Great to be back..............welcome all past friends and slaves/subs.

Sometimes a sub/slave needs to be reminded of his place......................under my foot.

Careful it may end up where the sun doesn't shine. Clearly it is time to re-train

Feeling very sad this evening................... why is it I am the one who is left waiting? I hate this BS.

Perhaps it is time to find a nice vanilla man and just whip his ass into shape.

Seems the sub/slaves I meet are all about them and to be honest I am tired of the salesman pitches and lines of credit given.

On their behalf I must say....................quit blowing your own horn or it will be pulled out of your ass.

I am once again confused by the irresponsibleness of certain submissives. I listen to the desires, wants and needs of their pitiful lines of bullshit for well over two years online, on the phone and in person.

Out of the blue...............they need space, and then stop communication. OK............simple high school 101. A true submissive does not think of his needs but the needs and desires of his Domme. Complacency is what chickenshits do when they think the Domme will just release them from communication and their training collar making it easier for them to go back to their pitiful little vanilla blank life.  Ah...............did I ever say I would make life easier for you? No did not think so.

The stories are always the same. Just the faces and cock size change.

I hurt in places I have not felt in years. A spa day is soon on the horizon.

Now, just need to find an atm that will provide me with such a service.

LOL...............happy hunting.

With the grueling three day move behind me now I am faced with the task of unpacking. It has only been two weeks yet it feels eternal since it began.

I hope this is a good move.......................and that I will find my eternal slave.

My next move will be hopefully with ===

Then again, some Dommes never find their match.

This is moving weekend. Three shows..............full days every day..............

and to top it off a 5.1 earthquake? Felt it.............great!!

I am so very tired, and coffee does not seem to work as of late. Once again, I pack up the house and am moving across town.  Let's try a better district free from homeless wonderers, deranged maniacs, Legionaires, and idiots.

Well.............we know they are everywhere but somehow I am hopeful that instead of screaming voices in someones head I hear screams of delight instead.

I can always hope....

M

It has taken a lot of work to get to the place I am now...............strong yet gentle........strict yet soft.  I was recently reminded of my ability to control and show that I am a Sovereign.

I heard a story about a frog. A frog is similar to a frightened submissive new to the lifestyle and learning the ways of his newly found interest.

A frog when placed in a pan of lukewarm water just swims around enjoying the warmth of the water.  The heat in the pan goes up slowly as the fire is turned on under the pan.  He is so focused on the warmth of this new feeling of tranquility that before he is aware that he is soon to be cooked he merely enjoys the swim.

I think this story relays to D/s relationships so well.  A submissive must give himself freely to the woman he wishes to become his Domme. It can't be forced or it doesn't last..........it can be nurtured and his path can be illuminated before him.  Soon he becomes collared and will do it willingly adoring his Domme and the life she sets out before him...........

I hear this so very often and the results consume the veil I once called interest.

My thoughts are many miles away, my thoughts consume me when I think of you and start the day............the song I was writing is left undone. I don't know why I spend my time writing songs that can't be sung........and strain to write.  I hear the rain on the roof, so you see I have come to doubt all that I once held as true, I stand alone without beliefs the only truth I know is you.

And as I watch the drops of rain, weave their weary paths and I ...I know that I am like that =rain before the grace of light.  Once again..................at night. you made me believe, you made me forget for a small amount of time what has occurred so many times before. your silence found wakes up the lion who sleeps in the cave. A promise in the air, that once we meet you will be mine. That I possess all that you hold dear......and yet the silence speaks the truth.  A lifetime phase .....a quiet peace, your freedom comes from the fear that breaks the heart of a man. your unknown.....a thought.

Do you EVER remember hearing " I want an online romance" come out of my mouth?

Me either

To all the friends, slaves, subs and Dommes/Masters who have passed through my life this past year of 2013, good riddance to the old.......................and welcome the new.

I hope you will find what you seek in 2014...and your whip tips never touch the floor.

Happy New Year CM family.

I have placed in my profile that I believe in Tribute.  I have gone years without letting the slave/subs in consideration figure this one out on their own and have spent endless hours of my precious time chatting, and phone conversations, explaining D/s lifestyle to newbies and received nothing in return but a lot of broken promises and excuses.

Therefore, if you say you understand then realize this.  I am no longer going to chat chat chat and take time away from my business in order to spend online time with a submissive and receive nothing in return.  If you call that a financial Domme than so be it. The days of idle chat is over, if you wanted sweet you should have bought a lollipop.

