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Please read my profile and journal before contacting me. If you're looking for homemade porn or a quick fuck I'm not your girl. Don't ask for dirty pictures or videos. Privacy is of great importance. You'll understand after reading my full entry. When I choose to post pics or videos you'll see them. Don't expect me to run to you with my ass in the air like a bitch in heat. I'm here to explore and learn. While a may seek a Master or Mistress they can expect little more the detailed write ups. I would definitely love to be controlled in every aspect of my life. But due to circumstances I have to be extremely careful. Short of some light bondage play I have little to no experience. So patience is a virtue. Don't underestimate me. My curiosity is greater then my fear. While I don't know much. I am very eager to learn. As I said once before. Privacy is important. I'm engaged to be married in just over three years when my fiance returns from college. Until that time I plan on experiencing as much as I can as a slave or submissive. Don't get me wrong. I love him very much but he lacks imagination and is somewhat clumsy in bed. But he is the most caring and the sweetest man I've ever met. But sometimes sweet isn't enough. So now you have my reason for all the privacy. If I feel you safe and trust worthy photos and maybe even cam play will be discussed. If you have any questions don't hesitate. I won't bite hard.lol My limits, description of me and more questions can be answered by reading my FAQ journal entry. My name is Tina. But I'll answer to slut or whatever floats your boat.lol WHY I'M HERE AND WHAT I'M LOOKING FOR:(Previous Journal Entry) I really don't believe I'm going to do this and to be honest I'm a little hesitant to post thos. But I have had tons of offers and so many messages it makes it hard to choose or keep up. I'm opening myself and service to everyone. I invite anyone and everyone to send me orders. Anything you desire. I will complete every realistic order I receive. For any that may hit on a limit I will send an apology letter and the reason I refused. But to keep it fair I will attempt every order to the best of my abilities and made a goal to only turn down 3 a week to be sure I save it for hard limits and not just unpleasant task. If this makes me a slut then I guess I accomplished one goal. lol I'm doing this for a few reasons. First off this will help speed up my search and make it easier to find my perfect match. I don't want to just go from one failed Dominate to another for the next three years. This is very important to me and a desire I truly want to experience and enjoy. Compatibility means everything. As a extra bonus this will help push myself and learn more about my limits and pleasures Being new to this and with little experience. I'm beginning to realise just how little I know. And I wish to experience as much as I can for the short time I have. Which brings me to my final reason. Time! It's limited for me and I don't wish to waste yours or mine stumbling around from Dom to Dom. I'm sure everyone has their own life to live and wouldn't want to waste there time on someone they have nothing in common with. I'm once again very sorry for being so impersonal. I really want to serve a Master or Mistress one on one. While nothing may come of this due to my engagement. It would be great to make and new close friend and find a mentor. And in the hopes that this becomes part of my life including my fiance. A teacher or mentor for the both would be nice. Which I guess brings up another point. A Mistress! I would prefer to find a Mistress as it would be easier to explain to and get my fiance involved if I choose to make this a lifestyle. He is more then openly straight and proud of it.lol But this will not influence my choise to greatly for now. I'm looking for what's right for me. But at the least I would live to talk to any Mistress that would be interested in help me out in the future. Ok! I think I've covered everything. And I am truly sorry to make this so impersonal. I know this is probably a first and I don't wish to humiliate or cause trouble for anyone. So it's fair that I tell you I will be keeping my journal as just that. I will be posting on my experience and completed goals as well as my thoughts as I learn. I will be happy to keep all names secret unless you wish to brag or sign your work. In other words if you want people knowing my orders came from you then let me know. I'll be sure you get full credit. UPDATE: I am now adding punishments to my profile. I will add more punishments to to my list as you send them. Anyone can suggest punishments to be added and if chosen the will be added below. They are to be chosen by the person that has sent any order, dare or task that I deny or fail. If for any reason I turn down your orders or you feel I failed one you've send. You can choose from any of my listed punishments. I will be updating them soon. PUNISHMENTS: 1.Thirty minutes corner time kneeling with my butt plug, nipple clamps, ball gag and hands cuffed behind my back. 2. 30 Minutes tied to spreader bar with clit clamp on. Hands free but adds 10 min each time you touch your clit or pussy. 3.Spend the night nude and chained to the dog house. No speaking and barking at every noise. 4.Wear a short skirt and know panties and plugged. Eat dinner as I masterbate to an orgasm. 5.Using a thick rubber band pulled back 3 to 4 in. Pop each nipple and clit 20 times and repeat as many times is the person that gave the order wants. 7.Masterbate to the point of orgasm 30 times before bed. No orgasms at all or I start over. Then I must sleep hands cuffed behind my back, plugged nipples clamped and ankles in a spreader bar. 8. apply a certain number of clothespins (chosen by the person) and then made to crawl around the house using different things to knock each one off. Having a time limit to get them all off or you start over. 9. Put clothes pins on your pussy lips and then tape then to your thighs to hold your pussy open. Then tape your egg to your clit and leave it there for as long as instructed. Also braid your hair into pigtial and braid rope into them so you can tie your ankles to the rope to keep your legs spread in the air. 10.Kneeling in the corner on rice for 1 hour. 11.... Spend the day from bed-rise to bedtime plugged both pussy and ass conducting your day as usual with no orgasms allowed under any circumstances. Through out the day intermittent self lashings of 10 lashes each time to the 20th time. No holding back on the painful lashes. 12...not allowed to use the bathroom indoors for 24 hours 13... You think your dogs are all the protection you need at home. LETS SEE? For a punishment I want you plugged and nipples clamped tight. You will put a chain around your neck and connect the other end to the dog house. I also want your hands cuffed behind your back. Take all keys for your cuffs and locks on your chains and hook them on your Great Danes collar. Be sure you can't get loose without them. You said they have been trained so getting the back after letting the loose. One small problem. I also want you gagged! You still think your dogs are that well trained? Or will you eat your words and ignore this as a punishment?:p 14... TOY LIST: This is a list of items in my possession at this time. All list will be kept updated. Owned Items: I have one 5 in. pink vibrator One 6 in. purple one with rabbit ear clit massager One pair of handcuffs 45 wooden clothes pins And some rope that has proven to be kind of ruff in the past. Nipple clamps w/ chain Butt plug Ball gag Vibrating 'egg' with remote Ben Wa Balls Various sized rubber bands Condoms Bondage and Duct tape Purple studded dog collar w/ leash Two big and two small size rolls of plastic wrap Spreader bar 8 Mouse traps Two 2 ft. and one 10 ft. heavy chains plus 4 master locks Zip Ties And it probably self-explanatory. But this is what I have added to my shopping list so far. Most are requested for tasks. Wish/Shopping List: Penis gag Ballet heels medium sized rolls of shrink wrap remote controlled butterfly vibrator I

