LadyGiR

Soooo I'm going to defiantly be here for another week trying to make money in various ways!

I have set up a "wepay" account to take donations to get Gir home to California! (With my car).

https://www.wepay.com/donations/get-gir-home-to-california?utm_campaign=donations&utm_medium=link&utm_source=facebook&ref_uid=5669968

That is the link feel free to donate! :) I really would like to get home! :)

Anything at all would be suuuper helpful!!

Thanks! :)

$200 fucking dollars to fix my car's computer brain (the brain gor drowns and the mechanic had to take it out, take it apart let it dry then but it back together). I had more than a gallon of water sitting if my car! Damn it!! All of my yard sale money is gone!! FUUUUUUUUUck!

And! the person who was supposed to go with me backed out I have almost zero money and I have no fucking idea what to do!!! I really want to leave!! I dont want to send another month here with no place to stay and no money.

ARRRRRRRRGGG I don't know what to do!!

my car is broken!!!!! :(( I'm getting it fixed but money is slim

I need to get to California :(

I had just made enough money to make it to California...but now with the car repairs :((

who want to go with me? help me there get me settle in? 5 day (and 5 hotel nights with me ;) ) I really wan to not be in Ithaca New York!

Who wants to explore the country with me?

***Ok, because I am driving across the country in the middle of May I need money. Sadly, becasue my current job does have any hours for me, I will be selling my stuff (shoes, clothes, books,bags, trinkets, and the like). If you would like to help me make it to the other side of the country shoot me a message inquire about what you would like to buy (if you are curious about buying something but you are not sure if I have it or will sell it do ask me! It is very important for me to get across the country I haven't seen my family in a while) and help me so very much :). I want you to remember that this stuff is apart of me and most of it I have had for a while (and like quite a bit) so if you do buy some of my stuff--please take care of it!  (4/3/12)... <3 GiR ***

Im soooooo excited my birthday is coming  up Quite soon!!!!!!!!(this month!)

whats to day..? April 2nd?...my birthday is in 13 days!!!

I am a Sadist. I would hurt you. beat you. torture you. I would make you beg for release but not give it.

Is that what you are looking for?

Where the hell did manners go???

No one says "please" or "thank you" or "May I possibly..."

I like manners. They make me happy. I love it when people are polite.

So I just got back form the hospital...I have to take a taxi there and home...they put three kinds of pain stoppers in me and told me to go home. (I injured my neck by the way radiating into my back...) sooo that sucked (and not in a good way).. I am home now. I ordered food and am going to take a really hot shower.

some times I wish I didn't have to do this by myself. I wish I had someone here for me :(...A girl can dream can't she? ...anyways...nothing I can do about in now... On to the shower. Goodnight.

I have always wanted a life involving the "perfect house" with a dungeon in the basement...or a special room. I want my house to be cleaned and kept up by a slave. I want to come home and be pampered. I want the men in my home to be well dressed in my presence or nude. I want to dress like a woman from 1940. I want the women in my home well dressed or not dressed. I want my home to be organized, I want to have my own space and a wonderful four poster canopy bed that people can be strapped to (and hurt).

I am looking to build a female run Victorian household.....

I added a new picture! of my present to myself for Christmas.

I got a red slim strap on...it is the new year and I have yet to use it on any body...who wants to be the first ;)

Soooo the New Year is quickly approaching and I have no plans :(.

I am not in NYC So there is no party I can just show up at.....

I don't know what to do :/

Isn't every lady supposed to be kissed on new years eve/ the new year?

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Hmmmm...

Well first off I do like men it just that when I put "bi-sexual" (although I am truly pan-sexual) I have an in box full of men and no women. 

I found a profile that was beautifully written and I realized that (as I was reading it) that that was what I wanted.

I've known for a while that what CM normally offered wasn't cutting it.

I don't want one night stands. I don't want to be a play buddy by chance.

I am a creature of habit and that is how I feel secure. I want a relationship that I can count on, that I can trust, that makes me feel secure.

