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What I am: A girl, a mother, a woman who loves to feel wanted, who loves to be dominated, to know what is expected and strives always to please. Somewhere between a submissive and a slave, complicated and unsure, willing and honest always. What I want: A man who completes my world, who brings order to the chaos, who brings love to balance the pain, who brings hope and control, and trust above all else. Someone I can share every part of my life with, both the vanilla aspects as well as the lifestyle. Someone who understands that slave or submissive, there is something more to a woman than just what happens in the bedroom, and wants to know the person, not just own her. What I don't want: An alcholic or drug addict. An abusive man (to abuse is not to be a Master/Dom). To be lied to or decieved. To be used but never appreciated. To be abandoned. Thats me in a nutshell. If you want to talk, I'm willing to listen but I'm not going to submit at hello. As a friend once said, what makes me different? I'm not trying to get into your pants at hello, and you won't get into mine that fast either.
10/15/2011 11:36:33 PM

The parts that make the whole... 

Mother- its always first. Lives are dependant upon me being a Mother always and there is no one else to protect them or fill that role. 

Submissive- Its in everything I do, the intense desire to please, and yes controlled. It encompasses my life in a way that without Domination, I struggle to maintain even simple things. I have opinions though, some easily cast aside, others cast in stone. All I ask is someone listen and don't ignore them just because I'm submissive. 

Little girl- She's there, always hiding just under the surface. She's in the tears I cry, the fears of monsters lurking in the shadows and worse in my memories. She's in the joy I feel when I let her out to explore this world with inocence only a child can have. 

These three things add up to what and who I am. Add to them unique memories, feelings, thoughts, a history and I'm what You get. I'm not a doormat, I'm not a no limits slave, I'm not willing to give up on dreams or hopes for the future. I am just me, take it or leave it.

Snivilis
 
 Age: 32
  California