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Cute Twin Cities submissive BBW is still seeking her first REAL Dom and D/s relationship... Hello! While I am very new to this lifestyle, it is only because I have next to zero experience with a lot of things. My interest in the lifestyle and my feelings for being submissive have been present for several years. I've had a desire to please and be trained for quite some time now. If it says curious or beginner, it means beginner or I probably have no experience with it at all, but I want to. I am single, never been married, and have zero children. I have nothing to tie me down and that gives me freedom, which I enjoy to the fullest. I am looking for someone local to me who wants to help me achieve some of my recently awakened desires. I have finally made my first step in to submission- to myself - and have admitted to myself that I have these desires and wants and needs and sexual fantasies that I want to do and try. While I am open to having play dates and having fun, I am ultimately looking for a long term relationship with someone who knows the most intimate parts of me... Unfortunately, I have yet to find a man I feel comfortable with and trust to be my REAL first Dom, Daddy, AND intimate partner to truly see what I want and who I am. Do not message me and immediately ask me to send pictures when we haven't even known each other for any period of time. There is a reason I don't have a pic up, and when it comes to that time, I will gladly share with the right person. I am not interested in a Dom teacher who wants a Poly relationship, or is married or attached and has to hide me away and be "discrete." I fucking hate hearing that. If you are just out to cheat on your wife, move along... I would much rather be with someone and I know that I can only truly submit to someone who isn't giving a huge part of their life to another female. I do not want to share you with someone else, and I do not want to lie awake alone at night while you lie next to your wife. While I will may converse with those of you who are married, that is as far as it will go for me. I will not get involved in your relationship situation, even if you have permission from her to do so. I am not looking for someone who just simply wants to teach and that is it, or wants to add me to a long list of subbies at his whims. Like I said before, I seek a LTR ultimately. If you are already involved with someone else, you are unavailable for that kind of relationship with me. I am just not going to set myself up for a more than likely inevitable heartbreak. Things I'm NOT into, and never will be... I am not into: watersports, rubber fetishes, being poked with needles, being wrapped in plastic, wearing a mask or a gas mask or getting fucked by someone in a mask, wearing a diaper or turned into a Hucow or a Pig, beastiality, being shit on or shitting on someone else, latex suits, wearing a strap-on, cross dressing, being bred, torturing your balls or cock (I love a good looking cock, no way I would want to hurt it!) Not into the idea of making out with a chick or doing anything really with a female... I like dick, what can I say?? I'm not into swinging. I do not want to sit on your face and suffocate you or watch you try to hang yourself. I don't want my toes licked, and I do not want to be the dominant one. I am not your pet or animal or puppy or pony. I like to call the right man Daddy, but not looking to act like a child or play out any Daddy/Daughter fantasies. I really am not too fond of the idea of being whipped or being made to be in excruciating pain. I do like some pain and would like to see how far that goes but I am not in to getting off from it or you getting off from seeing me bleed. I don't want to be milked or have my beautiful and very sensitive nipples stretched out. I am not into TPE unless it would be with my trusted partner, someone that I am only with exclusively and they are with me. If I am exclusive to you and only you, and I let you own me, you own only me. And, I don't want to share you with someone else. I have a huge sexual appetite and want it all the time. I have a strong desire and urge to have sex often (multiple times a day) so you should be able to fulfill your kinks with me and only me if we were in that kind of relationship. If I met someone who was into all the things I am and wanted me and only me to be his personal little sex toy, I would be ok with that. We would be very happy together, I am sure :) Things I am in to or want to try... I guess this would be more of a list of things I want to try and experiment with, most all I have zero experience with: Orgasm control, dildos, sex toys, anal plugs, long term submission or duration restriction for use, hard restrictive styles, nipple clamps, pussy clamps, vibrators, anal hooks, posture bars, ropes and rope suspension, ties, gags, cuffs, drunk play, sleep play, anal sex and play, floggers, public play, collars, corsets, shibari, light pain pleasures (no blood or piercing) light slapping and hairpulling, light choking, clitoral stimulation and squirting, breast and nipple play, shackles and bars, double penetration, triple penetration, bondage, sensory deprivation, slings, remote controlled toys and vibrators, light punishment and pain, benches, spreaders, rods, spanking, roleplay, forced orgasm, gagging, deepthroating, rough or hard fucking, rough nipple stimulation, harnesses, possible multiple men or threesome, and ultimately multiple kinds of submission to the right man. I also just wanted to share that I am considered a BBW by most. And yes, the second 'B' does stand for 'Beautiful' - I'm told it all the time and starting to finally believe it LoL. At 5'10 - 5'11, and weighing right around 220 pounds, I am not a twig girl. I am not sickeningly obese, I am not so large that I need a hover round to go through the grocery store. I am also not a petite thing or considered skinny. This doesn't mean I am lazy, which is a common misconception. I love to bike, hike, go for walks, play frisbee golf, croquet, bocce ball and other outdoor games, and am very active in the summer. Hell, I even love going to the gym but haven't had the extra income since I moved to Minneapolis to go. I am comfortable in my own skin, and like myself enough to try to continue to lose weight. I am not interested in someone trying to make me lose weight. If I do it, it's because I want to for myself, not because I have some clown making me feel like less of a person on the inside because of who I am on the outside. Some guys just can't get into girls that are bigger, and that's ok. For me, I have a really hard time getting attracted to someone who is younger than me or shorter than me or we're so close to height it's hard to tell who is actually taller. I like to look up at my man, in more ways than one. In my vanilla life I am: a transplant from another state, a musician, funny, sweet, talkative, an extrovert, and a truly caring person... I like to play and listen to music, go to festivals and concerts, dance, drink, socialize, fish, go camping, cook, draw, write, paint, be creative, travel, play games, be spontaneous, be outside, watch movies, learn new things, meet new people, explore, and be a good person... I am in to all kinds of things and find joys in many aspects of life. == Results from ://bdsmtest.org/ == Taken 1-31-18 100% Submissive 97% Rope bunny 97% Brat 92% Slave 83% Degradee 83% Boy/Girl 72% Masochist 68% Experimentalist 48% Primal (Prey) 47% Pet 47% Ageplayer 16% Vanilla 12% Non-monogamist 5% Exhibitionist 4% Voyeur 1% Primal (Hunter) 1% Daddy/Mommy 0% Rigger 0% Dominant 0% Degrader 0% Owner 0% Master/Mistress 0% Sadist 0% Switch ://bdsmtest.org/r/7774154 If any of this has interested you, message me :)

