SirEdward816

I got my whip in the mail today. it is wonderful

need to stop staying up till 1 am on work nights. did a rope photo shoot last night

why does everyone want to steal my pink rope?? it is better to share

e slide into my pool. swimming splashing dunking. as the time passes we get closer and touch more often, touch with more passion. I give he one last dunk than as she comes up gasping for air I pin her to the pool wall and kiss her. at first she is suprised and does not kiss back then she grabs my face into her hands and kisses me back I wrap my arms around her and pull her tighter. I get so lost in her that I do not notice her hands have move to my shorts. not until I feel her tugging them down. in my mind I know this is not right. oh I have no problem with out things are going but that she is trying to take the lead. I can not allow that. I slide my hands to her shoulders then push her under the water putting my cock in her mouth. grabing a handful of her hair I float to my back. she surfaces so she can breath I wrap my legs around her neck and force her so suck me in the pool. floating around forcing her to swallow me hard and whole.
after I cum. I let my legs go and slide off of her. she just looks at me. roll pull her to me and tell her she mine. she does as I say. not to take off my clothing with out asking first. she just looks back with big sparkling eyes my cum still on her lips. I say no more but dont take my eyes off of hers. finally she shakes her head yes. "you have to say it you hve to say yes Sir I understand". I expected a look of shock. instead she smiles at me. oh yes I knew it was what she wanted from the first time we meet....

at first we just paly in the pool swiming splashing. then it gets flirty touching kissing. swim suits end up on the deck. I pull you towards me then pressu you against the  wall. hmmmm your gona getr fucked in the pool

this is the start to a story. should I finish it???  its just a outline. waiting 

to be lived then written.... any suggestions?

you come to my home. parking your car and walking to my door. once inside you strip. to your undies. I suggest you wear some you dont care about. because when I am done they will be trash. I will put you in rope to start with. let you feel it. good rope work is like foreplay. I want it to settle into your soul. then I will place a collar and leash on you and lead you into the back yard. but for this night it will be called the play ground. you are going to enter a dream world of fun and pleasure.

she sits on the floor at my feel her eyes down. I stand behind her un coiling a length of my green rope. she cant see what I am doing but she knows. she has been here before. soon her mind will go from anticipation to rope space. my rope flicks her back as I work. yes I do it on purpose and it only makes her want it that much more. I kneel behind her but not touching her. my eyes on her as I move closer, I can see her arch her back in anticipation. finally we touch, I feel the energy so I know she does. she melts against me. my right arm goes around he shoulder my hand on her throat. my left accross her breast. And I hold her, not groping her not hurting her just making the connection. after a few min I kiss her shoulder and neck. my hands move to her wrist I pull them to the left side of her head in to a hug then pull them behind her back to begin the tie. first I pull the rope up and around her shoulder. a quick purposful move. then painfully slow I lay the rope over her breast. my hand placing and smoothing the rope. once it is across her chest I snap it behind her. again quick and forceful. when I make my second wrap I go slower than the first time. by now my head is next to hers and I am pressed so tight she can feel my heart beat. againt a quick powerful movement to pull the rope beind her. quickly I finsh my tie. every time I work behind her there is a break in out conection. it hurts both of us but makes us crave the conection even more. with her tied I pull her tight to me and kiss her neck. she trys to turn her lips to mine but not yet. I switch sides. she is mine I have control she is not going to recive anything from me before I am ready to give it. her disapointment mixes with the knowledge that I own her heart and soul. after teasing her like this I place my hand on the throat, the way I know she craves. then I kiss her lips. passion fills us both. I twist her in my arms and never taking my lips from hers I lay her on her back on the ground. once settled I pull back and look into her eyes. she is gone, she knows I am there she is fighting to maintain a conection with me. but she is unable to think about anything. all she can do is feel.....

what I do with her next is to private to share. just know she is mine and at this point nohting and no one exsist to her except me, me and my rope. so the title is mis leading. see once you get to this point there is no difference between me and the rope we are one.

I have  told a few times I am too passionate about things. I am not sure what that even means. I care about every thing I do. I want to be safe and fun. I truly enjoy the things I am into. I wont say I am sorry for being this way. it is very real

if you want someone to treat you bad, I am not your guy. I want my sub to have substance to her. her submision to me should have value and be a gift worth having. 

things that tell me what kind of person you are, knowing your hopes and dream, understanding why you are they way you are.  

these are the kinds of things I want to know. then it will be clear to me that we should get to know each other.

I might seem soft to you, really it is just me wanting to know you. I dont assume you should bow to me becuase "I" put Sir on my name. get to know me and see where things take us

why do I have to be perfect? honestly can't I just be human?

