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New audio journal!
femdomdiaries.podbean.com/
No download, no sign up, no cost. |
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I go to upload a new pic and apparently all my pics deleted instead. Grr. I’ll just have to do it later on my comp. this site is so frustrating |
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I broke my leg.
Not even joking, I fractured my fibula and ankle monday night falling 8 inches off a platform.
Worst 8 inches I’ve ever taken.
Spellbound is fucking amazing and taking care of me as I literally hobble to the bathroom a glorious mound of agony and curse words.
Fortunately it seems I won’t need surgery! We won’t know for sure till next week though. Unfortunatel, I cannot put any weight on my leg for at least three week so I’m confined to my bed or a wheelchair.
As far as those asking if I need anything else, not at the moment beside some more pain meds and Pharmacy’s shouldn’t have closed hours.
This does mean my kink hiatus will be lasting longer than I had anticipated. I will still be at the mixer I planned in my wheelchair, so you can meet me there. Beyond that though it’s too difficult to get out and meet/have coffee with anyone right now. Sooo....
This also means my search for a sub is also on hiatus.
Let me say that pain only makes me more sarcastic and fiery tempered and that is a dangerous quality I don’t need to inflict on the sub male population of dallas.
While I appreciate the offering of service during this shifty time, I just can’t have strangers in my house I haven’t met before, even if they have sweet intentions.
Thank you all for the love and support! Please keep offering it cause I’m sure eventually I’ll be stuck on the ground and frantically texting someone to help me.
Thank you!
A |
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New audio journal!
femdomdiaries.podbean.com/
No download, no sign up, no cost.
I talk about my most most valued trait in a submissive, what I would do with a butler, and an update on my search. (Which is none lol still slaveless) |
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It is officially my birthday! I am turning the big 30 and I have to say I am excited. I keep hearing that the 30’s are the best years of a persons life and I have a pretty awesome life as it is so if it can get even better then I’m looking forward to seeing it! |
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I need people to start doing a snow dance. I really don’t want to go to school tomorrow. |
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I’ve had a fun day playing civ 6, doing some kink play and chilling at home. If only I had a sub to play with and to sleep at the foot of my bed as I drift off, then it would have been a great day. |
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Woot new audio journal!
femdomdiaries.podbean.com/
No download or payment required :)
I talk about standing me up, ghosting, pay for play and why I won’t talk about my ex’s! |
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New audio journal! How my poly works.
femdomdiaries.podbean.com/
Free site, no downloads or sign up to listen. CS is stupid to record audio journals on. |
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New audio journal! How to keep my attention when talking to me. Aka treat me like a human.
femdomdiaries.podbean.com/
Free site, no downloads or sign up to listen. CS is stupid to record audio journals on. |
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I'm so tired of people trying to catfish. Either send your real pic or dont send one at all.
I get not having one on a profile, I don't either. But when we get to know eachother and I send a real pic, don't lie and pretend someone else is you. It's insulting. |
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I spent my night setting people on fire! it was amazing!!! I also took video :) itsjust YouTube not a scam link lol
https://youtu.be/HbI_2G5QDe0 |
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New audio journal! My views on sex slaves/oral servitude.
femdomdiaries.podbean.com/ |
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New audio journal! I don't talk about anything specific as a theme but there are some updates about the dallas community!! http://femdomdiaries.podbean.com/ |
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I am decked out head to toe in leather and heading out to the strip club with my friends! I'm so excited for this night!! I have the best life, the only thing that could make it better is my own slave to attend me at the club. |
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New audio journal!
http://femdomdiaries.podbean.com/
About my New Years and being treated like a fetish delivery system. |
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Well I got stood up by the sub I was talking to, but it was still a fantastic night! I rang in the new year surrounded by friends and bruised asses! Nothin like New Years at a dungeon! My kink calendar is filled up for January. Lots of pamper parties, which is good because I'm desperate for a foot massage! |
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I love when people try to catfish me and I call them out on it. HELLO! I was not born yesterday. I know how to reverse google image search. If you can't put a pic up of you, that's cool. But don't use some model or actor and try to pretend it is you. |
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Finally home! It took me 10 minutes to get in the door, unpack and draw myself a bubble bath. It would have been better if I had a slave to do that for me though. *wink* |
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Took forever but I'm finally settled in Houston. My suite is awesome!! Time for a relaxing bubble bath! |
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Random question time! Are there any other good bdsm search sites I should look into? I'm on here and fet the most. Alt.com is crap unless you shell out for it and Whiplr just crashed all the time. I feel like I want to widen my search. |
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I feel like I can go from talking to 12 potential subs to 0 in like 6 hours. Anyone else get that? |
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I've never enjoyed the idea of foot fetish, but I've been reading up on it and I'm quite intrigued. It's something I am looking to explore. :) |
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Ok. Screaming in your journal that you don't want femdoms or males looking at your profile is really silly and childish.
