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I only use This profile anymore to keep my journalI've had. I will still chat with people, but I'm not going to chat with you about cyber sex, etc. I'm only answering to real conversation that's worth while. I've been in the RT LS for about six years as both a submissive and slave within my dynamics. I am very much into the local

community. I love to go to play parties and hang out with my kinky friends who I've made over the last year or so from the dungeon.I'm not into internet relationships but I do understand that if you live in the same state but at a few hours drive there may be more communication over the phone and internet, however I do not want a cyber, non physical relationship and you have to be willing to go out in the community with me. I promise they are good people if your New to the RT LS, they don't bite too hard. :)

BDSM as explained by the Dalai Lama as noted on FL T

here are many different levels of violence and non-violence. On the basis of external action, it is difficult to distinguish whether an action is violent or non-violent. Basically, it depends on the motivation behind the action. If the motivation is negative, even though the external appearance may be smooth and gentle, in a deeper sense the action is very violent. On the contrary, harsh actions and words done with a sincere, positive motivation are essentially non-violent.

12/30/2013 9:33:18 PM
I have made a decision that I'm making a new profile on here cause this name haunts me and I can't stand it anymore.
12/30/2013 9:27:53 PM
Seems like everyone's having such a hard time finding a match on here. I'm just wondering why people look at my profile three or four times yet say nothing. If your going to perv at least say nice pics once in a while or something. Also that admirers deal, why? I dont get it if your going to put yourself as an admirer just say hello. I never checked that section till today and was reminded why. Night lovelies. Happy New year! Remember Safe, Sane, and Consensual!
12/30/2013 6:53:30 AM

13 degrees right now, really?? I think it's just dropping being the reason I'm a little jumpy. The Master I scened with took me out yesterday and I was hoping that would have kept me busy so I wouldn't have to deal with drop. I was wrong.. I finally got to do needles. I have missed those, I don't know why I ever stopped. 

12/22/2013 10:06:14 AM
Last night at the dungeon was great. I got to play with Mr.Spoon who left some great marks on my ass, thigh and even back. I also took a stun gun to my clit and legs a few times. I think that stun gun likes me. Hehe. Then I finally got to do a full body suspension and it was amazing.
2/27/2013 6:26:58 PM
I'm am now unowned. However I am not looking for any dominant or to be in service to any one any time soon. Due to no time available and no services to find said time.
12/18/2012 11:34:32 AM

Saturday was the holiday party at the dungeon and i was excited to finally see Master. The night started slow at first with watching a fellow sub being punished over the spanking bench and some public humiliation. Finally when Master showed up he ordered me to grab all the bags and decided to do a violet wand scene. He led me to the metal cage and order me to stick my legs through the front of the cage. My body was contoured in teh cage and hanging my legs through the bars made my position a little more comfortable. He plugs the violet wand in and i can hear the humming from the machine the purple light crawls up the handle as he turns the voltage up. my heart beats faster and he teases me with it. slowly gliding the wand all over my body he shocks me once, i scream as it pinches me, his eyes glow. he continues to shock me more and more my body moving out of the line of fire any way i can my screams becoming louder as he shocks me more and more over my tits, thighs, and stomach. he hovers the wand in between my legs my breathing was fast and my body was sweating, my heart felt it was beginning to beat out of my chest. i was soaking wet and i had a pleading look on my face as he moved it closer to my cunt. he shocked one thigh and then the other my screaming was more of a near cry at this point. my Master looks down at me and says, "slut if you dont want me to shock your cunt then beg me. beg your master not to shock you." i quickly rise to the slight possibilty of begging might get me out of the further pain. "please, Master dont shock my cunt, please, sir dont." he shocks me once more and i cry once again," please Master, please dont shock me." he laughs a little and turns the wand down and says now slut calm down and come with me to the social room to shine my shoes. a quick sigh of relief rushes over me and my adrenaline was still rushing the sub space came up so close and quickly especially when his eyes lit up at my wincing. he releases me from the cage and quietly leads me to kneel beneath him to serve him once more at his feet.

