4/5/2018 7:04:01 AM: This world I believe is fucked up because of all those greedy world bankers that profit from war, the exploitation of the non rich from the top, and the ignorant masse writhing around in it's own stupidity, following the one with the loudest voice. We will never unite against these sociopathic human beings that run the world from their luxurious offices atop the highest buildings. We will continue to slave away as they watch us work our asses off. Creating more profit from our ignorance. We do this, because they broadcast their TV brain-fuck from their networks. This leads to making us hate & fear each other and prevents us from seeing that our common enemy is the  capitalist system, rather those at the top who use it maliciously. It (The capitalist system) has deprived most of humanity of true humanity and made us all into money-making machines that work from sunrise to sunset. Then we (the average human being) sit and watch the idiot box which further morphs our view of reality. The brainwashing propaganda-injector says you need a better car, then you will get more respect. It says you need new clothes and you will be more beautiful. It says you need different drugs to patch over your emotional inadequacies. It controls many to an overwhelming degree.What is the deal with the news? Why are people only interested in the death, suffering, wrongdoings, and evil produced in their communities for that day/week? There has only been one actual attempt at making a positive news channel before, and it failed horribly. No one wanted to hear about a local boy overcoming cancer. No one wanted to hear about a neighborhood uniting and overcoming a social issue. No one wanted to hear about the martyrdom of a firemen, who had sacrificed himself to get a baby out of a burning building. They (The ignorant masse) want to hear about cancer deaths, community problems like racism and sexism, and how many people died in fires for that week. They want to hear about how fucked up everyone who doesn't conform is. They want to point their finger and say, 'Look at that! Thank God my family isn't THAT'. I believe the problem has been ingrained in the minds of everyone for so long, that there is no turning back. We need to see the downfall of others to justify our subconcious notion of how pointless our lives really are. We need to be reminded, 'I am so grateful that I didn't die in a car wreck today like those poor people, my life is great'! Unfortunately for these sorry bastards; these lives are not great. You go to school to get a good job. You get a good job to pay the bills. You work various jobs your entire life, then you die. Without a job you are worthless to society, why? You are not conforming to the consumerist mentality. you are not contributing to corporate moguls' yacht payments. What happened to 'America - land of the free'. More like, 'America - land of ignorant masses whose drive in life is envy. Work and make more money, so you can buy trendy goods!' I, for one, will not conform to this hollow shell of a life. The human soul is now money. Money can't buy you happiness, but it sure can subvert your feelings of worthlessness. Buying something new makes you feel good, doesn't it? It is a ubiquitous goal, money that is. Compiling it, spending it, borrowing it. This is the new slavery whether you want to admit it or not and there is no civil rights movement that will ever impede it's parasitic hold on the ingrates of America and other westernized nations.Speaking of parasitic holds, if you are not a Christian in this country you are EVIL. 76% of Americans will tell you this. Why is this religion so predominant in this country? ...Why not? Who wants to go against the herd and look at other religions and philosophies when they can conform? It used to be torture and execution, now it's social banishment and financial burden. When a co-worker finds out you follow Islam, you are Atheist, a Satanist; it is very counter-productive. It makes it harder to fit in. You need even more money, talents, and marketable goods to get to the same place as other people who are Christian. To satisfy your addiction to money and material s is to be a good little consumerist slave for daddy international banker. Many families would denounce a partner of their blood who is a non-believer. I've seen it in my own family and I see it in myself. It's quite obvious. I am a sadistic, Devil-worshiping, evil sociopath, right? Despite the judgments levied on me, I do not even believe in Satan and I am a lot more kind and caring than the majority of Christians I have encountered throughout my life.Let's switch gears. Religion and state are in the back room fucking each other, so let's change butt-darts partners for a bit. The corrupt and pathetic bi-partisan government needs to be reworked. Why should everyone have to be either a 'conservative, selfish, money-hungry, elitist, gun-toting, racist republican' or a 'minority-supporting, liberal, money-to-the-poor, homosexual, abortion-supporting democrat'. In a national election, choosing the lesser of 2 evils is almost always the case. Both candidates are merely puppets to the international banking cartels, regardless of what they state their agenda is. Whoever is the most successful liar (politician) always wins. That is, unless someone else has more money. A professional looking/speaking man with $100,000,000,000 could probably steal a presidential election handily. The media could be bought & sold like stocks & bonds. The media in this country is the 4th branch of the government nowadays in some ways. For example, if one could afford to put a commercial promoting themself on every channel/all day, their odds of winning would increase rapidly. There has never been a green party or independent president elected and there never will be. Why do they even attempt to run? Why not enact a system where you vote on each issue separately. Whichever candidate matches the most with everyone who voted is the one elected. Instead of 'this guy is republican, all republicans vote for him!' and 'democrats... vote for the democrat!' Most bandwagoners will disagree with their chosen candidate on multiple different issues. They vote anyway, knowing any independent candidate, who might fit them better, would simply be a waste of their vote. This issue needs to be addressed.Now don't take this from me wrong. Go ahead and let people conform. Allow people to live their entire life working for more money to buy that big-screen TV. Your neighbor got one after all. Allow people to follow a religion blindly relying on God to justify their pointless existence. Why? Those people are too weak for anything else. They aren't ready to live their own lives. They need the media to tell them how to act, what to wear, what to buy. Why? Without it the facade of their life's purpose will become increasingly evident. there is none.You see, in 200,000,000 years when the sun starts running out of fuel and begins to expand, the earth will be incinerated. In 10,000 years, nothing you do today will be remembered, by anyone. I'm sure a farmer in Africa had a loving wife and 3 kids, made his hut out of mud, lived off the land, and appreciated every little thing he was given. No one knows him. No one cares. You could go buy a gun, right now, walk to the nearest crowded area, and mow down 27 people. In 100 years, no one will be talking about it. No one will know your thoughts, desires, wisdom. Nothing you can do will have any impact in the large timescale.

