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Hello, I have created this profile simply to confess my secrets. I have been involved in this lifestyle for over ten years and identify as a pure switch. Living a prim and proper life as the sweetest girl next door is amazing when no one knows what I really am capable of. I have a lot of dark , deep and disturbed desires and I do some unspeakable acts. I just want to say them out loud, and I thought this website should be an appropriate venue for that. I have no immediate interest in meeting anyone. I'm here to confess, ONLY. I will be writing in my journal about things I have done or things I fantasize about doing. Thank you for reading.
1/25/2011 11:09:23 AM

A male sub wrote me his detailed description of his first time being used, and it was I who used him. It of course needed to be edited but here it is:

I was given a clear instruction on time and place from Mistress who picked me up trolling online. in less than 12 hours she tells me that i will be used. I craved it but she truly wanted it to be taken from me that day.

I knock on the door not sue what to expect. she given me brief description of her looks and style, but i have no clue. i stood there for what seemed like enetrnity then she opens the door. she was wearing a soft blood red tshirt and a modest black skirt with laced up boots. her hair was very casual and i think she had no make up on. she smiles at me and tells me to get in, and i do. i look at her face as i passed her ,, she has a silly smile on. i started to panic.. this girl had no idea how to fuck let alone ride my ass.. this is gonna be boring, i can tell.. she smells nice thou !

she walks behind me, I realize that is a bit taller and I can feel her breath on my neck and her gaze piercing my neck.

she passes me and looks at me saying: well well so this is you!

I found her statement to be a lil intimidating , i look at her face,, she seems very sure that i will be her bitch! where did that come from??

well i did shave everything cuz she told me to! maybe that is it stupid!!

she smiles at me and walks towards me : do you wanna do this boy?? i answer : yes Miss.. ( damn that was so fast! should've played cool,... too late now)

are you sure ?? she asks.. i nodd .. she says it louder: are you sure??????

I answer like a lil girl yes Miss...

Good, she says as she gets closer.

then looks at my clothes,, grabs onto my ear and looks into my eyes: you wanna be my lil bitch boy?? i cannot breath now.. yes Miss ,

she tuggs on my ear and slaps me with the other hand and says: you know you will be in pain and you will be used hard..

i can only bring myself to nodd.

she slaps my face harder, her other hand still on my ear.. you know you will be sucking His cock and taking whatever we decide to do with you?!?

Ok, now she is mocking me.. i get startled by a firmer slap,, DO YOU???

yes Miss I know.. I want to.. please Miss

she tuggs my ears harder then lets go. ( go shower clean,, clean your shit hole with soap and do not come out till i call you)

i walked to the bathroom so obedient and so happy that i have been told!

i shower,, i wash every inch of me,, over and over,, where is she?? i can hear her talking on the phone, then she goes silent

five minutes have passed with water running on my head.. she forgot me i suppose!

I yell out.. Miss????

she replies in a low feminine voce,, wait in there!

and i wait.. she walks in teh bathroom with a reb rubber bag with anozzel attached.. she hands it to me and tells me to fill it with hot water and soap..as i do,, she puts on rubber gloves,, ( ok,, this is def. going up my ass!)

and true enough.. she tells me to bend over & spread. she washes my ass hole with her rubber covered hand and fingers,, then grabs teh rubber bag and shoves the nozzel in ,, i try to squirm,, but she yells at me( DON"T move) and i don't.

she empties the soapy water in me and as she does i feel my insides filling.. ( how much is in that god damn bag??).. she slaps my balls with her other hands and yells: SHHHHH

she fills another bag and empties it inside me.. then says: empty yourself and call me.. and walks away

i sat there trying to push it out and it was coming out in bursts.. just water!( that woman is gonna sanitize the shit out of me!)

i finally am done so i call out loud: i'm empty. she walks in with that damn bag and fills it with warm water again and now i know what to do: i bend over and spread my ass cheeks like a true bitch in heat,, she giggles and shoves it in harder than before and tells to push now,, i push,, and i squirt over the top,, she laughs at me

i think to myself,, game over ,, I AM her bitch now!!

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To be cotinued

 

1/24/2011 2:07:02 PM

 

I had a Master who loved pushing my limits. he was " as I came to realize like all men to be  " fascinated by fMf threesums.