12/12/2012 12:00:52 PM
This has been a bigger step than you know going from one slave to being a submissive. I almost felt like I was breaking the rules. Its becoming easier to grow into this role and embrace it. After all its not just about me being a submissive, its about being your submissive. Even though there are a lot of things I need to work on I promise I'll work harder to do just that.
12/10/2012 12:03:20 PM

Last night at the dungeon was very interesting to say the least. Master and I were sitting in the social room discussing what scene we would be doing and a friend of ours had chimed in stating he had an electric egg that was equivalent to a tens unit and that he also had it with him. Masters eyes lit up and he looked down at me sitting on the floor beneath him and asked, "wouldnt that be fun to be electrocuted in your pussy?" a nervous look comes over my face as our friend continues to explain that you could sync the shock up to the beat of music on his mp3 player, " um, not really. being shocked from the inside? uhh." Master looks down at me again and say, "i think it will be great, lets do it." after a few minutes of hesitation and nervousness i finally just gave in. I was already anxious so sitting on the medical bed with this device being hooked up wasnt helping. Master listened intently on how he could operate the device and put his gloves on and put the egg deep inside me. i didnt know what to expect. the last time this was used was for punishment and wasnt quite enjoyable but i trusted Master to make it good on both ends. Masters friend was explaining how i would be able to look and see when it would shock me, yeah like i want to watch it. No thanks. The shocks started slowly as a small pinch and then slowly picked up. Master went slow since he was unfamiliar with the new tool but the shock became more apparant. A few minutes goes by and the shock is immense. I scream in pain, pleasure? i couldnt tell but i did know it wasnt unbearable, it felt good. The shocks frequency was set to a mode called torment fast then slow and my body was thrashing on the table. Master and his friend had to hold me for a second to ensure i wouldnt fall. Then Master began caning me on my thighs to open my legs farther. he put more electro pads on my inner thigh and turned that up it shook my muscles in my thighs and made intensified the pleasure, pain? ughh who cares it was great. Master then took a clit vibrator and started moving up and down my clit. This made my screams louder and my squirms more sparatic. My inner thighs were soaking and the shock shook my whole body. Masters gleam in his eyes from the power he had was dark and his laugh of self enjoyment on my torture was filling the room. Finally the shock was turned down as i called red and knew my body couldnt take anymore and i knew i had a great scene. 

12/5/2012 5:37:50 PM
Haven't left this house in three days unless absolutely necessary and I don't plan on leaving. I just only want to sleep and nothing else.
12/3/2012 11:34:12 AM

This is something me and Master have discussed but have not yet done, Master I'm such a lusty slut that I'm willing to strip myself of all modestly and run in my underwear till I'm near sweating then stripping off my underwear and all embarrassment and having you clip a leash onto a leather collar dragging me through the mud while I crawl on my knees and elbows to a water bowl which I'm grateful you allow me after such a run. Then have you hose me off while thanking you for making me clean and telling you how grateful I am to have you as my Master and that you are so considerate to hose y the mud off your sluts body.

11/28/2012 1:11:41 PM
I wonder what would happen if all these younger doms who message me would be able to explain what a scene, aftercare, protocols, or play party etiquette is or if they are even able to.
11/21/2012 9:22:49 PM
Was disciplined tonight for talking back with the belt and the choke collar. Why couldn't I have keep my mouth shut. for now I'm watching the pet andcooking Thanksgiving dinner tomorrow for Master and guests
11/18/2012 7:38:57 PM

so the lessons for tonight were as follows, do as ordered, drink plenty of water before running down the street with your butt showing because your dress has riden up, if your not willing to follow orders like an adequate human then you should be stripped of your humanity and treated as  a pet, and lastly learning his house traditions acquired a very well earned, good girl. the night started out normal coming in and cleaning his house and cooking him something to eat. and then thats when the lessons began. we had to leave to go pick up my roommate for work. master instructs me to park my car on the other end of the yard about 10 yards and then run to the other side of the yard and to get into his car, im barefoot by the way. so i move my car and as i get out of my car he pulls up near me on the street and i walk over to his car and then run down the ditch and up to his car. as i get in and sit down he looks at me with a slight smirk," why didnt you do as i ordered slut and run across the yard?"I look down and meekly say, "well i ran a little."he smiles, " slut, you walked and then ran down the ditch because you looked like you were about to fall on your face. maybe you should run beside the car and that will teach you that next time you should do as your ordered." i turn my head quickly toward him with a mercy look upon my face, "please sir, dont make me run." he shakes his head and laughs, " and why shouldnt you run, slut? wouldnt that teach you your lesson that if you dont run ill make you get beside my car and run until i tell you to stop?"" yes, sir but its cold outside and im barefoot." he looks surprised at me and a slight dissapointment, " are you really arguing with me about accepting a punishment for not doing as your told." i slightly laugh nervously and look down, " no, sir. i dont mean to." " i think were going to run slut," he says as he pulls onto a desolate street with about three houses on it, "now slut get out of my car and run this 8th of a mile." "are you serious?" i ask with slight shock in my voice. he slaps my thigh, " get out of the car slut and do as your told. or maybe i should start being more strict with you. do not mistake my kindness for weakness because i can be more of an asshole."