There are many ways to give tribute to a Domme. A cocktail, dinner, lunch, gift, something from Amazon wishlist etc. I once had a slave in Las Vegas.  Everytime he saw me he would bring me something. It was incredibly thoughtful and it was then I realized how valuable not only my time but that I was. He made it different each time, a bracelet, a video, perfume, bath salts, massage oil, dinner, but never ever came empty handed. I never asked him to do this.......he knew his place was to adorn his Mistress and some were just a thought others well planned. But, it made me feel extremely Sovereign to him...........and also that I had value.........I am very valuable. And you will realize that after your gone.

I do not consider myself a Pro Domme. Just clear in my expectations.

 I came across this on a dog site. I laughed so hard, reminds me of a slave I once knew. LOL not talking beastiality.  It is a joke!!!!! So don't get your knickers in a knot. 

Stupid is as stupid does even during this time of year.  I had the opportunity to speak with an old and I mean it in the simplest form of the word, slave over the past few days.

he professed to me four years ago he was in his sixties when in fact he is much older than that.  he is impotent, and can't remain chaste, doddles with vanilla.  So....................why do they always come back?

Because when a slave finds a true Domme.........they compare them to all others. he told me that he has a girlfriend 9 hours away that he sees who is vanilla but will do 'things' to make him happy.  Really..........good luck with that.

I need a dentist..... any takers

I am just not feeling the love.............................pity you will pay for it.

Once in a great while you find a diamond in the rough.  Although for me it seems to never work in the way I hope....................the journey, oh yes the journey allows us to travel to a place few ever see.

Been a while, as I am in the midst of a renters worse nightmare. The plumbing fixed, check. The walls ripped out of bathroom, closets, kitchen demolished, and floor removed, check.

I am not someone that goes camping yet, I now have an outdoor cooking experience daily. Washing dishes in a sink and carrying them to be placed on a hearth to dry is a slaves job, not a Domme.  However, in my absence no one picked up a pot to clean or glass to wash.

My whips are misplaced, my chest of torture devices covered with clothing...........and I do not currently have a slave with me.

I seek a domestic bull who is capable of being normal in realtime as well as what I find normal in D/s life. IE; pay attention and do as your told, get your chores done and quit whinning.

I would never ask of a slave that which I cannot do myself, but being a Queen and your Sovereign find it distasteful to be required to do menial tasks when my talents lie elsewhere.

Bottoms up!!

If I had no expectations, I would not ever be let down.

If I had one wish it would be that you were not broken, afraid, or crazy.

Real life gets in the way.

And, life continues as we make other plans.

Be careful, you may wish and realize your dream is your nightmare.

Just to clarify a few things.......meeting after three years was great.  How often in life do people come in and out of focus, and then clarity  If nothing else in this life, time is our most precious gift.

Rest your weary soul ........heal the pain........I am waiting once again.

This move has been a horrific adventure of plumbing, debris, oven, stove, doors, windows, squirrels, an yesterday the pool filter made a loud popping sound and then started shooting water out of its sides.  The space is fabulous and accommodates the living arrangements wonderfully.  However, 6 weeks for plumbing issues to be resolved is a bit much. 

So then I suppose the reasons sub/slaves stay away is that I realize how many of you are not that sincere. you wish to be of service, then when given the chance say your not a domestic sub, merely want to cook an have playtime. I have big flashing red light news for you.

If you are told your services are required, then ..........you should abide. 

If you are chatting with a Domme and have had more than two emails, would it not be proper protocol and manners to bow out and let the Domme know you are not compatible and why? I may be many things, but one is not hurtful.  If I say we are not compatible I will back it up with a reason, ie; not attracted to your looks is shallow I have actually had great relationships after getting to know someone I was not attracted to in the beginning and found them useful or they became a good friend.  you just never know.

The unpacking has taken a month. Nearing completion. The End.

I have made it known that I am moving to those closer to me than further away. It is slow processing the belongings to placement.....boxes everywhere both in new and old addresses. Obviously still not finished.

"If i lived closer I would help, or you know if I could I would be there" do not justify yourself to me swine.  

I am so overtired I can't sleep so here I sit at 0322am on a Thursday morning with nothing on but a smile, tee shirt and hopes that the wifi will continue working until I get the cable installed on Sunday.

Crop in hand I wait for the slave/man competent enough to step up to the plate.....he has yet to eat.

