A strong hand gripped my hair and pulled my head back slowly.  "You are coming with me." he stated in a low, gruff voice.  Feeling the panic rise, I tried to push away from him.  He reached an arm around my waist, anchoring my back against his chest.  "I told you, you are coming with me now.  Don't make me hurt you." His lips brushed my ear, his breath hot against my neck.

"Fine." I gritted through my teeth. Since I wasn't going to escape from him now, I would comply.  But I had already resolved that the minute we were alone, I would tell him again that I was no longer his. After a year of on-again-off-again dating and sex, I was done.  Every time I tried to tell him it was over, I somehow wound up on his bed, his long, hard cock deep inside me.  But no more.

I spun around to face him the minute he shut the front door.  "What the hell do you think you're doing? Don't you ever touch me like that again!"  He crossed his arms in front of his chest, barring the door.  His deep green eyes, the ones I fell for every time, glared at me beneath his lashes.  "We need to talk," was all he said.  I shook my head.  "No. I've already told you, it's over.  I am not rehashing the same argument with you."  He started stalking toward, his fury at the end of its leash.  I backed up into the kitchen counter.

"You are not running from me again.  If I have to tie you to the bed to make you stay put and listen to me, I will."  His voice was low.  I knew he had anger problems, but I had never seen him like this.  "We both know you are lying. Get out of my way."  I wondered if he really meant it that he would tie me down.  I could feel myself getting wet at the idea.  I pushed past him, determined to leave.

His hand snatched out and grabbed my wrist.

A rare day off from work...currently sitting beneath my bedroom window and enjoying the weather, reading and day dreaming...

Such a beautiful day today! I walked around and just soaked up the sun...it was heavenly!  I really wish there was a park within walking distance so I could lay in the shade of a tree and read...that would heaven on earth to me! Well, a book and a wonderful guy laying next to me.  Someone that I can be content to just lay with and talk, then go home and get down and dirty! 

You know, when I was growing up, the only guys I ever seemed to attract were the boys who would look at there feet and ask if they can kiss me.  All very nice, sweet, vanilla...and so boring! Maybe I have read too many books and watched to many movies.  I am a hopeless romantic, waiting for someone to stride up to me, all confidence, completely masculine, and utterly possess me with a kiss that leaves me reeling, and then tells me that he will take me, and that I will surrender to him. I would melt like butter.

Yeah, I gotta lay off the romance novels and chick flicks!

What to say about today? Well, I went to the theaters to see the new Johnny Depp movie, Dark Shadows.  While the idea of Johnny Depp as a vampire had me very wet, it sadly did not deliver.  I guess I was hoping for more of an Anne Rice type vampire. 

For the record, I love vampires, so the whole biting my neck...or pretty much anything to do with my neck... is a huge turn on.  I love the idea of some dark, handsome creature swooping into my bedroom in the middle of the night, making me weak as he drinks my blood, then taking me to his lair, mansion, condo, whatever, and making me his sex slave.  I would fight at first, of course, but eventually he would seduce the disobedience out of me, making me want him to tie me up, bite my neck, and have the most mind-blowing sex ever. 

So if you are a handsome vampire, or Johnny Depp, consider my offer.  Who wants to seduce an angel into the dark?

Currently on a reading binge with bdsm erotica books...how is it that the public library has so many of these?! Just started a new book, Roped Heat by Vonna Harper.  Fantasy world, warring tribes, a warlord captures young woman and makes her a sex slave...pretty standard stuff, hot scenes, but the thing that gets me is that this is the third book in a row I have read that has the main female character as a natural redhead...are we redheads seriously that desirable? And if so, why doesn't Hollywood ditch the bottle blondes and go crimson?

Just food for thought...

First journal entry...umm, i am bored.  So very bored.  I want excitement! Something so different from my dead end, crappy life! Is there a bad boy out there who will abduct me? I miss having my own car, I miss friends, I miss sex...oh God I miss sex!