This is my first filled in profile on this site, although a secret browser for many years.
I'm in a long term Mistress/slave relationship (nearly 20 years). I've been allowed to join this site as a reward for good service. I'm collared, so not looking for any real life meetings or online relationships beyond a few friendly messages. I'm basically on here to take in the environment, learn more about service, and enjoy reading adverts written by like minded people. Sad I know.
I've been consumed by submissive feelings from an early age. I'm educated, but at 15 I always wanted to be a Dom couple's butler, and not a doctor or engineer. I'm grateful for Mistress for fulfilling my need. I dallied with a few dom/sub relationships before meeting the Mistress back in 2000. At the moment I'm a mixture of domestic servant, TPE slave, handyman, gardener, masseuse (especially the feet), and play toy for my Mistress's sadism. The position is live-in and I'm lucky to have my own room in Mistress's lovely home. Privately she calls me 'boy' and has described me as her synth (with reference to the TV series Humans).
We don't really dabble in general BDSM - but my Mistress is in to C.P. with her crop, and face slapping. But that's as as far as that goes. We used to play more, but it fizzled out due to Mistress's maturing needs. For me, life is now about service and being the best, hard working, obedient, loyal and loving submissive slave possible. I focus on keeping the house clean and perfect, earning money, and being a docile and pleasing servant.
A regular Saturday night involves me making food, bringing it to the TV room on a tray, and later spending the hours fussing Mistress's feet while she watches X-Factor and Strictly on TV. So we're very boring and not your typical collarspace advertisers - sorry!!
I'm allowed to receive messages but will never meet anyone on here. I don't have a social life and never travel without the Mistress. I work from home and by nature I'm very much a homebody.
It gets quite lonely sometimes because Mistress doesn't do small talk unless it's about the price and sourcing of artist's materials in which case she can talk all day (lol). She also has a hectic career and social life. My default service position is in silent mode with speech and eye contact restrictions; so some support from any fellow subs living a real service life in a similar situation would be nice. Our relationship is 100% consensual but I gave Mistress the consent of total ownership a long time ago - we have both thrived in his type of relationship. Apart from the isolation, I'm very happy and content, and love the life I now have - it is what I always dreamed of!
