6/20/2017 2:30:14 AM: == Results from bdsmtest.org == 100% Switch 99% Rigger 99% Rope bunny 95% Master/Mistress 87% Owner 84% Dominant 79% Experimentalist 78% Degrader 75% Sadist 75% Pet 61% Submissive 58% Primal (Hunter) 44% Daddy/Mommy 40% Non-monogamist 38% Brat 31% Slave 28% Primal (Prey) 28% Masochist 25% Voyeur 15% Degradee 13% Boy/Girl 10% Exhibitionist 2% Ageplayer 1% Vanilla http://bdsmtest.org/result.?id=5111924

10/24/2015 6:54:56 PM: Why my inner switch can’t come out.                 My inner switch looks for something unique, something not often seen; a woman who can understand and top me without my urge to throw off the chains and put her stripped body at my feet.  Someone who knows that the whip doesn’t mean a good time for me, and doesn’t make the assumption that whipping is necessary to maintain a good sub experience for me.   My life has been hard enough without your flogging and hatred of men inflicting agony on me because you think it is necessary.  I will close up and fail to react;  FYI:  You are making me relive some of the MOST HATED times of my life and I am drawing on the rage and the silence of my mind to keep from reacting the way I want to react; go too far and you will unleash a Frankenstein of your own creation. Sometimes, I feel that merely talking to the potential Mistresses is absolutely pointless.  You “listen” and then promptly ignore what I say and do what you want anyway, after all what am I but a weak little man for you to dominate and enact your sexual rage on? Then you chase and berate me for calling you stupid and safe-wording five minutes in, or not reacting to your pathetic attempts to break me. Alternatively when you see my list of limits, you run away because I seem like a waste of time because you can’t figure out what to do with me.  Your lack of imagination offends me, deeply.  I work hard to come up with new scenes tailored around my sub’s likes, hates, limits, and loves.  I work two jobs; have a family that takes up a lot of time, and a mate.  And I can do this without multitasking.  Surely you wannabe Mistresses can spend an hour or two before going out for beers with your girlfriends to get creative.                  Yes, this may seem a harsh commentary to some.  The tone may sound mocking, and it is intended to be this way.  I am no longer looking for a Mistress anymore; my mate is more than enough for me… maybe too much sometimes.  I just had to write this after watching a particularly pathetic Mistress ravage her sub, after he had already listed off some hard limits and she deliberately violated them.  I called her on that behavior and got back that she was pushing his limits.  The sub was strangely silent and left the chatroom soon after and I received a note, “Thank you for standing up for me.”   She was still protesting her rights to do whatever she wanted to her slave, till I asked her what her hard limits were.                  In the past, I have dallied with Mistresses just like her that believes, mistakenly, that a male is inferior to her and treats them like crap.  I have read posts that have made me sick to my stomach, (or violently wrathful), about behaviors that are best described as despicable in my humble opinion.  I get that there are masochists out there, and sadists.   I get that there are some places they find acceptable to go that I find repulsive.  Maybe it is just me, and my younger years and the abuses.  Maybe it results from the reading I do of history; that I find the pussification of the male gender repulsive, the exaltation of the female gender ridiculous, and the neuteropia that political correctness wants utterly insane.  Nature has not condoned this and who are we to deny nature’s prerogatives?  Culture cannot override our genetic imperatives forever.  Each gender has a place, unique to itself. Each person has their likes and dislikes.                  I get that you want to push limits; I truly do get that, after all, this whole lifestyle is about pushing our boundaries sometimes.  Merely asking those of you who read me, are you pushing boundaries for my sake, or because you don’t know how to change?