12/9/2022 4:20:18 AM: It's been 4 or 5 months since I last logged in. That seems to be the way it always goes. I log in, read some messages, peruse some profiles, get overwhelmed by the sheer volume of inane chats, feel like it's a fruitless endeavor and bound to remain so, and avoid this place for a while. And then eventually I log in again. This time I returned because when I woke this morning, I really wanted to go back to sleep, because I was having such a lovely dream. In this dream an enchanting young man and I had been getting to know each other. He was accomplished in his field, but unsure of himself in his personal life. We discovered that it was due to the submissive desires he had that he didn't understand. With some conversation, I was able to help him get in touch with the desires he'd been subduing and it seemed that our wants and our personalities aligned quite well. He'd just had a rough moment, in which he was unsure that he was capable of something he dearly wanted, and I was reassuring him that he was indeed quite able and more, when I woke up. Argh. So, of course, since sleep and the dream will not return, what else can I do but log on here and comb through profiles to see if there is anyone whose urges and characteristics seem to align with mine. 

7/9/2022 10:04:49 AM: I'm confused. I got a message, that I unfortunately deleted or I'd paste it in here, that made no sense. And of course, the sender blocked me... because why would you want anyone to be able to respond to your ridiculous accusations? Anyway, the gist of what he said was that I'm nuts to think anyone would do all of that for someone they haven't met.  Huh? The only thing I've asked is that if we're conversing, we move to non-kink topics after getting the kink basics out of the way, so we can get to know each other. Because unless and until we actually FORM a connection, I don't want either of us doing things to or for each other. Also, I believe that D/s is a partnership and both parties do some giving.  My best guess is he read someone else's profile and then accidentally clicked on me to send a message. Becuase I'd rather believe that than believe that he's that clueless. If anyone else thinks I'm asking people to do ANYthing for me before actually chatting, talking and meeting, let me know so I can rephrase that section if needed.    SMH 

7/6/2022 8:34:44 AM: Profile update in progress. I've heard rumors that it no longer takes weeks to be approved.. Let's see how true that is, shall we? EDIT: it took less than 4 hours for the update to be approved - might've been shorter, but I didn't check earlier.  The text being replaced is posted below for my own reference. Ya know, in case I forget.  Do you wish to serve in a part time capacity? Or maybe full time, but only in short spurts?I travel a lot, because I can. I would like to find a few men in various parts of the world who would like some Ds interaction on occasion. This will be based on an actual friendship. While there is the possibility for it to evolve into something sexual, romantic and long term, dont count on it. It is better to get more than hoped for than to be disappointed, I believe.As for how you will serve, that is up for discussion. What are your strengths? How do you wish to serve? Are there behavior modifications you feel you need? What are your hard limits?Though I will make the rules, I will take your needs and wishes into consideration when doing so. If you are one of those who wishes to have no say, someone who wants all of their rights stripped away, I am NOT the one for you. You matter. You have value. Even though your service is very much about me, it is also just as much about you. Once again, I have NO interest in those who want to be disregarded or treated as worthless.There must be a connection, whether it be romantic or friendship, as I cannot enjoy being served if I am not quite fond of you, and I cant see how you would want to serve me if you dont have some affection for me. Lets get to know each other as people first, kinksters second, shall we?Some things I enjoy... foot massages, pedicures, full body massage, other personal services, you naked on hands and knees scrubbing the floor, nice meals, human furniture, s p a n king or paddling you just until your ass is a nice hot red, a little bit of begging, chastity, teasing.A submissive couple, any genders, that could be instructed to take care of my wishes, and then also instructed in ways to please or torture each other, would be quite fun.To get started, tell me a little about you and why this appeals to you. Tell me about your neighborhood or area of the world. Tell me how you can be of service. If you are active on FetLife, tell me your user name there. Finally, tell me what questions you have for me. Feel free to send a picture.

7/4/2022 5:42:00 PM: How nice to see that journals are back! When I last logged in, which was about a year ago, they were disabled.  I like reading journal entries. Even when they're insipid, angry, or even hateful. It gives more of a glimpse into the who of you. But of course, I like best the ones that are hopeful, joyous, or humorous. Maybe I'll stick around for a while this time - and post some of my own hopeful or insipid or joyous or angry or humorous entries. Likely not hateful ones, but I reserve the right to do so if it comes to that.  Or maybe, as is my wont, I will disappear again for weeks or months. Time will tell.