricant is most of the reason the issues have been resolved. Thank you Sir..I love wearing my collar, but not so much my leash. It gets in the way and it tends to irritate me, but I am sure I will grow accustomed to it as well. My cuffs are taking some getting use to as well, but I am sure it is mainly due to needing the size to be adjusted properly. In time I know all these things will work themselves out. All in all, I love the new instructions that Master has me obiding by now when he is away. It helps me to stay focused and makes me feel as though he is not too far away. That he maybe miles away, but his pressence is ALWAYS close to me. I love you Sir. |
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HEllo to anyone who may be reading this,
it's been a long time since I have written in this journal, so I thought a quick update would be nice.
I am still un-collared, :( but, Master is very , very happy with my progress. For those of you uncertain as to why I am not collared, or why I call him my Master if I am un-collared, it is very simple. In my heart I belong to him. In his heart, belief, and whatever else you want to call it, I belong to him. A collar, to us, represents a life long commitment, one more binding than marriage. Once he places His collar around my neck, there is no taking it off just because I decide he isn't right for me. Once He decides to offer it, and I choose to accept it, it is life long binding. It is a commitment that many seem to jump into far to easily. It isn't a game we play, In many respects, the commitment of a collar means to us what marriage use to mean. If you have ever read the bible you know that God intended for women to be subservient to Men. That the commitment of Marriage was forever, till DEATH do you part. Not till we dont like eachother anymore. (I say this having come from a divorce.) So you see the true foundation of this lifestyle, (that mainstream population critisizes) , is based on biblical phylosophy. ( I'm sure I just mutilated the spelling.) Men being the dominant force and women being submissive to their Husbands. If you have ever read the Bible, or anything is history, you would know that women were not treated as equals, they were treated as property to their Husbands. The Bible only comands women to be submissive, and to RESPECT their Husbands, it does not say they have to like them, or even love them. It also states that Men LOVE their wives. It doesn't say anything about respecting them. So having said that, maybe now you can understand why W/we consider the "ritual" of a collar to have much more meaning and commitment than even marriage. Because our society has made marriage meaningless, however, a Collar is a true sign of Ownership. Anyhow, it's getting late, I need to get to bed, send me a message, I'ld love to hear what your thoughts are on this entry.
smiles, worthy |
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hello all, just a quick update. Master and I are doing very well. Training is coming along a bit slower than either of us anticipated that it would, but I had a bit more to learn than either of us anticipated as well. Well, more like, I'm a bit more sassy, than either of us anticipated. This journey is however revealing things about myself I was unaware of. It is an enlightening experience, for instance I like pain a tad more than I knew I would. I have always had a very low pain tollerance, yet W/we are discovering I can tollerate more than I thought I could. Although, not as tollerable as Master would like me to be. (my observation, not Masters). I do tend to push him much more than he likes, but it seems,I enjoy seeing just how far I can push the bounderies. Again, Master does not like this bit of my personality. He does however, tollerate it. He kindly warns me, NOT to push his patients too far, I will not like the outcome. This is the lesson I tend to learn on a slower pace. But for those of you wondering, no, Master does not leave me alone often, or for too long. I just require alot of attention and get very lonely very quickly. So it is difficult for me when he is away. I miss he deeply when he is gone for even short periods of time. He is however, home.
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So here I am alone and bored,my love is away and I'm starved for conversation. I've pretty much lost all ties with old friends, as they were all mostly men. lol. So now I find myself clueless as to what to do with myself. For the past year I have spent ALL of my free time with my love, aside from work and family of course. So what am I to do when he isn't around for the next couple of weeks and talking with him is few and far between. I am in search of a friend. One that is like minded of course and oh yes, FEMALE. lol Master wouldn't take kindly to my chatting up the men. So please don't take this the wrong way. I am here merely looking for friendship. Someone who has been where I am, knows where I've been, and understands the direction I'm going. Preferably someone who has been around the lifestyle longer than myself. Not that I'm opposed to any friendship. I welcome all. I just am looking for a "mentor" I guess. Someone who can be a friend yet not look to me for all the answers, cuz sister, I don't have them. Anyways, drop me a note. |
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| Age: 20 |
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