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5/20/2012 5:56:35 AM
I know I forgot the r in slutdreams in my photo. I was excited and rushed to post it and didn't notice it until afterwards. lol Sorry

5/19/2012 10:21:48 PM
I haven't forgotten about the ice dildo. I still have them in the freezer and they're solid! I was just taking some time to let my piercing heal. It's doing much better as far as pain. The problem is with the pleasurable side. I had to work the past couple of days and it has definitely made things interesting. For starters anything tight is a mistake when your on your feet. The walking or any other movement causes my piercing to rub against my clit. The tighter the bottoms the firmer it's pressed in and up against me. Walking is enough to weaken my knees. Panties loose or tight even in a skirt cause a lesser sensation but still enough to keep me on my toes. And the less it hurts as it heals the more sensitive I become. I can't count the amount of times I've had to hold back an orgasm just walking around. And jogging has become everything short of impossible. Even though the pain is slowly going away. If I wear any thigh running shorts it tugs if and still hurts some. But the pleasure from the rubbing is incredible. I think I'm going to enjoy my morning jog 10 times more. The only down side is weak knees during a full blown orgasm. I expected it to feel good. I just didn't expect it to feel this good. I don't regret it at all. Life seems to be coming a lot more exciting. And I'm sure after time I will get used to it and be able to control myself better. Or at least I hope so.

5/17/2012 6:34:13 PM
I'm having a little trouble with my ice dildo task. I can seem to find a skinny enough bottle to use. So far even the smaller ones I've seen are larger then I'm comfortable using. If anyone knows of a brand of water or another drink with a slim smooth shape please let me know. UPDATE...My thanks goes out to everyone for your suggestions. I have two condoms full of water and in my freezer. The suggestion to use a paper towl roll to hold it as I filled it worked great. Thank you again.

5/15/2012 11:34:39 AM
I found out this morning that corner time can be painful on my knees. I had to complete my punishment number 1 for denying and order. I had no trouble with the plug and the cuffs. I enjoyed them. I even enjoyed the clamps, gag and corner time at first. But after about fifteen minutes into it my nipples and jaw started throbbing. Shortly after my knees started hurting and still do. At the end of thirty minutes my legs were stiff and I was dying to get up. . I am not looking forward to try corner time with rice at all.

5/14/2012 7:51:05 PM
Just figured I would update everyone on my piercing. It's a little more sore then yesterday. But I am still pleased with my choice to go through with it. I can see how pleasure comes from it. Even with the soreness the rubbing and pressure from it has add a surprising amount of pleasure to something as normal as walking. I can't wait for the pain to stop and feel the full effect. That and it's tricky to walk wearing anything firm fitting. lol

5/13/2012 9:00:19 PM
INCOMPLETE TASK CONTINUED 27)... Before you even started I want you nude except for ankle socks and what ever shoes you work out in. Also make sure you cunt is completely bald and smooth. You will stand in front of a mirror and anally plug yourself and then gag yourself. Then you will tease and pinch your nipples until they are very hard and extremely sensitive and then you will fully clamp them (both nipple and areola). You will masturbate yourself with out cumming, in front of the mirror for 30 minutes until your cunt is swollen, dripping and your clit is extremely sensitive. When that is done you will sit down on your bottom, legs spread, in front of the mirror and bind your ankles in a spreader. You will be spread very wide so your cunt and clit are fully exposed. You will tease and shock your clit and cunt, plus lips with the battery, you will do it over and over (while you watch yourself) for 10 minutes, stop and finger fuck your cunt rough and hard until you orgasm. You will do this until you have cum 6 times for me (between each orgasm you will have 10 to 15 minutes of pussy/clit torture with the battery. I want to teach your cunt and clit to cum from pain like the battery and feel good from it. 28)... your going to have a bit of a study session in your local library. You are going to go to the library for 3 hours to study how to fuck yourself in public. The dress code is a strapless dress with no panties or bra and your going to need at least 2 items to fuck yourself and 1 vibe to use. When you get there pick a seat and go at it. Im incuraging to get yourself off, which means your going to be trying to cum over and over again for the three hours. On your drive home youll be naked and each time you hit a red light youll try to make yourself orgasm. have fun cutie. 29).., . You will need your 6 inch vibrator, nipple clamps, anal plug, gag. Dress code is pants and a top. Pull into a parking lot and put everything on or in and use the vibrator to orgasm. Then put it all in ya bag and go into the shop. Repeat the same process after shopping for awhile. When you get back to the car, put the vibrator in, the anal plug in, the clamps on so their not visable.Then visit parents/friends and go to the bathroom and put the gag in and use the vibrator to orgasm again. Then take the gag out and leave the clamps and anal plug and vibrator turned off and spend time with friends/family and you may take them off when you leave. 30).,, put in the plug and the egg and go to work. For every $1 tip you get, put the egg on for a minute.