How will they see that entry unless they look at your profile you nitwit?
If you don't want people looking at your profile then take it down! Sheesh |
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I've gotten a lot of messages lately about my journal on here. If there is a certain topic you want me to talk about just let me know :) |
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I figured out audio journals! Then realized that it gets cut off at 4 mins. Oh well the basic gist of that journal was given. I'll watch the time more closely in future audio journals. |
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After today I'm going to post happier journals, I feel like my journal has started to become one big bitch session.
After today though..
So I want to address why I didn't respond to you, or why I blocked you.
For not responding, 9 times out of 10 I found your message unoriginal, boring, or I just didn't think we were compatible for an obvious reason. Like your profile says how much you LOVE sissification yet mine says I don't like it...you obviously didn't read my profile or you intentionally chose to spam me hoping someone would bite.
If I truly think your message was stupid, I will call you out. So have no fear there lol.
Now, if I blocked you its for one of two reasons. 1. You sent me the same message over and over again and you are just annoying me. Take the hint dude when I didn't reply the first 7 times. Or 2. Your message was so grotesque or off putting (or had unsolicited dick pics) and I didn't want to risk having to see that twice.
I promise you, if I read your message and didn't respond, it wasn't because I forgot. I will always respond if I'm interested.
And I have 0 problems sending the first message. I do it all the time when I see something or someone interesting. |
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I haven't posted in a while, life has been a little crazy.
Ive had a stream of boys lately messaging me randomly after they had been vanished for several months.
Whatever the reason they had poofed then later realized they had made a mistake.
I will often agree to talk to them again but that is the last time. If they poof again then they know to not even bother messaging me again.
And by poofing, I mean no corresponding for a week.
I'm a tolerant person, but in a week you should have been able to at least send a quick message like "work is hectic, I may be offline for a week or so".
There is no reason to not be able to do that much.
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I have hid and unhid my profile about 8 times in the last two days. My school semester just started and I'm already really overwhelmed. I keep hiding the profile and telling myself not to pursue anything till I have my schedule to rights, but then I have free time and wish I had a fun person to talk to and I hide it. Sigh |
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I figured I would start recording audio journals instead of typing them all out, then I realized that the function isnt working on here. Of course it isnt working, it's collarspace! What else should I expect? |
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"I want to be taken to hooters dressed as a woman and humiliated by the waitresses as they put lipstick on me and mock me"
Ummmm....no? Actually, let me clarify. Fuck no.
I'm not into violating consent, and including people in your kink that did not ask to be included would violate their consent. Additionally, fucking children could be at the restaurant!
I'm not about shocking the vanillas. If they wanted to get in on kinky games then they would have found the community.
This is so very logical to me, yet so few seem to understand it.
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It is a hot fantasy to be locked away in a cage 24/7 and only let out to serve or be used. To be out of site till I ring that little bell summoning you to me. You love the idea of giving up your life. Your hopes, desires, dreams and ambitions all swept away with the flick of my hand to become a full time slave with no limits or escape ability.
But, this is all a fantasy. I want a 24/7 slave, eventually. But even as a full time sub you would have your own room and bed. You would be allowed to go hang out with friends or watch a movie with us.
24/7 slavery is incredibly difficult and exhausting! We firmly believe that slaves need some time off, or away too.
So while the fantasy seems incredibly hot, please don't try to goad me into giving you wank fodder. For one, I can see right through that, two I won't give in, I am far too pratical and want my sub to be happy and healthy. And part of that is learning when to take care of yourself. |
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Hanging out at the pool! What cabana boy is going to bring me a drink? |
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Let's get one thing straight. I am not into sissification or "forced" feminization because I see it as insulting. Do others see it as insulting? Nope, and that's cool whatever floats your boat. But when I hear someone say I want to be "Humiliated and dressed like a woman" that irks me.
What is humiliating about dressing as a woman? I dress like a woman, should I be humiliated?
I would be more humiliated that I cant get past cultural guidelines to accept the fact that I want to dress in a more traditional female way.
I had someone tell me he dressed "like an alpha" most of the times. I asked him to clarify and was told he meant like a man.
Does that mean I am a beta because I dress as a female? Since when did our clothes define our personal interests and kinks?
I am hardly a feminist, I consider myself more of a humanist. BUT I will NOT tolerate someone spouting off hetero normative bull shit to me in the name of kink.