i shriek from the sudden slap to the inner thigh," no sir you dont need to be more strict, ill run." i get out of the car and go to the drivers side and begin running my dress slowly rides up exposing my ass and my pussy. how embarrassing i thought to run half naked with a man driving this 2012 charger next to me and its cold my feet are starting to become sensitive to the pavement as i run. i begin to pull my dress down and my master yells out at me, slut dont you pull your dress down. you cant be modest about a  punishment."i quickly let go of my dress and continue to run but the embarrassment is too much and i quickly pull my dress down again. after running a little ways he instructs me to get into his car. "now, slut you didnt run as hard as i know you could since you run about 2 miles every other day and after i specifically told you not to pull your dress down you still disobeyed me." i look down " im sorry, sir." now i want you to play with your pussy while we drve to go get your roommate and i want you to tell me everything that you are to me, i am statements. " yes sir." i replied while i slowly slid my fingers over my clit and began to speak, " i am a slut, i am a cock sucker, i am a foot worshiper, i am a dish washer, i am a maid.. etc." he continues with a good, girl and says, " however i cant smell  you so your obviously not doing it good enough, play with yourself more." yes, sir." i replied as i slid my fingers into my pussy and began moving them in and out of me. after dropping my roommate off and her commenting about the smell of the car we drive back to the desolate street where i am to redeem my punishment for the failed attempt earlier, this time its darker and less visibility for people to see me."you ready to show me your willing to redeem yourself and show me you cna properly accept a punishment?" "yes, sir im willing to show you i can properly accept a punishment" i get out of the car and begin running until he tells me to stop, my legs are weak and my breathing is heavy as i get back into the car. " well it sounds like you have learned your lesson and i have told you before that until you can learn to follow an order and be obedient that i will strip you of your humanity and you will be my pet until you earn the right to be my submissive so when we go inside i want you to put the rest of your bottled water into a bowl and lap it up until its all gone. i go inside and grab a bowl placing it in front of me while he pours the water into it. "now slut drink your water." i put my face into my water lapping it all up with my tongue while his foot rests on my back. after its all gone he instruct me to kneel to wait, kneeling with knees open and my hands behind my back. "now slut, did you like being treated like a dog?" i reply," no, sir. i will be obedient next time." good now recite the first tradition." i recite the tradition word through word and he looks down at me and grabs my head kissing me on the forehead. my chest fills with happiness and i said " well you just made my night, i liked that good girl, i earned that well." " yes, you did slut. good job." 

11/11/2012 9:08:18 PM
Well my birthday was great an ice cube, mini Hitachi, strap on, hands and feet bound, but I'll have to wait for tomorrow to completely write it all out
11/6/2012 7:17:54 PM
I think I may be in for a punishment when I see Master tomorrow, talk about chaining me to his bed or the sink... Guess we'll see...
11/2/2012 10:41:58 PM
Tonight me and Master discussed cuckqueening and afterwards I received these orders, slap your cunt 5 times then go to bed I want you to fantasize and erotisize watching master fuck another slut while you lay there focus on the mental side of it you can either think of it as a test of obedience or as a lesson in humility.... but one of those two themes and let your imagination run wild and the last of my order for tonight you will fantasize and you are allowed to play with yourself.... but your only allowed to play with yourself as long as what turns you on is knowing your place and the things we have discussed.... if you get carried away you are allowed to cum as long as its about those themes
11/2/2012 9:43:39 PM
Master I want to sit in a corner while playing with myself watching you fuck another women and then after you finish inside her and she's oozing what is left of you I'll crawl over to her and lick your cum out of her. I'll then bow at her feet thanking her and returning back to my proper position at your to your feet I'll kiss massage them while thanking you for the suffering you allowed me to ensure and allowing me to lick another sluts cunt
10/21/2012 8:30:37 PM