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5/18/2014 2:12:24 PM

ABOUT ME ~ THE BASICS

 

General Disposition: Submissive/Daddy's Girl/Kinkster

Orientation: Straight – Monogomous

Birthday: May 1983
Ethnicity: Caucasian – German/Bohemian

Height: 5’10-11

Weight: About 220

Eye Color: Hazel/Green Gold

Body Style: A little more to <3

Hair Color: Currently Reddish Auburn/Originally Reddish Brown
Marital Status: Single/Never Married
Children: Zero

Want Kids: Maybe, Maybe not- could go either way

Pets: None currently, but I love most all animals and am not allergic to them

Education: High School Diploma/Some Advanced Schooling/Planning to go to College

Occupation: Bartender/Cocktail Waitress

Home State/Origination: South Dakota
Tattoos/Piercings: One Tattoo (so far, want a couple more, maybe two) Ears pierced four times each
Best Feature: My Eyes, My Hair, Always smell good
Cigarettes: Quit :) 
Alcohol: Socially

 

Do I Believe in:
God/Religion: Christian – Not a regular church go-er
Politics: Independent – Not a very Political Person
Aliens: May Exist
Magic: No, they’re Illusions
Karma: Most Definitely
Vampires/Werewolves/Mummies/Zombies: C’mon!
An Afterlife: That’s a deep question, I have mixed feelings
Evolution: Same as above, mixed feelings for sure
Government: I believe it’s there (obviously) but I don’t have much faith in it
Coincidences: Most Definitely

 

Biggest Fears: House Fires, Spiders, losing my teeth (have reoccurring dreams where my teeth are falling out) Needles/Shots, Death

 

Biggest Dreams: Going to School, Getting a House, Getting Married, Being Happy, Being Successful in Life in general, Giving as much Love as possible to my Family and Friends

Likes/Favorites:
Music: Classic Rock, Alternative, 70’s R&B, 90’s, 80’s, Pretty much anything but Country or Hip Hop
Movies: Comedies, Television Series, Action, Cartoons, Suspense, Musicals
Cuisine: Mexican, Italian, Home cooked meals
Drink: Water, Mountain Dew or Mello Yellow, Wine, Jagermeister, Grain Belt Premium, Leinenkugel’s… many more
Holiday: St. Patrick’s Day, 4th of July
Sports: Love Football – GO PACK GO!!!, Hockey – Wild, Baseball – Twins, College – Mizzou
Numbers: 21, 13, 9, 7, 3

Hobbies & Interests:
Camping, Cooking, Crafts, Drawing, Painting, Watching Movies, Hanging out with Friends and Family, Traveling, Driving, Watching Sports, Going to Concerts, Listening to Music, Writing, Reading, Playing Guitar or Viola, Going to Karaoke, Playing Pool, Playing Darts, Cribbage, Dominoes, Board Games (Parcheesi, Sorry, Aggravation, Scattergories, etc.) Uno, Playing Video Games, Scouring the Internet, Word Games (Crossword Puzzles, Word Searches, Jumble, etc.) Sudoku, Fishing, Taking Pictures, Crocheting, Making My Own Clothes/Jewelry, Sewing, Learning, Astronomy, Astrology, Sign Language, Photography, Graphic Design, Journalism, Crafting, Making Costumes

 


2/18/2014 7:48:51 PM

February 18th and Page 45...

 

Tonight as I scrolled through my Facebook feed I noticed a couple things that I found interesting, and I decided I wanted to write about it.

 

First of all, apparently February 18th is National "Drink Wine Day" - never knew that! Not like I needed an excuse to enjoy a glass of wine LoL Here I sit with a great glass of Riesling... So, Cheers!