He loved the idea of extra set of boobs, extra set of holes and two subs wanting to please him. He was a handsome young man with tons of stamina and natural dominance. I wanted to go further and i wanted to please Him.. but what i truly wanted was to hurt a wiling sub girl, So I went along with His plans.

 I was the brunette and he brought in the blond.

We decided to meet her in a hotel room as I was very skittish about anything else. He drove us to the hotel room, carried the bag of toys in and stood there in eth middle of the room looking at me. I wondered what he might want! he would just pull me to kneel in front of him and i know how to unzip his pants with my teeth and find my way to his erect cock and tease it ,, then suck on it until I no longer have any power over his thrust in my mouth.. But no he is just looking at me. He is making me VERY nervous! I thought I'd ask, but as I attempted, He gave me that stern look and I stopped.

he grabbed me by the hand and sat on the char with me standing between his legs.. Stared at my stomach for a briefly moment then suddenly said: do you know that you will cross to the other side today, slave? There will be no going back!

I nodded shying away from making any eye contact.. But he pulls my face closer to him and says: look into my eyes and tell me you want me to usher you in, slave..

I had no ability to disobey him, nor was I willing to pass on the opportunity to play with a willing girl.. So repeated what he said: Master i want you to usher me in.

He smiled and got up, signalled me to undress.. And I did, totally. He looked at me, told me to turn around,, felt my arms,, then my breasts,, moved his hands along my thighs then with a swift move bent me over and started probing my hole.. (Slave, you are a naturally wet girl.. you will see today why I picked you)

I was about to moan with pleasure but He pulled his finger fast and shoved it in my mouth (remember your own taste slave)

he stood by the door with his firmly pressed suite and gave me a direct non-negotiable order: ( get a shower, put on the usual then the clothes you came in with.. order the usual and sit on the far left bed and DO NOT MOVE until I tell you so ) I nodded politely.. He smiled and blew me a kiss as he left.

I tried not to over think this.. It's me and him and another cunt,, what's the big deal?? No it is a big deal!! I have never touched another woman's body naked!.. I have never been naked with another girl.. What if she is prettier than me? What if she's more skilled than me?? I hate competition!!!

i showered quickly, making sure to clean my holes yet again! Master loves to fuck my ass and hear me scream in pain!! And I do love the feeling of his hard cock pressing against me and penetrating my hole deeply. It hurts so well

I felt my breasts and thought: He loves these and He will for sure cum on them! But I thought to myself if he came on my boobs then she will be the one licking them off of me!

hmm that poses a dilemma for sure! But , I will fight that bitch for it. his cum was so tasty,, plenty of thin gwey fluid..  He would make me open wide and stick my tongue out for it and I LOVED that!

or face fuck me until I chocked on his cum.. I just loved being his cum slut.. I want his cum FOR MYSELF! that was all I could think of as I put on my corset and stockings.

I put on my black skirt and green shirt , my black pumps, fixed my hair and added to my make up to increase my whorish look and I sat on the far left bed in silence. I wish he would come on her pussy so I would  HAVE to lick off of her … I wonder what a pussy feels like on my tongue??

he knocks quickly on the door as he pushes it open and says with his low voice: Here we are !

She walks in before him.. she is a young girl in her mid 20’s with a bigger built and very blond hair. She has a cute look on her face and a very friendly demeanour.  She had a hippie skirt and a washed out t-shirt on,, definitely a slob! I smiled widely and did not dare move until I am told so. he walks in behind her and smiles at me as he sees me sitting still on the edge of the bed.  he introduces us and winks at me to ask chat her up: I asked few meaningless questions but the girl is getting super friendly. I look at him and he smiles at me and says in a loud voice : show us what you have underneath, slave.

I finally move , I stood up,, facing him , start unbuttoning my hsirt to expose my tightly contained breasts in my black corset.. and I take off my shirt then turn to face the wall with my bum to Him and her ,, I slowly unzip my skirt and bend over sliding it off of me. he lets a soft noise of approval. I turn to face him and I stand there smiling and proud of myself. he looks in her direction and smiles she just takes of her shirt , skirt and undies and in less than a spilt of a second her bra leaving her boobs flopping freely.. She is standing there TOTALLY naked! And very casual about it ! I stood there with my mouth wide open, shocked how carefree she can be in the nude in front of us! He looks at me and laughs loud saying: slave, stop staring and kiss her a thank you kiss!

