I just love how when I tell a guy (who is also not even in my geographical area, by the way) that no, I am not interested, that I am suddenly "bitter" and maybe that is why I'm alone. 

That is hilarious. I told him no because I am strong enough to be on my own -- and not lying down with someone I am supposedly committed to every night and then going to work every day and getting on this site trying to woo a stranger into a hotel room. THAT is what HE is doing and THAT is pathetic.

So to "saypleasepet" in Oregon, you can go stick it up yourself, cuz I'm not bitter - I'm just not stupid or desperate. 

Just FYI - for the 100th time, since people can't seem to READ these days past the first paragraph in my profile or the first page of journal entries before emailing me - I AM NOT INTO PET PLAY. THIS PROFILE HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THAT!!! FRACK, PEOPLE, READ A LITTLE, WILL YA!??

What's your favorite freeeeeeee porn site? I am taking a survey.  :-)

I received a scarf from Whole Foods Market in December for Christmas. I have wanted to take it back but it was awkward asking for the receipt. Anyway, my friend kept saying she'd bring me the receipt and it never did happen. So today I took the scarf in and they refused to take it back, not even for store credit.

What is happening to customer service these days? It is as if they all think the worst about people who want to exchange an item.

So now I have a $20 fleece scarf. Sheesh! Anyone wanna buy a brown fleece scarf with pink stitching for $5?

talked with a man last week, apparently a professor at a college. he refuses to write a profile, but "offers" that i ask him anything i want. here are my thoughts on this greediness:

what is it with men these days? everyone is afraid of giving out their #. many times over the past month i have received emails on this site from men and they have offered to let me call if i am interested. i write back yes, i'd like to call, and guess what? they write back that they are not ready yet. wtf? just don't offer the number, then!!!!

if you really wanted to talk to me, you'd simply write, "hi. i've enjoyed talking with you over the past days/weeks/whatever and would like to hear your voice now. at your convenience, give me a call at 555 123 4567." but noooooooooooooooooo - just games.

so annoying. this site is full of men who had not got a set of testes and it's sickening.

wow, another one scratched from the list of possibilities. been talking to a man for a while now. he's weird, but i figured it was just his quirky personality and that once we talked on the phone, it'd be cool. but whatever. so we have been plodding along and a few days ago he offers to send a picture. (i did not ask.) so i say fine, send if you like - whatever. and he comes up with excuse after excuse as to why he cant send a picture. ok, again, whatever.

i just now signed on and guess what? the dumbfuck has sent me an email saying he sent me a pic 10 hrs ago but i never signed on today so he unsent it and figures we are just not meant to be. uhhhhhhh, liar! if he had unsent it, his email would still be in my mailbox and would simply say the word "unsent" once i opened that mail. but there was no unsent mail from him. he liiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiied! (gosh, shocking! an insecure liar here on c/m! imagine that!)

the funny thing is, i am not overly fussy about a man's appearance. we all get old and funky. the heart is the most important part, and the personality. but he is the one who offered to send a pic, then he lied saying he sent it but since i didnt sign on, that means he and i are not meant to be? bizaaaaaaaaaaaarre, bizarre, bizarrrrrrrrrre.

just so you women know, his user name is coyotehunting. and fyi, he takes down his profile when he's talking to someone seriously. he took the profile down days and days ago, but it had nothing to do with me. (he told me the only reason he ever takes it down is when he's talking seriously with someone. he told me this a long time ago, some three months or more, the first time he talked to me.) in other words, he's talking with her and with me and telling us both we are the one for him.

these men on here! what a joke! real Dominants don't do this crap. so, mr. coyotehunting, i do hope you one day figure out what's what cuz right now you're one hot mess.

Are you having a gooooooooooood day? Abe Lincoln said that pretty much, people are about as happy as they make up their minds to be!

:-) 

~ssttrraayy

If you really want people to read what you write,
You really have to try and get the grammar right.
And if you hope they'll understand and read right through,
It helps if you would use some punctuation, too.

For those of you men who think "age is just a number" -- here are my thoughts: You, at age 30, or 25, or 33, or whatever "too young" age is writing me, are truly naive. I understand that at 30 (or 25 or 33 or whatever) you think age is "just a number." However, we ALL think that at 30 (or 25 or 33 or whatever).

In about five years, you'll know different. In the meanwhile, you truly believe that I am an immature, unsubmissive, age-prejudiced (I had to crack up at that accusation), closed-minded dolt. And that is fine.

Good luck to all of you young men out there -- but please don't waste your time writing me.

I have a really bad temper lately. :-(  Wish I didn't, but I do.

If you use the word "vanilla" in your profile, we are not a match.

If you are a 12-stepper, we are not a match.

If I ask you three questions in an email, and you only answer the third, we are not a match.