I am a human before I am a Dom and I want to feel safe and secure.

If you think me being a human is weakness then you are most likely what I do not want. Humanity is a strength it allows for empathy and growth and knowledge. 

But anyway, a profile that was close to perfect...and you know what, I don't think he will respond...and I can hazard a guess as to why.....age. :(

That really makes me sad.

....you know what title I like better than Mistress? or Miss? or Ma'am?

Is Master. and Sir. That makes me really happy...I don't know why

...weeeelll actually I do :)

...I wanna get my nipples pierced!!! I also wanna get another tattoo!!

Now because of school i can't work a lot and therefore have no money....when I do work, something always comes up at school that i need to buy!!! grrrrrr!!!! This is really frustrating.... I wanna do what I did with my tongue and first tattoo... when I set up the tattoo appointment I got my tongue pierced.... I wanna set up the tattoo appointment and get my nipples (I'm thinking one nipple) pierced at the same time.... :(

I may even get my nose re-pierced.....

...

I guess I am pushing for this because I wanna...I dunno....change (..or something)... like school is great and all but I am missing the kinky aspects of myself that keep me happy and balanced... I still don't have a sub or a slave which is a fucking downer! ...or anyone at all to play with. which is completely stifling....

I don't like when I can't do things...It kinda makes me sad.... :(

I am changing my profile but I wanted this to still be connected to it:

what I am looking for:

• eventual live-in
• can hold a conversation
• dedicated
• wants to give up complete control
• likes pain, and/or and endure a good amount of pain [painsluts are a MAJOR plus!]
  
• willing/able to continue working and (at least) contribute to the house/apartment
• can clean and cook...or a desire to learn (and the intelligence to do so) 
• okay with polyamory (and cuckolding)

What I am  NOT looking for:

• 24/7 male sissy
• baby
• online
  

My limits:

• no children
• no animals
• no scat play
• no water play

Please have the common  courtesy to type in full proper English.

In your first message, please include the following:

-What you are looking for from Me.

-What you're willing to offer. (Besides the obvious of servitude, every sub offers that, make me want to Domme you.)

-Show me who you are, I want to know you as a person, not necessarily only as a sub. This is what makes you important to me.

If you want to know more about me, what I'm like, what I sound like, how I am- read my journals, watch my videos. (it's better if you know something about me before you message me).

I like it when my guys are taller than me and my women are shorter than me....

I will stand for it the other way....under special circumstances ;}

I really hate it when a person says they will do something and they don't!

If you can't do it don't say you can!

my birthday is falling through!!!!

:'''''(

the count down has begun!!!!! ten days to go!!!!

I actually am in tech week of a musical (which opens Thursday) so everything is CRAZY! for me!

I will be going to NYC (as of now) I will be going to the myth party (as of now) but I will not be going to the Tribes impact event (same night as myth)

Here is an example of me being a self reliant (non parasitic) person!!!::::

I bought myself a wii!!              

and a wii fit board             

and a bunch of games       

and accessories!!!

...off of craigstlist (it was awesome!!!!)

there are games that I want that didn't come with the purchase

wii fit plus (game)

just dance 2

sims 3 ===I just bought this for myself! lol (reeeally wanted it!!)

guitar hero (this one is going to take so saving :[.....)

so this was my birthday gift to myself!

...originally I was thinking of buying the Gir stuffed backpack <3<3<3<3<3from hot topic that I've wanted for some time now(I didn't buy it before because I thought it should be given as a gift...but I've resigned myself to having to get it for myself lol) 

....what was I saying.....oh! right Gir backpack and 2 of the Gir captured bead hoop packs (also from hot topic....)

And yes! my birthday is coming up! I think I am going to New York City to a myth party (which is actually on Friday night so that's a PLUS!) It should be LOADS of fun!! I plan to party in NYC the ENTIRE weekend...hopefully ending on Sunday with the Tribes impact event (crossing my fingers that they have it that week end!!)

