Willing to Relocate
I am looking for a place to live this lifestyle. |
I am a lifestyle person. This is who I am and not what I do or play.
I do not pay money to be me.
If you are looking for money you have absolutely come to the wrong place.
I am extremely service orientated. I find great comfort and gratitude pleasing those I serve.
I am not a public person when it comes to this lifestyle.
What I do and how I serve is behind closed doors.
Who I am does not stop once I am in public.
It is just not exploited for others to see.
I do enjoy many types of service yet I am not an extremist.
Get to know me and you might build the trust to meet the real me.
I am a submissive male.
I boarder on being a slave.
I call myself a male because I have a male exterior.
I struggle because I seem to have two different personalities.
My outward personality is a man.
It is something that was taught.
It is trained to be in control.
To be strong and assertive.
To protect and provide.
All of these things I do well yet none are what I want to be.
I have never been comfortable in this role.
I have a fear that is always with me.
I overcome it when necessary but would rather live in its shadow.
Inside me, deep in the recesses of my mind.
There lives a woman.
At least that is how it feels to me.
Not a strong independent woman.
I know strong independent women.
I admire them.
I cherish their abilities.
But this is not me.
This is a woman who wants to be of lesser value.
One who desires to be led.
It almost feels like this personality evolved in a past life.
A life where I was taught to let go of the control.
A life where I found value in being meek and submissive.
What I have inside of me is a woman who wants to be controlled and manipulated.
A woman who understands her place in the world.
Her place being of service.
Maybe it was not a past life.
Maybe it is just my genuine nature.
I dont believe I am a sissy.
I dont feel a need to be completely transed into a woman.
I believe I desire to be let out of the cage I am in.
I believe I desire to be accepted and encouraged to allow this part of me to blossom and grow.
I believe I want to live allowing both to survive and thrive.
My mind has taken me to many extremes.
Some which I might like to visit.
But I would not want to live there.
I would like to be in someones life who has my Alpha self on a tight leash.
A simple tug could reign in external fight and allow the internal bliss.
Allow me to live free from prejudice and be accepted for my true inner self.