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I am currently seeking a local Dom for the purposes of obedience re-training. Sex is not necessarily part of a session with me but is possible. I will require to be able to use a safe word at all times. During the first several sessions a safe caller WILL be required- i will not session with you without safecaller information. I will not session with you without meeting you prior to the session in a non BDSM atmosphere. All applicants to re-training me must send to me a list of credentials (time in the community, number of slaves owned, reasons slaves were released, as well as a kink list) in their initial message. I will not consider any applicant without a picture. I will not consider any applicant whose face is covered by a mask in their picture. These things are for my safety and to ensure that i do not waste my time. I may be a slave, but i'm a slave that has self worth. Dominants outside of a 20 mile radius of the Tri Cities need not apply for this particular training.

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10/4/2010 6:47:30 AM
A quick guide to the relevant (for me [androgynous people aren't on the list because their problems aren't mine.]) parts of the transgendered community. First lets break down what i am. I am transgendered. This is a supertype. It encompasses all gender variant people. Gender variant means someone who has done anything from having strong re-occuring thoughts about dressing in clothes normally associated with the sex opposite their birth all the way through to someone who has completed sex-reassignment-surgery. Next, in my profile i make it very clear i am a transsexual. Ok what does this mean? Transsexual is a term (type) for transgendered people who are either planning on having SRS (sex-reassignment-surgery) or have already had SRS. Now for pre-op. Pre-op is an adjective attached to transsexual before the noun to indicate that the person has not had SRS yet but plans to. Therefore the person has the genetalia (as far as 'down there') of their birth sex but this absolutely does not describe their gender. Sex and gender are two different things. Often they are used interchangeably but they really aren't interchangeable words at all. Sex refers to the current gentialia configuration at its dirtiest. At its best it refers to what you want to do on a fun saturday night over a glass of wine. Many transpeople put down 'transwoman' (for tgirls) or 'transman' (for tguys) for sex because its honestly very painful to write down what society just wishes we'd write. By law (unfortunately) sex cannot be changed on a birth certificate until proof of SRS is obtained. Even more unfortunately, some states disallow the birth certificate from being changed all together (Tennessee being one of those states). I digress. Gender, on the other hand, is entirely different. While 'sex' refers to the physical genitalia, gender is the sex of the mind. So, in my case, my gender is 100% female and it always has been. Now that you know what i am, what am i not and what's an explanation of each so you have an idea of things that don't apply to me but might if you didn't know about tgirls? What is a crossdresser? Simply put and in the terminology of this entry it is someone who wears clothes not normally associated with their gender. This can range from people who like to dress in NNAC (not normally associated clothes) because of comfort, style, job security etc. Hetero and gay men can be crossdressers. The same applies to women. You also count as a crossdresser if you are someone who feels their gender is opposite their sex but still wears the clothes of their sex-assigned-at-birth. I'm not explaining this part any further as the complexity of it would take pages to complete. Transvestites are different than crossdressers in a major way. In the rocky horror picture show Tim Curry's Dr Franke-n-furter claims to be a transexual transvestite from transylvania. You might ask yourself "well what makes him a transvestite". Transvestites are just like crossdressers except that they wear NNAC for sexual pleasure/gratification. Clearly, Frank-n-furter /did/. Drag queens are a third group. Now i'm sorry to those talented stage performers who read this and are offended by my use of DQ since i know that some /are/ offended by that word usage. Its simply what people are used to. If you have another term for me to use that isn't inflamatory and is short and equally descriptive i'll change out all uses of DQ for that term if i find it acceptable. Now DQs are any type of transgendered person. They can be anything from Crossdresser to post-op transsexual. The thing that gives them the DQ identifier is that in addition to whatever other reasons, DQs typically dress as a parody of the sex they are emulating as a performance art. Many of these artists are transsexuals themselves and are highly skilled at their arts. Also, transsexual can refer to someone that has had SRS either on a whim without any gender variance (which never happens due to the hellaciuos time it takes to even get the letters of approval for SRS) or someone who has had SRS and has later decided to live in their sex role as assigned at birth. These people still count as transsexual because they have in fact had SRS. This gives you a good idea of what i am and what i'm not. I am a pre-op transsexual that lives 24/7 and is on hormones. I've been on hormones and lived 24/7 for more than two years. What am i not? A crossdresser, transvestite, DQ etc. Now you know! About me: I like turtles.

