|
why have i been single for so long
is it because i have inner thoughts and morals and expectations for those that want me if you cant prove to me that im a priority then how can you expect me to make you one ive been through alot kidnapped rape abuse im a loving very open and sensitive submissive and i dont get why its so hard to find love here i know im not beautiful but i mean do i have to do this life alone forever it just seems like ill never be happy and ive even tried to change me and my wants to fit the person that is talking to me but how much of me can i give with nothing back before the waning faith i have falters |
|
|
|
|
I thought you understood me I guess not another one bites the dust... You did this not me I gave you all I had n it wasn't good enough when we met u accepted who I was now you wanna change me I don't think so I'm a good person I'm sorry I wasn't good enough for u... I'm done I see how u dispose of people right n left i couldn't let you hurt me or my child I wish you well but I'm done bye for good |
|
|
|
|
im trying to hold it all back the pain the heartbreak the brokenness that wont go away inside. behind my smile I hide. Tears burn in my eyes. As deep inside my soul cries out for love of some kind. please someone help me once again find the me that I left behind. The one that believed in the best. And fought every challenge and life test. Its dark in here I dont wanna stay. As every part of me slowly dies away. Im helpless to fight something no one comprehends. It continues to get harder n this war never ends. my mind never stops even as I sleep. My soul cries out form the deep.with the pain n anger n frustration n fear n doubt. I just wish I could figure it out. I want the old me back the one I know. Not the one whos lost and alone. |
|
|
|
|
Well im officially off my rocker this pain n torment is driving me crazy ive went to my dr over n over er n a surgeon nothing is helping I haven't ate in 2months idk where to go from here I just wanna be ok but I fear I never will be again |
|
|
|
|
Its like a wound so deep it takes my soul,Watching as he suffers n dies begging to go . I cry silently inside asking god why. Why him why now its not fair. But god isnt listening or he just don't care. Ok i say fine ill do what has to be done ill bear this anguish n try to be strong. But inside crushed n feel all alone. Reaching n searching for a bright side. Endure the submissive cries. You will become stronger you have to survive.. I pull my head up knowing its true. This is just another pain you have to go through. |
|
|
|
|
Im gonna make anyone that wants me.to prove it.my profile has been changed by too many fakes and wanna bes i want real if u cant give me that leave.me alone im lonely n depressed but i wont deal with disrespect |
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Is there no dom out there that can handle me i want your attention is that so bad i want your dare i say love and support. i wanna feel you with me always you power your being your presence i wont give up on you one day ill find u n we will journey though ds together |
|
|
|
|
Ive never felt so alone pathetic n unwanted in all my life im begining to lose hope all together... i just tired of playing the mind games over n over im not a bad person y cant i find someone.... |
|
|
|
|
gonna get a power nap for black friday shopping think this will be fun |
|
|
|
|
S Feeling like there is no hope once again i swear. Wish this pain would go away i dont like it. Its not me i like to be happy n try to be understanding but like im lost there is so much going wrong all at once but im trying to keep everything together and to not show my pain or my problems i dont know if anyone cares to read this but i feel like this is my only safe place to let my thoughts and feelings out i am being a full time mommy o my own of a highly smart yr old before her i didnt care if i lived or died but then i had her and she was my reason i finally found my reason for occupying space on this earth now im dealing with my father dying and its tearing me apart watching him suffer the thing killing me most is my baby dad being with a married woman and thowing me and his child away all because of my father we work at the same place dif shifts but he stared at me from my head to my toes n i didnt say a word why did he do that he has someone new im alone n doing what we should be doing together by myself n it kills me i have to bug him to c his daughter yet everything is my fault i dont understand anymore |
|
|
|
|
Just wanna curl up in a ball n cry til it all goes away.... why can't I I feel anything but just depressed sad weather its a good or bad day. Ir It never used to be this bad or strong |
|
|
|
|
Havent heard from anyone im locked outta of alwaysbrandy. I asked master last night where he seen us going and his answer has me dumbfounded stressed out with whats going on with my dad i just wanna cry ive been a submissive for many years now but never been owned or under consideration unless you consider my 5yrs with a selfish abuser where i lost myself no matter how bad he was to me i stayed it was just natural he used to say the one thing hed change is the fact i couldnt have kids well fate got me pregnant n i had my beautiful baby girl by myself she is my reason i love her more than words could express. Now with everything going on with my dad is killing me inside n i just really wish there was someone to hold me and help me through this difficult transition in my life and i just feel lost once again ......... |
