I am a feminized male submissive, aspiring to enslavement by a powerful dominant woman. I am shaved smooth, pantied, and know how to dress beautifully as a woman. I have  decent figure -- 38B breasts, 30 inch waist, 32 inch hips. I have high estrogen levels according to my blood tests, which I think is a function of psychological feminization. Though a former male and a high achiever, in education and the arts, I have found my greatest joy in servitude to a woman, as a woman  -- and in becoming feminine in all ways. I'm still learning to embody the feminine spirit to its fullest, to be gentle and graceful, and to surrender completely, to be compliant, to be joyful in a support role. I'm not saying that's those are the attributes of all women, only submissive women, and there is nothing more beautiful than that being completed and complemented by a strict, loving and even uncompromising Domme who demands service, submission and anything else she wants. In the past seven years I've discovered that I could not only adapt to the demands made upon me but I could exult in them. This means I got over my natural reflex of jealousy regarding a Domme's rights to freely express her sexuality while surrendering my own rights to her, being strictly monogamous and compliant to my Domme's every whim. I used to think sometimes that I was right about something and argue, even if meekly. And while discussion is of course natural, I've been taught that the true meaning of submission is full surrender. Whether a Domme is right or wrong at any point is besides the point. She rules and I am superbly fulfilled to serve her. I've learned to surrender in depth. I've learned patience. I'm considered a lesbian submissive wife -- and I'm ready to go further --- to become a female  slave, a great servant, a companion, a supporter of my Domme, even her cuckold should she desire. I'm familiar with being in chastity and I accept it with grace. I'm enthusiastic about pleasuring my Domme in any way she desires, or content to remain non-sexual in my ministrations, excited to be called "good girl," and to make my Domme's life a joy.    My role is to support her, to serve her, to make her happy, to cherish her, and certainly to obey her completely. I want to be the love of her life, even if we never have sex and she keeps me locked up and just caresses me with compliments and expressions of her own satisfaction. Corporal punishment, chastity, cross dressing, butt plugs, strap ons, dildos, and sissy maid are all components of my servitude. I've had golden showers splashed on my face, been made to leave it, have lain in a damp slip in the hallway and waited for my Domme to come home from a date. She's smiled at the running make up on my face and  taken me to lie beside her or orally pleasure her before she falls asleep. I've drawn her bath and with bubbles and bath oils, massaged her, shaved her, and then been told to be a good girl and wait for her to come home. Other times she's taken me out dressed femme and she was delighted, unashamed, and I felt like her girl, her best girlfriend and more -- completely. I was loved. And I truly loved being a good wife. It wasn't an easy role to learn, but it was worth it every minute. So very beautiful. Someone may ask -- what happened, where did that go, why are you looking now? Life is a vast ocean with powerful currents and sometimes people are pulled apart by events and forces outside themselves. But the imprint remains. The lessons are learned. The changes to a personality and a psyche are permanent. So this, I can now freely admit, is who I am. I'm not ashamed of it, but I do practice discretion in general, as the larger society is not ready for feminized male female dominated relationships. The more real and the less fetishistic they are the more suspicion and judgement they generate. A fetish seems to be understood. A transformation and the full acceptance of Female domination and feminization is still socially anathema. But it's a beautiful thing. So that's about it.

Among my non-sexual identity areas of interests are all the arts, popular and classical. I'm also financially solvent, cultured, good looking, in good physical condition (girls have to  take care of themselves that way) and in general entertaining and witty. I have good taste in most things, like to travel, love intimacy, sharing, and love to love and be loved. Can I use that word any more times?  Not to boast but I'm a lot of fun for a Domme, I think. She has a best girlfriend, an attractive sexual object to whatever degree she chooses, and a very submissive wife who'll do as she's told. We can share so much, from appreciating beautiful clothes, to shopping together for each other, to each knowing our place and being content in it. Yes, ma'am is my favorite expression now. I never dreamed it would be but it is. It symbolizes the total lack of resistance, the capitulation, the acquiesence and surrender that I offer my Domme. Let me be your slave girl. Let me make your life a joy and a pleasure in every way.