I happen to be a girl who enjoys sex only if forced. I am just not getting aroused by people trying to charm me with compliments and tender touches. What I love are men (or also women!) who approach me slapping my face before saying anything else, grap my tender parts savegely, and then just use me for their satisfaction.
It is for me incredibly difficult to arrange meetings like this. I am still living with my parents, and they are more conservative than you can imagine. My father has founded a law firm, and to him it is clear that after high school graduation I will get a law degree, and take over the company one day. (I am an only child.)
But to say the truth, this is simply not who I am. It is really hard to say in how far my rather perverted sexuality developed out of protest against what my parents want me to be. Anyway it strikes me that I will hardly ever be that.
As I never found the strength to reveal this to my parents, I have to hide who I am, what I think and what I do. It is not easy for me to arrange meetings that way. Obviously nothing can happen at my place. Meeting in the home of strangers would be too dangerous. Very fortunately I have a very good and close friend who has her own place, and allowed me to meet people there. So some meetings have actually taken place by now.
Hell! This is what I want to do! I know it is bad. But it just seems that I happen to be as bad as that, and there is no way of getting this out of my mind.
I want to get out of this situation which forces me to hide! I would like to find a master (or a mistress or a couple!!) who can take complete responsibility for me, accept me as a live-in slave, offer me a new home, and then train me to become a sexual servant, serving in complete submission.
I do know what I am talking about! I have already had anal sex with men. I know that it is painful. But I want to learn, and I want to be trained, and I want to expreience the full depravity!
Please only emails from responsible people who have the home and the ressources to enable a life like this!