I don't want anyone to "settle" for anyone. but at the same time we must be sure our expectations are realistic. 

we all have out dreams and desires. and we should dream high. crave that perfect person but once we get to real life??? we need to be grounded.  we need to be REAL. how perfect are any of us? 

happy Valentines Day to all of my collarme friends ((((HUGS)))) to all and spanks for everyone that wishes for them

picked up my new ankle cuffs tongiht

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honestly I am not stupid. sure I cant type very well and spelling??? yeah not me. but I do have a brain and do use it. unfortunatly when it comes to subtile hints I miss them. I dont play games so when somene does me I just dont always catch on. I can see when someone plays others, just not on myself.

I was at a QT a few months ago and it was not until after I was out the door that I realized a gal was hitting on me.

I guess 30 years of marrage does not prepare a guy for single life.

maybe one day I will get it. maybe not.

but even with that "handy cap". I am still meeting people and making good friends. what I wonder is how many friends I missed becasue I just did not understand what was going on???

I forgot to set my alarm last night and I over slept..... by 2 min.  5 20 comes so early. one of the good things about working the same job as long as I have. you are so just to getting up at the same time.

I am so ready for tonight. rope study group meeting at my house. that is always a good time.

I am not saying this to be mean, but really I do mean this. I am not going to give you money. I thought we were all here to find friends that shared out kink. when you look at me you can see a friend, a nut case, a dirty old man, a Dom all of these are ok but do not see me as a wallet nor a bank.  have a great day

I know the weather is still up and down. warm than cold. windy and rain or snow. but we are over the hump and warm weather is coming. soon it will be nice enough for long rides. I am so ready for that. day trips on the bike. 6 to 8 hundred miles. then a few weeks after that my pool will be warm enough for swimming.

I work construction and look foreward to winter for a break in the long hours, but it does not talk long for the itch for warm weather to start up. part of it is jsut the riding and swimming but there is more to it than that. who knows what kind of adventures I will have. pool parites for one. and while on the bike? oh man anything can happen. I am ready for it.

some things is in my head that I am not sure should be there. I have done pretty well lately but it is starting to happen again. no its not bad. in fact maybe it is good. I actually forced myself to stop this a while a go, I did because I reaised people were stealing from me from it. what in the hell am I talking about?

Erotic writing of chourse. how can someone steal a writing from me if I put it out there? confusing but to me it is true. first I do not write anyting I would not do in real life. so I might write fantasy but all it takes it the right person and it becomes real. I have writen things that were pure fantasy and yet have become real.

the way things are stole from me is how someone pretends to be closer to me than they really are becasue they want more and more of my stories. these are personal to me. to accept them from me is to for a trust beyond that of a regualr friendship. once I got to understand that was happeneing I stopped.

and I miss that part of me. I have started again, but I am much more careful who I share with. my writing is rusty and confused but still I am doing it again. it is becoming more comfertable and maybe I will write something to share one of these days.

I guess that is why I dont require a sub I am getting to know to write for me. for me it is just to damn personal to do that for someone until you have a very strong bond.

But that is just me and one of the things that makes me different, makes me who I am.......

something happened a few weeks ago that changed me. well better changed how I see myself. the details of what happened aren't important to this writing. I have always been a passionate person. and full of empathy ( that can really suck too). I always thought of myself as being observant of my friends and able to see when things are up they want to hide from others.

Now I see things a bit differently. NO I am not psycic or anything close. I can tell your fortune at all. in fact I am sure My impressions are more wrong that right. but I do see my friends a bit differently. I see them as more energy than every before. I dont know if that is good or bad. maybe it is nothing at all. it can be unsettling actually. but I am going to be just fine.

Becareful with what you do and where you go. you never know when something will have a profound e. gaurd yourself from out side influences

I was talking to the friend of a friend. he was a bit shy at first with his question but he did ask. it went something like this....

so I hear you dont drink, is that true? I said yes

and you don't do drugs either? I said nope

so the way you wake up every morning is how you feel all day?? I said hell no!

I tried to explain to him that just living life, having fun with friends even going to work adds to my day. makes it wonderful and exciting. I like to find adventure when I can. he was a bit taken back.

cerainly I am not the only one that can find pleasure in life with out chemicals and alchol? its not like I care what others do. its just not how I am.

so am I alone?

I don't have to hurt you to love you ( said with a flogger in my hand)...........

I don't have to hurt you to love you. and I don't want to. but the way I define hurting someone might be different from how you see it.

I am not good at Sceening with someone that I don't care about. yes I can do that but it is not really my thing. I don't like being that random. for me "play " is about sharing who I am with someone that is important to me. that sounds lame and corny to some. the way I see it is if you do see it that way I am not for you. and that is ok.

Yes some of the things I like to do causes pain. but from what I have expereanced if you are sharing with the right person inflicting pain does not hurt. it shows caring and love. it shares power and emotion. very powerful stuff.

I spent way to much of my life with someone that could not see these things. it was plain stupid of me to let that happen. I "settled" for less that I needed. I wont let that happen again.

