I have been wearing the chastity device more recently, however the one I bought originally developed a split down what I suppose is where the two parts of the device were fitted together.  I suppose they are not made to be used forever.  I also feel when they are removed, they need to be thoroughly cleaned, with a little oil put on the locking mechanism.

In the end I bought a new device, and have been wearing it non stop for 10 days, without removing it once.  it still feels perfect.   I am still looking feor a keyholder and have contacted some of the professional key holding services.

I also know there are many dominant men who seem to enjoy an erotic pleasure having control of a sissy girls thing, preventing them from being able to touch themselves sexually without feeling the awful constriction, or managing to have an orgasm.

subrena

I do know some people have expressed an interest in how my chastity has developed.  Well the piercing got to 5 mm, after lots and lots of patience and time. 

for the last 6 months I have been putting the PA5000 on.  originally I could only put it on for about 2 to 3 days and then the piercing would start to become sore.  Again I was patient, I also got a slightly larger PA5000, and just use to put it on for a day or two at a time.  Now I can have it on for about ...well days ...without feeling it.  I can sleep in it, and also go running with it on, albeit with some tighter panties to stop it moving. 

I believe the longest I could have it on it 7 days, as it would need to be properly cleaned after that.  Also when I do remove it to clean it, I also put just a little oil on the lock, as I am told this can become stiff which breaks the device.

I quite often wear it, although I do not have a key holder, it is just sometimes nice to have it on.  I can almost forget about it, and I can sleep in it without any bother.  I did have a CB3000 and that by comparison was simply awful, I could hardly sit down without feeling the ring around it, and it was just too cumbersome.  Perhaps I might find someone who would like to take ownership of m little thingy and decide when it can be allowed pleasure

June 6th June I have now attended to Ms Phillipa several times and met Ms Phillipa’s partner, Ms Lorraine.  I feel I am becoming emotionally devoted to Ms Phillipa, respecting I am in a trial period.  Today I am buying Ms Phillipa some lingerie and may have to show  my devotion by leaving my lipstick print gently upon the bottom of her panties.  Ms Phillipa is meeting CindyJ and I may be driving Ms for them. 

January 11 Meet Ms Phillipa for the first time, and felt really positive about the interview, it was lovely to accompany her to BNO, and the first time i have ever been there ..but...well now i feel awful as i feel i have upset Ms Phillipa.

January 2nd

Ms Phillipa has said she wishes me NOT to meet anyone else until she has formally interviewed me, which is in just over a weeks time, so ....well i supose i am now "unavaliable" and TERRIBLY nervous!

December 21 and i have some potentially wonderful news.....Ms Phillipa has taken direction of subrena’s development with a view to retaining subrena as her personal maid.

Just to let you know, i have now met someone very special, and am no longer avaliable to enter into a relationshpp with ....

After wearing the PA5000 chastity device during just the day, every day for two weeks, i tried it on for 24 hours, meaning it was (and still is) on over night.

i did wake up in the middle of the night to the feeling of it hurting, and my little thing trying to expand to its excited size.  i only remember waking up once however, and managed to go back to sleep.

when i woke up in the morning, i niticed it had indeed tried to "ecape", there was no actual pain on the piercing which is may main concern, however part of the fleshy bit was poiking through one of the slits in the tube.  shortly after, i managed to hold it's head, and stretch is, which made it thin, and this made everything return back to normal.

i am going to remove it tonight before going to sleep as i have a busy day at work tomorrow, and do not want it to wake me up.  i will also check the piercing

thank you

subrena

x

After having just the PA5000 hook in permanently for 2 weeks, I decided tentatively to try the PA5000 itself, which I started with this week.

I have been putting on the PA5000 before leaving to go to work, as you can imagine my little “clitty” head is exposed with the hook through it, so I have taken the precaution of wearing satin panties.  I have been removing it just before bed.  So far it has been really comfortable and indeed I can hardly feel it for nearly  all of the time, unless…well unless my little thing becomes enlarged.  As a consequence I keep my thoughts pure as it can be painful within the tight confines of the tube.

I am going to try sleeping with it on next week once I have worn it every day for two weeks.  I think I will have to remove it every few days for cleanliness purposes.

i have now had the PA 5000 hook in for over a week.  i was concerned that, due to it being plastic and that it is far larger then the ring i had in originally, that it would be painful.  However i have not noticed it in, and there have been no signs of my body rejecting it, or any signs of infection or anything.

i am going to keep the hook in for another week and then start to wear the full PA5000 for just during the day.  i am still worried that nocternal swellings will cause a problem, so i am going to be really careful.  i am hoping that the piercing will be strong enough to accept the pressures and ovements of the tube during any such nocternal actions.

Yours

subrena

For those of you interested in piercings and chastity, I thought I would give a little update on what has happened to me.  Originally a master wanted permanent chastity for me, and so having tried all the CB3000’s without success of comfort, I decided to try a PA5000, just the little matter of the “piercing”  So in April 2010 I had it pierced.  

Two weeks ago I managed to insert a 5mm ball enclosure ring, I wore then for one week, and then last weekend I remove this and fitted the thickest hook that comes with the PA5000, this is 4 gauge, or 5.8 mm diameter.  I feel that if I can become accustomed to this, then I will be able to fit the PA5000 and keep it on.  My previous attempt ended with the piercing becoming painful after just two days. 