Last night with Master, too say the least could've gone better. But I am still thankful for the fact that I got too see him and that he let me suck his cock and also that he let me fuck him. So anyways to start the night I walk in and well Master hasn't been feeling well so he ordered me to clean up what I could get myself settled and once I do wake him up to bathe him. I started the dishes and picked up around the house. It makes me happy knowing that Master will wakeup and he can look at a clean house. I went into the bathroom and started the shower, woke him up and let him know that it was ready for him. As usual I got on my knees in the shower and Master allowed me to wash him all over whole. his dirty soup ran down off of his body onto mine. After the shower and making sure Master was clean he then ordered me to cook dinner. Dinner was taking forever and by the time I had it prepared I realized there were no plates clean so I washed some plates and prepared the food. As I brought him the food he took one bite and looked down at me, "did you even taste this before you gave it to me?" "no, sir" I replied. "go put this in the microwave and put your plate back on the counter," he ordered. I did as he told me to and brough him his food back warmed up. Once he stopped eating he told me to get my plate of food and take the fork out of it, lay on my stomach under his feet and eat my food.I laid on my stomach and put the plate on front of me and began eating with my  hands. "slut, you don't eat with your hands. Put your face into your food and eat," he ordered. I did as instucted and he  began to tell me,"slut do you know the difference between a reminder and a punishment?" He asked. "a reminder is when you just have to tell the person they have things to do rather than giving them physical repercussions for their actions, sir" I replied. " so which one do you think this is, slut?" He asked. "a punishment,sir. Because something as easy as bringing you a hot plate of Food shouldn't be something that I forget." He quickly came out of his chair and laid down beside me grabbing my hair. "now, slut I want you to eat this whole plate, stick your face into the food and when you get to where you can't stick your face into the food you will push the food around the edges into the center of the plate with you're tongue and continue until it's all gone," he ordered clenching onto my hair and shoving my face into the food. His voice was soft but demanding as he directed his power onto me. I began to eat all the food off the plate, covering my face. "now, slut stop eating your done. Get up and kneel in front of me." I do as I'm told embarrassment covers my face along with the remains of the food. "now how do you feel, slut,"he asked. "full, sir" I replied. "good now go wash off your face in the shower with cold water and your going to set your face under the water and not move any other part of your body." "yes, sir,"I replied. I quickly go into the shower turn the cold water on and let it run down my face.Master is standing in front of the bathroom door, his cock erect and waiting. I walk up to him and he quickly pushes my head down and shoves his cock into my mouth. I begin to slowly suck.After the quick lesson in blow jobs and his cock covered in my spit and dribbling down my chin he orders me to ride his Dick. I quickly fill my cunt with his swollen cock facing his feet while I'm riding him. "facing my feet is where you belong isn't it, slut." Yes, sir," I reply."your nothing but a cock sucking, Dick riding, foot rest, isn't that right, slut," "yes,sir." He commands to ride his Dick harder and to give him my hands as he pushes and pulls me back and forth onto his cock. I feel him coming but I haven't received permission yet and once he fills me he orders me off his Dick. "now go, home slut. I till talk to you later tonight about the difference between humility and humbling yourself. "

