Collarspace.com

Horizontal Line
Vertical Line
Horizontal Line

Horizontal Line

Friends:

Horizontal Line

Vertical Line

i am an educated male sub, recently retired, unattached with some previous slave training. i am grateful for any contact with the Superior Sex and to serve wherever and however i can.i am particularly suited to a Lady who wishes to be worshipped as a Goddess, with all the sacrament and ritual that entails.

i have 6 months experience with semi-professional Korean-American Mistress. i was a member of the Temple for more than 2 years. i have also corresponded with other Mistresses, who generally regard me as polite, helpful,respectful and willing to suffer for Mistress as and when required. i am honest and friendly with a keen sense of humour. Physically, i am of slim build and fairly smart, if geeky appearance. ihave studied philosophy to postgraduate level and i enjoy the Arts, particularly music.

paul

Horizontal Line

5/29/2016 10:41:59 AM
Madam is well. She replied to my e-mail saying she was fine and simply changed her mind about coming to the UK in May. She did not inform me because She had no need to do so. She said she may or may not tell me if She decides to come in June or at any other time. I will just have to wait on Her pleasure.

I thanked Her profusely and told Her how glad I was that nothing had happened to Her. She permitted me to be glad about that but told me that I must quickly make amends for my poor service to my current Owner.


5/29/2016 12:37:54 AM
It's nearly the end of May and I haven't heard from Mrs G at all. I'm so worried about Her. Madam sent me home today because I couldn't focus. I'll pay for that but I can't help it. Sometimes you just have to take punishment.


4/18/2016 1:59:22 AM
Ms AG is coming back to the UK in May for a break and wants to see me! It will be the first time i have seen Her since Her marriage.

She hasn't said exactly when She is coming so I have told my boss I will need leave some time in May but i don't know when. I e-mailed Ms AG to ask Her but i've no idea if or when She will reply. i suspect She would prefer to keep me in suspense and then just call me out of the blue - probably in June!

She may have released me but in a way i will always be enslaved to Her.

12/12/2015 10:58:23 AM
Mistress V, Her husband and Mistress B are all going abroad for the Christmas holidays, so i will be spending my first season for some years not in service. Perhaps I should enjoy the break but already i am feeling lost. The thought of not being controlled by a Woman for even 2 weeks is very scary to me.

Perhaps i need Mother Christmas to show up on Christmas morning with a whip and some snowy boots to be licked clean!


8/1/2015 7:01:40 AM

I have been working as a domestic servant in Mistress V’s household for 3 weeks now and I must say it has been far more challenging than I had imagined. Having been serving Ms AG for 13 years, I thought I would be able to do a good job for Mistress V from the outset, but every Mistress is different and what is right for one is absolutely wrong for another!

I so want everything to be perfect for Mistress, but at the moment I can’t seem to do anything right and I feel that I am really trying Her patience. In fact, She has told me that unless I buck my ideas up soon, She will throw me out and never take me back.

Consequently, I am on edge the whole time I am serving Her and that just makes me peform even more ineptly. I literally shake when She inspects my work and feel sick with worry. Even now, away from Her, my stomach is churning and my nerves are shredded.

Moreover, I have to satisfy not only one Mistress now, but two – the other being Mistress B, Mistress V’s lover. She is just as exacting as Mistress V and equally hard to anticipate. What works for Mistress V will not necessarily work for Her and I really need to learn fast all of their separate ways.

Still the pressure is good in making me focus completely on their needs and try my very best to please. The other day, Mistress B permitted me to tongue-clean Her Doctor Marten boots and I really gave it everything I had, falling upon them and licking them as if my life depended on it. I couldn’t see Her face but I like to think it made Her smile at least a little bit.

1/10 slave – must try much, much harder!


6/28/2015 1:19:03 AM

It’s done. Madam is married and on Her honeymoon. i am back in the UK, released from Her service. For the first time in 13 years, i am not under Female Authority. i am no longer a slave.

Within a week, i will be doing household chores for another former Mistress, but now my time is my own and i am absolutely lost.