 

(If you were interested, February 18th is also: National Battery Day, National Thumb Appreciation Day, and Single Tasking Day)

 

The second thing that piqued my interest was a status that said something along the lines of "Grab the closest book to you, and turn to page 45. What is written is a description of your love life and your romantic future."

 

I looked around to see the book nearest to me. My Grandma passed away last fall, and when we went to her house to help pack things, I came across a book that I really liked and my family saw I had an appreciation for it and said I should have it. It is a 1884 and 1885 Thomas Y. Crowell & Co. copyright edition of 'Red Letter Poems'. It has works written by such greats as Emily Bronte, John Keats, Sir Walter Scott, and many others. Being a writer and poet, and having a love for literature, I was ecstatic to have it. Setting on my night stand, it was the closest book to me, so I grabbed it and turned to page 45. What I found really intrigued me, and I thought was quite a good read regardless, and I wanted to share with someone else.

 

William Shakespeare

'The Power of Love'

from Love's Labour's Lost

 

BUT love, first learned in a lady's eyes,

Lives not alone immured in the brain;

But, with the motion of all the elements,

Courses as swift as thought in every power;

And gives to every power a double power,

Above their functions and their offices.

It adds a precious seeing to the eye:

A lover's eyes will gaze an Eagle blind;

A lover's ear will hear the lowest sound,

When the suspicious head of theft is stopp'd;

Love's feeling is more soft and sensible

Than are the tender horns of cockled snails;

Love's tongue proves dainty Bacchus gross in taste;

For valor, is not love a Hercules,

Still climbing trees in Hesperides?

Subtle as a sphinx; as sweet and musical

As bright Apollo's lute, strung with his hair;

And, when love speaks, the voice of all the Gods

Makes heaven drowsy with harmony,

Never durst poet touch a pen to write

Until his ink were temper'd with love's sighs:

O, then his lines would ravage savage ears,

And plant in Tyrants mild humanity.


2/7/2014 11:27:32 AM

How I feel about Online Dating and all that...


I'm no stranger to computers, the internet, or online websites for personals or internet communities. My father was a computer programmer, so I have been using a computer for playing games, writing stories and what not since I was about 5 yeas old. I first started my voyage onto the internet when I was 16, and have used everything from AIM, Yahoo Messenger, MSN Messenger, ICQ, Skype, and KiK for chatting, as well as used sites such as Myspace, Facebook, Tagged, Meetme (formerly known as MyYeardbook) as well as chat rooms on POGO and other gaming sites. So, I am pretty well versed and experienced in the Internet communications world, and have encountered all kinds of people.


On my Facebook, all are people I know personally, from school or work or friends and family. There is only maybe 2 people out of over 400 friends that I have never actually met in person. I haven't used Myspace in so long, I wonder if I even have an account anymore. Meetme is pretty lame, mostly all people looking to fuck. When the site was first started, it was MyYearbook, and it was an alternative site for people who didn't have college email id's and therefore couldn't use Facebook. Yes, there was a time when only certain people could get a Facebook account. Now, you can make one for your Cat, or even your imaginary friend or alternate personality. They really changed their perspective on that whole thing LoL. Tagged was weird, and I encountered some really fucking weird people on there. Wow... deleted that account with a quickness!


I haven't used a messaging service, until very recently, in FOREVER!! I am not much into the internet dating or a long distance relationship (been there, done that) and so I prefer that someone I am talking to online that I am actually interested in be local or somewhat local to me. After we exchange emails and what not for a while, I would prefer to be able to talk to them on the phone and hear their voice, exchange phone numbers for texting, or make plans to meet in person. I am not interested in putting a lot of effort into a relationship who lives 10 hours away and we have very slim chances of meeting. Even if we did meet, how long would we want to go before we were closer to each other? That means a relocation for one or maybe both of us, and it is a pretty huge dedication to make to someone that no matter after 300 emails, you really don't know that person. You can edit and fix and change things around as much as you want online, but once in person, it's truth time. I have had someone relocate for me. It was awful. You can pretend to be someone else online, and you can say all the right things. But you're just being a fake, and I will be able to see right through it. Not only that, but I have been in some pretty horrendous relationships before, so my Bullshit Meter doesn't take much to go off. I simply will not put up with less than the standards I have set for myself. If you aren't anything like you claimed to be before we met and then your true colors show, I am not going to be impressed. Unless you are better than you said. But the chances of that are slim. If you lie to me before we meet and couldn't be honest with me then, what will you lie to me about in real life to try to keep me around or maintain the relationship?


I also don't like cybering, I want real human contact. I don't want you to tell me what you would do to me, I want to experience it. You can, once again, say all the right things and sound like you got it all through words, but you could also just be blowing a bunch of hot air. While I may be turned on by some of the messages I get or things I see, it doesn't mean I want to go into a chatroom or Skype and have to use my already busy hands to do what you should be there to do and also type to you to tell you what I am doing. And Skyping, for me at least, is something I want to use ONLY with people I already know. They already know what I look like, I know they aren't recording our video transmissions, I trust them, and we have a connection beyond the realms of just meeting online.