I am just rambling but I hope I make sence

I was helping a friend this weekend. it is always a good thing to help a friend when you can. but I am not writing about that. someone I have known on line for a long time but was sure I would never meet has actually became a friend in real life. we planned to spend some time together this weekend. when I told her what I had going on she just offered to jump right in and help.

why would she do that? she worked her ass off. could not get her to take a break. she is my friend but had never even me this couple I was helping. why did she do it? because she is plain and simply "good". she wanted to be part of doing something nice for someone.

that is cool, and I hope I would have done the same thing given the chance.

I was talking to a friend last night. talking about what is up in her life as well as mine. I was telling her about a new friend I made and she brought up someone interesting she thought I should meet. we also talked about someone that she had thought I might like but I just could not get into...

so the discussion ( for a very short time) shifted to my type. that was interesthing. I always felt like "MY" type was someone interesting. never really thought that I looked for something else specific.

she tells me she feels like my type are blondes, but I am always with dark haired gals. I thought about it and got confused. I seldom make friends with gals my height or shorter. but I dont really like gals taller than me. I like a quiet voice but from working around noisy machinery am a bit hard of hearing. I like women that are very fem yet I spend time with gals that are more maculin.

there was more to it but that is a good over view of the conversation.

My conclusion??? My "type" is interesting people. I think body type, heigth, hair and eye color is just red herring. I am most interessted in self feeding conversation. the kind where you want and need off the phone but you are afraid you will miss a great thought from your friend. where you drop them off and the conversation wont stop. cant stop on its own. where minds connect and dont want to seperate. I am not talking about LOVE ( what a joke that is) but a deeper conection. a place you cant find from sex. no matter how sweet or wild it is.

the more I think about this....... God I want everyone to find someone like that to be with. and I hope if you take the time to read this, you are blessed with someone in your life that you have that conection with...

Eddie

oh boy I get to go to work early so I can sit though a boring class...... so exciting

I have a friend in pain today. she is new in my life but so wonderful and cool. there is nothing I can do to help ease the pain. that is fustrating

MRI today. should be fun

I have been looking at life again ( might be a waste of time). I had been thinking of all of the things that fear stops us from doing. then I started thinking of all the things fear makes us do.

the event I am thinking of most is entering into a relationship before we are ready for it. we do that out of fear. we are afraid the person will go a way. we fear being alone. we fear what others might think of us if we are alone. so we get with someone we are not ready to be with. some times it works and all is good. but so many times it is just awful.

we do things we don't want to out of fear of judgement by others too.

there are many more examples of how fear makes us do things but why waste time with that?

so we have fear stopping us for doing they right thing. and fear motivating us to do the wrong thing. similar but not the same at all.

I am going to be more mindful of FEAR as I make choices that e.....

I use to hate writing on my journal it is pretty hard for me to exspress myself in writing but I do what I can. what if I write something that sounds stupid and someone intrested in me reads it and thinks "what a dork" and passes me by. 

Then one day it made sense to me, the sub I want will want to read my journal entries. what to know how I think. so my writing sucks and is here and there. but it is me. 100% real. so I write when something is on my mind. even if it is goofy as hell... like this writing.

today I have been talking to two of my friends that are suffereing. relationships can be soooo hard. but when you have friends and you love them you cant help but feel their pain. 

I cant fix what is wrong for them, but I can listen. and support them. it is tiring and plain hard to do. but I know if I am hurting I can count on them to do that for me. 

its a two way street. 

what are you willing to do for your freinds??

being my friend should be a positive thing in your life. and you should be positive in mine. BDSM M/s D/s what ever your Kink should be a positive thing in your life. should make life better for you. make you feel whole and complete. if it does not you need to look at what your doing and who you're with.

we all feel lost at times. it is normal for sub, slave . bottom, top, Dom or Master. yup at times even a Master is lost. they may not admit it but I will.

it does not make us weak it makes us human. what makes us weak is how we deal with these times. do we sulk and try to hide from the world or do we find a way to fight out of it and more foreward?? some avoid that feeling and pretend it is not there. some talk it out with friends so they can see a way out.  

My friends will know how I deal with that feeling. and I am thankful for them. 

I just hope the rest of you find a way to deal with that feeling that is positive and gives you peace in your life

I have had this tread mill for about 2 weeks. will over a mile in 20 min..... feeling really good about it. and a short recovery time too. 

what is it about rope that is so damn sensual??? the look and feel of it.  the way it has power over a sub. and how it inspires my imagination

I posted pictures of my favorite toys. some of them are fun and playful a few kind of stingy and a couple will BITE. but I can control them. use them how I wish. they dont have to bite or sting. it all depends on who I am with and how they want to feel. there is no reason to be afraid to try anything I have

I love rope play. I have been taking classes in kinbaku. and reshearching with books and the net.  it can be beautiful as well as other things

ok I started a new profile. it was not done to hide, I needed a screen name that better reflects how I am. my old name was close but maybe a bit confusing.

I am not one to play games, that wold be to damn confusing. and I don't want to be played either. I do not expect  you to be perfect. actually I take it back. I want you to be perfect at being real. life can beat us up and make us hide from our selves and others. we for get how to be real. lets get past that and see what we can create together