5/13/2012 8:49:02 PM
I went after meeting up with mom for dinner and got my piercing. It really wasn't as bad as I had expected. That's not to say it didn't hurt. It was definitely worse the getting your ears done. And a million times more humiliating. I just wish it was the first lady I talked to that did it. The girl tonight wasn't very friendly and made it uncomfortable. I'm not gaining much pleasure from it yet. But I have felt it rubbing and can see how it could. May be more enjoyable once the soreness goes away. I got to admit that I think I'm going to like it. If anything it's cute.

5/12/2012 11:14:07 PM
INCOMPLETE TASKS CONTINUED. (Wow they just keep backing up.lol I'm going to be a busy girl for the next three years.lol) 23)... (1) Your house key and your car key. (2) Nine inches of twine X 2 (3) Condom X 2 (4) Scraps of cloth, or a few kleenex. (5) Stick about one or two inches long X 2 Take the key to your house (apartment, whatever) off your keychain, and attack a length of string or twine to the key. Then, when the key is tied to one end of the twine, attach the other end to one of the sticks. Then, do the same thing with your car key, twine, and the second stick. About an hour before you leave work (if you don't work, you can do this while shopping) excuse yourself and go to the washroom. Take the keys out of your purse, and wrap them individually in kleenex or scraps to cover the sharp edges. Then, put each key into a condom. Then, push both keys slowly into your asshole. Wear the key until you finish work. Then, when you go to leave, you'll need your car key. You can only remove it from your ass WHILE TOUCHING YOUR CAR. I don't care where you're standing, but you have to be touching the car while you pull it out. The sticks attached to the twine should allow you to pull the key out without too much difficulty. When you're riding in your car, the housekey stays in your ass. When you get home, you must be touching your front door when the key comes out. 24)... Go to bed at 8 at night. put the plug in your ass and your remote vibe in your cunt on high. You can lay down and attempt to sleep but, every time that you cum you must get up and post on here with the time (or you can email me) You are not to turn the vibe offl or remove the plug. Continue this through the night. you can turn the vibe off at 8 the next morning. 25)... Your first task is to turn on the radio and strip. Once you're naked call that station's request line. You are not to touch yourself until they answer. Once they do, introduce yourself as a naked girl wanting to make a request. Request "I Touch Myself" by Blondie. If they play it, you're allowed to cum. If not you have to either request a second task or wait until tomorrow before you orgasm. 26)... Since you have just gotten your clit pierced you should be very sensitive/sore. You will need: Rope Tallest Heels Spreader Bar Butt plug Ball Gag Handcuffs Nipple Clamps Timer Task: You will Tie the rope at approximately waist height (after heels are on) between two points at least 10 yards apart. Make sure the rope is very taught. You will straddle the rope with your heels on and attach the spreader bar to your ankles. You will insert the butt plug, gag ball, attach the clamps, and then cuff your hands behind your back. You have 30 minutes to walk back and forth, your clit or asshole touching the knotted end of the rope everytime, 100 times. If you complete this task you may cum 5 times any way you like. If you fail you must tie the rope at belly button height and stay their until you can force an orgasm via the rope.

5/12/2012 10:41:07 PM
I'm going tomorrow to get my piercing. I got to admit I'm a little nervous about it. I just hope my fiance likes it. I can't wait to surprise he when he comes home. I just pray it's not as painful as it sounds. Guess I will soon enough.lol