While I don't mind meeting someone online, being their friend and passing messages back and forth, I am also not very optimistic of finding someone online, nor am I actively using the internet as a means to find a LTR partner. While I want to put my stuff out there, and see if it is a possibility, I would much rather have meaningful face to face interactions with someone, see them smile, see how they react to different things, see how we interact in person, and have real conversations that aren't limited to words and screen only. Words are simply words, and can sometimes be rather vague through text and emails and chats. In person, you see their face and their expressions. You hear the tone in their voice. You learn more about them and learn characteristic traits, such as when they are joking or serious, when they are mad or feeling down. You can tell me all you want that you're a gentleman, that you are funny and energetic, you can talk yourself up as to be the next best thing. But I need to see how you handle life's ups and downs and how you are just in your day to day life to see if all the things you say are really true. If we aren't close enough to each other to be having these interactions regularly to see if we really are compatible, it leaves me with very little understanding of the other person and less interested in them.

Not only that, but our sexual chemistry is something that is very important to me as well. If we don't mesh well in that department, it probably isn't going to work. If we aren't close enough to be able to experience that together through our dating process, a relocation could be a disaster for a relationship that won't work anyway. And if we were in a long distance relationship where we only saw each other maybe once a month or every few months, of course the sex is going to feel amazing and be passionate- because we had built up and looked forward to that moment for however long. The chances of disappointment are going to be slim because our anticipation will lead us to feel fulfillment just from having the opportunity. I like sex, a lot, and it just has to be something good for both of us, not just once or once in a while. I don't want to have to hope that the next time will be better, every time. I only want to be disappointed that I had been missing out on such good sex as long as I had. Plus, with all the things I want to try and do, I need someone who is within a reasonable driving distance.


We simply wouldn't be giving ourselves enough chances to really connect on all the levels that I am looking for in a LTR. Carrying on a long distance relationship and just hoping and wishing is just something I have outgrown the patience and availability for. Plus, all too many times, I have wasted hours and hours and millions of words on someone who is essentially a stranger. I would sit and wait for emails to come through. Hope that I didn't say something wrong or the way it was portrayed in words wasn't the way I meant it. Left with no communications or a complete cutoff after they also grow tired of the distance, are afraid to tell me they found someone else, or I find out they aren't being honest with me and call them on it. It is so disappointing and annoying to write someone and put hopes into long emails and transmissions, only to be left wondering what the hell happened to them. It sucks, is disheartening, depressing usually, and it just isn't something I am interested in.


2/6/2014 2:15:36 AM


Things I need to be able to Submit... (The beginner perspective)

I have a maybe somewhat idealistic view of how I would like to submit to my man, when I find a suitable Dom for what I am looking for. I have journaled previously about what I am looking for in LTR, things I am into and not into, and all sorts of things, so to see my perspectives outside of these ramblings, please see those entries.

I'm getting a lot of emails. Mostly messages from men, ranging from how happy I will make a future Dom, to how they can teach me everything that I need to know, to ramblings about what their perception is about how I should submit and how I should act in general as a submissive, and all kinds in between. While I appreciate the messages, there are some I just don't respond to because I don't react to them. If I read your message and it doesn't entice me, if I can see straight through you, if you are lumping me into this giant category of "Sub training" (I believe everyone is different, and that what makes one tick does not the other. Just because you had success with someone else submitting doesn't mean you are a master, it doesn't mean that the same ol' tricks work on everybody. I am a unique girl and I want an experience unique to me) or if you try to convince me (unsuccessfully) that you know everything you need to know and that I am your perfect subject, I am not going to respond.

Allowing someone to help me submit to myself and my desires, and ultimately to them and theirs, is something that is going to take some time. I am so new to all of this, and although I have had these feelings for a while now, I am just admitting them, and really talking about them. It took me this long to do that, so I am willing to be a little bit drawn out in the process of actually finding someone. While I don't want to wait forever, I also refuse to jump in with out finding out how deep the bottom is first. If you can't get what I am trying to depict by that last sentence, let me re-phrase: I won't just pick some guy or meet or even really toy with the idea of meeting (just to meet and say hi at first, somewhere extremely public, no expectations, at a place of my choosing or agreement at least so I feel comfortable. I've laid a lot out on here so I need to be careful...) until I know a heck of a lot about you, and we have conversed with each other, through emails or what not. I won't be able to submit to some complete stranger, I am sorry. If that is a kind of encounter you are looking for, alas, I am not her. Who knows, maybe I will never find someone I actually meet off here. It is a possibility.
I have stated before that I could be a good little subbie to someone, if they so chose to help take on such a handful of a girl like me, and if I so chose to let them take me on. But, before I can truly submit to my future first Dom, there will have to be some things that I am feeling in order to be able to do so.


I need to feel like I can trust Him. He will make me feel safe, secure, and always in his best interests. When we are together in public, He is proud to be with me, smiling at my dimples and leaning in close to whisper in my ear. He looks to me and treats me like the lady I am. With the flash of His smile or the glimmer in His eye, I will quietly ache to want to be in just His presence again. Even when we are apart, I will long to be in His arms, in way or another, and He will long to have me near, in one way or the other. I will always subconsciously be wanting to feel his hands on me, and to see His eyes looking upon me with want.