I am wearing a t-shirt and jeans today, since that is traditionally mens clothes does that mean I get to be a Domme today? If I change into a skirt later am I supposed to act more like a beta and feel humiliated by my feminine clothes?
I am so annoyed right now, and it has been several hours since it all went down. |
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I've said it a few times but it's been a while so let me repeat it again. I will not take money from anyone in any form. I am not a pro Dom or findom. No offense to those that are, but it's not my scene. If you are eager to give your money away then go find one of them. I cannot feel like there is an exchange of goods when I am trying to form a relationship.
If you message me and talk about money, I will block you. |
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This describes me perfectly. Like scary accurate. I am an ISTJ
http://www.personalitypage.com/ISTJ.html |
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A friend on another site said this and I think it is perfect.
There are boys, then there are boys with the heart of a servant. |
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One comment I get a lot is people not wanting to contact me because my kinky loves go a bit extreme. Do I want to stab cute boys with needles, carve them with scalpels, and set them on fire? Uhhhh....duh! Lol. BUT I have other kinky pastimes that are much more tame. As long as a boy fit me service and basic kink wise then I can forgo the extra fun stabby parts. |
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I know I've said this before, but making me feel like I'm just in a long list of copy and paste messages is not going to win my affections.
It's really funny when they spam multiple femdoms in my area. WE TALK! I see them at the dungeon or parties, we all know you spammed us all.
Making me feel like you want to be with me because I'm anyone is not attractive. |
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Pick up play is not my thing. I am all about safety, mine and yours. After chatting a bit I will want to meet, but it would be for coffee. I will never meet at a hotel, go to your place, or allow you to my place until I know you better. And if you push too hard against this rule you really just show a lack of consideration for my safety. |
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Just FYI, if I enjoy talking to you I will very quickly ask to change over to skype. I don't charge to skype and don't expect voice. We can just text. But the longer I stay online on the CS website the more flooded my inbox gets with crazies lol. I'd prefer to chat on skype where it's easier. |
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I have to be honest, I get several messages a day from "submissive" men who are listed as dominants in their profile and talk about seeking a slave of their own. Now don't get me wrong, I have 0 problems with someone being a switch. But this whole "I'm actually a sub not a Dom and I just haven't gotten around to switching my profile" stick feels a bit fake to me. It literally takes 4 clicks to change your status on here. Either you're lazy, playing me, or are just looking for anyone to play with and can't decide what you want so you'll try to get it all. Whatever it is, I don't like it. |
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How does one claim to be a virgin in their profile then talk about their biological son in their journal?
#immaculateconceptionofBDSM |
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I got a message today that my profile triggered someone who has a psychological issue with needles and blood. And they got even more upset when I said sorry you experience that but I'm not changing my profile.
So let's talk about triggers...
If you have them, I truly am sorry. I am especially sorry that you went through some type of trauma to receive that trigger.
BUT you cannot hold the rest of the 6 billion humans on earth responsible and require us to cater to your triggers.
Did my profile set you off? Then block me so you won't have to see it again.
I guess end of rant, I was just annoyed by the logic or lack there of. |
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I just got off a 14 hour work day. I'd kill for a foot massage. Sigh. I need a boy. |
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Random note, I've recently decided to get back into SCA so a slave in that or interested in it would be awesome. Camping would be so much easier with a slave fawning over me. Just sayin ;) |
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It's been a few months since I posted a journal. Life has been quiet, a few parties here and there but I have no subs of my own so I often go just to socialize. Spellbound did get me some new floggers. They are ironman floggers!!! My favorite toys ever!!! On a separate note, I would really love a massage right now. Just sayin. |
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you know it's a great night when scantily clad boys bring you chocolate and roses. :) |
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Fun night at the dungeon! Naked hot tub time, cards against humanity, and lots of drinking lol. Fun time was had by all :) |
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Well my birthday has come and gone. I changed my age on my profile, I'm 28 now. This does mark the 10 year anniversary of me first putting up a collar me profile. Of course I was COMPLETLY different then. I've met a few boys lately but none seem to be keeping my interest. I don't know why, they are perfectly nice and compatiable. Maybe I'm just in a weird mood. |
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Are you looking to have your wildest fantasies fulfilled? Do you want a woman who lives in her latex and leather? Do you want to be sexually used and played with constantly and live no other life than the kinky one?
Then go away. I'm not for you. I have a normal life that I really enjoy, kink just adds to it. I talk about normal things, I wear t-shirts and jeans, and I have hobbies outside my playroom.