M

Been a while since I have given insight upon the pages of the journal.  I notice that slaves come from my past only to evade and elude the question; if you did not meet me the first time around why would you now? No answer, nothing........just empty promise of a life not yet known. Mysteries of the unknown.......and desires of my knowledge as vast as the years....only in your mind?

I think I should rethink California. Perhaps a new venue is needed. I have options. I have thoughts, and tired of playing this game. Perhaps I should move forward and back into a veiled life where people walk and talk the lifestyle instead of the fascade of this screen.

I have never been one for the community and have felt so many have several faces looking back from that morning mirror. I don't fit in there, I don't fit into the vanilla world as I am not tempered. I don't diffuse the obvious question of debauchery. I like the sting of my lash against your pale skin in comparison to the obvious.......unknown

I hear a common story from many submissive/slaves all the time. They tell me about the difficulty they have in meeting a Domme that is not a Gold Digger, Pro Domme, request Tribute.  Well, here is your answer. . . Sub/slaves spend hours, months and in some cases years of a Domme life in order to feel secure enough to meet. In some cases with excuses to not meet over and over again. I understand why a Domme gets tired of being stood up, or told time is needed and then after months of spending all that time asks for a Tribute. She gets fed up with all the fakes and scammers out there who spend her time as if it is meaningless and free.  This is about so much more than just sex. Get you heads out of your ass long enough to realize that those of us who are really seeking an eternal commitment from one of you tire of those who play hoping the fascade of the screen will be enough to cloak their dasterdly deeds. Be careful whose toes you step on for tomorrow they just may be kicking your ass.

None of you are worthy of my experience. What is wrong with you submissives that you can't realize that............now go away and don't bother me again.

No luck as a blonde................I am now a Brunette..................I am not going to post photos. you know what I look like, meet me to see the update.

I don't know which is worse

people who lie....

Or people who think I believe

their lies................

never mind

I am done with words.

The only reason some slaves/subs are still alive is murder is still illegal. Well, there are other ways to clip a cats nails. I just need to figure out how to stop getting scratched. 

I am intense............and some people really know how to bring out my inner Dominatrix. Wouldn't it be nicer to just see the Domme? Yeah, thats because you think you want that but when you get it you run away and hide under the bed. 

I can wait.........nope not patient either. Did I mention I was at some point? I  don't think so.

When does fielty begin and adoration begin? When you are placed under consideration. I find so many Masters and Dommes are placing their submissive/slaves in such a bad place by merely showing them what they want instead of teaching them protocol. IE; basic 101. When placed under consideration/protection it is protocol that a submissive not seek out other Dommes, playmates. If a Domme wishes to speak with a submissive, it is protocol they ask their owner for permission first if it is more than merely a hello.

Basic 102; In a social setting, if a Domme enters the room and a submissive/slave is sitting in a chair next to their Domme it is not expected for the submissive/slave to give up that seat as they were directed to sit by their prospective Domme unless told to do so. It is based on the standing of the Domme entering the room.  Dommes and Masters do not get offended by this as it is proper protocol.

More protocol lessons to continue; .......It seems that alot of people in the community have forgotten these simple gestures of politeness. Just refreshing some memories.

Cheating on your Beautiful Goddess  Domme is like throwing away a diamond and picking up a rock.

what is the difference between standing someone up, and emailing them that you are not going to make a date after 2 years of chatting? NOTHING. Want to see the wrath behind the smiles? Yeah, did not think so.................loosers. Same thing as standing a Domme up. Second, Third, Fourth chances? Hell fucking no. And for those that think you can't be googled? yeah, all your information is online these days. Pathetic pussers. There are many ways to teach lessons, the sting of the lash, the contact made......and letting others know you suck cock. 

Done

Valentine's Day may end up being a very special day ..........................or not,,,,,,''

Update CM viewers; Worse Valentines Day ever, with the exception of when my slave died and never made it to the VD Day Ceremony. Worse. Do not show respect? Suffer for though I thought you were special your just like every other moron. you will never be equal to me, NEVER. There is a reason I am the Domme and you are the submissive.

I will be in Palm Desert, Ca. for a week starting Feb 4th........hope to see all my Palm Desert friends while I am there.

Let me know..............

I just hate two faced people, hard to decide which face to slap first.