5/11/2012 9:18:19 PM
INCOMPLETE TASKS, ORDERS AND DARES CONTINUED AGAIN 15)... Wearing your remote egg and anal plug. Go around doing your normal chores and activities. Any time you run into some one you know, you turn on the egg. Try to ask people you run into to go for coffee or something to eat, the whole time leaving it on and to have an orgasm in front of them. 16)... nsert the set you have in your pussy and wear them around the house today. Dont wear them to work til you have both sets. Today you may cum from wearing them ,but not allowed to touch yourself after they are inserted. Just allowed to cum from moving around. 17)... you should find a red slip and wear it to a club. Only the slip, heels, a butt plug and a remote control vibrator. Carry the remote where everyone can see. If someone comes on to you, tell them that you are going home tonight to masterbate and message your Master,but they are more than welcome to control your vibrator. Let them fondle you in any way they wish as long as you stay clothed. Stay there until close and let anyone use you in that way. Go home, masterbate and let Me know how it went. 18)... Take the zip ties put them around the base of your tits and the next set in the middle watch them turn scarlet! Than mouse traps are to be used on your nipples with spacers first! For five minutes. 19).... WELL LETS SAY SPENDING THE WHOLE NIGHT (STARTING AT 8 PM ENDING AT 7 AM) NAKED INTO DOG HOUSE, BIGGEST VIBE IN CUNT UNTIL BATTERY FAILS, CLIT EXPOSE AND CLAMPED, NIPPLES CLAMPED, ON YOUR KNEES ONTO CORN GRAINS, ANAL PLUG IN (CAN USE A CUCUMBER INSTEAD), COLLARED, LEASHED, BALL GAGGED, WRISTS AND ANKLES TIED EACH OTHER BACKWARDS (MEANS RIGHT HAND TO LEFT ANKLE AND LEFT HAND TO RIGHT ANKLE). 90% OF TITS MUST BE WRAPPED IN SANDPAPER #50 USING STRING OR OTHER TO TIE IT IN PLACE. 20)... For one whole day except for when your at work, your not allowed to use the toilet for peeing. For peeing, you need to use the out doors. Now, this can be around your home, on a street, in a parking lot where no one can see. Dress code for this is a skirt and Gstring and the gstring has to be completely off and in your mouth while peeing. 21)... Play with yourself at least three times a day for about a week but do not orgasm. Let your pubic hairs grow enough to be waxed and then go get them waxed at a proper waxing place. 22)... So for my first instruction for you, I want you to refer to me as Daddy. You will take an entire day and be naked. You will keep yourself plugged and use your vibe to orgasm no fewer than 45 times. Then you will write back and tell me all about it, you will describe every detail of your day, but in the context of you doing things to please your Daddy. If you fail to do this, we will discuss punishments, but as your Daddy, you know spankings will have to be involved.

5/10/2012 8:52:28 PM
INCOMPLETE TASKS, ORDERS OR DARES CONTINUED AGAIN ( This request is a tad extreme and more then likely unrealistic. But it was well thought out and came with a rather detailed punishment and reward. And the thought of doing this excited me a lot. Even if only fantasy. While the chance of me being able to do it is low. It deserves its own page for being well thought out. 14)... You shall go to an erotic/sex shop wearing a short skirt, no panties, your vibrating egg in your vagina and your buttplug nicely inserted in you ass. In the store you will browse untill there are at least 6 customers. You will browse whips, floggers, paddles and canes. You will take two totally different floggers/whips/paddles/cane to the counter and ask what is the difference? You will explain that your master has sent you and that you will get in big trouble if you ask him which one to buy. After the clerk has answered your question you will ask if he or a customer can assist you in feeling the difference on your bare ass. If you have found a volunteeer, ask him to strike you 5 times with each one. You will raise your skirt exposing your naked pussy, plugged ass, drop down on your knees putting your head to the ground, ass in the air and arms extended in front of you with your wrists crossed. After each strike you will say "thank you for assisting me sir" and count aloud. After this is done you will activate your vibrating egg on the highest setting. You will then ask the clerk to write down the details of your favorite one so you can give the correct information to your master. You will thank him for his hospitality and leave. Reward for complying... Back in the car, you will still wear your buttplug, you shove your favorite vibrator in your cunt and secure the vibrating egg to your clit. You will set the vibrators on maximum power. You now tightly wrap plastic 'panties' over your crotch securing the vibrators tightly in place. You start driving and are allowed to come as often as you want untill you get home. Also there is a reward for choosing the closest shop to your home. If you have chosen the closest shop to your home you may come for 45 minutes from the moment you get in the car. Second closest 35 minutes. Third closest 25 minutes, fourth closest 15 minutes, fifth closest 10 minutes,...etc. Punishment for failing to comply... You will wear your collar, put in your ballgag and secure your legs in the spreader bar. You'll lay on your back and will put 15 clothespins on each tit in an outward spiral. A piece of rope is attached to the first pin and all other pins are linked through this rope (it is fairly simple you attach a knot to the first clothespin and every other clothespin you place the rope through the clamps before securing them on your breasts). If you have done this correctly you now have two spirals of clothespins on your breasts and two pieces of rope (two breasts, two spirals, two ropes). You curl up and bring your knees to your chest. You tie the pieces of rope to the spreader bar. There sould be a little tension but not enough to rip the clothespins off yet. You will now put three clothespins on your outer labia and use duct tape to tape them to your thighs. You will put two clothespins on each of your inner labia and also tape them to your thigh. Your pussy should be wide open now. You will take a rubber band and pop your exposed clit with it 20 times. You will repeat this three times. You may now take your vibrator turn it on at maximum speed and fuck yourself with it. Every 25th time of in and out you will remove it from your cunt and place the vibrator directly on your clit for 20 seconds, you will repeat this process until you come. But you will not come and after a half an hour has passed and the second before you come you will extend your legs ripping the clothespins from your tits. You will not come but continue right up to the point of cumming after this. Now you will loosen the duct tape holding the clothespins on your labia to your thighs. With the tape removed you will now with one handhold the vibrator to your clit while you use the other hand to hit the clothespins to removing them in this fashion from you labia. You will continue to vibe your clit and finger your pussy up to the point of cumming 10 more times. You will not be awarded an orgasm.

5/10/2012 6:15:20 PM
I need everyone's help. I checked in to my next task to get my clit pierced. The lady named off like five different ways when she asked me what I was looking for. I can't remember what she called them all. I know some where vertical and horizontal. lol I guess what I'm asking is if anyone knows what type I should get? What's the most pleasurable? UPDATE:Looks like it's a verticals hood piercing unless anyone knows a reason to change. Thanks for everyone's help.

