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Currently am collared to the most wonderful man, Nushi. He's my soulmate and this is the last collar I ever plan on taking. On October 14, 2007 Master locked the last collar i will ever accept around my neck. 
Currently, there are openings in our home for a bi-fem-slave/sub. she must be willing to serve at least Master. She must understand and accept that her place in the family will always be as a second girl. I am alpha and that is the way Master wishes it. As His alpha, i will be assisting Master with her training in regards to the way our household runs, and many of the little secrets to making His life easy and keeping Him happy. We are both firm believers in fairness, loving discipline, and fun. At this time, we prefer someone that does not have small children as responsibility, at least if she is interested in moving in with us. We live as Master/slave at all times, and it is not a place where children would fit in. That doesn't mean we don't like children, just means that we respect children, after all they are our future. It means that they deserve to be respected and allowed to live in an atmosphere of respect. Master prefers to have his girls nude at all times, and that is not something that can be done with children in the household. It doesn't matter where you live, we're open to assisting with relocation if things work out. Prefer age between 30-50, other than that we're open to meeting all kinds of women. Personality is what will win us over. If you wish to talk to either of us, you may contact me here or Master (who is on CM as Nushi)
And yes, the butterflies have very special significance. If you don't know, ask.
UNKNOWN DOMINANT MEN WILL BE DELETED UNREAD!!!!!!!!
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Can't believe how long it has been since i've posted here. So much has happened. We are actively looking for another girl to add to the family, and Master has given me permission to find a sub/slave boy of my own. So am starting the earnest search for one. Eventually we hope to have all family members living in house with us, since we are seeing the light at the end of the tunnel in regards to adult children living at home. :)
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It's been a long time since i've written anything here, life has kept me busy. Am off of work right now with an injury, so am focusing on catching up on some reading, and my newest hobby, jewelry making. Am creating a special collar/necklace to donate to Southwest Leather Conference in Jan for the silent auction. Am also reconnecting with a very special lady in my life.
We're still on the lookout for additional family members, whether it be male or female. Not much luck, but that is ok. It will happen when it happens. In the meantime, Master and i love each other and my submission gets deeper each day.
Right now, i'm exhausted. The pain in the foot has kept me up all night. Now that the family is up getting ready for work, perhaps i can get some sleep.
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It's been awhile since i've written, life has been keeping me busy between work, home and being sick. Seems that from the moment i've moved in it's been one thing or another. i almost got the house completely done the way we want it and it's the holidays and the house is a mess again with Christmas decorations. On top of that, we find out that my 19 yr will be moving in with us to attend the Scottsdale Culinary Institute. Yippee....gonna have a Pastry and Bakery Chef in the family. She arrives in a week and a half and her room isn't even ready for her. Where will i find the time? It will happen, usually comes together at the last minute for me.
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It was with great honor that i accepted Sir's training collar last week. It was his birthday, yet i'm the one that got the gift. For the first time in my life, i've got someone in my life that my mother approves of. i know that shouldn't mean a whole lot, but it does. i want my mom to know that i'm happy and in a healthy relationship, and she sees that. She may not approve of the nature of the relationship, or what we do, but she sees that i'm happy and that Master is good for me.
i move in with him in two weeks. i can't wait!!!! |
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Have a new job, more money, better benefits. YIPPEE!!!! The relationship with Sir is moving right along, things are great. We've managed to get over each hump that pops up with grace, talking things over completely. We spend lots of time talking about different things, i'm learning so much.
Spent a weekend at the APEX Academy - Butchmann's Traditions. Learned a lot about myself, and my slavery. It was an awesome experience.
A Dom that i knew wanted me to do something that went against all that i believed in. At first i was willing to go along with it, because i knew he could meet certain needs. But the more i thought about it, the more i realized that if i did this thing, then i wasn't being honorable. So, i went with my gut and refused. It cost me this person in my life, but i feel that i gained so much more. |
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Life seems to love to throw me lots of lemons, and no matter how fast i make lemonade, there's always more lemons. Am looking for a new job, haven't lost my old one yet, but might in the upcoming week. So, the resume goes out and the search begins. On a positive note, am under consideration for a collar by the Dom i've been seeing. We're taking things slow, not rushing the collar or the relationship. We enjoy doing things together that have nothing to do with the lifestyle, yet it's always there underlying what we do. What a new and incredible experience. Am making lots of new friends, changing some things in my life. |
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For the first time in my life i'm being treated like a lady by a male Dom. We went to dinner last night, and he has been a total gentleman. Most Dom's i speak with want me to strip and suck their cock on the first meeting, or they want to grope me right away trying to claim me as theirs. This man has yet to touch me anywhere that would be inappropriate for a public setting. A nice kiss goodnight in the parking garage then he put me in the car and made sure i got out of the garage safely. He even reminded me to set up a safe call, and gave me names to check references. i've decided that it's time for me to do things the right way, instead of the way i've done it in the past. So check references i do, speaking to many that know him. Safe calls in place for meetings, and no private play until we play publicly with someone i know and trust present. i look forward to seeing what the future holds. i also am speaking with several FemDom's that are interested in playing with me. Looks like i'm finally going to get to experience the needle play that i've been wanting.  |
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Went to APEX Friday night and met some really neat people. Starting to make new friends. Changing a few things in my life for the positive. Mending a fence here and there, and generally moving on with my life. Have an honest to goodness date this week. That is a new experience for me. |
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WEnt to APEX tonight for a very interesting topic, one on multifaceted families. The facilitator spoke to my heart, what she was saying was describing me. i don't feel so out there now. There's nothing wrong with being collared to one Dom (or in my case two) and serve others. Not one person can meet every single one of my needs, and it takes a strong person to admit that and be willign to let me go outside teh relationship to get the rest met. Perhaps one day i won't need to do that, but in the meantime, as long as i'm safe, and follow the rules put in place, my life is content. i've never been happier or more content in my life. |
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Tried an experiment this weekend, and it didn't go as well as i would hope, but i did learn something about myself during it. i'm no where near ready for a true 24/7 slavery lifestyle. While i thoroughly enjoyed the physical use, emotionally just not ready to make that committment. i thought that this is what would happen, but had to try it. i do have to say thank you to the One that allowed me the chance to submit for 24 hours. i will have good memories of our time together. But, it's best that i stay in my safe place and continue the exploration on my own. |
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I've now moved into a neutral place, a place where i can explore myself safely. No collars, no restrictions, no limitations except those i've placed on myself. Am doing some exploration into the dark side of myself, and enjoying the journey. The fantasy went very well, discovered that i really like some things, just needed to truly trust the one i was with to get past the fear of them. Finally got to experience a cutting, wow, what a feeling! Always did like knife play, this was the next logical step. But when i was told to bleed, i could feel the blood flow down my back. AWESOME! Can't wait to do it again. And got some really kewl pics of it. And to think it really didn't hurt, at least not this time. Perhaps because i was in the right head space, don't know. Will find out the next time. |
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Wasn't going to post a journal, but this has been an interesting week. I've stepped out on a limb with someone I trust, and shared a couple of fantasies. He made me realize that those fantasies will always stay a fantasy if they aren't shared with others. So, now it seems that one will be fulfilled later this week. This could mean big changes for me, and it's a bit scary. But, out on the limb I am, and going to go with the flow. Unfortunately, he can only fulfill the one, the other may never get lived out, but then again, who knows? |
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| Age: 24 |
| SOUTH CALI,
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