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** another edit ** )
Hello, I have been on and off this site for years now. I also have another profile here lilybird that isnt able to respond to messages now... so thought I would create this one to reach those that i was interested in getting to know... but now i cant send messages here either...
ive been coming here since it was Collarme... and have met some great people... but it really is a diamond in the rough sort of thing.
Things about me this one has been coming to this site, off and on for years! I have met a few great people here...Actually, my first trainer and last owner both found this one on collarme )
i am now finding myself trying to ignore my true nature, but the reality is i will never fully love, nor satisfaction if i am not a slave so anothers wants and desires. My kink is their kink... it is a hard thing to describe to some... but those that understand that statement, understand that this one would go to any lengths to make her owner smile.
Or at least that is my hearts desire.... to be fully candid, i am currently wondering if it is possible to find that authentic match..... when it comes to a real, 247 match.. a puzzle piece match....
Oh.. and i love making friends ) so reach out )
** Sorry Friends, but for some reason i am not able to reply to messages... it suddenly says that my 2 yr old profile, suddenly needs approval. So please forgive this one for not replying to anyone who reaches out ) I can see messages though... Anyway, hopefully they fix it soon....
lily
*Im not I tech savvy, hahaha,,,, so I dont know how to change my location (Im in the bay area more)
i am looking to get to know people and throw some bread crumbs out there and see who i talk to
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Now please Note, above anything else i am looking for friends, mentors, "experience opinion givers" :) (i think i just made that up) . i need to want to submit to the mind and energy of the person i am getting to know... the best to do that is to exchange words, thoughts and ideals.. So if you are down for chatting and getting to know people.. cool lets do it! but i am too skittish to just submit... i am sorry, but i need patience... i understand, if that does not sit well with everyone... i guess the bright side, is at least now you know and frustration averted :) |
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4/18
Hello Friends :)
so i am peeking around on here again.. just seeing who is in the area... i keep getting some similar questions... so i want to just blast to the masses... cause if you are serious about getting to know me... then i think reading journals are apart of it :)
1) I dont know if i am currently looking for a Master.. i am struggling with my need for ownership, but also the need to be grounded in... this is real life not a book or fantasy story.. i need a connection to submit on the level i dream of submitting... so that takes time and more than 1 or 2 messages.
2) what i mean when i say, in my last journal, "i cant serve in the way i think i need to", it just means that he realized that he doesn't really doesn't want a slave. He wants a temp pet or no strings fuck meat. And yes he still uses me in that way. I am generally happy in my place and my role with him.. but i am not collared and not owned.. and i wonder if it is time for a different chapter.. everything changes though.. i just have to figure out what direction i want to go from here
(this whole dynamic is so darn interesting, the mind and heart is a funny thing) We are
3) Response Rate: it is true, profiles with pics get TONS of messages... so basically the messages that start demanding pics/phone number etc or instant service... i will likely not reply right away... not to be disrespectful.. but so i just don't have the time to reply to those that will likely not go anywhere. Also, if you are truly interested in getting to know me and i havent replied.. please send me another message. I actually thought i was replying to people as they came in, but for some reason from my phone they didnt post... So please just reach out again
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i need to be owned. i had a 6 yr relationship with an owner who i loved with all my heart. but he has moved on to a different need, and unfortunately that has left me in a position that i don't think i have the ability to serve.
I need to serve, i need to be owned 25/7 :) i need to have someone to be hard one me and not loose interest because i become a challenge or strong willed.
i live for this lifestyle, but i need to connect on an emotional and spiritual level (this lifestyle is spiritual for me)
that is all...
broken lily
oh you can follow me on lily-bird on tumbler :) |
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| Age: 23 |
| Mchenry,
Illinois |
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