I just received some more incredible information from Bob6hart;  His 72 year old carcass told me I was fat and butt ugly. Then another from another old fuck who is 73 saying I am also a slut. Really? I wonder if they are really so ignorant or if their Erectile Dysfunction goes straight to their minds since Dymensia is probably also a factor. Senile .....and they call themselves submissives. So...respect goes both ways and I may be fat but they are ugly on the inside and you can't clean that kinda dirty off.

Well thanks.....guess I haven't heard that in a while. WTF is wrong with people on here? I have been getting hate mail for the past few months almost every other day from those I don't know, have never spoken to verbally, online or otherwise and they think they can upset me with this kind of chatter?

you have to matter in order to upset. Think it is time to find a different venue

Feeling ambivalent.
Defined:
uncertainty or fluctuation, especially when caused by inability to make a choice or by a simultaneous desire to say or do two opposite or conflicting things.

I am in a very very angry sadistic mood today. I just want to take it out on someone. I feel frustration. I want to give pain .....................spank, whip, bruise.

Tie you up and leave you while I go for a drive in your car, oh and take the money from you wallet and go shopping. Now doesn't that sound like fun?

I am still settling my apartment, and in emptying boxes I came across a journal which I wrote in 1996 about slavery/submission and my feelings have not changed much about this in all this time.

There is a presence known to exist where all thoughts of duty cease yet to become a reality.

The heart felt love given is pure so why is it looked upon as tainted?

Love can never be unless the intended gracefully accepts.

His destiny exists within her arms, and until he accepts this place which is ritefully hers , his life will not be fulfilled.....

Today was my birthday. My Daughter made me a fabulous dinner and my grand kids were so excited about making me cards. ..... . they were shall we say creative.

Nice time with family.

Don't be afraid of pressure.......................remember pressure is what makes diamonds from a lump of coal. 

your beliefs don't make you a better person, your behaviour does.

I am an extrodinary woman. I walk down the street, there is a deep hole in the sidewalk where I fall in and lost and helpless, it takes forever to find a way out. I walk the street again and fall into the same hole, I fall in again, I can't believe I fell in a second time. I see the same hole the third time I walk down the street, I can't believe I fell in again, and it takes me forever to get out  I walk the fourth time down the street,  I see the deep hole and see the same thing about to happen again, but this time I walk around it. Next time I walk down another street................I leave behind ordinary. .....wayne dwyer.

I am not average, I fit in. I consult the invisible soul within myself, what do I ask for .....in my dreams. The one thing I need is to be free expand and be fulfilled by infinite devine intervention. I am Sovereign. I can move past being limited, that I can't come back. I have no limitations. I don't believe that I cannot accomplish something. I expect this from myself. I won't let others tell me less. I am a Domme.............I am important. I made a shift in what is possible for me .....to teach another what is and can be accomplished if only they allow me to show them what is real. I am a Master, a swammi. That is real which never changes. I define Supremecy. I change all the time, I incarnate.....and hope to change with one special soul.  Into eternity.

The classic Holiday Story;

True story, my little nephew is 2. He got all dressed up anxious to take a picture on Santa's lap and tell him his wishes. He gets to the mall, sees Santa. Unsure, he starts crying as his mommy takes him by the hand up to the Big Jolly Bearded dressed in a flashy red suited man with huge black boots. In a moment of terror he does what comes natural to stop time. He kicks Santa square in the crotch as he sits on his chair.

The photo I saw of him has Santa grimmacing with a smile that says "Get this kid out of here quick." Mommy sets on the stool with a beautiful smile holding back the laughter as my nephew cute as a button has a lined Charlie Brown smile. I know I am in trouble, but lets get this thing overwith face.

A forever moment caught on film.

A Master wrote to me today. I have never met him, he does not know me, we have not spoken and he hides behind the veil of the screen. He does not have a photo posted. Below is the text that he wrote me.  I am already quite vulnerable this time of year, and his words cut through me like a papercut the words were written upon. .......

lol, ok no time wasters look in the mirror as you get out of the bath/shower. Tell me who would fuck you but a n igger thats wans a white trophy . You are old fat and live in Riverside [which means you think you are pretty and have money ] but no one as a Master whould smell your bad perfume and fat ass . Riverside send me some young pussy from there, or get in your car and drive a block to odgen in Lyons and find me a spic with a good body . See you at the Plank Road in

Yes he has issues; look at the words he uses? Pathetic to judge others by the way they look, the way they live or their age. Let alone with racial slurs.I put you on notice and turned in his email for abuse. I never do that to anyone. But, this was bad. I decided to redact his racial slurs and vulgarity. 