The worst problem seems to be at night with nocturnal erections, which put strain on the piercing.  Although nocturnal erections are not something I wish for, they are, I am lead to believe, a sigh of good health.  I shall keep just the hook in for at least another two weeks before trying tentatively with the PA itself.  I also want to see if having the plastic hook in leads to any problems.  The stainless steel ring in before was fine, however I could rotate it to keep it clean, and the highly polished stainless steel is in itself good at remaining free from bacteria. 

Chastity is not something that i am particularly fond of, especially as i simply adore the feeling of touching and the inevitalbe consequences, however many of the people i find attractive, have such a strong interest in chastity, that i feel if i can achieve this without discomfort, then it will make me just that bit more interesting to prospective owners. 

A little update about my meeting with Miss Suzy (or MissSuzy from this site).

I know most of you perhaps think that this site is full of timewasters…well perhaps it is, but certainly Miss Suzy is VERY real and lovely to meet.

As her profile shows, she has a veritable collection of all manner of whips, canes and paddles.  We met and went to a TV / fetish club near Southampton.  We chatted together whilst I handled and touched her devices of punishment, I love the small of leather whips!   We then went to the club dungeon where I had agreed to submit to her.  She tightly strapped me on a bench, immobilising me completely.  I felt my panties pulled down, and felt the gaze of an audience.  Whenever I am punished, especially with someone new, I become very scared, and cannot help but shake.  I become very emotional and need to talk to the person, I feel I jus need the comfort of feeling they are there, asking them if they are going to hurt me, and if I am pleasing them.  I just feel I need to hear their voice and to connect to them, that is why I hate being gagged, as I feel so isolated.  Miss Suzy used her toys, fortunately she is very good and was hard but tender with me.  She knew I have a phobia about the cane and so was gentle.  I cannot help but shake like mad as I feel what I recognise as a cane resting on my bottom before it is swung, I hate that period of waiting for it to happen.  It hurt awfully, and I hate pain, but I know and felt she was enjoying it, I had promised her I would accept her.  I never use safety words as I feel ad accept the need for the Domme to have that control over me, and I suppose that is why I need to feel the emotional comfort of who I submit to.

Afterwards, she undid my restraints, this for me is very calming I feel very introvert, and subdued, and very upset.  Afterwards we chatted some more.  Miss Suzy has an E-Sim kit, we want back to my room where she used her electrical devices on me.  I had promised I would let her play, and tried to relax.  I am squeamish and could not watch as she put the straps around my little bits of sensitive flesh.  I wanted to remove them, I was begging to have her remove them despite knowing how much she was enjoying it.  I let her use her restraints on my, pinning my wrists to my ankles, and gagging me –I scream, but also could not talk to her anymore and felt so lonely as she applied awful pegs to me whilst keeping the E-Sim of what I felt was a terribly high setting.  She asked me if she could do things to my nipples, I was trying desperately to say no, but she kept on asking and started to pull my dress down, and then my bra, I had my eyes shut and was trying desperately to say no.  i felt her apply them, my breathing was uncontrollable and I felt my body convulsing with the pain, I could feel my body becoming exhausted and I was desperate for the pain to stop.  Miss Suzy eventually said she would remove, I was pleading with her trying to speak and scream at the same time.  She removed the awful pegs biting into my nipples first and the pain came again.  I just wanted the pain to stop.  I could feel all the pegs around the tops of my thighs and felt the numbness.  Miss Suzy removed these in little stages as she could see I was hyperventilating and struggling.  When they were removed I could eventually start to control my breathing.  She removed the gag and restraints and I felt exhausted and just lay there for ages, so grateful to Miss Suzy for stopping the pain.

I am so pleased she enjoyed her things.  Miss Suzy has spent a considerable amount on her things and I felt privileged I could help her use them, even if it was awful for me at the time. 

Please respect Miss Suzy is genuine, real and genuine, I say that because just before we met, she was going to meet someone who promised everything and then "disappeared" a few days before.  i just wish people like that could just keep themselves to their own fantasies without bothering us.

Subrena

xxx

I came across a rather pertinent and quite philosophical article about whether gurls like myself are “cross-dressers.”  The Mistress of a couple I once served referred to me as a cross dresser, and I was quite hurt by this!  I personally would never see myself as a cross dresser, which to me is a gentleman who enjoys wearing ladies clothes, normally for the sensual feelings they give.  I have indeed served gentlemen like this, and always addressed them as sir, and of course they were their normal male selves albeit in feminine attire.  That particular gentleman always called me subrena.

Personally I am completely different when I am my feminine self and when dressed, I have a different pitch to my vice, even the words I use are different, and naturally I behave and act in a very feminine, albeit submissive feminine manner.  Certainly this has been very important to those I have served.  Normally the change in myself happens when I brush my hair, I suppose that is normally the last thing I do before going on duty.  I have no idea how I should describe myself, transgendered ?  well I still have those little extra bits down there  - which is also normally very important to those I serve ! 

As regards “gentle prodding” – well again, certainly a number of gentlemen I have met actually enjoy the prodding to make sure I make myself even more feminine for their appeasement!

Yours truly,

Subrena

xxx