5/10/2012 2:59:23 PM
INCOMPLETE TASKS, ORDERS AND DARES CONTINUED..... 9)... For this task, you start in your car and you can be parked anywhere you want in terms of privacy you want or how public you want. From there you are to strip naked inside the car or outside the car is makes no difference other than you leaving all your clothes in the front seat shoes being left on is fine or being left in the car is up to you. Then you are to hop into the trunk of your car with your keys in hand, close it and masturbate to orgasm, open the trunk via remote and get back into the car and dress as to desired. 10)... First for attire wear a button down blouse, pencil or tight skirt, stockings either garter or the thigh high style, heels try at least 3 inches, panties and bra. On the drive to work wear nipple clamps under your bra and remove as close to work as you can. During the work day flirt shamelessly with someone you normally would not, after work go to the ladies room and remove your panties and put back on the nipple clamps. 11)... use the pink vibrator and give yourself 45 seconds to cum (use a timer to make sure you don't exceed time limit). if you didn't cum in time, put a wooden clothespin on each nipple/breast. then wait 30 seconds, use the vibrator and again give yourself only 45 seconds to cum. repeat the process 10 times. at the end of the task take off the pins and put the vibe egg in your pussy, and leave it in, on of course, for half an hour for each clothespin you had to take off at the end. use an alarm or timer to remind you when the vibe egg can be taken out. 12)... okay, so you like stuff in public. Arrange a game of bowling with friends. Now before the bowling, I want you to wear a skirt and a gstring. You will need the anal plug and the remote egg and pants. I want you to go into a cafe or some where that serves food that has booths. I want you when no one is looking to put the plug in while sitting at the booth. Then do the same with the remote egg. After doing that, leave and I want you to go an an area and change from the skirt to the pants. Then later on, go bowling and if any of your friends have a higher score then you in a game, turn the egg on until you have the highest score. However, as soon as one of your friends gets higher, turn it on. You may orgasm but you have to do it then and there and you can not go to the bathroom to do it. If your friends ask if your okay well, you will just have to convince them you are. 13)... another task you could do is first masterbate until you cum in a pair of panties. Shower and then put on a loose dress about knee length, a button up blouse, no bra or panties and take hand cuffs with you. Drive to the local movie theater with your cum stained panties in your mouth dog collar on and nipple clamps. Before going into the movies stuff your panties in your purse and remove the dog collar. Once you are in the movie sit all the way in the top row I suggest going to a third run movie. Before you sit down lift your skirt so that you are sitting on the seat bare assed put the panties back in your mouth and cuff your hands in front of you and keep your legs nice and spread for the entire movie. As the ending credit start you may uncuff and take the panties out of your mouth before leaving go in the ladies room put them on and masterbate until you cum again and leave the on. Get back in your car and as much of the trip home as you can keep your skirt pulled all the way up and your blouse all the way open and dog collar on.

5/9/2012 9:33:23 PM
I can't take this. I've started my first punishment for refusing a request and already regretting it. Number 7 is frustrating. I used my vibrator to bring me to the point of orgasm without having one. I had so much trouble controlling the need to finish. And now my heart is still beating along with a empty unfulfilled feeling. The rest of my punishment is probably going to drive me insane. I've got to try to get some rest. Breakfast with a friend. I update this entry when I've completed my punishment. Pray for me or I may need a punishment for failing a punishment. lol Update.... Last night leaves me with mixed emotions. I loved the fact that I know I was being punished for not obeying orders. But my nipples are extremely tender and hurt. My arms are stiff and my wrists are red and still have the prints from the cuffs. It started out ruff just from masterbating without getting an orgasm. Just that alone probably would have kept me awake. But the cuffs digging in to my wrists and having to lay on my arms was horribly uncomfortable. The spreader bar was to bad other then the fact it help keep me in an uncomfortable position. If it was for my arms killing me I may have enjoyed them. The butt plug didn't effect me to much. It did add some discomfort but not enough to keep me awake. Hoping I can get used to the feeling of needing to use the restroom. I am glad I steered clear of the larger plugs. Putting it in and pulling it out hurt some but not bad. The worst part of it all was the clamps. I can even wear a loose shirt without them hurting some. They are so tender! Even though I loosened them quite a lot. About thirty minutes into it I really started to feel them. And it only got worse as it went. And not much better now. I was never so glad to hear my alarm go off as tired as I am. But the few time I dosed off were just as frustrating as the rest of it. It was tricky to get out of the bed and make it to the keys on my desk. I left them out of reach to keep me from backing out but close enough I could get to them. But walking with clamps after wearing them so long and walk in my spreader bar made that a painful challenge. After getting the cuffs off the first thing I went to remove was the clamps. Now you would think removing them would feel good. That's not the case. It hurt bad as I squeezed the clamps open and my nipples felt like the were stuck to them they were on so long. It scared me when my nipples stayed flat looking after I removed them. But as soon as them throbbing stop I was able the massage the out. The plug wasn't bad but hurt a small bit when I removed it. It almost feels like I still have it in. Guessing it's from wearing it so long. The spreader bar wasn't bad and didn't leave any marks. Other then stiff knees not bad. I've got to get going. Not sure how I'm going to get through breakfast wearing a bra. I just hope it goes fast.