This is for all the Dommes out there that lost a slave or slave that lost their Domme.  I miss you still.............

When did Christmas get so commercialized, when did Vons start charging a quarter to use their facilities as a customer shopping for a ham? Where do birds hang out when it rains? Are they in the streets, trees, under bridges? At what age do most Children stop believing in Santa?

I can't sleep tonight. These are the questions floating through this non stop mind of mine that never rests. If my previous plans would have come to fruition this evening I would be sleeping oh so soundly. Unfortunate for me, unfortunate for them. I will make a New Years Resolution. I won't speak on the phone with a slave prior to meeting in person. They get the wrong impression of me. Get scared at the reality that I am a little different than some, and extremely different than most.

Why do slaves who have been previously turned down due to bad behaviour think they can just email three months after standing up a meeting and it will be ok? I do not give second and third chances usually. There have been exceptions, however they always end the same way. Poorly. There is usually a reason I turn you down. Now think long and hard and perhaps you will figure it out. For those that I still desire, or persue consider yourself very lucky indeed.

I know I am a snob, it goes with the whole natural Domme centered life. Once upon a time I lived in a castle. I was banished from my kingdom for unusual reasons. The reasons not important, however I have a big fear of finding a slave that captures my heart, and then in return for finding him Karma swoops down and tells me he is a pauper and that my kingdom will always be as it is.  The memories of my Kingdom are just memories.

I realize that most here just want to play, however I realize the emphasizing of income requirements of over 80k a year may not meet most slave/subs criteria and should not be a basis for desire.  In the past I made ample income to allow a comfortable setting for both Domme and slave. It is different now that I am semi retired, and to be honest the change of lifestyle has really been difficult for me. Money is important, but finding the person who will complete me is what is without a doubt foremost of importance.  And, because I am who I am may have thrown aside valid/sincere individuals. I will not apologize because my happiness is important, I just say it was not my intention.

Christmas is upon us soon and I hope you each get at least a new memory to add to your chaos........................Noel.

M

Criticism, boredom, melancholy, tedious behaviour, anger, frustration are all the symptoms of a new slave. Don't act out your bad self it only will get you chastised, and worse.......forgotten.

I continue to try and make sense of it all. One day at a time. I can almost see the wall.

Carry on

After a frustrating few week  period I have now decided to suspend my search. My plate is full and I need to focus on settling my home.

I cannot tell you how disappointed in friends, slaves, and submissives that I have been. you know who you are so fronting you publicly would only add fire to your furnace which should remain in ash until I decide to use my talents once again.

Those that are currently in contact with me are welcome to continue to visit, chat and text/email.  I just cannot take on any new at this time.

Until then.................keep it clean.

Will be offline for awhile. ..... . hopefully not forever.

Just listen, shut up and listen. your opinions can be heard, but remember the final word is mine and it just may appear as a whip, caning or flogging.

Select your words wisely.......not feeling very tolerant these days.

Disappoint me again, and face the consequences. No pigs allowed !!!

Moving to new Apartment in Riverside on the 15th of November. Why is it I always have to do this sort of messy thing just before Christmas? Goood Lord.

I am looking to rent a house in Riverside, downtown if possible. Any leads please email me. M

When you find interest in a slave/submissive and feel he may be someone that you would like to persue the common phrase to use is " I am placing you under my consideration" which merely means that you are placing a hold on the person to determine if they are suitable for your needs.

For a slave to try and say NO that is not what is meant by that term merely means they are not who you thought and have just snipped the little thread you placed between you in the prospect of getting to know them, it also means they are to cease any further persuance of other Dommes.

This is not something up for discussion. It is because I say.  If I have not said this to you  then your not worthy, or I am not that interested. Get with it. Protocol. MY way.  Get it or get on with it.

Also, if you live afar and cannot come to meet your Domme in consideration, then it is common practice for the slave to provide mode of transportation and host. Otherwise, timeliness may not be as quick as you would hope.

I hate looking at apartments. The ones I like are more than a house payment. LOL

So, I am worth it.

Really? BIG mistake being honest to a slave. They emotionally are found to be retarded.

I am just not feeling the love today. No calls, no promises, no playtime. Dream Lover 2000 is definately in order. And, don't think you are hiding....I allow you to run. Google a name of a slave, city, you can find their address, and even home phone number IE: not to the Dommes out there. And they think being online gives an illusive aire? Au contraire.

