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TESTIMONIAL: My most recent slave/lover/friend, who is currently doing two college semesters in Europe (with my help), sent my a copy of a page from her own journal, of her time with me. It reads: "..... in one way another ..... i have always suffered ..... while the diiference now is ..... that i am no longer afraid ..... for currently i no longer have any fear left within me ..... and this in and of itself ..... as if liberates my heart and soul ..... to soar ..... even as if outside of my body ..... as i can and do now totally embrace my own suffereing ..... and it pleases me so ..... as it now does pleasure me so ..... for each and every scar ... each mark ..... each burn ..... each cut ..... each bruise ..... each welt ..... each scratch ..... each hole ..... each bite ..... each blister ..... all this makes me feel ..... as though i am actually embracing the soil of the earth ..... my own earth ..... and so thus that which is me ..... and my own true better and wonderous nature ..... in being my own intimate and personal natural self ..... for this has been and is still ..... my own true salvation ....."

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August 28 Wednesday 09:     Of some interest, a rather young lady (in her late twenties) just wrote to me, in saying, "big girls need daddys, too; god, i just want a daddy, please, i'm hurting so."     And, to me this is not only very poignant, as to a particular Dom/sub relationshiop, and demonstates the value that is provided, but such also shows the general difficulty and hardship and pain of everyday life, for basically everyone, sadly, in and of itself.     In essence, to me, no matter what one's sex, looks, abilitiy, health, or even economic status, "life is very difficult."      And, so, in effect, "it's so very very hard!"