I was startled,, I take a step towards her and she smiles at me, I feel her cheek with my hand and launch my fingers into her hair and grab onto her tilting her head to one side and I slowly press my lips against hers.. oh wow.. This is nice I was thinking,, but she takes a deep breath and dives onto my lips and starts sucking on them. OMG I cannot believe this, I take a step back panting. he is standing next to me, he whispers in my ear: feel her breasts.. I reach to her breasts and with the tip of my fingers I start circling around her breasts, and he grabs onto my corset and pulls it down , my boobs pop up and she knows where to put her hands.. her hands and cupping my entire breasts.. he pulls my head back by the hair and bites my neck softly,, spanks me as he lets go and says: suck the nipples slave. I obey without hesitation. her nipples are so hard and chewy. and I suck on them like a baby.. she stands there motionless then suddenly reaches over my shoulders to unhook my corset.

he helps her and I am standing there with a tit in my mouth almost naked wearing a garter belt , stockings and high heels pumps..

He pulls me to him and pushes me to kneel at his feet,, I undress him and kiss his feet.. He lets me kiss and suck on his feet as he fondled her holes.. he tells her to lay on the bed and spread.. she does  and he whispers in my mouth.. look what do we have here , slave?? a cunt.. eat it! and pushes me gently towards her.. I kneel at the edge of the bed, stick my tongue out and with the tip of it I touch her clit… then I put both hands on each pussy lip and spread her wider,, I lick her cunt lips up and down,, tease her clit,, suck on it,, OH I LOVE THIS.. then I spread her wider and stick my tongue inside.. she moans softly.. he pulls me off and grabs onto her hair and make her lay on the ground between my legs as I kneeled to suck his cock.. I was there kneeling on the floor with a girl eating my dripping wet pussy and  sticking her tongue in my ass hole as I am held by the hair while he fucks my face with utmost joy ..

I find myself riding her face and she is fighting it without any enthusiasm.. he makes me gag on his cock to shake me back to main duty.

I almost came but He stopped us.. made her bend over the edge of the bed  cuffs her wrists behind her and gets a butt plug and shoves it in her mouth and fucks her face with it to lube it,, she does not object at all! she sucks like a hungry bitch( see slave, the bitch loves to suck) and I look at him in horror, but he pulls the plug and shoves it in her ass hole without mercy and she lets a low moan.. he pulls me to lick her cunt wet for his cock and I do,, he starts fucking her and I am sitting there wondering wtf?? I want to fuck too.. He smiles at me and says.. (Flip her) and I help him flip her and I sit of her face as he fucked the day light out of her. Then he stops.

He tell me to get his flogger,, and he starts whipping her pussy hard as I watched,, the bitch starts begging for more,, he laughs and asks me( you would love to play with her cunt don’t you??) I nod with joy.. he pulls her head to dangle it from the edge of the bed then shoves his cock in her throat deep and points to her cunt and says (play , slave) and I jump on the bed and start licking her swollen cunt then I take off her butt plug and start fingering her cunt with three fingers,, her ass with my pinkie and teasing her clit with my thumb.. he starts flogging her breasts.. she is losing it and starting to shake.. he pulls his cock from her cunt and sits to watch her go round in circles with pleasure begging me to stop while her body thrusts against my hand begging  me to go on.. she starts to arch her back .. he jumps frpm his seat and tells me to stop. I stop he gets the larger plug and shoves it in her ass hole and starts to fuck her fast.. she cums like a bitch screaming : thank you Sir  Thank you .. and as he pulls his cok out of her he points to me to suck it and as I move towards him she jumps on the floor and starts kissing his feet.. I stood there like an idiot about to cry as she blocked my access to him,, he smiles at me and pulls me by my arm and lays me on the bed, then steps away from her and mounts me in missionary telling her to suck my toes.. he starts to pound me harder till I cum while he is still pounding me and kissing my neck.. he smiles as he is pulling out of my cunt and tells her to clean me up then he starts to whip her ass with a ridding crop till she cums again. I was not sure what to do but he makes me ride her face as he tortures my nipples with his teeth and a fingers.. and screams in my ear: CUM FOR MASTER.. and I do..

he waits for me to catch my breath and says: now come collect your prize slave.. I rush to suck him like a hungry slut and he starts cuming in my mouth,, and he floods my mouth with his cum and I swallow it in ecstasy.. Then she comes to lick what has been spilled on my chin.

