truecallings

im 41 years old , sometimes feel much older but inside i feel like im 20
im a submissive female whos husband role plays as my dom ,im looking for friendship mostly female (subs or dommes ) though i do enjoy chatting to domanant men im not looking for a r/l dom or a cyber buddy.
i often feel confused about my sub feelings unsure of why fate showed them too me or what she has planed but i also belive she had her reasons and one day they will become clear .
i just hope it will be before imn too old too enjoy the pleasure or pain