10/14/2012 6:51:52 PM

Last night started out slow there was a lot of new people at the dungeon including a completely new lifestyler that i brougt along as well. I had bought new blue lingrie for my Master since his house colors are blue and silver. My master began to introduce himself to the new people while he commanded me, "slut worship my feet." I bent down took off his socks and shoes and began massaging his feet while the men conversed. After about ten minutes of conversation he commanded me to get up and we went to the "Harem room", a room full of beds in the dungeon. Now slut give me a full body massage. My friend sat in the distance while watching me and my Master. " you look like your going to fall asleep, sir?" "No, slut just thinking out our scene. Now were going to play a little game im going to whip you tonigt and how well you do at this game is going to determine how many times you will get whipped." "ok, sir. what is the game?" "Well you will take out my cock and you can only have it out of your mouth for three seconds and you have to put my socks and shoes back on and put my cock back in my pants. now face fuck yourself and gag on it," he commands while pushing his cock far into the back of my throat, "good girl, now socks and shoes, slut." i quickly went to grab his shoes and put them at the end of the bed so they would be closer to his feet, "one, two, three, and one," he begins counting. I quickly put his cock back into my mouth sucking for a quick minute then grabbing his sock to put it on is foot, one, two, three, one," he counts again and i quickly retrieve back to my place with my mouth around his swollen cock. The game continued and my count raised to 15. ""Now get up and lets tie you up and you will keep your heels on so you cant go into sub space," he commands. He ties me up by my wrists and and gets his flogger out of his toy bag my feet already sore from being worn most of the night. he begins flogging me and with each blow i prepare myself for the harder blows. after five floggings i called out, "yellow!" He stops and comes up behind me rubbing my back, "stand facing the wall mirror so you can focus," he grabs me by my hair and swings me to face the full length wall mirror, i could see the crowd behind us as it had grown since we started the scene and my friend near by. My master walked off and i watched him closely to see if i could prepare myself for what was coming next. The cane bag, no worse the little flimsy paddle. Dont understimate its size. "ok, slut are you ready?" "yes, sir." he began paddling my ass as it burns i slowly turn back around to him to walk away. The restraints tightened on my wrists and the rope kept close like a dog on a leash. "thats it slut walk away, walk away from me. Now walk around in a circle. knees high do a high step and shake that ass for all these people," he commanded as he caned my breasts and ass. The burn seared right through me increasing with each blow. "higher, slut. get those knees higher. Good girl now walk in a circle." I continued walking, prancing rather, in a circle my cheeks crimson while my almost vanilla friends looked upon the power exchange with intent interest. "now tell me what a slut you are," he growled into my ear. "im a slut sir," i spoke softly. "louder, slut and then turn to your friend and tell him what a slut you are," he hissed while grabbing me by my hair and swinging me to face my friend. "my volume grew as i yelled, "im a slut!" "good girl," he praised, " now stand back in front of the mirror and i want you to center yourself, prepare yourself for the whip. Focus on your submission and the focus is the job at hand to endure and enjoy this whipping." "yes sir," i said closing my eyes taking a deep breath and finding my center. The bee stings began as the whipping started. My back began warming up and the whip grazed my back like a line of fire followed suite. "Ah," i screamed. My master walked up behind me and whispered into my ear, " we are at eight do you think you can last the duration of the rest of them?" "yes, sir," i answered. The whippings continued and he began to have me count outloud, "thirteen, fourteen, fifteen!" I screamed loudly, my back burning. My Master quickly walked up to me picking me up and wrapping my legs around his weight twirling me into a circle to face the audience. "now lets cane you for a moment," he said as he smiled slyly at me. "Please,sir." i begged. The smallest, flimsiest cane slowly came out of the back and he began caning me right along the welps of the whip. the burn was incomprehensible. "good girl," he praised "now lets get you down and you will kiss my feet and thank your master because you know that its the only way your getting down, isnt it" "yes, sir" i replied. The restraints were loose and i dropped to my knees and kissed his feet. Thanking him for the beautiful scene.