I need to be attracted to Him, in all aspects, and in all realms. Whether we are in the throws of passion or just having a regular day of the norms of life, He stimulates me. We have intelligent and thoughtful conversations. We laugh and find humor in many things. He charms me and makes me get that feeling I love in my tummy. When we go to bed at night, we lie contently close to one another, eager for the next new day to greet us.

He is patient and understanding, and He is a kind teacher. He likes to show the way but also enjoys learning new things.
He knows fully that I have a great potential, and He seeks to be the best teacher He can be for me. He takes great care with me because He knows there could have been someone else at some point in time, but He stood out to me and He was able to get me to initially submit. He nourishes me and takes away my insecurities.  He trusts me and respects me. When I am with Him, I am comfortable and am able to be myself. He adoringly guides me to new places in my sexuality. He excitedly waits to see what we will do next time. He knows I have limits and is willing to push them but not toss them aside. He entices my senses and awakens my abilities. He knows that with the touch of his hand, I am trembling and noticeably aroused. He thoroughly enjoys being the only one who can make we feel that way. He gets great joy out of knowing when He is the only one that can break me and is possibly the only one who has.

He shows humanity and compassion to other fields in His life. He is smart and successful in what He chooses to do. He is stable and shows me these things and takes pride in His life, as a demonstration to show that He can take lead in many aspects of His life. He is balanced and has an appreciation for a cultured lifestyle.

He is strong- physically, emotionally, mentally... I will not need to feel fear when I am with Him because I know He can and will keep me safe. He always wants only good things for me and is mindful of my feelings. He doesn't play games or cause drama. He is my haven, my solitude. I long for His adoration and His acceptance. He is careful with my heart and willingly gives me His back in return. He takes my hand, He dries my tears, He shows me what I have longed for my whole life. He feels honored to have me by His side, and I am honored to be there, too.


2/4/2014 8:08:47 PM

TRUTHS: Fun and Freaky Facts about me...

 

  • I've never used a sex toy, other than a small vibrator before- this is about to change, as I hear I am doing myself a great injustice in not owning anything. Don't worry, I will journal my first experience ;)
  • Needles seriously freak me out, along with clowns and spiders
  • I have never had any experience with any traditional bdsm toys- ie: nipple clamps, anal plugs, gags, restraints, ropes, cuffs, shackles, bars, etc. - NONE of it... I wasn't joking on my profile page by saying I have little or no experience with most of this
  • I am a ridiculously good cook and enjoy entertaining people for dinners or BBQ's
  • I didn't have sex the first time until I was 19
  • I thoroughly enjoy singing and going to Karaoke
  • I have never had a man make me squirt
  • I love to write and have always had a passion for it
  • I have never read "50 Shades Of Grey"
  • I am not originally from Minnesota
  • I have had anal sex less than 5 times
  • I love to dress up and look sexy for my man, in and out of the bedroom
  • I truly love to suck, tease, pleasure, kiss, lick, and take in as much of good looking cock as I can when I get the opportunity. I will service that thing like a full detail car cleaning
  • I am also good at detail car cleaning
  • I have several specific roleplay scenarios I would love to play out
  • I can probably outdrink you in Jager Shots
  • I have been with a female, once... I didn't care for it and I know I don't want to try again, it made both of us feel really awkward
  • I hate the smell and feeling of condoms, they seriously agitate my vagina
  • The idea of hard restrictive styles - ie: benches, spreader bars, harnesses, posture rods, etc. - really turns me on
  • I love cartoons
  • I have a really high sex drive... as of lately I am aroused at least two (usually back to back) or more times a day
  • I am allergic to only one thing that I know of and it's a food
  • I've never had a DP
  • I'm an active commenter on the Citypages facebook feeds
  • I've never been with a truly dominant man
  • I only have one tattoo... I want another one or two but don't plan on going crazy with it
  • My naughty side comes out a lot more when I am feeling uninhibited from drinking... after a few shots or beers or glasses of wine and my chances of doing something racy increases by like 80% LoL
  • I like to deep-throat sometimes
  • I can play multiple musical instruments
  • I've only had two men, ever, who could truly make me orgasm without my help
  • The idea of being with more than one man at a time turns me on
  • I can't stand a huge bush on a guy and I don't keep one on me
  • I am addicted to Mexican and Chinese Cuisine...
  • I once dated a man much much older than me (over double my age) There were a few downfalls but otherwise it was the best relationship I was ever in and lasted almost 3 years
  • You would never guess some of these things about me if you met me in person

2/4/2014 5:59:12 PM

Pet Peeves and Pet Pleases!


I am a pretty tolerant person, I have been known to put up with some rather unsavory behavior before in the name of love... Then I learned some pretty important life lessons, and found some things that I simply cannot let slide in a relationship, or eventually these "pet peeves" will drive me away and make you rather undesirable to me. It's not like each individual one is a deal breaker, (there are a few that are immediate deal breakers, they are denoted with *'s next to them) but a combination of some of these traits, and it's "Don't Think Twice It's Alright" for this gal... I haven't settled for just anyone yet, and I don't intend to anytime soon. And most of them, like the cheating and what not, are pretty easy to remedy- just be honest with me. I'm a big girl, I can take it if you're not happy and resorting to these things. But just have the courtesy to tell me so we can end it. It's a win/win - I don't get lied to or have it happening behind my back and you are still free to go fuck who you please.