And, I think I need to offer up a new and exciting toy for my amusement some time soon. One that will give me control of my pet in consideration over miles if need be. Electronic stimulation anyone.....like the cartoon character electricution style. Balls to the cage electronically controlled. LOL how completely sadistic. I love this idea. Computer controlled by me, all aspects of weenie whacking in the palm of my hand and now I say, with a "of course complete sirens song", come close.........let me whisper in your ear. Beware the Domme who is pissed off. She is going to make your life a living hell. For how long you say? I haven't decided, but when I do I will let you know.

This is not a game about telling me how perfect this is then running in the closet and hiding.

If you make a "date" with a Domme, at least call the day before and confirm that your arrival time is defined and that you will be there as instructed. It gets very old to expect what is discussed and then my valuable time to be wasted.  I understand why some Dommes request a tribute. slaves waste our time. If you pay a tribute you are better assured to show up on time, as instructed. A deposit so to speak.

I am really starting to think that this is just a waste of my time.

What is wrong with people?  They don't show up for interview appts, or leave without saying where they are going?  I think my methods are far too tolerant these days.

Word to the wise.......may look and speak gently but trust me when I say this..............my wrath is undeniably frightening.

Searching now for a new apartment. I should be able to move sometime in October late probably........Riverside area.

Let me know if anyone is available to help search. It is a time consuming issue.  I hate this part of life.

M

Back on the West Coast.  What fun!!! The only thing missing was a slave taking care of my needs on the trip.  None the less it was great times, lots of cocktails.....and laughter.  The book of mormon the play was fabulous. Dined with Lady Gaga's parents, the Germanotti's, met Manny Milligan, and Vinnie Villa from the Supranos and of course hob nobbed with many...found an Italian Restaurant/Bar where everyone gathered, picked up an instrument and started playing with whomever was performing. Lots of cocktails in New York. What a wonderful city. Full of culture, and diversity.  I found the venues were open minded and friendly to alternative lifestyle choices.

Now, where should I move next?

280 degrees outside today, and felt like a steam iron. I straightened my hair on my own. Where are all the good slaves when you need them? Offers coming in to visit the beach areas. I hope to get away.New York in just 9 days then Nova Scotia. Tried on alot of sparkles tonight. I did not realize how many sparkles I had, a little lace, alot of leather. UMMMMM yes the smell of leather against my skin in the morning just smells so good

Sometimes I wonder if it is worth getting out of bed in the morning.

Just a few more weeks and I go to New York, then on a cruise to Nova Scotia. I am starting to get excited.

I am anxious to see the Statue of Liberty, Ground Zero will be somber, but we are following it with a play to see "Book of Mormon."

Any stories about New York? Points of Interest?

So so fatigued and sore. I am carefully placing all my clothing, double checking for feces of mice.

Its all good.............for this fear is something I never knew I had. I was screaming for the past week...everytime I saw a mouse. Like the lady standing on the chair making her slave run after the mouse.

So far my old roomies have caught 9

OK.......vermin are not special to me. I watched a mouse run along the base board and into my closet. I am not happy.

The house across the street was burglarized a few nights ago.

I can't wait to move to the Midwest where mice are eaten by neighbors pets and the biggest crime wave is someone getting a ticket for driving their tractor on the roadway.

Now a slave sleeping on the floor would certainly take care of the mouse issue in this big house here by the Lake.

I am certain that soon life will be better. . . . I am strong......but sometimes I like to be tender. Just never ever confuse that with weakness.

I so want to torture you, making you beg to make it stop.  Hearing your moans of pain mixed with anticipation of what could possibly be next ...................your dumb.  you had your chances................ 

Just because you think you can make your own decisions does not mean they are good ones for you to make. 

Kneel down bitch, kiss my ass. Beg me to forgive you, and perhaps just perhaps I will allow you to feel relief soon. 

 Think this sounds reasonable.

 own your soul, your mind, your heart and soon your body. Submit, and leave the rest in my hands....they are soft hands. But remember they are strong like me.  And can inflict upon you a pain like you have never felt. Deep into the depths of hell.......and back up into heaven.

.........................your mine, now and evermore.

Nuff said

When you approach a Domme who has experiences with slaves in the past as well as experience in life, and she tells you good luck she does not feel you would be a good match "NEVER" respond with thanks for wasting your time.

