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I want to be comfortable being vulnerable. To be helpless and still willing to expose my darkest dares to you. I want to see the fire in your eyes when you break me down. I want to know the excitement you feel having total control over my body as you humiliate and make a mess of me. I dont know if its emotional masochism or something else that attracts me to humiliation in a power exchange relationship. I think back to this girl I knew in high school. She was cute in her own dark way, but she had bad eczema on her hands. After school one day in fencing I remember a friend of mine was giving her shit about it I defended and she sensuously rubbed my cheek to illicit the heebie-jebies out of my friend. It was a powerful moment for some reason. To not be perturbed by her actions while simultaneously seeing that disgust on someone else. I felt special. It was a rush of excitement I remember to this day. I dunno, its a rush Ive rarely felt on that I feel compelled to explore further.Ive always use the excuse I am a symbiotic creature to avoid articulating myself. I guess most of all that is why I seek a Dom. To release my inner weirdo, without judgment, to help find my confidence in the more public aspects of life. I like my secrets I guess, to feel like an iceburg just a facade for the rich depth of chaos beneath the mask I carry every day. Not to say I carry shame for the urges that kink my mind. As a young transplant in a small town growing up I guess I just feel a certain sort of power over my ability to keep my perversions out of the local gossip pool. I enjoy keeping my distance I feel empowered by it for some reason.I guess that means Im shy, but I am unquestioningly supportive despite my outward timidity. I guess Im not sure exactly what I have to offer as a submissive beyond my body and mind. I have always had a bit of a fantasy about the power art couple dynamic. There was this silly couple that were grad students when I was a freshman in college that were always doing weird stuff like napping together in the middle of the sidewalk or doing dramatic readings in binary. Im not saying Im looking for something that intense, but I would love to know that I could help nourish my Doms creative side. I am enraptured with the idea of being someones muse.