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Short Version I have been out of the lifestyle for a few years, but at this point in my life I feel the need to get back in, but discreetly and slowly, and not 247 or live in right now.

I am not into pain in any way.

Long Version

As is natural, the first thing asked is, so what are you looking for?

Well, I would love to answer that. Whats funny is when I answer I always later on realize that I didnt say everything I wanted to say.... It seems I am very specific in what I want.

I want a daddy that is my king and would want to lay the world at my feet when Im his good girl. I want some structure and expectations, and a man who wants a personal slut, to be used and treated like property sexually (not ALL the time, but mostly). Behind closed doors, humiliate me a bit and put me in my place, but when that is over, treat me like his queen.

I dont want someone who needs a mother. I dont want someone who is full of himself of selfish or obsessed with material things. I dont want a control freak.

I DO want to meet people who are intelligent - know how to speak intelligently. I want to be listened to. Everyone can hear, but almost no one listens. I need someone genuine, sincere. Someone that wants me for who and what I am, right now, not see me as someone they can change or mold into something or someone else. I need someone to encourage me, make me feel like I am worth something, worth the air that I breathe. Someone who can laugh at my little quirks, my humor, and thinks its cute how I wrinkle my nose when its touched.

I want to be with a man that adores me. One that wants to spoil me and love me. A man that shows affection in many different ways but isnt just a love sick puppy. Someone that respects me and treats my family right. I want funny, generous, loyal, faithful, respectful and intelligent, handy around the house and will kill spiders. But assertive, the man of the house that listens to and respects his queen, but still makes the decisions and expect his girl to obey and comply.

You have to hunt and fish, and take me with you. No extreme back country hunting though.But take care of me while were out there, dont just take me and leave me to do it all myself.

I love to fish. I dont catch a lot of big ones or anything, but in the summer Im out on the boat every weekend I can.

I like to travel. My family is all out of state from me, so I like go see them at least once or twice a year. Ive not been out of the country. I am not big on shopping especially for myself. I like to think of others and do for others, so I need a man that will spoil me instead, but allow me to spoil him too.

I want someone who will sit on the roof of the house with me on warm summer nights to watch the stars and talk. I love going up into the mountains and finding roads to follow, finding wildlife and taking pictures. And in the winter build a fire in the fireplace at night. Someone who doesnt care if the house is a bit messy, as we have life to live, not stay home and worry about perfection. I need a man who likes to eat, because I like to cook. Im a traditional meat and potatoes type of girl. I dont cook fancy, but Im told its always good. Pecan Pie is my specialty.

I love music.I have a wide variety of tastes from oldies to country, to classical, to rock.I dont like rap or death metal.I would love an annual trip to the symphony or the theater.

I love hockey! I go to as many Colorado Avalanche games as I am able. I dont care if its up in the 3rd level, I enjoy going.

I do work full-time. My job is very important to me. I am the boss and do want to be able to advance in my career.I want someone who is self-sufficient financially- you have to have a job and be financially stable. I would prefer someone who has served the community or the greater good in some way, whether that be military, first responder, police, or something in that capacity.

You must be a God-loving and God-fearing man. I am Christian and while Im not crazy radical or off the wall religious, I do have a deep faith in God.

I run right in the middle politically. I have some strong opinions about things, but I am not overly passionate or active. I dont mind intelligent thought provoking conversation, but respect each others opinions and dont get mad because we think differently.

Im not a prude, but I am modest in public. I am a bit shy at first, but once I feel very comfortable with a man I dont mind trying new things. I want someone to be assertive in the bedroom, a man who takes what he wants. I am into Ds and I love to serve and care for a man I can call Daddy. Sometimes I like a little more, other times I want less. But I need a man that can sense that and be willing to have a little fun, but know when to be romantic too. I dont do pain, but I can and will do other things, and understand that some things, like king, can be uncomfortable without being actually painful. I dont talk dirty well, but I write and text much better.

I have had a lot of things happen in my life. Ive been in love and Ive been broken and crushed, cheated on and beaten. But I have done my best to stay patient, kind, positive and loving through it all and I am hoping to find someone that understands and loves me anyway.

