Collarspace

I have always been Subslave but for a long time considered myself trans. After exploring that side of myself and transitioning for several months while in a DOMsub relationship taking hormones, i realized I am not trans. After being in chastity for several months and then beginning hormones, i lost my sex drive. While my sex drive was high, all i wanted was to live as and transition to female and service and be used by cock. After the hormones took effect for several months and i lost my sex drive, i lost all desire for any of it. I left the relationship and realized I am a subslave with a forced fem. fetish. Finally knowing myself I am now looking for one of two scenarios. Scenario one would be a dom male or couple who i could live with 247 caged and owned. Not on hormones but having perm. lip fillers injected, perm. make up put on, breast implants etc. to a point that i cant just undo it and go back to male. When those procedures are done and i am totally dependent on my dom, get the castration surgery to have my testicles removed so when i wake up and the sex drive is gone, the reality of the fact that i took it too far sets in and i am forced to accept my new persona and totally dependent on and under their control