I know some people wanted to meet me (that live in the city) so defiantly we I get my plans set into stone (dates and places I will post them) ...then if you want to meet me you can show up! and I will be there :3

well!! have a lovely day!!!!

~~~XxXxXxXxXxX~~~

I want a wii & wii fit board!!!! This is really frustrating me!!...
I have been looking for a good long while, and every time I seem to be about to get one it gets taken for me :'(....Does anyone have any suggestions for how I can get a wii and wii board?

I know it would be easy to walk into any store and buy it, but I don't just have $200 plus dollars lying around. :( I really want to play games but I can't :(

what I am looking for:

• eventual live-in
• can hold a conversation
• dedicated
• wants to give up complete control
• likes pain (and/or and endure a good amount of pain)
• willing/able to continue working and (at least) contribute to the house/apartment
• can clean and cook...or a desire to learn (and the intelligence to do so) 
• okay with cuckolding

What I am not looking for:

• 24/7 sissy

My limits:

• no children
• no animals
• no scat play
• no water play

I feel like I keep getting blown off...like it works for a couple of days then poof it's all over! and the person has disappeared! ...it's like what the fuck?!?!?!? I just spent this time talking to you trying to get to know you, for you to just bloody disappear! That really frustrates me...

I just painted my fingernails red, they are very shiny and look like candy....my toes may be next...I really don't want to but it's best to have a shiny red pair.  :)

maybe I'll take a picture for all you foot people out there...

...I really need someone to do this for me...but like, with the other perks. I'm talking foot scrub and massage then a complete nail job. lol....maybe even a little bit of toe kissing...I mean that IS the best way to break in shiny newly painted nails. ;)

work is boring!...I wish someone would entertain me... ^.^

I am having an UTTERLY SHITTY DAY! First, I misplaced my phone (it's still miss placed), second I got two tickets (in one go, AND I have to deal with the registration of the car!) and I have to show up for court, third my soles are KILLING ME!1 (I have had my new Dr. Martin's on since eleven (am). fourth, my car battery keeps dying and it looks like I will have to get a new one (and I yet to pay rent) and just to top that off I have a raging head and ear ache!!! so yup! That's been my day!

I think I cried for like an hour. I am going to sleep now, tomorrow will probably be awful too.

I guess for a while I wanted to pretend I wasn't sadistic...but recently I've come to realize that it's ok that I love to hurt people. Its okay that a person's pain is one of the few things that makes me extremely wet.

I dunno I always thought that it was bad that I thought that other people's pain was beautiful, especially when it played across their face and racked their body. it just puts me in such a happy place. 

So yes! Sadistic! Very! :D

So my birthday is in about two months and as I thinking about that I am starting to get a clearer picture of the type of (permanent) sub I want.

I'm thinking a person that has a personality, can hold a conversation (and can be my friend), a person that has interests and desires and hopes (and dreams). The person must also be a pain (pleasure) slut= Likes pain, likes sharp things, likes being restrained. Likes being handled. Vocal is also good (very good)

I am protective and giving (and taking) I am sensual, I can only be with a person that I am attracted to more mentally than physically (although looks are good).

As for body modification, they are good but not necessary.

In all truth my ideal subs sex would be female but I'd accept a male (given multiple very good reasons)

Now keep in mind I am still searching, still growing, this doesn't mean I'll turn you down if you don't fit this description...it just means that I am still learning about myself and the possibilities the world has to offer.

...I guess I'll try a different tactic.....

I bloody want to hit someone RIGHT NOW!!! I just really need...!!!!

I don't want to talk, I don't want to get to know some one.  I want a person to strip down and let me hit them, let me work their body until they can't think, can't even speak. I want something animal  and I WANT IT NOW!!!

We can talk later we can deal with all the other stuff later.

Right now! That is what I want!!!!