9/19/2012 11:40:02 AM
The twisted convention was great. I got to go to the pup show and then later that night I went to the play party with my Master and sub sister. There was so many new people there and the energy was great. Master had me and my sister sit facing eachother in the big metal cage and then preceded to put our hands together and tie or wrists together. He began searching in the front pocket of his toy bag, my heart was beginning to race there's usually only one thing in that pocket. Then there it was, the shock collar, his evil smirk grew into a grin as he put the shock collar on my upper thigh.he leaned in real close against the metal bars and spoke softly into my ear, "you will kiss, lick, and please her or I will shock you." Thedark tone in his voice and his order made me wet on it's own and he hadn't even induced the pain yet. I looked at my sister and leaned in with each kiss a wave of relief came over me until she laughed and Master started taking to her. The sharp pain of the collar sent shivers up my spine I jumped. "stop talking and just kiss me, please,"I begged her. Master smiled and I saw his hand slowly turn the dial up. My kiss became more passionate with her and I felt an even more quick sharp pain, my eyes winced. "you've got to kiss more than her lips, slut." I looked over at him and saw his eager thumb on the button,"yes,sir" I replied. I moved my lips farther down onto get collar bone and back up to her neck. She loved having her neck kissed and her moan with shallow breathing confirmed the mutual feeling of pleasure...
9/12/2012 7:30:09 AM
My sensory deprivation scene with masters friend was Saturday. I was put into a cage with a gag, ear plugs, blind fold and was bound. As he opened the cage he slowly ran his hand down my body and slowly lead me out of the cage to the piercing table where he set my body to fire a few times and ran his new purple studded roller with down my body. As he played with me there he then gave me my hearing back and told me to crawl across the dungeon to the metal cross while he flogged me.once at the cross he tied both my hands and feet while he flogged, caned, cropped, sucked on my nipples and kissed my body.he started to psyche me out making me believe he was going to flog me as hard as he could while watching me wince.after ten minutes of watching the floggers and canes come at me he then made me crawl once again but this time as he paddled my ass to the spanking bench. Once there he warmed my body up with the floggers and knife play and next I hear his chain flogger that had been soaking in ice for the duration of the night. I looked behind me and I saw the chain coming down the icy cold metal struck my back and it couldn't have took me any more into sub space.
9/2/2012 9:08:26 AM
Went to the dungeon last night with my new sub sister.master decided now that he has two subs he's going to have twice the fun.he ties us together I have breast bondage and the full body tie so that when she squirms it makes my rope rub against my clit and she was squirming everywhere. He then cuffs our hands and strings us up on or tip toes and flogged, crop, paddled for two straight hours.my ass hurts so bad all master does is smile when he knows me and her have to sit down.next week master is getting a a violet wand,o boy.after the two hour ordeal with master my might wasn't over, he handed me over to his friend who flogged, caned, knife play, and a chain flogger against the cross for another hour.last night was a good sub space.master and his friend should be checking on me within the next two f days to make sure I haven't come down.I'm so thankful.
9/1/2012 6:47:38 PM
On my way to the dungeon with sir and sub sister. Looking to see what rouble we'll get ourselves into.
8/18/2012 9:54:24 AM
. I can finally fit into my new white dress and then it rains.go figure.
8/17/2012 5:20:02 PM
Hmm anybody ever wonder how the first cruel intentions could've turned into a great bdsm movie
8/14/2012 5:57:42 AM
I told him there are only two types of guys out there ones that can hang with me and ones that are scared.he looked at me with a crooked smile and Said i think the better question is can you hang with me, when I crack that whip don't stand there and watch me, follow me and showe me what you can do.I run a tight ship so beware. I feel the adrenaline running through my veins.
8/12/2012 7:47:59 PM
Been a slow day today. After working six days it of the week I went out with a lovely women today, we walked around the mall until it was time for me to head back home and clean.I can't wait to start losing weight and hopefully we get my modeling contract back. I've also went out and bought some things to make a sub instituted t shirt. Exited to see what you guys think once I make it.
8/9/2012 11:14:00 AM
Ok so trying needle play soon again. hmm im nervous, excited, wait no don't do it! Ok go ahead do it. Yeah right like he's going to listen to me whining. I don't blame him. I can do piercings, phlebotomy and tattoos but i get nervous about needle play. I'm just weird i guess.
8/2/2012 10:04:22 PM
12 am tired as hell, son is still up i could fall over into a dead sleep right now. Im so stressed, relieved,annoyed and thankful from everything that's happened tonight. Now if i could only get my brother to stop interfering that would be the highlight of my day.
7/29/2012 9:52:45 PM
The firecupping tonight was very interesting. I think next time ill see how much longer o can withstand it. I love testing my limits. So far ive been able to keep it on for 3 minute. I can feel it tightening and becoming more and more uncomfortable. The pain is nearing but im teaching myself to withstand it my toes begin to curl as the pain increases, im beginning to block the pain out, its been 6 minutes now.
