UberSadistNYC

There have been times, while undergoing self reflection, that I have wondered if I wasn't actually a masochist or at least a switch.  Now this had nothing to do with sexual orientation, and everything to do with my baseball orientation.  Sometimes it seems that every Mets fan must have a touch of masochism.  But not today.  But not today. Way to go Omar! Johan Santanna! Mets Rule!

I was just reading over my profile and thought it sounded cold. While I still believe everything that I had wriiten there it was defintely an incomplete portrayal of me because I am by nature a warm person. Those that know me personally would mostly describe me as a really nice guy. Those that know me really well, would describe me as a cuddly sadistic teddy bear. So I have just tweaked my profile.

Master/slave Relationships I had a chat discussion with a young submissive that was asking me about what it is like to live a Master/slave lifestyle. Later I looked back on that conversation and thought it could be edited into am interesting journal entry, as it does a good job of explaining my beliefs about Master/slave relationships. It has been edited for clarity and (more importantly) to make me seem more articulate. Have you ever owned a 24/7 slave? What is a day like for girls that do that? I have and the days are very similar to anyone else’s day. Real life interferes. But what is different is the interaction when you are alone. There are the outward protocols. There is providing service (and not just sexual). But what is really important in that type of .relationship is the trust The feeling of safety you have knowing that you belong to someone that cares about you. That you can give yourself totally and open yourself completely without fear of ridicule or rejection. Slavery has nothing to do with ropes, whips, or chains. All that can be fun. But you don't own a person by tying them up or putting them in a cage. By punishing them or threatening them with pain. You own them by getting inside their head, learning about them and finally, knowing them better then they know themselves. You own them, when deliberate disobedience becomes unthinkable for them. It is sometimes called internal enslavement My # 1 rule is to always be honest with me. If you don't want to tell me something, say so. But don't lie. A slave has no right to privacy. Not just in a physical sense, but emotionally and mentally as well. You have no right to keep your private thoughts private So would I have to tell you everything about me? Yes. Not right now. Not all at once. But over time as we moved toward a Master/slave relationship, I would learn more about you. The important thing is that whatever you tell me doesn't change how I feel about you. You have no need to feel embarrassed in front of your Master. I do not judge. If I own you, I own all of you. The good, the bad, and the ugly What if there was something I absolutely refused to tell you, but you wanted to know? If you refused, it would depend on where we were in our relationship. Right now you have every right to refuse. However, if you had committed to me, and had accepted my collar, then you would have no right to refuse. I might still give you time. I understand some things can be extremely difficult and a little time can go along way. Eventually though you would tell me. You really know what you're doing. I have been accused of mind reading a time or two in the past. Here is what I think you are thinking. What I described above is not what you thought about when you thought about slavery. But it makes perfect sense, it sounds so right, now that you have heard it. And you are a little intimidated by my experience, by my somewhat extreme tastes, and by how much I would expect. Wow you really know how to get inside someone's head and know what they're thinking jeez you'd be able to read me like a book typed in big print lol I do try :-) You want that though, don't you? A man that takes the time to know everything about you, who can control you. And here you thought I was just all about the kinky sex :-) Yea. I feel so....readable now One of your obligations as my slave would be to be as much of an open book as you could be, to cooperate in your own enslavement Well if you could read my thoughts that well from just talking on here there would be no way I could hide anything in person. I hope not. But it is not just counting on me to read you. It is you revealing yourself. That's the hard part. It is much more revealing then any strip tease or nude photo. It is laying your soul bare. If it was easy anyone could do it. Being a slave does not mean you are weak. Being a slave requires real strength. To submit when you really don't want to is hard. To open up about your innermost secrets is hard. A slave that can do that is a person to be respected. Being a slave is just hard, isn't it? Not JUST hard. There are rewards too. The feeling of safety. The lifting of the responsibility to make choices. Any good Master will solicit his slave's input, but the final decision, and the pressure are his.