5/7/2012 2:19:52 PM
I failed a task today and need the person that sent it to contact me and choose his punishment. I will keep searching through my messages until I find you. But if you see this please message me? I did put an effort towards it and would love to attempt it again or something similar. I think I can pull it off if I can get my fear under control. I pulled into the Wal-Mart parking lot in Azle. The closest populated stores near my area. I tried to park out in the back of the lot. Even found a space between a couple of large trucks. After setting there and watching for a while. I finally got up the nerve to strip and put on my dog collar. I hung my panties on my rear view mirror and crawled between the front seats onto the back. I felt so exposed just having my ass in the air as I did it. I was scared to the point all I could do is set there scanning for people that may see. After a few more minutes I convinced myself to just get it over with. I was never more thankful for tinted widows in my life.lol I stayed on my hands and knees the whole time. It took me a few minutes to figure out how and what I could rub up against to bring me to an orgasim. The only way I could find that felt good was the edge of my seat. I had to put one knee in the floor board and the other up on the seat so I could rub my clit up and down the edge. I was nervous and shaky. It was a challenge to even get in the mood or even get close to an orgasn. I was scare to death I would be caught. Having to bark only made it that much worse. When I finally calmed down and actually starting to enjoy the trill of it all I came very close to an orgasm. But I never got to finish. I was barking and focussed so much on trying to force an orgasm I didn't see the guy getting in the truck behind me until he started it. It was load and scared the crap out of me. I jumped back and tryed to cover myself. I was so glad is driver side door was facing away from my car. I don't think he even saw me. But it scared me so bad I put my shirt on and got the hell out of there. I'm so sorry for not completing my goal. And I am open to try again. I just couldn't get past the fear after that. On a happier note. I did drive home wearing my collar with my panties hanging from the mirror. Plus I took the opportunity once I hit the back roads to remove my shirt and finish the last of my drive home nude. I really enjoyed that part of it even though I already fail. I just couldn't help but try it. I got excited thinking about it and the roads close to home are fairly private. There was just no way I could pull it off in such a busy area. But the thrill was amazing. I'm honestly hoping for more outdoor activities. Hopefully in a less populated area next time. lol

5/2/2012 1:17:04 PM
I'm still looking for punishment ideas. I want to fill in all ten spaces. Please?! If anyone can help I would be greatly appreciative? I already have at least one punishment coming. I'm just waiting for all the choices to be filled to make it fair. I am going to attempt another task soon. I'm just trying to get up. the nerve. Sorry it has taken me so long. If you've read my journal I'm sure you understand why I'm looking for the courage. lol

4/30/2012 10:42:08 PM
I'm having trouble keeping up with all my requests. I have decided to keep a journal full of all my requests. I'm sharing what I have so far here for you to track and follow. These are all the tasks I have so far. I am having trouble finding some of your messages due to the amount I've received. I will be copying straight from your messages. So it should be easy to spot the one you sent. If I missed yours then please don't hesitate to remind me. While I may list all of my goals/task. It doesn't mean I will complete them. It just means they are under consideration. I may back out and except a punishment. Sorry but some of the public one and the piercing scare me a little even though they sound exciting. I will do my best and that's all I can promise. INCOMPLETE TASKS, DARES OR ORDERS: 1).... Complete... 2).... So lt me suggest a home made ice dildo IE.freeze a water bottle your size preference lube it and than have fun. 3)... you need to get some ben wa balls and some condoms. Then I dare you to put two of the balls in your pussy and two in your ass then go to work. Then try not to cum as you work your shift. Let me know how it goes. 4)....For the first one, the task is to go to a public place how public is up to you and go into the restroom there, go into a stall and get completely naked. From there you are to use your panties as a gag, put on your nipple clamps and insert your butt plug and masturbate to orgasm after you have climaxed you can take out the plug and take off the clamps and get dressed. The panties in your mouth I challenge you to keep them in your mouth until you get home or the very least until you are in your car. Note the clamps and butt plug are suggested but ultimately optional. 5)....On a day off for the whole day or perhaps just for a period of 4 to 6 hours be completely naked whilst doing housework, cooking etc. and wear your spreader bar the whole time. Every time you fall or bump into something you have to immediately masturbate to orgasm before you can try to get up and do anything else. 6)...go to a park find a somewhat secluded area and masturbate until you've cum twice. 7)...go for a long walk in a skirt and a tank top (no bra or underwear) and masturbate while walking. if you should hit orgasm point continue to walk while cumming. 8)... you will find the smallest outfit you have and use as many toys as you can in yourself at one time and walk through your local shopping centre for 2 hours with all the vibes on at the same time.

4/30/2012 8:44:11 AM
I just wanted to drop in and let everyone know I haven't forgotten any of you. Give me some time and I will get to all you orders, tasks or messages. I'm getting really behind. I'm now not surw if Ill be able to get as many tasks complete in a week as I hoped. So instead of allowing myself to trun down three a week. I'm going to bring in a punishment for myself. For any orders I refuse or that the sender feels I failed I will have some kind of punishment. I figured this is only fair seeing as I would if I was any of your slaves. I'm not sure what a just punishment would be and ask for your help. Anyone that reada this in the next couple of days and that may know of a punishment I can carry out myself. Please share? I will choose five to ten and list them on my profile for you to choose from incase of my disobedience. I would truly appreciate your help.

