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I messaged someone at 6:30 and was able to read an encouraging reply at lunch (my mistake), however I'm unable to express myself through a cell phone interface like some people can. Lunch is a half hour and I work on my feet. So I start a reply at 5 and I got a little bit of stoke on, because this doesn't happen often. I check her profile one more time to make sure I hit all the salient points or whatever and I see there is a new message from her: No timely response from you and you are now blocked. I do not tolerate bad manners. (!)
and I had indeed been blocked. It made me think that there must be a whole different level of human interaction, where 20 minutes is just too long. I'd say it is pretty obvious that she is somewhat exact and that I am somewhat slow. I had made an impression on her and she was anxiously awaiting my follow through. She likely noted my afternoon login and after 20 minutes with no message, incorrectly interpreted that I was replying to other messages before hers. The truth is, there were no other messages to occupy my attention, just hers.
-and I have such deliciously mixed feelings about whether to hope she reads this. I believe that being spiteful hurts one's self. You are not spiteful toward a splinter, nor a spider, you are spiteful toward the things that truly hurt. The converse of course is; no harm no foul. No spite means there'd been no slight.
The concept of humility prevents me from even feeling the slight. I am nothing, alone without being realized, utilized, my potential is only that. To use the coarse allegory of being a lawnmower at Home Depot; she read my card and seemed interested, she falsely interpreted that I would be indiscreet about who's lawn I would care for and to my dismay, turned away to other poorer quality, less capable models that had the carefully written deion cards.
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