On the flip side, I have plenty of things that I consider "Pet Pleases!" or things I like to see in my partner. Things that turn me in immediately from initial appearance (very shallow sounding, I know) to things that you can't find out about them until you actually get to know them.

Please, read on...


Pet Peeves

  • Cheating or Unfaithfulness *
  • Lying
  • Rudeness
  • Disconnection- physically or emotionally distancing yourself from me
  • Inability to commit or lack of wanting to have a permanent relationship with me, even after years of being together
  • Being outright rude, ignorant, obnoxious, or an attention seeker in public - laughing insanely loud or talking/yelling so everyone can hear your "funny" story, etc
  • Flirting with another woman
  • Embarrassing me in public * - if we aren't agreeing we handle it between the two of us. Don't yell at me in public or embarrass me like that in front of people I know. My dad used to do that shit to me and I FUCKING HATE IT.
  • Mental, Physical, Emotional Abuse *
  • Constantly down-talking me or being a "Mr. Technicality" or "I know it all"
  • Chewing, eating, swallowing, drinking loudly or obnoxiously- ie: slurping your cereal or soup, eating chips with your mouth open, eating over the top of food that is to be shared, chomping your teeth, smacking your lips, just being in general a gross eater
  • Not being emotionally supportive
  • Inability to spell/lack of caring for proper use of the English language
  • Being emotionally or mentally unstable and not doing anything to maintain it *
  • Hiding me from your family and friends
  • Addiction to WOW, D&D, Magic The Gathering, or most any RPG... Huge turnoff for me
  • Addiction to Video Games - I came in second to an X-Box and a PS3 for almost a year, I'd like to see one of those consoles give him a blow job like I do. If he had spent as much time playing me as he did his video games I would have never left.
  • Addicted to porn
  • Withholding sex *
  • Withholding sex but still seeking personal gratification by means of masturbation or online *
  • Carrying on an online romance *
  • Sexting or conversing with another female in a lustful manner *
  • Being a total slob- never cleaning up after yourself, never throwing away your garbage, being a hoarder or living in unsanitary conditions, etc.
  • Not taking pride in your personal appearance *
  • Wearing dirty, raggedy, stained, or disheveled clothing all the time
  • Never maintaining your facial hair or hair cut. Looking like you just came out of the wilderness after months is not attractive to me
  • Not brushing your teeth and taking a shower DAILY *
  • Threatening me or my family or loved ones
  • Displaying scary, negative, or fear invoking behavior in order to persuade me into complying. I never want to fee like I am going to be seriously hurt.
  • Addicted to hard drugs, like Meth, Heroin, PCP, Cocaine, Crack, etc. *
  • Addicted to Alcohol - I'm a Bartender and surrounded by drunks all night. The last thing I want to do is have to come home to your drunk ass every single night. I like to party and drink, but there are limits.
  • Lack of sense of humor or personality *
  • Bad personal hygiene/not being clean *
  • Lack of motivation - motivation to get or maintain a job, lack of motivation to be responsible, lack of motivation to be an adult, lack of motivation in the bedroom
  • Never initiating our sexual encounters
  • Unable to provide for yourself - no car, no drivers license, no apartment or living arrangement, no job, no cell phone, no money... Jesus, what can you do for yourself other than masturbate?
  • Using Chew or Snus
  • Addicted to intense pain or torment for pleasure
  • Never asking my opinion or input on anything, telling me what I get to do that day instead of asking me what my plans are, bossing me around when it is not warranted

Pet Pleases! - Please also see My Journal entry: "LTR Wishes" for more

  • Kind Eyes
  • A Big Heart
  • Faithful
  • Loyal
  • Respectful
  • Charming
  • Charismatic
  • Taller than Me
  • Dresses well for what the occasion is
  • Outdoorsy
  • Music Lover
  • Movie Lover
  • Animal Lover
  • Enjoys going out and hitting the town up and also nights of staying in and doing, well you know ;)
  • Good relationship with living family and has friends and a good support circle
  • Likes to eat good food and isn't a picky eater - Because I love to cook and I am damn good at it and I also love to go out and try new places
  • Is very sexually open and interested in exploring our sexuality together
  • Is looking for something long term, even marriage
  • Is open to the idea of children but also not heartbroken if it never happens
  • Isn't a sexual predator, convicted felon (there are some exceptions, but I would like to be able to travel the world someday and if you can't get a passport then...)
  • Handsome and well-groomed
  • Is emotionally, mentally, physically, verbally, and sexually, vested and existent in the relationship
  • Isn't afraid to show emotions when they feel the need
  • Shares similar interests on movies, music, and other topics but we still are diverse enough to learn from each other
  • Likes to explore and is adventurous
  • Is spontaneous
  • Makes me smile and feel good about myself
  • Likes to travel
  • Is clean and keeps his area that he lives in relatively clean for a bachelor
  • Is available through thick and thin, and doesn't immediately bail when the going gets tough
  • Has a job and is secure and stable
  • Likes to laugh and make me laugh
  • Takes the time to not only understand me and who I am, but shares himself and who he is with me as well.