10/4/2010 6:09:26 AM
So i'm becoming more and more disenchanted with the people on here. 42 pages of messages in a few months and only a few that were worth replying to. I've noticed more and more as the days go by that while i read the messages i rarely reply simply because no one pops or a(n) (insert explicative) messages me and is way not worth my time to deal with. Yes i'm staying on the site and no i haven't lost interest, its just the overall quality of people here is somewhat lacking. More and more i find myself unable to consider someone outside of a few hours' driving distance not because i want to stay here, but because of trust. So my profile is short and to the point. Its very clear what i am. I am a 25 year old pre-op transsexual that has been on hormones for over 2 years and lived fulltime almost as long. "Ok," you say, "awesome, good for you!" Here's where the problem comes in. I have a very large number of people that message me with "Make you into a real woman" "you'll live as a woman" etc etc etc. First of all i /am/ and have lived 'as' a woman for a while now. I'm already very successful in living life as i should have from the day i was born. Please please please don't message me with something that assumes i have no ability to make my dreams a reality because my dreams already are. What looking for is that person who i think is worthy to own me, and its not going to be the first random who messages me in the morning. The thing that gets me the most is that i get messages like 'you will live fulltime' and other messages with similar sentiment. These people tend to end up on the 'not replied to' list because they haven't read my profile and if they have then they have a 1st grade literacy capability. Now that being said, i'm easy to get along with but just don't like dealing with people that don't understand transsexuality at all- if you don't already know all about tgirls why would i want to spend my time talking to you? Its a waste of my valuable time that i could be playing parcheesie. Today's thing about me: I'm thinking about going blonde.

8/31/2010 6:51:01 AM
So today i no longer can claim to be a redhead! I'm dying my hair again. Ok so its been about six months since i've dyed my hair at all and then it was red with black tips. Times are a changin' for me though and its back to brown- but not the sandy blonde that is my natural color. No! I'm going dark brown with highlights. Its gonna look absolutely fabulous and i know you'll all love it whenever i get around to putting up new pics of myself (sorry to all those that have requested to see more of me and i just haven't been able to find the time to upload a bunch of stuff). The process is going well. Just finished the dark brown and now my hair is a messy rats nest of damp dark brown hair falling down over my face like rain going down a window pane. Go team. So last night was fun, went over to my bf's place and enjoyed some time with him. Tonight though, i want to spend time with my other boyfriend which i live with (yes i'm poly, yes they know, yes they're friends, yes they drink beer together... yes they bitch about work because they do basically the same thing). Otherwise, life is grand- i'm really happy and was just paid for month before last's cam work. yay again. Now for today's "about me". Today's subject- kinky gear and what i like. Here is a list of my favorite kinky gear to be used on me during a session: Cane, Flogger, Hand, Fuzzy handcuffs, Leather wrist and ankle restraints, a collar, a leash, ice cubes, 4 point bondage with said wrist and ankle restraints, scarves (breathplay enthusiast), the wonderful snakebite kit, and a few other little odds and ends. Oh yea, a nice wonderful vibrator that just drives me crazy- love that. Well that's today's entry. Hope to hear from you soon and have fun in your search. -Love amber

8/30/2010 9:16:25 AM
So its Monday. My gf and i are going into the day camming and won't be stopping till the sunlight runs out. Gonna be a fun day of making a lot of money! This weekend was a partying blur. Loved it. I spent time with my three lovers and made some wonderful dinners that were fun to make. This week is all about making money for me though. I want to make about three hundred dollars per day and i think i can do it really easily working about 5-6 hours each day- fun times! So, i've started back into doing daily hard BDSM. I've been out of practice for a large part other than play but i'm tired of STILL looking for a Dominant that can truely own me. I'm so exhausted. Its been two years and i haven't found the perfect Owner. I'm terrified i'm going to give up looking. Since things here at home are pretty good my gf/Mistress and i are stepping up our BDSM stuff. Last night she tortured me for an hour with tickle torture and other forms of torture. It was quite enjoyable since i just like being put in my place. I know that's a lame-ass sentence but its the truth. In a world where most Dominants are would-be's or have-beens you get it where and when you can. I just find it difficult to move half the country away to be with someone i *may* have met once after flying out to see them. Ya right... Its just sad that it seems that all the true Masters and Mistresses are online-the really hard core ones like what i'm looking for. So, well, today's about me. I've talked about a large range of topics in the past and honestly i don't remember everything i've talked about so i'll try to put something new up. Well first of all, as you can guess from earlier in this diary entry, i'm a cam girl. No, i'm not going to advertise here and tell you where you can find me. But now you know how i make a living. For all those who ask if i work- YES. Here's a confession for you all too- even though i hate the cold so so much- i'm actually looking forward to winter this year. -Love amber

