Distance teaches us to appreciate the days that we spend together and distance teaches us the definition of patience.  It is a reminder that every moment together is special, and every second should be cherished.

*facebook quotes and thoughts*

If someone wants to be a part of your life, they'll make and effort to be in it.  So don't bother reserving a space in your heart for someone who doesn't make an effort to stay.  *author unknown*

To me the D/s, M/s relationship is two sides to the same coin.  One cannot exist without the other.

The rudeness of some on here amazes me.  First off if you don't like what you see, why be an ass and make obnoxious comments to me.  It takes all kinds to make the world go round and everybody has their own tastes in the people they are attracted too. 

Secondly, why is it so hard to just say "hey, i find i'm not interested, or this just isn't working on my end...or some such comment.  Why don't most people have the balls to just say such instead of dropping off the face of the earth and leave you wondering...what the heck? 

Oh well, life moves on and so do i.  Good luck to all of you out there in CM land that deal with all of this on a day to day basis.  It sucks, but i'm stubborn and knows that someday i will find my one, and hopes you all do as well.

Two hearts are aching.  At times circumstances override ones hopes, dreams, desires.  That said, i have had to part with those hopes, dreams, and desires with the One that i had met and was making plans with.  We have talked, and as much as it is difficult, it is understood and accepted that our paths have taken a different turn.  We will remain friends always and wish each other the best in life. 

Back from my trip to AZ.  It went well, i had a wonderful time.  There is a lot of promise for the future with this special man that i went to meet. 

I made it to AZ safe and sound.  So far i'm not fertilizing the cacti.  LOL  Having a great time.

Time is growing short. One week from today i will be getting on a train and heading West. Well first i have to go northeast to Chicago to get a train to head southwest, go figure.

i want to express my gratitude to all that have e-mailed me with their concerns and best wishes. i do understand the risks that are involved in taking a step such as this. Because of this, i have serveral safe calls that i will make, and a back up plan if it is needed. i'm not going into this blindly.  Understand too that there are risks involved on both ends, as he is just as much at risk as i.  Heck, i could be the serial killer! MAAAAHHAAA  It has happened where the man was attacted instead of the woman.

There comes a time, though, when a person has to step out in faith. Yes, take precautions, but don't be afraid to live.  Hey the worse outcome, i will be pushing up cacti instead of daisies.  Cacti fits my personality better anyways.  *winks*

     Just 13 days till i'm on a train and heading out West to meet the One i have been getting to know for some time now. No, i am not counting the hours and minutes....yet.  All kinds of emotions are running rampid in my head.  I'm excited, nervous, hesitant yet sure.  My mind is pretty much mush right now as i am making and remakimg lists of what i need to take. It takes me forever to get to sleep at night, as i cannot turn off my thoughts. 

      This is a big step, no a huge step in my life. The outcome of this initial visit will determine if i will be making a move in the future.  That in itself will be bitter sweet if it happens. i will be leaving all that i have ever known. My family and my friends both in and out of the lifestyle, and even the area where i have lived all my life within 30 miles of where i was born.  But, i will be moving to be with a man that will be my Dominate. One that will care for me and nurture me, guide me and yes love me. A huge, huge step for all involved.