I will be adding more as they come to me, so make sure to check back LoL


2/4/2014 11:00:39 AM

A couple things about me...


If you have read my profile, then you know already that I am really new to this scene. I have admitted some pretty intense and personal things about me here, while trying to keep a good sense of anonymity. There isn't a single person in my real life (yet) who knows these things about me. I think the first step of my submission is to admit these things. While rather anonymous, yes, but still admitting it, saying it, speaking about it to others, thinking more about it, getting more comfortable with ideas outside of my realms or aspects. I think the initial hardest part of my new journey is going to be to submit to MYSELF before anyone else. I appreciate all the messages and what not I get complimenting me on my profile, my openness, my ability to communicate articulately, for denying the previous "Dom" from carrying out his wishes, and so on. It is encouraging to know that not everyone who wants the things we are all here for is on the same path or mindset he was.


I also just wanted to share (in case if you aren't good with proportions and what not) that I am considered a BBW by most. And yes, the second 'B' does stand for 'Beautiful' - I'm told it all the time and starting to finally believe it LoL. At 5'10 - 5'11, and weighing right around 220 pounds, I am not a twig girl. I am not sickeningly obese, I am not so large that I need a hover round to go through the grocery store. I am also not a petite thing or considered skinny. This doesn't mean I am lazy, which is a common misconception. I love to bike, hike, go for walks, play frisbee golf, croquet, bocce ball and other outdoor games, and am very active in the summer. Hell, I even love going to the gym but haven't had the extra income since I moved to Minneapolis to go. I am comfortable in my own skin, and like myself enough to try to continue to lose weight. I am not interested in someone trying to make me lose weight. If I do it, it's because I want to for myself, not because I have some clown making me feel like less of a person on the inside because of who I am on the outside. Some guys just can't get into girls that are bigger, and that's ok. For me, I have a really hard time getting attracted to someone who is shorter than me or we're so close to height it's hard to tell who is actually taller. I like to look up at my man, in more ways than one.


If you read this and want to know more about me, read on or check out my profile :)


2/2/2014 10:55:38 PM

Things I am in to...

Until I try them and find otherwise...

 

So I guess this would be more of a list of things I want to try and experiment with, most all I have zero experience with:

 

Orgasm control, dildos, sex toys, anal plugs, long term submission or duration restriction for use, hard restrictive styles, nipple clamps, pussy clamps, vibrators, anal hooks, posture bars, ropes and rope suspension, ties, gags, cuffs, drunk play, sleep play, anal sex and play, floggers, public play, collars, corsets, shibari, light pain pleasures (no blood or piercing) like slapping and hairpulling, light choking, clitoral stimulation and squirting, breast and nipple play, shackles and bars, double penetration, triple penetration, bondage, sensory deprivation, slings, remote controlled toys and vibrators, light punishment and pain, benches, spreaders, rods, spanking, roleplay, forced orgasm, gagging, deepthroating, rough or hard fucking, rough nipple stimulation, harnasses, possible multiple men or threesome, and ultimately multiple kinds of submission to the right man.

 

I have a lot of things I am not in to, so please read further into my journals to find out those things, and other things about me as well.

 

Just as with those things, I hope that through my experiences and exploring that I am exposed to new things that I enjoy and can add to the list...


1/31/2014 8:27:09 AM

Things I Am Not In To:

And, I never will be...

I am not into: watersports, rubber fetishes, being poked with needles, being wrapped in plastic, wearing a mask or a gas mask or getting fucked by someone in a mask, wearing a diaper or turned into a Hucow or a Pig, beastiality, being shit on or shitting on someone else, latex suits, wearing a strap-on, cross dressing, being bred, torturing your balls or cock (I love a good looking cock, no way I would want to hurt it LoL!) Not into the idea of making out with a chick or doing anything really with a female... I like dick, what can I say?? I'm not into swinging. I do not want to sit on your face and suffocate you or watch you try to hang yourself. I don't want my toes licked, and I do not want to be the dominant one. I am not your pet or animal or puppy or pony. I could call the right man Daddy, but not looking to act like a child or play out any Daddy/Daughter fantasies. I really am not too fond of the idea of being whipped or being made to be in excruciating pain. I do like some pain and would like to see how far that goes but I am not in to getting off from it or you getting off from seeing me bleed. I don't want to be milked or have my beautiful and very sensitive nipples stretched out.

I am not into TPE unless it would be with my trusted partner, someone that I am only with exclusively and they are with me. If I am exclusive to you and only you, and I let you own me, you own only me. And, I don't want to share you with someone else. I have a huge sexual appetite and want it all the time. I have a strong desire and urge to have sex often (multiple times a day) so you should be able to fufill your kinks with me and only me if we were in that kind of relationship. That is why I say that I don't think a long term bdsm lifestyle is what I am here for. I am also not interested in someone who is married or is into a Poly relationship. But, If I met someone who was into all the things I am and wanted me and only me to be his personal little sex toy, I would be ok with that. ~Please see Journal entry: LTR Wishes~

I am sure there are plenty more things I am not into, I just have lived a sheltered enough life that I don't know enough about them yet to make a good decision about it. I will probably be back several times to edit this and add more things to the list. But, hopefully I am also finding plenty of things I like and enjoy along with the ones I don't like ;)


1/29/2014 10:35:40 PM

LTR wishes...