Everything has been updated! read through my page and then go from there! ^.^

Over the next week I will be changing somethings on my page.

What I am looking for will be changing.

How a person can get my attention will also be changing.

I have been forced to do this because I am dealing with people who think my time and attention is free and they can abuse that. I am not going to quit the site but you you do not follow how I have explained the best way to contact me/approach me you will not get a response, you message will be delete and if you continue to be persistent you will be blocked.

f.y.i. i am not interested in toilets!

I don't do waterworks

I REFUSE to even be a part of scat

(I don't like enema play either)

NO TOILETS. DON'T ASK!

Siiiiiiiick! :( :( :( :(

I'm about ready to stop this. It  just seems like no one is serious.

I do so love this season....not just thanksgiving but Christmas too. It's such a love time of year,

being surronded by the people you like and love, enjoying their company.

I love the spirit of this time, not to mention the gifts but it's not about that-it's about really remembering to cherish the people that mean the most (that make you happy), showing them that they mean someting to you.

This season also makes the kindness that some peopel have but most don't know how to show, it makes it "socially acceptable" to be kind. I find that beautiful and nauseating (partially because it's not "socially acceptable" to be kind during the rest of the year :'[ ..) but as of now mostly beautiful.

What I'm Looking For....

[13:40] djbrain3000: hello
[13:41] mf: hello
[13:43] djbrain3000: How are you?
[13:44] mf: good i still ahve hoped for a chance
[13:44] djbrain3000: you still hope for a chance?
[13:45] mf: yes i want to learn and do if i can
[13:45] djbrain3000: and you want to learn from Me?
[13:46] mf: yes maam..if i can
[13:46] djbrain3000: Why do you want to learn from Me?
[13:48] djbrain3000: answer Me.
[13:48] mf : to be the slave you want for long term if possible
[13:48] djbrain3000: good answer
[13:48] mf: it is possible you will?
[13:49] djbrain3000: possibly.
[13:49] djbrain3000: What to you get out of being a slave to Me?
[13:49] mf: i will get to be with you.. and i just know i will worship you
[13:52] djbrain3000: do you want to loose yourself or maintain who you are (tell Me the truth. not what you think I want to hear)
[13:52] mf: i want to keep my work.. but i hoep to really in tiem belong 24/7 to a goddess like you
[13:55] djbrain3000: Ah. ok.
[13:56] mf: wghat do you want ?
[13:57] djbrain3000: I want someone dedicated.
[13:58] djbrain3000: someone who trust me enough to let me do what ever i want to them
[13:59] mf: can i try please
[13:59] djbrain3000: someone who feels that i would never hurt them (to the point that they end up hospitalized or anything like that)
[13:59] mf: yes maam
[13:59] mf: understood
[14:07] djbrain3000: someone who understand that my word is law (but not like pointles laws and laws where people can still get hurt)
[14:08] mf: i do..i already do
[14:08] djbrain3000: I'm looking for someone who enjoys doing whati tell them or sitting is the room silently
[14:09] mf: yes maam.. pelase can you give me this chance for real
[14:09] djbrain3000: someone who lives in bliss whn i let them touch me or learn against me or whne i brush my hand against them
[14:09] mf: i understand .. and i will worship you i know
[14:11] djbrain3000: will you? will you still worship me when I am angry? when I put you in a corner. when I spank you for being bad? when I abuse you becasue I can? Will you still worship me then?
[14:12] mf: yes maam..please.. i knwo i need to leasrn and try ..
[14:12] mf: i do..
[14:19] djbrain3000: one last thing I need you to know is that when I do something I go all out. I expect the best from myself so I give the best. I expect the best from people around me. when they don't give the best not only am I disappointed but I push them harder until they give me the best. I don't like hearing no. I don't like hearing excuses. I like results. I like action. if you can not do something. don't say you can. It makes Me angry when you don't do what you say. I have a terrible temper and I don't like Myself when I'm angry. I do rash things and it's not a pretty sight. it takes a lot to make me truly angry and that is not a place any one wants Me to be.
[14:19] mf: i need to try

[14:20] mf: yes maam understood