can someone kindly tell me if they can see my profile again?  thanks, steph

Miss all my friends!!  but going to be back in the lifestyle full throttle real soon, i have been recovering from some personal stuff, but rest assured i have not masturbated or orgasmed, go me!!!

I know I haven't updated much, or been on much, personal issues, but know I am still very much into what I am being transformed into slowly but surely..

yay!  valentines day!!  i'm gonna get some love! (translation- pain and suffering) from my mentor and domme tonight. can't wait :)

my profile has been updated. So proud to be serving Miss Allison as my mentor and Miss Pamela as my Domme! last weekend i was denied, spanked, had to endure face sitting, was fucked anally, and was used. it felt amazing to experience it in real life.

need to get my emotions together. major journal entry and profile re write coming...

FRUSTRATED BEYOND RECOGNITION......

past few days i have been so busy!!  but hope to ahem have some fun this weekend.  pussy has been good suprisngly!  doesn't mean i don't wanna cum though. i just sometimes think about my last orgasm and remember screaming in pleasure, being so wet.. miss it :(

omg.. so i got my sex last night!!!!  and more!!!    of course i wont go into full details lol but do you know how hard it is to fake 6 orgasms??? to make sure my bdsm secrets arent exposed?? it was hard as hell but i did it!!  hard as fuck my wet pussy just wanted to let go, but i didn't!!  six edges, omfg im sore and horny lol

waking up refreshed :)  had a wonderful conversation with my chastity sis (chastitysuballie)  and whew  was i denied hahaha!  in tears again!  love it :)

getting used to waking up wet though!

ahhhhhhh   guess who is wet again!!    edit  omfg my mentor and I have agreed on no cumming in February, and possibly march!! I am so excited!!!  to be taught more and be denied mercilessly. its what i need!!  i am throbbing in class right now!!

doing homework on this site looking at sexy girls...   distracting... maybe :))

mother nature leaves tomorrow :)

ahhh  mother nature your monthly visit!  F YOU   lol.

and guys seriously??  messaging me saying oh you shouldn't deny yourself that's wrong and bad..   keep your comments negative or opinions to yourself.  geez not one guy I have talked to gets it..

Waking up a frustrated mess!!!!!!!!   Had the dull edge all night...

ahhhhhh  I am shaking!!!   My mentor let me deny myself again tonight!!   I can hardly walk as I can feel my pussy contract with each move...  I was so close, probably 3-2 seconds away... it feels amazing. I can not describe it.....  she is just clenching for that release.....  :)

Just a random thought as I sat in class today.. almost 6 months since ive had sex. Sigh.......

rant time - do guys ever read??  my profile and journal clearly states what i am going through, and males still message me  oh let me make you horny, let me make you my slut..  duh i am already horny??  if a guy didnt cum for three weeks, wouldnt they be ready to blow a load?  cmon guys wheres your common sense?

oh the life of a college student!  no time to play now!!  but still feeling good, one more week until a month without cumming!!

so my edging session last night was amazing by myself..  just waking up to go to class and i am so horny!!  last night i used my vibe and hairbrush to the max!!! i started off slowly, and just let my clit swell, than started the intensity, and  wow.. after holding it for what felt like eternity, i could feel her clench, and i stopped... and omfg what a feeling...  i had a hard time sleeping but i dont care!!!  :)

Enjoying my first weekend back at school.   Great to be with friends. I have been allowed to edge tonight!! So excited.. I am not allowed to orgasm..  cant wait to see if I can do it!!

first day of class went great!! nnow i am horny AF!!!   god i need to rub, but no i won't!!!!!   pray for me lol

Last evening's denial sessions have me so frustrated!!! I wanna hump anything that moves!!! Gonna be a long month!!!!  Throbbing as I write this. Strict no touching enforced. Smiles.

OMG TONIGHT..  finally I opened up and explored it all!  Miss Allison was there to guide me.. 2 DENIALS in less than an hour!!  I cant describe it. I am not allowed to orgasm...   but wait...   we have agreed I will be denied the whole month of JANUARY!!  I can do this!!!!

 proud of myself and hope to continue on my journey!!!  frustrated as fuck!

So I experienced my first edgeand denial yesterday. It is hard to put into words what it felt like. I need to feel it more often.. I need to see how chastity fits in my future. I think its what I need.  

120am and I am effen horny and I am on here??  ah shit lol

thanks chastitysuballie for a fun time last night!!  she has taught me so much about chastity, i love it!!!   hoping not to orgasm today!! as far as the rape play stuff, thanks to all who has responded!  i'm thinking about getting into that too :)  happy kinking!

looking at chastity belts online, fun!!    love talking to subs who have had experience in them!  turns me on like omg  lol   and my own little muffin feels great :)

took a break from the site today, been on it so much talking to people, getting to know myself, so i just didnt log in today til now.  still nervous about going forward but i know i will find my way!

I need to be edged and denied! !!

so i can see i am a good fit for this site, but i am being over cautious, sucks that people you think are real, arent.  ;/  but i will continue to explore..   4 1/2 days without an orgasm. im going insane.....  and its only because of the holidays ive been so tired.  ive gone thru a few pairs of panties thats for sure.  really thinking about chastity and i dont know why!!

hope everyone had a good holiday!  so frustrating last night for me, i was tired, needing some relief, but was tooo tired and the chat on this site wouldnt work for shit, i need to end my dry spell of 3 1/2 days without release today or im gonna die!  still nice to meet some cool females here!!  just need to stop being nervous!

So I would love to hear from other female subs who are into orgasm control denial/chastity,  share their stories and such.  Have met some nice people. Still nervous to start doing anything bout my dam sex drive.  Too busy to touch yesterday uugh :)

waking up to 3 full pages of new messages. good morning to me lol.  but seriously it was an ok first night here, met a few nice people and i am thankful for that.  seems i'm gonna have to use the bulk mail filters :\    hoping to hear from more females?

whoa...   been here less than 40 minutes.. not a good first impression.. inbox is filling up.. well than.  mostly looking for females,  ive had one polite male, wow...   anyhoos..

so my story -   religious upbringing, taught masturbation was wrong, but of course a teen female body wants to feel good, I felt guilty.  had a few vanilla bf's, just used me for sex, felt so good though, wants sex all the time, but know I shouldn't  does this all make sense??