The wedding went off well enough. Madam looked divine, of course, and Her lucky husband was very dapper. i was charged with looking after two of Her female friends, so I did not get to see much of Madam while in the US. She had instructed me to give them  my full attention.

The only time She acknowledged my existence on Her wedding day was when She spoke to them at the reception and said She hoped i was looking after them both satisfactorily. She did not look at me.

I did not know it at the time, but the last intimate moment between Us/us was when She dismissed me the first night We/we arrived. I knelt and kissed Her feet as usual and thanked Her for letting me be of service. She said nothing.

I wish now I had kissed Her feet more and harder. Kissed them with real fervour. In future, when I kiss a Woman's feet, it will always be as if it was for the last time. 


5/30/2015 3:11:00 AM
Just two weeks now before A flies to the US to wed and two weeks to my release from Her service. i am very pleased to say that my former Mistress has given me a trial period as one of Her domestic slaves in Her poly household. That will be very different and challenging but at least i will remain under Female direction.

Ms G keeps teasing me with comments such as "How long is it before I get rid of You?" and "Why would I miss a useless bastard like you?". They sting, but i try my best to respond with profuse thanks for Her letting me serve Her.

As i did not have to work last Monday because of the Bank holiday, Ms G decided to keep me awake all night, kneeling naked outside Her bedroom door while She slept. She instructed me to  write Her poems of adoration and kindly let me have a pair of Her shoes to worship and while i wrote.

It was not a surprise when i presented them to Her over breakfast and She tore them into little pieces virtually unread, stuffing them into my mouth to take to the bin. She has done this several times before. Nevertheless, it remains quite soul-destroying. And yet it makes me love Her more. Only to lose Her in a fortnight.

12/28/2014 3:18:36 AM
Practically my whole body this morning giving me painful reminders of yesterday's service. Flogged and strapped in the afternoon after a dog jumped up at Mrs G, then ordered to spend the rest of the day on my knees (bringing on my housemaid's knee, a regularly recurring problem and occupational hazard) and finally spending two and a half hours licking Mrs G's divine feet and toes while She watched a film (which means this morning I am finding it difficult to control my jaw, which She is finding very amusing).

i am so grateful to Her for giving me these pains to remind me of Her.

12/27/2014 5:31:30 AM
A big, public thank You to Mrs G for allowing me to ejaculate yesterday evening for the first time since 29 October 2014. Why yesterday evening? Because Mrs G needs it to be clear that Her decision related purely to Her whim and not any external factors such as the Christmas holidays. She feels it is important that there is no time of the year at which i feel i can expect release, including what used to be my birthday.

W/we don't celebrate my birthday anymore now in any case. Only Hers. i think that is right. it emphasises that She is the one that counts in Our/our relationship. I exist to serve Her, at least until She marries and i am released.

i feel a strange emptiness now. i find release curiously anti-climactic. You think your balls will explode but in fact it is just a quick spurt of two and it is done. As time goes on i find i need it less. it is better _ i am better - when i am frustrated and able to focus more on service.

paul

10/9/2014 12:52:43 PM

Girl on the Metropolitan line, Wednesday morning, 8th October 2014

She was in her early twenties; white with long, dark hair. The train was fairly empty as we had left Central London and we were on our way to Wembley. It had been raining and her shoes must have got wet. She had taken them off and placed them on the floor on top of a page of the Metro. Then she had placed her damp, bare feet on another couple of pages. She was wearing a short dress and her bare legs were long and slim, though not skinny; quite powerful in fact.

She wore glasses which she later took off to reveal exceptionally long lashes; probably false, admittedly. The discarded remains of the Metro were scattered on the opposite seat. Her feet were shapely, her toenails darkly painted – black or navy blue - except for the big toes. The nails of her big toes were painted silver, possibly with speckles. She was relaxed, oblivious to company. I tried in vain not to stare.

She idly brushed her hair and swigged an energy drink. I wondered if she was hungover. When she finished, she poured the dregs onto a page of the Metro on the opposite seat. A gratuitous and thrillingly anti-social act. She tore off another page and scrunched it up into a ball to wipe the inside of her off-white pumps with; then tossed it on the floor.