|
|
|
|
Well here gose life fucking me over again every damn time i get up n do good this shit happens again why do i keep going god knows ive been hurt to the core of my being n im tired im so tired of people i love n trust hurting me n the worst way u can imagine when will the peices come together ive been broken for so long |
|
|
|
|
Im lonely n feel sad i just want a dom i mean im a single mother that works full time too there is just no time :( |
|
|
|
|
I had the baby im a proud single mother of a baby girl she is my reason n my hope all in one god has blessed me with her |
|
|
|
|
well so my story goes on o well want to let everyone on here know that i am single again and im also pregnant i am keeping my kid and just want to have friends and see what happens i am trying to discover myself yet again also i do not have a phone i dont just do hook ups im here looking for a connection |
|
|
|
|
Well this sucks being sick and confussed n stressed and angery all at the same time |
|
|
|
|
will not be on for a while taking a break from the search plus have less access to accounts due to not having a phone will be back take care all |
|
|
|
|
well i have been on this road for quite some time now and i must say that though i have searched and for a Dom/Master i am beginning to lose hope of ever finding one. I continue to hope that you are out there somewhere, and though days drag and nights are lonely a peace of still hopes. Is my hoping for not will i continue to be alone and never feel as if i belong. I have been hurt many times over and i am so tired of playing the mind games and the lies. If you are a lier or a fake please leave me the hell alone. I have no time for you bull period . For any other Master i know that i may not be as experienced as most and don't have any training, but my submissive heart is pure and true. I hope that i find you or you me, so i can finally know my place and feel complete and feel loved for once in my life and not so alone i want to understand and learn just waiting for you to show me the way and help me down the path to submission til then my heart will never be free for i can no longer deny this part of me |
|
|
|
|
How could I be so blind as to try and live without the submissive side I am fed up with having this hunger I. Wanna make it reality and I don't wanna be hurt in the process I give u my all you give me your all sorry not to offend any one |
|
|
|
|
update here for anyone that cares not meeting at this time willing to talk and be friends but am sick of the meets being bad or just being used if you want me you will allow me time to get to know you and get to know me not being a bitch just saying with all due respect |
|
|
|
|
Still no luck with my search and i am quite frankly sick of the people who use the word dom that just are not. I know your out here somewhere my one and only Sir and one day we shall find each other and be happy and i will finally be at peace where i belong then i can understand all that i am and was meant to be and show the love i have in a way that only you and i understand. i shall wait for now and though discouraged and frustrated i will never give up on you for you will be my heart and my happiness til i find you my dear one
|
|
|
|
|
okay still having no luck all i seem to be finding are fakes and users is it too much to ask to just be cared about and loved and treated decently i mean i know im a sub but this is ridiculous i mean are you out there my one my only Master i feel so lost and alone well thats all for now |
|
|
|
|
okay im gonna put something out there and see what i get i wanna feel and i want to feel safe while i feel. i want to be held and loved and cherished. i want to be praised and punished. I feel this emptiness inside me and i need something to fill it. I need that firm yet understanding man in my life. i dont wanna be used anymore i want my one the one who i can cuddle with at night and know it all will be alright |
|
|
|
|
well today is a depressing day :( darn it |
|
|
|
|
ready for bed be on later today have a good day |
|
|
|
|
just dont wanna b alone atm |
|
|
|
|
well all went well got all my stuff im so relieved and for those of u that wish to know he did try and keep me there again but i got out thank god also for all that sent the messages of encouragement i appreciate it very much xoxoxox peace for now |
|
|
|
|
plans for the day are go to the xs house get the rest of my belongings then go to the liquor store with the girls and then come home and hopefully get drunk and numb where nothing matters anymore. i just hope he don't cry and beg me to stay again idk if i am strong enouph to tell him no and walk away like i know i need to.my search is at least going slow but surely. its all a matter of patience and understanding. |
|
|
|
|
just sad n lonely tonight what to do |
|
|
|
|
just woke up still feel crappy though ehhhh....... |
|
|
|
|
very angry atm and ready to lose it |
|
|
|
|
got to go for now will be on later though |
|
|
|
|
time for this sub to pass out will be back later though |
|
|
|
|
getting a shower shall return |
|
|
|
|
there may be hope for me yet lol just bored |
|
|
|
|
|