3/30/2018 12:20:56 PM: basically how I would describe finding a Dom on here,Pink Floyd - Fearless You say the hill's too steep to climbChiding!You say you'd like to see me tryClimbing!You pick the place and I'll choose the timeAnd I'll climbThe hill in my own wayjust wait a while, for the right dayAnd as I rise above the treeline and the cloudsI look down hear the sound of the things you said todayFearlessly the idiot faced the crowd, smilingMerciless, the magistrate turns 'round, frowningand who's the fool who wears the crownGo down in your own wayAnd everyday is the right dayAnd as you rise above the fear lines in his brownYou look downHear the sound of the faces in the crowd

3/30/2018 11:31:33 AM: All of these things bother me: Impending death, old age and becoming decryptified, losing my kid or wife in a car wreck, seeing a friend suffer a cancerous death, etc.Why should I get up everyday and enable this massive energy conversion from food into effort when there is such terrible things in store in the future?Why should I attempt to get a good job just to get money just to blah blah blah blah, when in a number of years, Andromeda is going to crash into the Milky Way, annihilating the planet and all life contained therein?Why should I try to make the earth a better place when the sun is going to expand and incinerated it?Why should I do anything? Why shouldn't I just put a gun to my head right now and paint the fucking walls.I could hold up a fucking stencil cut-out behind my head with the phrase 'FUCK GOD' written on it and use brain matter as paint, but I won't.I already have done this in a way:Remember when I was listening to The Great Below, God? Remember when I was sitting in this exact location I am right now, with a 7.62x39 rifle aimed at my hypothalamus?Remember how I pulled the trigger in my fit of tears only to hear a click with no boom?A dud bullet, the most intensive depression treatment I have ever sufficed to.Suddenly, I realized that I must be here for some reason. The only explanation I could/can muster is divine intervention. Something... Somewhere... doesn't want me to die yet.Whether it be a shitty line-worker in a bullet factory in Russia or a flying spaghetti monster, doesn't matter; I know that killing myself is not the answer to, 'why try'?

3/30/2018 9:01:35 AM: Thousands of people die every day. I could be dead tomorrow. I could already be dead. The times where I most likely should have died in my life. Did those times have alternate realities where I died?A dud bullet.Ridiculous amount of stimulants.Excess and multiple opiates that multiplied.I could be dead right now, what difference would it make? How would people remember me? Would people remember me? In death, would my ideals become more powerful or begin to fade?Thousands of people die every single day. Do they live in an alternate universe? Every time someone dies, is the universe split into another? How many times have I split my own? Do I exist in other planes? Am I dead in other planes?Is my current existence merely the average of all the planes? Like the electron in the atom. Never everywhere, but seemingly never nowhere, spinning around so rapidly as to produce spheres. The average of the position. Is that what I am? The average of a position of multiple Me's?

3/30/2018 9:00:16 AM: We spend our entire lives seeking currency. So much time and energy put into seeking a piece of paper printed in a particular way with a particular set of ink prints on it. A watermark for security, microprint. Thousands of dollars put towards our vanity, making ourselves more beautiful and fashionable. Increasing the interest of the opposite sex. None of it needed for life. None of it real.There will never be enough beautifiers and material goods to make your existence justified. The more you engage in beautification, the less real you become. There is no critical point, even a tiny amount results in a tiny amount of falsification.This is not natural. If there was a creator, a God, this is not what he intended. There is no justification for the falsification. A species hell-bent on being not whatever it is. Whatever it is, is not what it wants to be. Whatever it was, if it was good, is what it is. Whatever it was that is now bad was in the past and is not what it is now.