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4/17/2018 6:32:52 PM
OK weird.  I guess yesterday something was up with CS that my profile was hacked, or merged, or combined with another person's profile.  It doesn't seem to be happening today.... we'll see though.

4/9/2018 6:52:48 PM
It's been a long couple of months.  Working so much, then I hurt my shoulder.  Life is stressful and crazy right now, and I just haven't been able to do much with my book at all.  I guess things go in cycles.  Sometimes I will just go nuts and write like a crazy person then other times I can't write a single word.  
I really want to work on my book, but I think I'm at a block.  Ugh.  Oh well, I'll get there.  It will happen... eventually.  And it will be a masterpiece! 



HA, yeah right.... 

2/27/2018 9:27:04 AM
I've been away a while.... Working 14 hour days.... Sheesh! I don't know how people can do that on a regular basis.

1/14/2018 9:05:52 PM
Took a break from my book and wrote a short story.... I needed a break.

11/16/2017 1:03:42 PM
This is probably going to get some backlash, but I keep thinking lately?. Where is the line? At what point does flirting/courting become harassment/molestation/assault? Men can?t even flirt with a woman? (and I?m not referring to any action with a female under-age, that?s inappropriate no matter what.) In the course of my life time I can think of several times where I was in a situation where a man made a sexual advance and I was uncomfortable, but I?m not going to go running to the press or to the police and claim that he did something wrong or illegal. To me, that?s just silly. I mean, really, are we going to get to a point in our society where a man can?t even ask a woman out on a date, or try for a kiss from a woman he finds attractive? I do see a difference. I was molested at 14, and that was wrong and should have been reported. But the guy that tried to kiss me and put his hand up my shirt at the movies in college?. No. The guy that grabbed my ass in line at a concert?. Questionable, but I just threatened to break his hand. So, again I ask? Where is the line?

7/11/2017 7:54:34 PM
I was recently inspired to write an erotic novel. While it's not near done yet, I'd like to find a good editor that would be willing to donate some time to review and offer feedback. Anyone willing?

6/20/2017 11:11:50 AM
OK - I'm hooked.? I am convinced that if society were more agreeable, I would no longer wear a bra.? All bras would be replaced with simple leather dog collars.? First, they are cheaper and should last forever!? Second, when fastened around the base of the breast, they make them fuller, perkier, and much prettier than any bra could ever do.? Third, they are adjustable around the actual breast.? This makes it versatile enough? to go from all day wear (tight enough for support, but not constrictive) to more constrictive when in service at home.? And fourth, there are so many designs and colors that anyone could find something they like. Dog collars are perfect as well since they have a D-ring built right in.? I connected the two with a chain to pull the breasts in together closer to make them look better under clothing.? But there are a plethera of possibilities beyond that for those rings! I realize this probably isn't news to those of you reading this, but it is new to me since all I've done before is rope (and don't get me wrong, rope is fun too).? I didn't think it would be that much different.? But it is!?

6/11/2017 9:45:38 PM
I haven't posted lately, so here's a short one.... Had a good weekend, saw lots of wildlife, then... out of nowhere, I ended up with a treble hook from a flicker shad through my jeans and into my leg.... I was thankful for first aid kits and the fact that I've had my tetanus shot recently.... WOW that hurt.....

