8/2/2013 3:58:09 PM: Yesterday I was with my love in a hotel room.  I loved how she was dressed, so as I took her clothes away I had her keep on a loose, soft, knit sweater with crochet-like holes in it.  I had a nice soft new hemp bondage rope from Toys in Babeland, and put her in a wrist truss in front.  There was a nice high hook near the bathroom, on a rolling-door thingie, that I looped the rope over and tied off, hands high and stretched.  The whole time I was kissing her, stroking her, telling her I loved her, and that I was going to hurt her.  So for a while, I kissed her while I tortured her nipples through the garment.  Gasp, kiss, gasp, writhe, pinch, gasp, etc.  Very nice.  Then I pointed her away so she couldn't see the enormous size of the butt-plug I was going to put in her.  I started with my lubed fingers, and took my time, and eventually - gasp - pant - sob - got it into her.  I caressed her and kissed her, and told her I loved her, while I played with the giant thing in her ass.  I didn't touch her pussy, and when she asked me to, I just said no.  Pussy play is for good girls.  I un-strung her and led her to the bed, plug in, and laid her over my naked lap.  I flogged her with a bight of the rope, but that was leaving too big of marks, so I spanked her a while instead.  She has sensitive feet, so I whipped the bottoms of her feet with a bight for a while and with every sharp convulsion of her body I got more aroused.  I placed her kneeling in front of me and she started to suck my cock, but I reminded her that I was going to fuck her mouth, not have my cock sucked.  I held her head firmly between my hands, and fucked her mouth.  When she gagged I would pull back and let her breathe, and then kiss her gently on the lips and tell her I loved her.  Then I would gag her some more.  It was great.  I really do love her.  Then I pulled her onto her front on the bed, and pulled out the butt plug, and ass-fucked her for a while.  She gasped and sobbed the whole time, and begged me to fuck her pussy instead.  I didn't come in her ass though.  That lasted a long time ... slow ... gentle ... fast ... rough ... keeping careful attention to not overly abuse her, but to keep her on the edge.  Then I stopped, and put her face-up on the bed.  I straddled her and had her lick my anus and rim me for a while, which I like.  Then I face-fucked her from above, thrusting down into her throat.  At the point I bent her legs to me, raising her pussy to where I could lick it.  I do like to lick pussy.  We did our own version of BDSM 69 for a while, and then I unbound her wrists, laid her gently on the bed, and fucked her missionary style to both of our hearts content.  I didn't come though, as I didn't want to come inside her.  I made her kneel between my legs, lube her hands, and watch my cock as she brought me off with a hand-job.  It was very nice.  She is a treasure to me.  Then I dressed her in the clothes I bought for her, and took her to a nice dinner.  People stared at us.  We are old, but hot, and clearly we had been fucking.

10/28/2012 1:46:03 PM: If I could change the Internet ... I would make there be a 'cookie' setting for Dom or Sub ... And subs would continue to be asked to 'submit' all the time by the little radio buttons ... But for Doms the radio button would say 'Command' ... It bothers me to be always asked to submit by web-sites

10/7/2012 1:47:09 PM: I've been reading about human evolution, ethnobiology, linguistics, etc. lately.  I'm surprised at the insane violence of early human history, and impressed by how peaceful we have become.  So much for the view of primitive peoples 'living in harmony'.  In fact it was all about constant small-scale violence adding up to 2% per annum mortality.  Key features were killing the men (we do a lot less of this now) and raping/impregnating the women (we do a lot less of this now also).   It does make me wonder, though, whether BDSM has deep evolutionary roots.  Do we want to dominate and force submission because those are the personality traits that survived in the gene pool?  Do we feminize and sissify weaker men because we want to take their reproductive opportunities through cuckoldry?  Is sadism a personality trait that suvived because it made it easier to rape, kill, and pass on your genes?   I do think that there is something atavistic about dominating a woman, physically and mentally, and sissifying her man.  Perhaps it's the civilized version of murder and rape.   So, when I am holding you down, pumping my sperm into you, with my hand on your throat, what gene pool am I projecting?    Just a thought ... comment if you like.

8/3/2012 9:35:34 AM: it's not punishment but taking pain to show love that makes my cock hard   humiliation? driving uncomfotrable truths forcing catharsis

7/10/2012 6:02:50 PM: I may have found a friend ... how pleasant!  Not a playmate, just a friend.