I look at him and I see him smiling with that familiar twinkle intensified..

I kneel at his feet and clean his cock with my tongue and say: thank you Master for giving my the honor of being ushered into a darker place at your feet!

1/18/2011 2:46:13 PM
Always wanted to be with two guys,, or should I say two dominant guys?! Because one of each was fun but not great thou. By next weekend I will tell you how and why... Through the male sub eyes. But of course with some editing by me cuz frankly he kinda sucks at story telling. I'm excited just thinking about preparing to write about it. Oh btw, I got turned on to extreme writing my first journal. I had to " fly solo" after typing it. I think this will be my new thing. Confess my dirty act and fly solo after it.
1/10/2011 6:24:34 PM
Each time I write in this journal, I touch myself. I love the fact that I am capable of such acts. I have a vivid imagination and will be writing about my fantasies as well. All I will write is true or I truly want to do. And will be indicating which is which at the beginning of each.
1/8/2011 11:15:21 AM

 

I sat on the chair in my cubicle area, so horny and so distracted by the wetness between my legs. But it's still 2pm and I cannot focus on anything with all those thoughts running through my head of his lips roaming my body as they roamed my neck during lunch break. I can still smell his perfume and feel his chapped lips devouring my neck. The wetness is making me more aware of the urgency of my "situation".

i stood up to scout the area and see who was still around in the office. It's only that 48 yo short stocky senior staff. He was very polite with no interest in hitting on any female. Married with kids and loves his home life.. He even turns red when we tell a dirty joke. i thought to myself ( will he even know ???)

I did not care at that point. I was desperate. I pulled my scarf and placed it on my lap then pulled my skirt up slowly exposing my thighs  then pulled it higher to what seemed like it was a thick belt. I started feeling the silk panties and it felt so good, but the chair was making squeaking noises. So I went to youtube and picked a loud long song and put it on. I shoved my hand in my wet pussy and started gently playing with my clit. I could notice him becoming more and more silent. I was a little worried, but i was certain that he will never dare stand up now. I kept stroking my clit faster and faster,, and i can feel my pussy lips swelling and wetness dripping so I stuck my finger in my pussy and gave it few pumps keeping the palm of my hands firmly pressed on my clit as i kept thrusting my hips against it. It felt so good, but I want MORE.. I just wanted more!

I am at the point of no return now,, I cannot go to my car in the underground parking and finish myself off .. or even the bathroom for that matter. I started looking at my desk wondering what can i shove up my pussy and grind on???

i felt the eraser and it felt very nice and firm,, ok this can fit in my wet pussy easily and be very well arousing if i let some of it outside for pain.. Oh i forgot to say that i love hurting my pussy with painful intercourse.. it just drives me wild. so i took the cover off the eraser and slowly placed it under me,, then forcefully sat on it so it was shoved deep in my hole,, aaaaaaah this is awesome.. i started to rock on it.. but i still want more.. what else can i use,, and i look over and see my foam stress star sitting near my monitor.. PERFECT!,, i reach for it. And i put in on my wet pussy so one part hits my clit and the other eraser my hole.. OH this is sooo great, i think,, then think NO my ass hole is neglected.. i reach to my drawer and grab a brand new eraser,, and i rub it on my pussy wetness then bend forward a lil and firmly press it against my ass hole,, then i sit back and i feel that incredible sensation of being penetrated in the ass,, and i smile!

Now i can rock back and forth

BACK AND FORTH....God this pussy,ASShole penetration combo is heavenly.

I wander in thought thinking of how red and tender my pussy is now when i hear my co-worker in the next cubicle ask... is that Nine Inch Nails?? I could not say anything more than AHA..

i think he could tell by my panic and heavy breath that i was doing something weird... I crank the music louder,, and i place the scarf between my legs to form a bump to feel like i am riding a horse,, oh what a nice horsey..mmmmmmmmm

and i can feel the shakes coming,, oh,, i place my hand on my mouth and rock harder,, and i CUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

aaaaahhhhhhhh

That was gooooooooooooooooooooooooooood....

And i stop moving as i catch my breath.

My co-worker got up heading towards the door passing me and without any eye contact he says: I’m out for a smoke!

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 Age: 35
  Illinois