I have no desire to be Insta-Domme: just add water. |
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I just got home from an awesome club fem party. I had the most amazing massage. It was pure bliss!!! Plus service from a lot of scantily clad boys. ;) |
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My birthday is coming up. I feel so old! :( I'm turning 28. I'm getting to that point where people stop dismissing everything I say as "ack, you're young, just wait!"
I am having a kinky party at my place though. I need to plan some fun shenanigans. At spellbound party we had a naked woman serving as an ice cream candy bar. It was awesome, but I need to think of a way of topping it. (I caught the irony in that lol).
On a separate note, this also means my accepted age range is going up too. I typically look for people no more than 20 years older than me. Often someone will message outside of that range and they will sound interesting, but inevitably I'm reminded of the vast difference in ages and decide to move on.
So anyone 38 and younger, but preferably over 21 can message me.
Make sure to wish my happy birthday and send me some cake! |
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Day after Christmas and I was wearing a tshirt today and now I'm dodging tornados. Weird season! |
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Wow. Someone just had the nerve to get mad at me for viewing his profile even though he is a collared slave. He said it's rude to view profiles of other people's property.
1. If you're owned and testy about it then why are you even here?
2. How am I supposed to know you're owned without reading it while VIEWING your profile?
Dumbass. |
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Collarspace has been quiet for me lately. How strange. I have noticed a strange influx of vanishing subs all of a sudden though. Maybe there is a correlation.
I do have a play date at the NYE party to use my new violet wand. (Yay!!!) I am so excited!!!!!! |
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I love reading journals on here, it's a guilty pleasure of mine...but I get annoyed with the findoms demanding gift cards and cash every other post. It's all about "Me. Me. Me"
So I've decided to talk about the opposite of that!
My SO is hosting a game tomorrow where the entrance fee is a new toy that will go to charity. We are too late to give them to toys for tots so I've been doing a lot of searching and think I found a good place to take them to. It's a local shelter for women and children that are victims of domestic abuse.
I really really really really want to wrap each gift and put a bow on it so the kids will have something to actually unwrap on Christmas, but they require that all gifts be unwrapped.
It still makes me feel super good to know I'm making a kid a little happier this week. I love this feeling. :) |
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I like porn. (Who doesn't right??) but I find it odd that I almost exclusively prefer to play with boys, but I love watching girls getting tortured in my porn. I really love tit bondage and clamps etc... Maybe I should seek out a girl and try this out. |
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I had the most amazing night tonight at sanctuary! I did a very involved needle scene with my favorite bottom and turned her into a Christmas tree! Lights and all!!! I will post pictures tomorrow. I love being out in my community. I get to do play I would rarely get to do on a more regular basis. |
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Wow! That sure is a nice picture you have there, with your dirty tub, streaked mirror, laundry on the floor, or unmade bed in the background. Please tell me again how much you want to be my maid and do domestic work around my house.... *sigh* |
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I confess. I'm not a true Domme.
I'm a fake.
I don't believe that because I have a vagina I'm entitled to use, degrade, and own every male that walks by me.
I'll put my Domme card in the mail to return on Monday. I need one more weekend of play before I hang up my whips forever.
Maybe one day I'll get over this asinine notion that all genders are equal until they choose to submit, but I've gotta be honest....I may be fucked for life.
Meh. Not a bad way to go. Fucked for life.
Ps. If you take this journal entry seriously then please don't message me trying to cure me of my humanist thoughts. |
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I just got a new strap, and Spellbound has promised me a kinky Christmas gift. (I'm think it may be electric!!!) I am ready to open presents and play! |
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The word is flogged not flocked. If I read another journal entry about being flocked and flocked then I will never take you serious because all I can imagine is a flock of birds hitting you! |
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I am going to let you in on another little secret... You can send me the most amazing, well thought out e-mail, but if I go to your profile and see your dirty laundry about past relationships then I will not respond. At all.
I absolutely hate people coming online and posting journals about how unhappy they are in their relationship, or complaining about their Dominant, or going into details about past relationships in a negative way.
If I have a problem with one of my partners, then they are the ONLY one that I will discuss it with. It is just the classy thing to do. No one wants to log onto a site and see journal entries from their sub bitching about how terrible they are!
People who post these kinds of things come off as drama whores and attention seekers. I want a man who can keep his mouth closed and act with dignity and respect me, online and off.
And of course, I will do the same. You will never see one of those types of posts by me. Even if we broke up, I still would never post something like that. It seems so childish to me.
Keep your dirty panties to yourself. Go fix your relationship rather than bitching about it for sympathy.
*mic drop* |
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I just read a male sub profile demanding to be wined and dined and demanding tribute for playing with him. (Even though he is supposedly incredibly wealthy).
