10/27/2017 8:55:28 AM: Owned by Mstresswantsital

10/25/2017 5:28:18 PM: I am a lucky whatever I am and ready for what I will become. My life has hope and I will journey down this path, not alone. What has seemed like a life long curse of guilt and shame will become a future of unlimited possibilities. What I have been is now is the back story of my future. What I have accomplished thus far gives the blank canvas that I am a sturdy frame. 

10/6/2016 12:02:23 PM: What to do to attract an owner? Is this the right place? Is my profile important? Most messages I get are from people who have not viewed my profile. I have sent a few carefully written messages to special ladies that I think may the right match but they do not usually get read or responded to and if they do, there is no response. The females on this site are probably getting too much mail to even read. I admit, I may need an owner to relocate to me as my employer is here and I just bought a new house. If she does, I have employment and a home for us. If she chooses to work we can live even more comfortably. I know what I need and I am honest about it - this should be the place to find the most accepting Dominant owner. I am not giving up.

10/3/2016 4:44:43 PM: Life is complicated. I know what I am and where I belong. I have know since I first discovered arousal. Many years I tried to be normal and I always felt guilt and shame about what I am. I dated vanilla women and then tried to get them to play without revealing my secrets. I even tried to be vanilla - there is a part of me that is normal that gets normal things done and hangs out with normal people. I guess if I could never be what society considers normal then I would be a freak, maybe I am anyways :-)  I know what is inside of me and always has been. My ex-wife knew most everything and I think she accepted me as I was. There was a collaring, marriage, rings, tattoo, and I thought life was good although i wished she would have disciplined me more rather than keep score. I am an imperfect person even as a slave but I can do good things. Guidance and discipline are always a good things for me. I am to the point where I realize time is ticking but not to the point that I want to date vanilla women. I am serious about what I am looking for. If I contact you, I am serious. It is hard to write a good mail to someone on here and I always encourage anyone considering me to read my profile and now my journal. I will supply more pics or answer questions honestly as I don't want secrets. I am not contacting a ton of Doms as I am not looking to play, I am looking to make a commitment that society would say is very prejudiced against me and gives all the rights to my owner. This only after we meet, agree and move forward. I am not looking to be a paypig to a findom. Do you think you are too kinky, extreme, or severe for me. Knowing what I know about myself I think it unlikely and I am willing to bet my life on it.Why do I keep myself in chastity? In honesty, it feels better than being free. Given the chance, I will play with myself too often. By getting and adjusting a device that is inescapable and suitable for long term wear, I know that i can do it without regret when it is time to surrender the keys. I do many things to myself or alone so that I can offer this to an owner with complete confidence. I am a true submissive and my strength lies in knowing this. I can and have accomplished many things in the real world. I have been owned for 10 years in the past. I know that I can submit, be owned, still pass as normal, and do the things necessary to make us happy for the rest of our lives.