10/29/2015 10:47:29 AM: I originally posted these words some while back. Perhaps it's time to move them to the top of my journal.CM lets users express a willingness to relocate on their profiles. I didn't tick that box. Still, I've received many messages from persons in distant places, even on other continents. That's flattering. Some of those messages have been interesting and educational. Whenever I get a message from anyone outside of the New England/New York region, my presumption is that correspondence is the only thing that might result from that contact. Strictly speaking, that's a rebuttable presumption. I understand that flexibility is necessary on a lot of issues, including geography. It's hard to say exactly where the limits of flexibility lie, on geography, or anything else, but those limits are always there.

10/30/2014 7:32:53 AM: Intelligent comments and correspondence are always very welcome, regardless of the location of their source. Perhaps I should make clear though that 'role play', cyberdomination, and such hold no allure to me. Perhaps my feelings and desires aren't all realistic. If so, let them remain imaginings in my head. They will be fulfilled in the real, material world or not at all. If I wanted to be on Second Life, I'd be on Second Life. I am not. Actually Everquest sounds a bit more interesting to me, but I'm not there either. I'm interesting in changing my life, not retreating into an imagined one.

7/10/2014 1:56:30 PM: Pre-Raphaelite art is one of my guilty pleasures. I was very familiar with the Burne-Jones painting 'King Cophetua and the Beggar Maid.' Yet, somehow, until recently, I had never heard the term 'Cophetua syndrome.' I wonder, is there a female version.

6/20/2014 2:59:47 PM: 'Beneath every mask is another mask.' Beneath every mortification, every shame, is the need for deeper mortification and shame. This neverending spiral fascinates me.  Is it possible to stand at the edge of it and not be helplessly sucked ever deeper?

12/4/2013 6:23:02 AM: About a week ago, I began a daily regimen of self-punishment.  I know that this cannot reduce my need for control and discipline. Still, there is something oddly reassuring about the pain that I impose upon myself.