i see myself one day being obsessed happily with my dom.  he is my best friend, lover, confidant, husband and father to our children.  i see myself having friends and being able to go out with them and have fun, but my thoughts and actions all secretly revolve around him

ok so i found a new love - i can officially call myself a lee and i love being tranced.... 2 new found loves :D

i find myself yearning to hear a dom's voice that can stop me dead in my tracks, a whisper in my ear nearly brings me to orgasm, i have to beg for my life for him not to do it in public. r u that dom?

 i wanna get lost in a bdsm relationship, obsession with pleasing my dom, my thoughts permiated with him in everything i do, say and experience. my heart sings just hinking of how rewarding that will be when i have a dom who loves me, appreciates my submission and obsession with him and returns my feelings.

i have little dreams hidden in the depths of my mind and i visit them when i feel that this journey is not going anywhere or i feel down.

i picture my dom proposing, asking me to be his sub, puppy, best friend and wife because he cannot live without me being his in every way possible.

i can see myself giving birth, my dom beside me, allowing me to grip his hand with all my might, him knowing my pain is for his pleasure to carry on his line, to mother his children and grow a happy family together. i see his proud face and his other hand's finger lightly stroking my neck, methodically to help my breathing, he is so thoughtful and caring.

i see myself planning the intricate itinerary he tells me to create, book and finalize as we plan our yearly vacation, making sure there is time for fun, learning, and spontaneity.

i see myself at my wedding, reading my hand-written vows, sniffling and smiling as my dom looks at me, a smile wider than i have ever seen, because today he will have me in every way known.  he whisks me away between the ceremony and reception to a private room, to collar me as his wife and permanent, 24/7 submissive. a fancy collar to wear that only he and i know its true power and hold it has over me. i revel in kneeling before him, knowing 1 journey has finally ended happily and another one starts. my thoughts throughout the evening wonder to what he has planned for the wedding night... it excites me with just a thought. and i dont dare think about the honeymoon, to which i am pleasantly out of the loop for, as i believe it should be.

even though i have not found my one yet (that i know of); i trust in the fates that he is out there and i shall find him and my journey is only getting closer.  i f i have already found him, i trust that i shall see him for who he is and my heart will open to him.