When it comes to what I want from a LTR, I want all the basics... trust, love, compassion, respect, loyalty, faithfulness, passion, romance... I want to laugh and make my man laugh. I want to know that I am his one and only. I want to do all the things that normal couples do- go out, see movies, hang out with friends, see concerts and shows, have quiet nights at home where I cook a spectacular feast and we relax and watch tv or play games... oh yes, all those incredible vanilla moments... I really do want them. I want to be happy and know that I make my man happy and satisfied and content. I always want him coming back for more from me.

To our family and friends and co workers, we seem like just the average couple. Happy, living life, in love... Nothing taboo about us to them, just a great couple with amazing chemistry when we're together. We are friends and lovers and companions and partners.

But when we go home, and the mood strikes one or both of us, I let you do things to me that most men have to resort to websites like this to find. The difference it, that I am yours. And you are mine. I am able to give myself to you in the way you so desperately seek because I trust you and know that you aren't interested in really hurting me or my emotions or my spirit. A huge part of my pleasure from my sexual experiences comes from knowing that my man wants me all the time, not just when I am being intimate with him. Knowing that I turn him on, and that he comes to me to fulfill his desires, feeling him get bigger as I touch him or let him do things to me- turns me on to no end. You may inflict pain upon me from time to time, yes, in a good way. And Heaven forbid if Ma ever comes to visit and happens upon some of our un-mentionables in the bedroom LoL

We will also have our times of intimacy where it is more vanilla... I am not trying to come off as I want this kind of dom/sub relations in the bedroom 100% of the time. There are times where I will just want to give you incredible head until you can't take it anymore and push me back to take me to that place with you. Times when I will want you to bring me to orgasm after orgasm. Times when I want to dress up for you and let you have your way with me. Times when I will want to maybe get a little tipsy and get really naughty. Times I will want to feel your cum running out of my ass. Times I will want you to use a toy on me. Times when we maybe just want a quickie. Times when we will just make passionate and tantric love to each other... for hours and hours... There are times when I will just want to please you (in the end I will get off too cause I really love to go to great ends to please my man) And yes, if you have read my lengthy intro on my profile page, there will be times I want to be used, punished, bound, spanked, made to suck your cock, pushed to my limits....

We are able to try things that we want to with each other because we have established a connection with one another and we trust each other with our desires. I truly believe life is too short to be unfulfilled emotionally, physically, mentally, AND SEXUALLY. I want a man who know what he wants and he isn't afraid to act upon it. Too many times in relationships am I the one initiating sexual encounters... I want a man to let me know when he wants me, initiate things and be the instigator. Yes it is fun to be the naughty girl and get my man aroused, too. But when you are the one doing it pretty much all the time, you start to feel like the roles are reversed just a bit too much.

Essentially, I am looking for a non-attached, nice, sane, clean, mature, funny, like-minded, handsome, gentleman who has the time I need to learn and grow and experience all the things I have yet to have in my life, in all aspects. Funny, right? LoL Probably not realistic but I am still putting it out there to be optimistic. Beyond not having any real experience in this culture, I also have next to zero experience with sex toys of any nature, which is something I am extremely interested in as well. I would be most comfortable in an actual relationship that entails our sexual desires when we see fit and has sustenance and value and worth. I want them to be just as available to me- emotionally, physically, mentally, sexually- as I am to them. We do not seek each other out simply for sexual gratification, but to also be each others companion and friend. We share our life's joys and sorrows, and we are clearly in a relationship to others who see us together, and we are both comfortable with that because we want everyone to know we are together. I am looking for someone to be with me in this newly awakened sense of sexuality I have and take me even farther. I have never felt the way I do about it until recently, I have never truly craved or wanted the things I do as of lately. I have an insatiable appetite to be pleased and do things to please so I can be pleased. I want someone to take my hand and lead me into my desires and help me submit to myself so I can submit to them. Over time I want someone to push me farther than they did before, and only they really know my limits because they are the ones testing them. They are the ones who show me new things and teach me. They get incredible joy out of knowing they are the only ones that make me feel they way they do, and I am brought great joy out of knowing that I fulfill his fantasies and he comes to me for pleasure. How incredible would it be for you to look back at me after years of teaching and taking pleasure in every inch of your hard work?

I have a ton of fantasies I want to try and live out. I do have this submissive side to me that I really want to explore. But hey, I'm also a girl who probably watched one too many movies with the storybook romance, and I want that too. I want that happily ever after, mixed with a quite a bit of naughty... like "50 Shades of a Fairytale Romance"

Damn, that would make one hell of a book title... maybe if I find the right guy I can write it based after our relationship... Yeah right, like a guy like that really exists ;)


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 Age: 24
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