She tore off another two to replace the pages under her damp soles, placing the old ones on the opposite seat. As she moved her feet I glimpsed the soles. I expected newsprint but there was none. She crossed her legs and let her bare foot dangle. I pretended to read the paper, constantly peering over and to the side. I wondered if she noticed me looking. Part of me wanted her to. Part of me wanted her to enjoy it.

The tension was unbearable.  I both prayed for Wembley and hoped it would never come.

It came. I left her on the train. At the top of the stairs, I caught one last glimpse of her bare foot.  The toes were obscured. She was gone.

 


8/10/2014 2:43:41 AM
Having recently taken severe measures to impress on me that i belong to Her, Mrs AG has now confirmed that She will be moving to the States permanently in the New Year and letting me go. i made the error of suggesting that there was some irony there, but She corrected me. As She owns me, She can do what She wants with me, including get rid of me.

She was unmoved by my tears and rightly so. it is ridiculous for me to complain that She is being cruel and i should be happy for Her rather than feeling sorry for myself.  It just goes to show that even now i still haven't learned the right mindset.

i must do better. i must forget myself and fully focus on Her wishes and Her future happiness. Compared to Her, i don't matter.

i should apologise for my selfish behaviour.

6/22/2014 1:41:32 AM
i have betrayed my Mistress by messaging a young Domme without permission. i couldn't resist the urge to express my desire to submit to Her. 

i have been disobedient. i am disgusted with myself. i will confess to Mistress and i hope She punishes me severely. i am scared of what She will do but i welcome it.

paul

 

5/17/2014 1:28:53 AM

As it was such a nice day yesterday, Mrs G decided We/we would play outside. That meant me crawling after Her onto the lawn in bra, knickers and tights borrowed scretly from my Mother.The garden cannot be seen from the road, but had either of the next door neighbours looked out of an upper floor window, they would have had a perfect view.

 

Mrs G walked me to heel for a few minutes, then over to the flowerbed where She slipped Her foot out of Her sandal and dug Her delightful toes into the soil. i had to crawl forward and place my head beneath Her foot, so I could clean Her toes with my tongue. i won’t deny that i was aroused by this, sucking the dirt off her long brown toes and licking between them. Eyes closed, i was transported to a realm of Femdom ecstasy and my penis tent-poled in my granny pants.

 

My reverie was broken by Madam greeting Her neighbour, Mrs. S. over the fence. My heart raced and i paused a moment in surprise. Madam gestured to me with Her foot to get on with my cleaning job while She talked. Realising that Mrs S couldn’t see me in my prone position, i continued happily, even enjoying the risk of detection (though being very quiet to avoid actually making my presence known). Soon i was back in my Femdom dreamworld, but my dream was broken again when Madam spat down at me “No, the sole!”

 

 i started at the thought that She was drawing attention to me and my heart began pumping in panic once more. Perhaps the neighbour had gone, i wondered, but I was soon disabused of that consoling notion when I heard Mrs S distinctly saying: “I’m sorry? What was that?” She is a little deaf.

 

“Oh, nothing”, replied Mistress, kicking me sharply in the head as I looked up at Her with panicked, pleading eyes. “I thought there was someone over there with you for a moment”, laughed Mrs S., so close to the truth it sent an electrical charge through my body.

 

“No, no,” said Mistress, “There’s nobody here”. Then teasingly adding, “Except a worm”.

 

Mrs G. placed Her foot heavily on the side of my head and i let Her press my face deep into the soil.