AllanSir has written me and I politely told him I am not interested and here is his response. incredible, eh? yet as "dumb" as this American supposedly is, he still chose to write me.

dear Potential Dominant,

here is how NOT to treat me:

spoke with a guy on the phone for the first time two nights ago. after about 30 min on the phone, asked me why i list myself as a slave. his exact words were "why do you list yourself as a slave on your profile? you seem to have a brain to me." oh, jeez.. he has no idea about what D/s is, clearly. he doesn't have a clue.

this won't work, yet i am so lonely that i told him yes, he can call me tomorrow night and we can talk more. ugh..

the next night, he called as scheduled. (i knew i knew that it would not work bec when i saw it was him, i let the phone go to voice mail. would i have ever DARED to not answer a scheduled  phone call with a Dominant in the past? hell, no!) anyway, it was a HORRIBLE conversation. kept up this stupid game of "tea or coffee?" and i'd answer, then he'd ask,  "Macy's or Nordstrom's?" and i'd answer, and he'd ask, "Las Vegas or Grand Canyon?" and i'd answer, and then he'd slip in "Anal or vaginal?" i kept telling him to stop with that type question but he just kept going back to it, thinking he was soooooooooooo clever.

at first i was playful and laughingly told him to stop. he could not understand why i wanted him to not talk like that. (DUH! big  red flag. but no, i kept trying with the dolt, instead of just wishing him well and hanging up.) i gently explained to him that sex and bdsm were not at all relevant right now, that we were getting to know each other on a compatibility level, and that we had not even laid eyes on each other, and to please stop asking such questions. he'd say ok then ask four or five more "This or That?" typ questions then DO IT AGAIN, always with "Anal or vaginal?" i finally just went silent. he said, "the lack of palyfulness is a concern for me." i said "the lack of respect is a concern for me." he was absolutely blown away that i said that - honestly could not understand why i would not discuss whether i prefer anal or vaginal sex. was unbelievably clueless. yet this guy is highly paid and owns a house in Huntington Beach. unbelievable..

so please, Mr Potential Dominant, if you think the above is any way to treat a potential slave then please just do us both a favor and pass me by. granted, MOST of the women on here are classless and will talk ad infinitum about the last time they were gang-banged in the ass by the neighborhood filth, but THAT IS NOT ME.

i am not a prude and i am most certainly playful (in fact, one man i served for 14 months might tell you i was a bit too playful!) but i will not talk about sex, BDSM, or my bodily parts with you until i know you are interested in ME, ME, ME as a PERSON, and not just someone to talk to late at night and grope yourself over.

honest to gosh, i think i will be alone forever. such a disappointment yet so very very typical for this site!

~ssttrraayy

Was rejected today because I have a dog. If you have issues with pets, then pass me on by, please.

Personally, I think people who don't have, nor want, pets, are the weird ones. There is nothing like the love of an animal.

I just had a massage. It was really, really bad. It made me think about how if people get only one massage, and that was the one massage they got, they might come away thinking they don't like massage. Such a shame, because some massages are fantastic.

Some people seem to regard D/s as an event: I am going to Dominate her/him, I will submit for a session with this Dominant, and the like. I disagree with this viewpoint. D/s is an ongoing process, and not a singular event. It is an attitude, a way of interacting to your partner, not a distinct act in itself.

by the way, a true Dominant always closes things out. he does not just ignore the fact that i said something that maybe doesn't make his dick hard. he addresses the situation. period. bunch of little girls around here who run when they get an email that isn't all dick-hardening, that's what it seems lately.

Such a disappointment to read a decent profile and see a couple of decent face pics on said profile then keep clicking through the rest of the pics on said profile and then bam, there it is, dick pics. Yuck. Guys, women of class don't want to see your wiener before meeting you and getting to know you and proceeding to bed naturally. Course, then again, maybe you are not looking for a woman of class.

I don't know anything about the 'pretend to be a dog' fetish. My user name has nothing to do with wanting to be a pet dog or a pet anything. I see myself as a slave who has been tossed aside - that's what my user name means - and nothing more.

Also, I'm just not interested in anyone under 40.

Thank you.

Seems if I do not lead the conversation, it just disappears. Why is that? Why do men who supposedly are Dominants, why do they need to be led? Why do I have to lead the conversation, lead the emailing, lead the pace, lead lead lead lead lead .. I am tired of it. I want to be my submissive self and not have to lead a man along and make sure he is answering my emails and make sure he is telling me about himself and make sure this and make sure that. Why do I have to be the man AND the woman? Do I have a cock now? ::: looks down ::

Nope, no cock. Please, if you have a cock and you contact me, then lead. Don't stop leading and make me lead. It is just a real damn bore and not me at all.

By the way, I no longer am being Mentored. I was asked tonight in an email if I still am Mentored and the answer is no, not for several years have I been in touch with that so-called Mentor. (He abandoned me - got sick of me not being perfect I guess.)

Not much has changed since my last journal entry. :-(  Is this my life forevermore?