2/12/2011 12:25:41 AM: I seldom place more than one or two entries a year here and yet this one makes the second this month.  Today I had someone  say that I look to happy to be a real Master.  They told Me that if I wanted people to see Me as a Master I should look more menacing and sterner.  I asked them why they would say such a thing and they said that was the way Masters were supposed to look to keep a girl worried and in her place.  I must say, I was totally amazed and wondered where people get their concepts of what  a Master should be.  It has always seemed to Me that the thing we should strive for it to be happy with who and what we are and for the pleasures each day can bring.  Day to day life is not easy, especialy in these times.  I do not wish to fill My life with people that make Me lose sight of the joys of having people around Me for whom I can and care for Me.  Perhaps I smile to much for some, but I do not think I can smile enough for those that have and do brighten My life daily.

2/6/2011 11:33:45 PM: As I read through profiles here I find that more often than not I look at what I have read and end up just shaking My head. I realize that with each generation changes take place and values will often shift. However, I see more and more profile written where in the basic premise seems to be the intense application of pain simply for the sake of gratification. If that is desired by both parties I find no fault with it but it is so very far from where things were when I began My entry into the lifestyle. To Me pain has always been something which is an enhancement to pleasure for both parties, not something which was the end result. As I became involved with the lifestyle the growth of a Master involved much more than inflicting pain. I was taught that as one took control of another they assumed a responsibility to care for their charges. A Master did not damage and walk away. A Master chose to help His girls move forward in life. He took great pride in the accomplishment of His property for that was considered a reflection upon Him. He worked hard to help them achieve personal growth through His guidance. He placed great value upon His property. He might hurt but he did not damage that which he valued and even the hurt had a specific purpose.  I am not judging others,  I simply find it a very different concept to grasp.

12/26/2010 10:35:40 PM: As we get ready to open new calendars and move into a new year I find Myself thinking back to the days of My youth and recalling My parents saying how time seemed to fly as we got older.  That made no sense to Me as a child and yet like so many things I did not accept nor understand at the time, it has proven itself to be very true.  I do not find Myself concerned with age, though so many here are J.  However I do find it interesting to think back on the way My life was as a child and the changes that I have seen.  Age is something which has never been a factor for Me.  Over the years I have had girls both younger and older than Myself, though to be honest it is more and more difficult to find any girls older than Myself these days.  As George Burns said when asked why he dated younger women….”There are so few My own age and most of them do not want to have anything to do with Me”  He never said the last part of that…..I just threw it in from My own experience.   The past year has been pleasant in most respects though there have been some major problems over the last few months that have cause Me to change My actions in at least one case.  It is a small regret but one which I can see no way to repair and if I am honest with Myself those that were involved are better off as things stand now.  I value those that have been and remain a part of My life and I thank all who have touched My life.  I wish you all the most wonderful NEW YEAR and may all of your valued dreams become reality.  

11/20/2009 10:31:55 AM: Once again, about a year has passed since I have made a journal entry.  I tell Myself that My every day life is not that much of interest to those that do not know Me and then I stop and realize that it is not of that much interest to those that do either J    It has been a good year, I have made a couple of good friend who are now a part of My life and have been able to be there for a couple of old friends when they needed Me.  I have managed to weather many of the trials life and the economy has thrown at Me.  I am not where I was 3 years ago and at My age I probably never will be, unless My $1 a week lotto ticket hits  (not the finest of retirement plans.  However I know that I am due to hit as over the last  year, according to My email, I have already hit the UK, Canadian and New Zealand lotto’s, not to mention that I have inherited several million from realities that lived in foreign countries to which I need only send several thousand dollars to claim).  Oh My and lets not forget the large number of slaves that live off shore that wish to come here and be My property for life.  I wonder exactly what someone 6’ 3” weighing 42 lbs looks like?  I have had several conversations with new people on CM over the last year and I have found them to be people of quality and I am pleased that they have come into My life even on that limited basis.  Often as I read through the writings of many here I am amazed how few seem to have had the successful enduring contacts that I have.  I am not speaking of sexual contacts I am speaking of people that have become friends.  And once again, that brings Me back to My message of last year.  I am grateful for those that have come into My life in the last year and for those that have remained a part of My life for so many years.  I value the people that I have come to think of as My extended family and I treasure their presence.

12/24/2008 6:27:18 PM: It has been almost a year and a half since I have last posted in My journal.  In that time a great many changes have taken place in My life, some good, some not so good.  However, I find that while we are all mired in one of the most desperate of economic times, I am able to take great joy in the wonderful support of My friends and My family.  As we move into and through the holiday season it is easy to start thinking about what might have been and what we have missed or lost.  It is easy to start to feel sorry for ourselves about what should have or could have happened but did not.   It is easy to get lost in thoughts about how others might have used or misled us, or simply failed to recognize us.  But the reality is that we make ourselves what we are.  As we move into a new year try to see the world as it could be and the people around us as they may become.  Find the beauty where it is and hold onto the joy of friendship for it is the most wonderful of gifts ever given.  So, to My friends I say Thank you for your friendship and faith for it is the most wonderful Christmas gift you could ever give Me.