A slave is not important. Your time doesn't matter, show respect at all times and just maybe she would tell another Domme what a good slave you would make, not that your a twisted rubber band waiting to pop off.  Learn some protocol.  Still not interested....and hope you will meet the one that puts you in your place. 

Personally? I want someone that is willing to bend to my will......M

I have  been accused of being too nasty by a vanilla lover in my past.. This is the reason I choose to have a slave/bull lover over a vanilla. Vanilla can never understand my mindset now could they??? D/s Female Supremecy Ruled relationships could never be understood by a "normal".  Nasty? Not open minded? Hummmmmm have to definately think about being told I am crazy....based on what? A 5 hour date?....   And this comes from someone who looks like Papa Smurf.......

sureuare: writes haha no thanks fat old lady haha just accept that your alone haha . 

I think the fascade of the screen gives rude people the element of thinking their actions will not be posted. If you have an opinion keep it to yourself because what you think of me is none of my business, and again, you don't matter.

 I opened the front door about half an hour ago to see a snake staring at me. I called 911 and they said it was not venomous. what......scared the !@#$%%^%

^ out of me so I got a shovel and went out myself after it
I was able to chop off about 3 inches of the tail section now not sure where it is. I detest reptiles....and if given the chance would have ended its life. Did I mention it was fast? Yeah, and black....and long.....and scared me. It is alive in the bushes.....just waiting. It can grow back its tail, I can't even find it now. Did I say I hate snakes?

Yes, I am older. Yes, I am a BBW. Yes, I have a desire to find a slave who will be capable of taking an active role in a D/s Relationship. I want realtime. Do not contact me unless you want to play soon after contact. 

I am growing weary of long hours chatting my fingers away and my manicure is cracked. Take an active role or keep going passing me by.

My eyes and mind grow weary from the constant search for someone to fill the empty void that stands between me and the end of my whip. 

Why are you afraid? Is it because of the pain? But, you of all people know that when we were small and our bones were growing we had aches and pains. A new connection has the same aches and pains that make it grow. I will teach you and you will remember because I will ensure that it is triggered memory, now this may hurt just a little. (smile)

A Domme receives many inquiries daily. Both from previous s/s who are desireing a strong woman to control them to new friends, and potential considerations. 

So....with that said why would you take a chance of ruining a meeting when she finally agrees? I am stunned daily at the ignorance of lowly subs and slaves. you can have a brain and figure out it is not in your best interests can't you? you profess yourself as an intelligent human being. This prooves without a doubt that you are less than a human and not worthy to lick the soles of my shoes. Quit wasting my precious time.

A bad slave is a bad slave. Was that really what you thought I wanted? Seriously? Come on now.........

Why is it so difficult to find someone who shares the same interests? Do us both a favor, and don't try and be someone your not .

My time is precious. Do not expect me to just give it away at a whim. you may be available and not busy, just because the light is on saying I am here don't just expect me to be available only to you.

Learn respect, protocol, and ask to speak with me. Don't expect me to just up and drop everything because you have a twinkle in your eye. I can make it turn to a tear with a moments notice. I have value. I am worth alot more than you can ever imagine possible.

I am the Queen

Do your potential Mistress a favor as well as yourself. If you are not emotionally ready, hot and cold personality do not email me. 

I seek someone who is capable of spending time with me. MORE than once a month. How can I properly train you when your not available to be trained? 

I am tolerant, but don't push the envelope.

I am semi retired, and can't wait to move to Minnesota.  I am comfortable in my own skin which covers a larger frame than most. I am confident knowing I am strong, and knowledgable in the lifestyle I chose to live years ago. 

I found relationships always lacked leaving me empty feeling, and that I wondered why there was not more to the last evenings escapade. Then I spoke with a slave by accident who showed me that I was wired just a little (really alot) differently than the common population. 

I was unaware that this man who was so strong, gentle natured and respectful of me was capable of bringing forward the element I so desired all these years of searching. Not that I have found the ying to my yang yet.  I search in hopes of finding a match in different aspects of life. I will know when he touches me I will know when he follows my lead (hopefully not kicking too harshly). I am excited with my new book, yet the pages are still left unwritten.  Gotta pen?

