I discovered Adult Friend Finder probably back in 2002. I was fascinated. I never paid to join the site but I loved seeing the photos and the profiles. On an intuitive level, I always new there were worlds of kink out there just below the surface but on a practical level, I had no idea how to get access. And here it was, spread before me.
At first, looking was a enough. I was in Oregon at the time. I spent hours scanning craigslist ads and scrolling through the AFF profiles across the state. And then it wasn't enough just to see. I wanted to make contact.
I responded to a cl ad for an older woman who wanted a son to please her. (I was in my 20s.) That hit a chord for me. It was the embodiment of the older woman transgressing social taboos for her own pleasure. We corresponded by email. She told me that her pussy tasted like cinnamon. She told me her butterfly vibrator had run out of batteries and she needed to use me in its place. I was squirming in my seat as I read her words. I wanted it more than anything but I wasn't ready to act on my impulses. I had a girl friend in a vanilla relationship and a job out in the public eye. Here I had something I so badly wanted and the freedom to take it but I was bound by a set of fears and self imposed limitations. I didn't have the wherewithall to act. The opportunity passed. I never found my way back to her. I still vividly remember it.
A few years later, I found a married woman on AFF who lived in Salem. Her husband had a heart condition and could not keep up with her. Needs. We chatted on Yahoo IM and the connection I felt to her was intense, the chemistry undeniable. We met a number of times. The first time, we met in public. She did some foolish to test me -- left the trunk open with twenty dollar bills floating around to see if i would try to pocket the money. I gave a shit about the money. I was just pleased to be in her presence. She took me to her house and walked me to her bedroom. We made out and I went down on her with total abandon, finding her wet, receptive and intensely sexual beyond my imagination. We kept up a correspondence for several years. I periodically drove down to Salem to see her. She had her husband and another regular man. She played me against her other lover, making him jealous with stories about me and then telling me in great detail about the time she spent with him. How they went to the river to look for river stone but ended up fucking in the seat of his truck, the size of his cock and how much she loved it, how they were fighting or how they had gotten back together. I hung on her words. I grew frustrated at the time she would not see me because he would be jealous and reveled in the times when she opened her bed to me again. |