8/23/2010 11:52:22 AM
So, its been a little bit since i posted a journal entry- time to start again. Life over the last few weeks has been relaxing but stressful. I freak out about certain things and had a lot of stress from those things the last couple of weeks. The storm clouds seem to be going away though and i see friendly skies coming my way. So i've been doing some cam work the last couple of weeks- not exactly as much as i would like but the stuff is completely physically and emotionally draining. Oh well. Life with my lovers is going exceptionally well. I love them all very much and we form a very close and functional poly family. Now for something about me. I love wearing kamis. They're one of the most comfortable tops that exist and they're really comfortable during the summer. I'm gonna hate not being able to wear them during the winter. Something else about me? I just love crab.

7/28/2010 12:32:40 PM
So, i'm filtering out anyone from any country other than the US that messages me. I've not considered anyone outside the US but often i respond- i'm not doing that anymore. I'm not dealing with people that want to get with me but can't speak english- its not cool. The language barrier is incredibly restrictive and one might wonder why people from say egypt or france would message a girl in the US wanting to own her. I've had so many men- especially from arabic states- message me trying to get with me its unreal and i'm not dealing with it anymore. There's only so much ludeness one can take. Also, i'm posting this now for anyone that is really interested in me to read. If you demand that i call you Sir, Mistress, Master, or any other honorific before i meet you in person, then i will end contact with you completely and immediately. This also includes capping. If you have the need for me to type 'You' as opposed to 'you' or U/us instead of us then you mark yourself out to me to be an online Dominant. Those that have real life experience tend to look very unfavorably about such conduct since it flags the person making such demands as an online Dom since they actually care about things like that online. I have only met one online in the last six months that i have extended this courtesy to and i have met him. So, in summation, don't act like a jackass when you message me and you'll get more respect out of me than all the capping and Sirs could ever produce.

7/17/2010 4:57:01 AM
So, i haven't made a diary entry in a little bit and i probably should have. Things have been in a state of limbo for me for the last week. I'm waiting on a certain thing to happen (that i'm not going to post here) and that should take about a week if everything goes off /perfectly/. I got to see harrison the other day (he's been working a LOT) and that was really nice. We also got a shipment of tblocker and estrogen in so i'm very happy about that. Today's About me: Well i got a message today that basically said that my profile didn't give a good idea of my drive toward BDSM so here goes. About three years ago someone close to me gave me her copy of the story of o. I read through it about six months later and my life changed. I knew at that exact moment that i wanted to be 'o' and i had to attain that goal somehow. That being said i think that the story of 'o' relates a close to accurate depiction of how i would like my own slavery to be. I've had many Doms in the past but none of them really were exactly what i was looking for :(. A few of the things i like about BDSM is the ritual and the order. I like for there to be a clear hierarchy in the household. I very much so like for my Dominant (Master/Mistress) to have the final say in all things- that's why i only date people who are Dominant over me. Yes, its a requirement at this point. What i'm truely intersted in (actually only interested in) is 24/7 TPE. Anything that falls short of that is just baby-town frollics and i have little interest because that's not actually /real/. If i'm tied down i want it to be real, if i'm whipped for disobeying or displeasing i want it to be real. So if i like everything to be real why would i want anything less than 24/7 TPE. From this you can probably guess i have absolutely no interest in internet relationships (other than just friends). I've delt with that before and there is absolutely no point so i simply won't. I've only considered one Dominant on this website so far and that was only because we were within range to meet (which we did) and He has an excellent personality and W/we mesh well together. So, that being said, if you are looking for more than friends and you can't figure out a way to meet me under your own power within the first month of us talking please don't waste my time. So that's all for today, happy hunting :) Love -amber

7/9/2010 10:54:00 AM
Hi everyone. Today has been a little bleh. I woke up totally out of it- it felt like i was a little drunk- but that happens sometimes when i wake up after really deep sleep. It didn't wear off for a few hours and that made me :(. I was supposed to go garage selling with my father but that didn't work out as i was totally exhausted. We went to a couple of sales but nothing really good was present so i ended up coming home prematurely. Tonight's plans for the club are still on and i'm going to have great sex with my Harrison beforehand. Yay me! Now, today's about me... I've never really had to deal with death. Love -amber