I have been made aware that there is a male slave brothel outside Waltham, Mass.  If anyone has reference or knows the whereabouts of such a place existing please email me here.  I know of a few people wishing to vacation to such a place.......M

I need to be your most important priority. I need to matter. you are just here to make life better, easier, more fulfilling.  In the long run of terms you will be taken care of one way or another.  Make it easier on yourself and just submit.  Make me a proud owner someday, one who is pleased at your ability to make me smile. I am not that difficult ....really. I understand some things may be necessary to help you to understand that your  attitude is left at the door. I won't compromise what I seek no matter how many times you swear you love me. I have great value. I am ......Domme

I will be gone from CM for a week for those friends who like to chat.  I am going to Minnesota for the Thanksgiving Holiday.  I am unaccustomed to the snow and cold weather living in California, however I am open to a new Adventure. I wish everyone a very healthy D/s Thanksgiving. I will be back here around the 1st of December. Until then be well.........and happy trails to you.

My move is over to the new place.  I have a lovely room with a nice bathroom and great roomates that make me feel very welcome.

This is just the beginning of a new Chapter until I decide which slave to own, and make a life permanent with them.  At that point I will have a 24/7 situation.

Going through boxes brings back laughter, joys, heart aches and pain. So many memories in such a small place. Storage is getting really full of my lifes treasure. Time for new adventures, new belongings and new friends.

Sebastian went to heaven.......on the 27th.  R.I.P baby.

I find myself feeling sad, I know the time is coming when my friend of 15 years will go to sleep for the last time. He cries alot these days, he eats but it goes straight thru his body.  He walks and paces alot I see the light shining into my room as it illuminates the side house. Fur comes off in clumps, he is still so stubborn drinking water non stop, pacing, drinking, whining and crying. I know it hurts my dear friend,  because I am selfish and have wanted to keep you with me I hold on. I was told that is a pet does not have 4 good days what is the quality of his life? He just wants to lay at my feet, and feel my presence about him, but he can't hardly see me anymore, he listens but doesn't really hear sounds well.  He paces as this is being written. His breed expectation of life is 11.5 years. He turns 15 in two weeks. I know that I am selfish, I just want to feel his presence and it makes me feel good knowing he is there. But..........at what cost to him. Dr. Krekorian would say give him some dignity. He looks tired, can't pick him up because he is in pain. He is 61 pounds. He can't jump up on a bed, or a chair, never has, he was trained to stay in his place beneath my feet. Euthanization.....what a horrible term. I was told it is time. He is in pain. I love him. Unconditionally. I love him. He has been my protector of flies, and dust bunnies for nearly 15 years. Soon my friend......you can play again. And jump and run. Catch those imaginary squirrels.................there waiting for you in the mist just beyond the green pastures. ...... Sebastian

Again I received an email from a switch about how I should not call myself a Domme because I can't get a grip on my weight. This is the observation of a person who must have a very high IQ. They are able to view my past, understand why I gained weight after years of a dancers body.

 It infuriates me how people seem to know what is best for another when they have never approached them to begin with and have no clue of their lifestyle choices. This goes for vanilla and D/s. The old addage applies so well, Do not throw stones when you live in a glass house over the sea.

To be looking out for me in such a manner. Now where is a slave and whip when you need one. I have an open can of whoopass to eat.

Little spoiled slave, rudeness does not become you. I have a great value, that which is earned over many years of frustration and battles not only within myself, but also at the hands of others. Rudeness does not become you. If you are finished, completed with your desire then speak of it. Do not hide by extinguishing your mind. There is so little of it for you to loose.

What I have realized most is I don't fit into any certain peg. I am not triangular, certainly not oblong. So why is it that so many question what it is I do? At my age I don't possibly still connect with D/s? Really......well how is that possible? A vanilla man or woman can never grasp the intensity of D/s or  BD/sm realationship based on the knowledge and experience in their tiny little world.  I used to think I was a good lover, HA!! little did I know how wonderful a lover I could become with experience and a willing mind. Being open about who you are and not becoming complacent is truly a key worth holding. 

Now remind me of why vanilla sex is so great? I forgot the question......being so bored with your dull mind.

There are many things about you I miss......... many reasons for things turning out the way they have but none of them make sense. Nothing feels right, nothing feels safe.

Taking a step forward is always difficult when it is into the unknown, but we need to take chances in life in order to move forward. The left foot can only follow the right path, and it is I who stands at the end. Embrace the moment because it goes by so quickly you may loose sight of what is possible, and what is not. Nothing is more valued than a willing slave to an experienced Domme. Open your heart.