4/14/2017 1:22:17 PM
When I was a child, I had both sets of grandparents. And they lived fairly close by. My paternal grandfather was a preacher. He was tall and held a commanding presence in any room. He spoke in a deep voice, at a pleasant volume. I don't ever remember hearing him raise his voice to anyone, but he never had to. He loved his family with all of his heart, and treated my grandmother with respect and love. My grandmother was a strong, stubborn, loving woman. She didn't take any shit from anyone, ever. But, she obeyed and served and respected and loved my grandfather with every bone in her body. She didn't have to work, so she spent her days on the farm caring for the animals and the house. She always had dinner on the table and his clothes cleaned and pressed for work. She did anything he asked without question and always loved him. He was respected and obeyed simply by being him. He didn't demand it. He didn't expect it. He just got it. My maternal grandfather was a postman. He was tall and always smiling. He loved to kid and laugh. He also never raised his voice, and never had to. He was also respected and loved. My grandmother took care of him the same, and obeyed him in all things. She didn't have to work outside the home, so she was able to handle the house and usually watched some of the grandkids. She always had dinner on the table and his slippers at his chair. It was respectful. It was obedience. If those are what people call 50s households, then great, that's what I want. But, the man has to be the type of man that should just get that type of respect and obedience. Their kindness was never mistaken for weakness. They didn't have to prove their masculinity by a show of force. They were both examples of strong, respectful, masculine men that took their role as the head of their household very seriously. They worked hard and took care of their wives. They got the respect they deserved. You can't demand it if you don't deserve it. You can't beat it out of someone. If you think you have to, then what are you doing and how do you change it? I'm not saying that a man doesn't have to teach his woman how to show him obedience and respect. He has to teach her and discipline her so she knows her place and knows what makes him happy and what he wants to see in his woman. Some men are raised in such a way that they've lost their ability to command a room. Some men have been so emasculated that they have lost their sense of self and therefore cannot get respect. Some men think or are taught that abusing a person either emotionally or physically will get the respect they are looking for. That's not respect. That's fear. Lead by example You have to give respect to get respect Those sayings have held true for years and will continue for many more.

4/10/2017 7:57:17 PM
I speak about finding a needle in a haystack.... yet I find myself identifying with the character Kamala.  Extra points if you know who that is (hint she was on Star Trek TNG).... :)
 
The difference between us however, is that I can adjust for who I am speaking to, I don't get set in the interests of the first man I speak to.  I guess I am just the type that can talk to just about any subject, can be interested to hear about almost anything.  One would think that would make me a good sub, a good wife, yet I get left behind, abandoned, dumped.  Yes I have my set interests that I talk about in my profile, but I can show interest in just about anything.
 

4/9/2017 9:41:20 PM
Looking for the right match is certainly the ultimate needle in a haystack type search.  Every day I try to stay optimistic that the right one for me is out there... somewhere.... I convince myself that I haven't screwed up and scared him off already, that I didn't pass him up or ignore his advances.  I remain optimistic and do my best not to get snarky with those who send messages that either don't make sense, are demanding, or are simply silly. 
Years ago, God told me to be patient.  I haven't done that as well as I should have and I still have days where I'm not.  I strive to be patient.  I try so hard every day to remember that. 
It will come.  He will come. I will remain hopeful of that.  That needle is in there....  

9/30/2016 9:09:50 AM

Submission, when given to the right person, is the ultimate demonstration of love and devotion.  The love and appreciation that is returned is the perfect satisfaction of the needs and desires that burn within.  It is the feeling of belonging, safety, unconditional love, trust, and joy.  That love fuels the desire to continue submitting, to be and do anything to please and be loved in return. 

When the same submission is given to the wrong person, it leaves a feeling of emptiness, of being used and thrown away like an old worn out towel.  That fuels further depression, worthlessness, and utter loneliness.  It sparks a desperation unlike any other.  Humiliation, degradation, objectification all take on a whole new meaning in that headspace.  It becomes real, breaks the spirit, crushes the self-esteem and shatters all hope. 

The Dominant that I respond to will know and understand the difference.  He will not expect or demand that kind of gift from just any person that identifies as a sub, but will wait to find the one that fuels the desire to love, protect, and cherish her for life.

For me, this isn’t just about kinky sex.  This isn’t about showing everyone in the world what a good obedient girl I can be.  This is about deep love and true devotion.  This is about one man, one woman, sharing the rest of their lives with each other, just not exactly in the same way that the majority of the world does. 


8/10/2016 8:32:08 AM
Before we are Doms and subs, we are human beings first.  We all crave the human interaction... the affection, the touch, the attention.  I think it is important that we remember this, and when speaking to each other, we should speak as humans first, get to know each other, have good conversation, see if we even enjoy the company of each other before introducing any kind of dynamics.  Touch, attention, affection, submission.... will come naturally as it should, when it should.  Why the rush? 

I will not submit to just anyone that sends me a message.  I want to know you, the real you.  I want to know who you are as a person.  Submission should not come first.  And I will not just get on a web cam or immediately send pictures or start doing your bidding. I am a private person (And no, "private" or "discreet" does not mean "married").....

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kasumi
 
 Age: 46
 Nashville, Tennessee