7/8/2010 12:01:34 PM
Hello everyone! Today's diary entry is about spoo. So, last night we had an absolutely fabulous dinner. Bacon wrapped grilled chicken marinated in bbq sauce (big thick breasts) with cheese melted on top, salads, baked potatoes, and baked beans. It was amazing! Yizzien did most of the cooking and Adam did the grilling. This wonderful food gave us all the itis and we passed out after watching an episode of Deadwood. I slept for like 10 hours! So, my mom gave me a copy of "The Ethical Slut". I read the first few pages and knew this book was about me. From what i've read so far it appears to be a book telling people how to live a poly lifestyle, which i've done for quite a while with great success so far. Its just weird being given the ethical slut by your mother. She really doesn't approve of the fact that i'm poly but, that's her problem- not mine. Today i've worked more on my assignment and saw Adam off this morning. Its been a good day so far but i'm supposed to go to my dad's and spend the night so we can get up early in the morning to go to garage sales. Honestly i want to stay home this evening and see Adam but life's life. We'll see how things go. Today's 'thing about me'. I like almost all music that there is. I'm currently listening to Manson but he's not my fav (in the top 10-20 though). The only genre of music i truely hate is country. This is a type of music that is torture to me and i absolutely can't stand it. I like indie music- modest mouse is my fav indie band. Other favorite bands/groups/singers of mine are: Afroman, Beck, Gorillaz, ICP, Linkin' Park, mc chris, MC Hawking, Nickleback, Sean Paul, Tenacious D, Weird Al, Blink 182, Lady Gaga (My fav), Saving Jane, Katy Perry, Ozzy Osbourne, Natasha Bedingfield, Cindy Lauper, Black Eyed Peas, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Our Lady Peace, Rihanna, Miley Cyrus, Cage The Elephant, Selena Gomez, and Fergie. Well, talk to you all tomorrow! Love -amber

7/7/2010 10:53:53 AM
So here's today. Its absolutely beautiful outside and i'm all smiles. We had sod put down on our lawn yesterday and it looks gorgeous! Alright, today's 'something about me'. Well lets go into foods. I love foods of all ethnicities- i truely do. My favorites are Mexican and Chinese (italian is awesome too). Recently i've found that Indian food (from india) is really good as well- its a new flavor for me. I also love American style food. I love burger king (which in my opinion is the place to get the best hamburger in the world- the whopper with cheese add extra pickles) and they have my favorite french fries too. I'm a bit anal about sauces from fast food places though. I dislike having mcdonnalds ketchup with burger king and vice versa. Ketchup from a bottle does /not/ go with fast food- you cook with that- lol. Today has been a nice relaxing one. I've watched some TV, smoked a few cigarettes and spent some time on facebook. We're getting ready to clean the house up a bit because we have company coming over here in a little bit... Love -Amber

7/6/2010 11:57:50 AM
So this is my first diary entry here on collarme. i think the best way for me to do this diary is to put up a little something new about me each day in my journal and try to capture my thoughts and feelings with it as well. Hmmm... something about me. Well, i'm pansexual (except for FtMs, had a bad experience with one that i was in a relationship with for a year and that did not go well at all). i'm also poly at the moment but i'm doing that to find the right person for me and i've had great success here on collarme. Online i have trouble talking to people in chatrooms because as soon as i enter a chat room i am bombarded with so many sexual related messages its unreal, amazing, and annoying all at the same time. That being said i have worked through some of that difficulty and i'm glad i did! i've met an amazing Dominant on here that has really made me look forward to seeing Him online and i always look forward to O/our next get together. Last night, though, i was really asking for it with the sex comments. i logged into the video chatroom naked except for a little jewelry and instantly became the center of attention- go me. The upside to going in video chat on collarme was that there really weren't that many pathetic men in chat that were only looking for cybering- at least that's how it looked to me. i did get one pathetic red flag raising guy message me and demand i call him "Sir" but that just wasn't going to happen and i told him the conversation was over. Anyone who demands you call them by a title upon first meeting them is trouble and has instantly failed the 'Acid test'. Today i woke up not feeling so good (like yesterday morning) so i haven't been that productive. i guess this journal entry is the most productive thing i've done today- lol. Well, till tomorrow (hopefully) good luck, have fun, and happy hunting. Love -amber

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petitesoumise
 
 Age: 27
 Nottingham, United Kingdom