4/27/2012 8:57:10 AM
It's time to do some shopping. I have had a few request I can't complete from lack of objects or toys. I'm going to go shopping by this weekend for adult toys and gear. I have aways been embarrassed to go to an adult store but I guess it's time I get over that. I already have a small list started. But I would love any suggestions or request anyone may have. I will do the best to add them to my list. Just try to keep them affordable for now. I can manage 2 to 3 hundred at the most. If I have a better week next week Ill try to get more. UPDATED TOY AND WISH LIST HAS BEEN MOVED TO PROFILE PAGE FOR EASIER VIEWING.

4/26/2012 10:02:02 PM
I finally have something worthy if a journal entry. I have taken my first steps so to speak. I'm not sure why I did it. But I got involved in a one sided game of truth or dare. I guess it was my curiosity more then anything. While it's not exactly what I'm here looking for.It holds some of the feel of submission and is enjoyable with a touch of discomfort. When I agreed to the dare it sounded simple enough. All I have to do was wear one of my tongs backwards for 24 hours without having an orgasim. I didn't realise how difficult it would be or how much it would interfere with my night at work. Enjoyable, humiliating and at one point just plain out uncomfortable. I chose a pair of black silk thong panties. I usually save the few silk ones for date night. But I figured the smooth silk would be more comfortable considering the amount of time I have to keep them on and backwards. My choice in silk worked out great. Maybe a little to great at times. At first it didn't seem that bad. I started at 3:30pm. The smoth silk string felt great rubbing against my clit every time I moved or walked. I enjoyed the feeling and made extra movements just to enhance it. Another mistake on my part. It just left me unsatisfied just in time for work. I was already hating the fact I was denied orgasms. And it didn't get better at work. Just the movement of getting ready for work made things worse. It got me so turned on it was aggravating. I felt uncomfortable and exposed wearing my usual skirts to work. I made the bad choice to wear pants. And tight ones at that. If I knew then what I know now I would have went with a loose dress or shorts. Just used to dressing for tips.lol I began to realise how much a mistake my jeans wear when I first climbed in my car to head out. Sliding down in my set I noticed my jeans were so tight that they clinged to my panties and seemed to slide them around even worse. Not a great choice when you work with the public and expected to interact. By the time I got to work I was about on edge. And I can't even begin to describe the frustration of trying hide the pleasure my thong was causing around so many. It wasn't to intense but enough to keep me setting on my stool as much as possible. Not an easy task when you're constantly having to dig in the bottom of a beer troft full of ice. The first couple of hours was trilling in an unsatisfied sort of way. But by the end of my shift I was so frustrated it wasn't funny. Emptying my station was a bitch! Pleasurable at first but as I began to sweat my thong started to rub me raw in a very bad place. I know it wasn't part of the dare and in all rites I failed it. But the last few minutes I had to push then down some to loosen then while I finished up to avoid becoming to raw. It would have been bad if I didn't. Once I got home I broke the 24 hour rule again to take a shower and but on a new thong. Almost identical to the other pair just less lacy in the front. Or in this case the back a since they're on backwards. At least it's back to feeling pleasurable again. All though I'm turned on to no end and frustrated to the point of insanity. Getting through 24 hours without an orgasim is going to be hard. Its just after midnight. It's not even to the halfway point. How the hell I'm going to hold out the full time I don't know. Pray for me please! I will update this tomorrow and let everyone know how it works out. If I survive it that is.lol OK! Sleep wasn't any easier. lol Trying to go to bed wasn't any less frustrating then work yesterday. I tossed and turned for over an hour before falling asleep. Partly from sexual frustration mixed with a slight discomfort. I'm not used to wearing panties to bed. So you can image wearing a backwards thong. Though I have to admit it kept me soaked all night. I'm not sure if it's from the thong rubbing or the emotions from carring out anothers wished in dare for or otherwise. Whatever it was it had an effect on me on my sleep as well. Once I woke up getting back to bed was all but impossible. I'm almost there. Just a few more hours to go. I'm dying for this to end. The discomfort from having a string in my crotch is just annoying enough not to let me forget. And the constant rubbing on my clit is enough to keep me on edge. Don't think I've ever hungered for an orgasm so bad. And I do mean hungered! Damn!! 3:30 Seems so far away.lol My next and last update will come then. Sorry my last update is coming so late. It's been a long night! And I do mean long!!! This could have been enjoyable if it wasn't for being denied orgasms. I thought I would try to get soms house work done to help me keep my mind elsewhere. Didn't help a bit. In fact it only made things worse. Walk around picking up was almost enough to push me over the edge. I had to come to a complete stop to avoid have an orgasm. Needless to day nothing got done.lol I ended up setting down and watching tv. I guess after suck a restless night I passed out and woke up almost an hour late. Which is why my update is just now getting posted. That and work was insane tonight. We stayed packed til last call. And then still had to run people off. You have no idea how worn out I am. I'm so glad to be home and off my feet. Before my nap I was so looking forward to some pleasurable me time. Now I just want to lay down and pass out. On the plus side I guess I made up for the adjusting my thong last night and removing them to shower. Technically I had my thong on backwards until almost 5:30pm.lol