5/10/2014 5:31:08 AM
Mrs. A.G. often treats me openly as Her servant and subject me to some mild humiliation. She particularly enjoys doing so in front of two of Her female friends, both of whom She used to supervise in Her previous employment. One was a little reserved and quite uncomfortable with this at first, but seems to have warmed to it lately.Yesterday afternoon, however, Mrs. A.G. ratcheted up the humiliation levels quite considerably. After telling them how i would I do anything for Her, She then initiated a game of “fetch” which involved Her throwing Her slipper across the room and me crawling over the carpet to retrieve it with my mouth and bring it back to Her on my hands and knees. The two friends were quite shocked at first , especially the more reserved Lady, but soon they were both laughing and clapping with amusement. The bolder Lady even joined in the fun by throwing Her flip-flop for me to retrieve. The last time I returned Mrs. A.G Her slipper, She had me kiss Her delightful bare foot, which I did with such obvious devotion that the other Ladies let out an “Aah!” sound. “Ah, he really adores You, doesn’t he?” said the bolder Lady to Mrs A.G. “Of course!” She replied, “Quite right too.”“And do You love him too?” asked the more reserved Lady.“Good god no,” said Mistress, “he’s just a drudge and a plaything”.“Aren’t you, boy?” She asked me, lifting my head slightly with Her toes on my chin so I looked Her in the eyes.“Yes, Mrs G”, I replied in a broken whisper.Mrs G, laughing contemptuously in my face, pushed me away with Her foot and told me to get out and put the kettle on.

4/23/2014 6:28:57 AM

Begged Mrs AG to give me an indication when She intended to release me. Received three hard face slaps in return, leaving my ears ringing like a cartoon cat.

 

"You don't inform the rubbish when it is going to be disposed of," She announced. All this in Sainsbury's car park.

 

My fault. It was a stupid time to raise it. i apologised for raising it.

 

Evidently i was forgiven by the time We/we got home as i was permitted to clean the soles of Her shoes with my unworthy tongue (albeit She had me remove them from Her divine feet first).

 

 


4/10/2014 1:59:42 AM

Still with Mistress at the moment. She is aware of how it will break my heart to leave Her service and enjoying torturing me with it.

 

Whenever i do anything wrong, She'll say that it's just as well She's getting rid of me and maybe She should do it sooner.

 

Sometimes She will say things that She knows will hurt me to try to make my cry, then when i do She will berate me further. She says i know i love Her treating me this way and has me kiss Her feet and thank Her profusely through my tears.

 

i don't know if i love Her treating me this way or despite it. Still She draws me to Her whatever the consequences. 


4/1/2014 5:06:57 AM

Mistress has found a new potential husband and is talking about discharging me. It will be devastating to be parted from Her given how my life revolves around Her. i wonder what will become of me?

 

Nevertheless, this is Her Will and i am pleased for Her. i will have many amazing memories of Her and who knows? Perhaps another Lady will consider me a worthwhile possession. .

 

 

 

 


1/1/2014 2:49:17 AM

Saw in the New Year in one of Madam's old dresses, biting on an old slipper She had put in my mouth while She took me with Her favourite dildo. Perfect.


12/29/2013 1:53:45 AM
  • My resolution for 2014 is to give minimal consideration to my own needs and desires and focus more intensely on those of Ms(s) AG. i will become just the instrument of Her will.
  • my suggestion to other males is to try to serve all the Females in Your life in whatever ways You can and that will please them.
  • Loners may resolve to visit Pro-Doms for slave training. Try to ensure that you lick a Woman's boots at least once a month!
  • Happy New Year and Bless You, Ms(s) AG, my Goddess and Owner.

10/13/2013 7:05:10 AM

i am currently the collared slave of Ms(s) AG,

 

i am a virgin with a small penis and in chastity indefinitely to curb my constant self-abuse. 

 

i am not and will never be, Ms(s) AG's partner or boyfriend.

 

i am merely Her servant and whipping-boy.

 

i exist only to please Her and my main quality is obedience.

 

i am a pervert who loves to worship Ladies' feet and bottoms and craves humiliation and degradation.

 

i am permitted to communicate with other Female site-users but only if They initiate contact or Ms(s) AG grants me permission to initiate it.

 

i am not permitted to communicate with male site-users. 

 

i am not permitted to serve any other Ladies without Ms(s) AG's permission and may be punished for any inappropriate contact, even if initiated by a Lady.

 

paul, hereafter known as slave turd.

 

 

 

 

 

 


7/14/2013 1:52:59 PM

Please note that i am not interested in financial domination.


Vertical Line

Horizontal Line
Horizontal Line
lildragong
 
 Age: 27
 Uk, United Kingdom