7/26/2012 9:54:01 PM
Tonight insomnia takes over. My house is cleaned and I'm relieved that there's only more day at work. Ive been trying to be the best sub i can lately so i can prove myself better, just wish this week was better. I need a stiff drink or a good caning. ;)
7/25/2012 8:39:56 PM
How to describe today,hmm, hectic,tiring,exhausting. Going to work all day,i hate my boss and now my jobs looking to have me shoved even further up his ass. I swear he knows hes a sinister prick and loves it. How badly my domme side wants to break out on him,ughh. At least hes paying me. So when i get home i can relax for all of five minutes till i look up and my son destroyed my house. I always thought it weird that i would much rather pick up after my dom then my son probably cause my sons mess is more disgusting. O well i cleaned anyways, my hair up in a bun bangs falling in front if my face and sweat on my forehead. Can i get a shower yet? No got to work out. So now I'm finally at home tired,sweaty,sticky, make up a mess, i am destined top take that hot bath tonight.
7/24/2012 9:00:12 PM
Today I was sick, I hate being sick hopefully it doesn't last. I still planned on going to work and dressing as sir would approve of but unfortunately I ended up leaving work early and went home to take a rest. I still performed my duties of cleaning what I could before lying down and resting my body to hopefully get rid of this sickness that's inhabiting me to serve to the best of my ability
7/23/2012 7:33:44 PM
Today was a Monday. Long,boring, drawn out. I cleaned my house like sir would like and dressed nice for work. But alas I'm tired, would love to take a bath,but im too tired. One thing i do miss so sexual release, I've been kept from accomplishing this for what seems like forever. Ill still do as im told and squirm in sexual frustration.
7/22/2012 8:27:44 PM
Today was long and drawn out, i completed all my tasks,sir asked of me. I don't ever want him to think i don't want to be his personal sub to mold and shape into the perfect women
7/21/2012 7:17:09 PM
Today is somewhat a productive day got things needed done and finally worked out to the fullest of my ability,sir would be proud if he could've seen it and the shower after i sweat until i looked like some twilight character in the sun, felt sooo good.
7/20/2012 7:11:47 PM
Today was another bad day, I've been "grounded" and loss my usr of furniture. I have a week to sharpen up and i will make sure to do so. Now I've been scolded,punished. And ill show a pic of being marked floor my laziness.
7/18/2012 8:04:40 PM
These last few days have been less than unproductive watch is to say none the less uncalled for and irresponsible on my part as a sub. I know for myself that respect is something earned and I've got to do so with my dom so he understands im willing to do as asked at all times
7/11/2012 9:31:17 PM
Today was busy, buying the lipstick and choker. I now have to make a very detailed list of housework chores. Although i lost my privilege of furniture use. I needed to be reminded that I'm always beneath him and that the point of kneeling for him is uncomfortable. i was suppose to receive ten lashes for making him wait from a response from me for over an hour when i told him it would only be ten. I've disappointed him so needless to say I've deserved the loss of a luxury and the punishment. Bad night :(
7/10/2012 8:55:37 PM
Today was short lived, but had some good benefits. I finally bought the groceries he askes of me so i can start my new diet. I've got an assignment tomorrow to go out and buy myself a collar of my own choice. I also have to wear red lipstick along with the chocker., I've always love dabbling in red lipstick. Tomorrow i have to upkeep myself on my makeup and overall demeanor as a women should. I'm so happy to please him anyway i can. I'm learning great trades to becoming a great women and sub.
7/9/2012 8:18:51 PM
I received an app today to help me keep up with daily chores, house work, excersize,etc. It's a joint login so he is able to make sure i am keeping up with updating my calendar and tasks for him at all times. Organization is something he says i should work on, i can't say he's wrong, nor would i. I gained back a luxury today, which I'm so happy about. Luxuries are earned and I'm glad he's seen I've done so. I like making him pleased and doing what he asks. What more could a sub ask for. :)
7/8/2012 8:28:05 PM
training was fairly easy. He keeps what he says as far as his word of making me a better sub.one of my assignments, writing objectives, goals, and actions. I still have a lot to work on to get to where i need to be to be a good sub, but with his guidance and discipline I'll be able to reach my ultimate goal.
7/7/2012 7:38:20 PM
Saw my little slave friend today, but unfortunately her master has turned toxic. I'm not embarrassed i beat his ass. He put up a good fight but me and her have been in this together since our beginning. It's one thing to punish but when it turns into abuse I'm doing something about it. Now the big question, since she's mad at me for making an " unnecessary scene" will she come to her senses...
7/7/2012 5:01:43 PM
Every time i end up breaking you, you change into something worth keeping. Every time I'm close to saving you, you turn into a sin worth believing. Your everything i ever wanted but your never enough. I'll take whatever i can take when ever i can take it.
7/6/2012 2:53:46 PM
My mom always told me, Jesus never sleeps when your being a sinner. She said he'll eat you for dinner. I told her he can't taste any flavors on his tongue., they've evaporated and hes disintegrating. It's only after we lost everything that we've gained anything. We are gods unwanted children.
stella4real
 
 Age: 20
  Florida