4/26/2012 8:44:49 AM
I really don't believe I'm going to do this and to be honest I'm a little hesitant to post thos. But I have had tons of offers and so many messages it makes it hard to choose or keep up. I'm opening myself and service to everyone. I invite anyone and everyone to send me orders. Anything you desire. I will complete every realistic order I receive. For any that may hit on a limit I will send an apology letter and the reason I refused. But to keep it fair I will attempt every order to the best of my abilities and made a goal to only turn down 3 a week to be sure I save it for hard limits and not just unpleasant task. If this makes me a slut then I guess I accomplished one dream.lol I'm doing this for a few reasons. First off this will help speed up my search and make it easier to find my perfect match. I don't want to just go from one failed Dominate to another for the next three years. This is very important to me and a desire I truly want to experience and enjoy. Compatibility means everything. As a extra bonus this will help push myself and learn more about my limits and pleasures Being new to this and with little experience. I'm beginning to realise just how little I know. And I wish to experience as much as I can for the short time I have. Which brings me to my final reason. Time! It's limited for me and I don't wish to waste yours or mine stumbling around from Dom to Dom. I'm sure everyone has their own life to live and wouldn't want to waste there time on someone they have nothing in common with. I'm once again very sorry for being so impersonal. I really want to serve a Master or Mistress one on one. While nothing may come of this due to my engagement. It would be great to make and new close friend and find a mentor. And in the hopes that this becomes part of my life including my fiance. A teacher or mentor for the both would be nice. Which I guess brings up another point. A Mistress! I would prefer to find a Mistress as it would be easier to explain to and get my fiance involved if I choose to make this a lifestyle. He is more then openly straight and proud of it.lol But this will not influence my choise to greatly for now. I'm looking for what's right for me. But at the least I would live to talk to any Mistress that would be interested in help me out in the future. Ok! I think I've covered everything. And I am truly sorry to make this so impersonal. I know this is probably a first and I don't wish to humiliate or cause trouble for anyone. So it's fair that I tell you I will be keeping my journal as just that. I will be posting on my experience and completed goals as well as my thoughts as I learn. I will be happy to keep all names secret unless you wish to brag or sign your work. In other words if you want people knowing my orders came from you then let me know. I'll be sure you get full credit.

4/25/2012 10:33:07 PM
I'm so glad you can edit journal entries. I have decided to edit this and keep it updated as my frequently asked questions section. Any repeated questions or those I feels should be shared with everyone will be answered here to make things easier for everyone. FAQ's: Q.A description of myself and my measurements? A. Can't say I've ever taken my own measurements. But if I got this right its my chest, waist and hips. Lets me start with this may be a ruff estimate see as I've never done this. My bra size is 32b. From the best I can tell my waist is 22 and my hips measure out to 32. If I didn't then the best way to explain is I have a small slender built. And I do my best to keep in shape. I have brown eyes and long dark brown hair. I have been compared to a tiny version. of Monica from the tv show friends. And I swear if there are any short jokes!!! lol I'm a towering 4 ft 8. My weight bounces around from 113 lbs. to about 119 lbs.. Hope this helps. Q. Where and how I live? A. I live in a small town north of fort worth. Tons of churchs and no malls small. I live alone until my fiance returns. The area is very much country. My nearest neighbors are with in view but fairly blocked by trees. My home sets on a good size piece of property. In front of me is a pasture and behind me woods. So privacy preforming around the house shouldn't be much of a problem. I work as a beer girl for a small bar just off the lake. My work hours change almost day. But I may enough tips to make up for it. Playing there will have to been kept to a minimum. While dress codes and restrictions are lenient. It's still my job and I want to keep it. My off hours are spent hiking, at the gym or early morning jogs. After that it's housework or a kicking back and watch tv. When I go out it's usually with the same three girls. We've been friends since high school. We usually do to dance clubs or up to the bar where I work. They spend a lot of time here having a drink and taking a dip in my pool. Other then that life is dull and quite. Playing while out with friends must be limited as well. At least when I'm out with some close to my fiance. Now for the question that must be on every guys mind. How much bi experience do I have. Sorry boys but not much. I've made out with a total number of two girls. Only one of them made it to a serious level. But the farthest it went was oral and shared masterbation. Unfortunately it end shortly but for the better. The fact that we are best friends seemed to cause issues. So sorry to disappoint. I know you all were hoping for more. Q. Am I shaved or trimmed? A. For 90% of the time I am shaved. For the few times I get lazy I keep myself trimmed. Usually with about a two inch by a quarter inch strip. On one occasion I shaved the shape of a heart into it. But that was a a surprise for an ex. Q. What are my limits? A. I'm sure this question will be updated as time goes by. But from the little I understand and know my limites so fare: I will not use ginger root icy hot or anything that may burn inside of me. Any kind of poop play is out. Not diapers or anything! I will not interact sexually with anyone. Even though my fiance has made jokes of me interacting with women and seems to encourages it. I will not feel right without his permission. And I'm not ready to tell him about this until I know it's worth it. I will not expose myself or interact with anyone under age. What so ever! Body modifications in any way while have to be something simple. Hair and dress code are open for change. Tattoos are most definitely out! I may consider piercings as longs a they are simple sweet and cute. I thought about them before. Just never have. But no gaping holes or tacky carried away piercings. I do enjoy who I am and how I look. But small changes can be fun. I received an amazing story that I truly enjoyed up to on small part. Which brings up another limit. I will never allow pee in or near my mouth. I'm not big on pee or poop be anywhere on or in me. I may pee outdoors or something along those lines. But I will not play in it. I hope this fields some questions you all have. I'll be pleased to answer any others. Please don't let my impatience detour you. I've just had some many messages and had to cheat. I know answering this way is very impersonal. And for this I'm sorry. Just can't seem to keep up.

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XMistressAngelaX
 
 Age: 26
 Pleasant Hill, Iowa