I have officially seen it all!
Dear god, how do these people function in life? BDSM is not a fucking Ponzi scheme to get rich quick. I don't care what side of the slash you are on! |
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Fun night! I went to Dominion for spanksgiving dinner. The ladies all arrived then we caught an uber to go have drinks while the boys (servants) cooked and prepared the meal. When we got back they served us all our food and desserts and as a thank you to the boys we have them each spankings. Some personal attention as a reward for working hard. |
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I had a fantastic night with my boy at Dominion last night! So much moaning and screaming in the dungeon that it was hard to tell what was pain and what was fucking! I had a nice long scene with my pet. He was all nice and marked still this morning! Now off to the next dungeon party at Sanctuary tonight!!! I'm so excited! |
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Nothing says Lazy to me more than a blank profile.
If you send me a message, the first thing I do is go read your profile. If it's blank then I have NOTHING to go on.
I know, I know, everyone hates writing about themselves. But take the effort to at least answer some of the basic questions that EVERYONE asks.
What are you into?
What experience do you have?
What type of situation/relationship do you seek?
What are your biggest fetishes?
What are your limits?
And the whole "no one reads profiles" argument is bullshit. People who are seriously interested and seeking will take the time to read a profile.
Grr. Its so easy, and yet so many can't figure this out. They will be the first to complain that there are no real Dommes on this site though. I promise you that! |
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Call me Monkey. Yes, I typed it correctly. Not goddess, miss, ma'am, princess, mistress, or grand high poobah. Although if you can figure out what mistress in Klingon is, you may call me that.
I actually have reasons for this preference.
1. I dislike arbitrary titles. They seem fake and un genuine.
2. This tells me if you actually read my profile or if I'm just another in a long stream of copy and paste messages.
3. I only allow my subs that I have a long term commitment with to use a title. It's an honor they work for.
4. Using a title has become so commonplace in BDSM that it requires more thinking power to not use them. By requiring I be addressed as Monkey, I'm almost guaranteeing that your thinking a bit more about what you are saying/typing.
5. By insisting that you still call me whatever your flavor of title is, you are basically telling me that either your kink is more important more than mine, you can't follow directions, or you're going to top from the bottom.
I don't care what reasons you give. If you cannot follow a simple request then I have no time for you. |
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Money. FinDom. Financial Domination. Pay Play. Whatever it's called, it's not my kink. Don't get me wrong, I respect the hell out of Dominatrix's that are successful in their field. I know a local one that puts more time and energy into her craft than I do for my own career.
But just because you have a vagina, that does not entitle you to be paid for BDSM. Some how the rumor spread that if you are a total bitch to guys, they will fall head over heels and pay you for the luxury of being a door mat.
If you are going to demand financial tribute, then at least offer up goods in return. Too many of these financial Dommes are offering low quality BDSM, and have no idea what they are doing.
Have some pride. Learn some skills. People pay more at Chanel than they do at Walmart. |
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If u can only spk in txt speech then dnt bother mssg me.
I prefer sentences. I am hardly the grammar police, but at least make an effort. Spell check is free people.
http://freespellcheckers.com |
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I love reading journals on here. I just like knowing about people. Often I see entries about a new collaring and how much they love and adore their new owner/sub. Then literally days later the same user posts again about how they were fake, or a scammer,or not a true BDSMer.
How are you not embarrassed? I'm embarrassed for you!
Where are the standards?
Where is the getting to know you phase before the "kneel bitch" part?
I fully recognize that I can enjoy talking to someone and love their company without trying to own them.
I can also see that these types of relationships take time to build and deploy. Stop being in such a rush!
This isn't kindergarten. There is no "do you want to be my slave? Circle yes or no". With me, once I collar, it's with someone I see for the long haul.
You won't be my slave just till recess. |
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One of the least appealing qualities I keep seeing over and over again is desperation. I get it, you want this lifestyle, you need it, you crave it and you will do whatever it takes to obtain it as quick as possible. But in reality, you are so desperate that you will take anyone because they give you the time of day. I don't want to be your anyone. Step away, take a breather, and learn to enjoy your own company. Women are far more attracted to men that are secure and confident. Please stop making me feel like I'm the next best wank fodder to porn. I'm worth more than my pulse and vagina. |
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I thought I would mention, I love a clean cut guy. I don't care how big (or little) your cock is, and I don't care if you have 6 pack abs. But if you look good in a full suit? Then get your ass over here so I can rip it off! (Nicely). |
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Why is it that all of the hottest sub guys with great profiles are overseas? I think this is a conspiracy. |
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