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HellzAngel13

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	Wow. One of the last few times I was here, this place was CollarMe. A name change always screams disaster for a website. But I see this one is still going strong. Cool. Anywho, I'm no longer engaged. I've been married for almost four years to the best man in the world. Those who I have made friends with here will always hold a place in my heart. But there is no need for anything other than friendship for me. I'm a happy woman in a situation that suits me perfectly. :-)

Another whoring spambot has hit my email yet again. I LOVE these things! They give me a lot to giggle about. Enjoy!

HI YOU!!
It's Madison.. long time no hear from you... a while back.. I had you on my old messenger..we met on facebook or twitter ..but i m no longer on there.. anyways whats new hun? remind me where ur from?? I just wanna make sure its u lol! Do u use IM?
heres my screen names below..
AIM - strongbesta
MSN - Charmypizzo@hotmail.com

YAHOO - biggahyp

I am waiting there now! PS - dont email me back my email keeps freezing, use messenger

For Christ's sake, if you decide to message me, please, please, PLEASE use proper grammar. The usage of the English language is an art form that is rapidly deteriorating. If any of these words are too big for you, LOOK THEM UP!!! The Webster-Merriam dictionary is an excellent start. Toodles!

*sighs, then smiles* I love it when I'm called names. It's hilarious really. I know what I am, who I am. I just find it funny when someone thinks they know "someone like" me. :-) Insults aren't so insulting when they come from total strangers. Thank you to the gentleman who just called me a bitch to see if I would look. Yes, it made me giggle. :-)

And yes. Yes, I am. ;-)

Happy New Year Everyone!!! See you all next year.

One week left of the year. We all made it. Hell, I'm just glad to have made it myself. I've seen a lot of ups and downs this year, said quite a few goodbyes to people who didn't deserve to be in my life, people who didn't want to be in my life, and people who just couldn't be around anymore. R.I.P. young friend.

It's been just over a year since I became a single woman. I've seen personal ups and downs there as well. Life goes on. But in this past year, I have had far more progress in figuring myself out than I had the previous 34 years.

I love my life more now than I ever had before. I am enjoying myself more, not playing some stupid puppy act to amuse someone else anymore. I don't need you to validate me. I don't want you to change me. I am a strong woman in my own right, and I don't need someone to fight my battles for me. I am just right for myself. If this is not for you, then please feel free to move along.

As you can very well see, I speak my mind freely and often. A muzzle, a gag, a leash and collar will not silence me. A slap to the face will not make me submit. If you wish to silence me or "bend" me to your will, all you would need to do is speak politely the truth and show some respect. Disrespect only begets disrespect. And I can be harsh when I feed you back the crap you tried to shove down my throat. Forewarned is forearmed. Consider yourself warned.

I will submit to one who is worth such respect. I am a polite, considerate, caring person who will not tolerate someone trying to trample me. I give what I deserve to get. I expect the same in return. I don't make many expectations of people, but respect is ALWAYS expected.

I am a human being, created for no one but myself. I serve only myself. Does this make me selfish? If you say yes, then that is your opinion. I am merely being truthful and honest. I am not altruistic by any means. When I do for someone else, I am ultimately doing for myself. It is the mark of being human, nothing more. No one is altruistic by any stretch of the imagination. Don't let that word fool you.

Merry FUCKING Christmas everyone!!!! :-D

You don't have to be muscle-bound to wield a heavy hand. You just have to stay on top of your game. You're not weak if you cry or care. You're just human. You don't need to be an ass to get respect. You just have to be considerate. You don't need to use your fist to prove you're a man. You just have to open your arms and your heart. You are the best possible person you can be, so why not live up to your potential? You are the only one who can raise you up high or lay yourself low. You are the only one who can truly humiliate... You. You have to respect yourself before you can expect anyone to respect you. Afterall, BDSM, even LIFE, is all about YOU.

Rant of the Day: Feet

No, I don't "get" the whole foot fetish that a lot of people seem to have these days. I don't want to "get" it either. To each their own. I won't pretend to understand, because I simply don't. I don't like feet. I don't like my own feet.

If I take pics of them and post them here, they will ALWAYS have shoes on. I wish some people would use better judgment when they decide to post pics of the mangled messes they call feet.

The only thing my feet really have going for them are my ankles. Tiny women should have tiny ankles. Hell, EVERYONE should have shapely ankles. HOWEVER, I have noticed and influx of photos on here where cankles prevail.

If you can't tell where your calf ends and your foot starts, go to a gym. Or, instead of riding the elevator, walk up the steps. Too far to go? Or too lazy? Going DOWN the stairs helps too. There are plenty of simple things people can do to take better care of themselves. And you DON'T have to spend a dime! *GASPS*

If you think I think I shit the sun in the morning, then you really aren't using your brain. As harsh as I may seem to the general masses here, I'm even more so on myself. I don't want to turn into an oozing mass of human flesh grown into a couch or around a toilet. We all have that potential. I prefer to be able to move about by the power of my own two legs. Not the power of a fucking crane.

I'm just a concerned kinky citizen trying to do my part to make the world a better, prettier, perverted place. I keep in shape with simple exercises. Walking is tops on my list. I think you should do yourself, and my insurance, a favor. Take the funhouse mirror, the one that tells you that outfit looks good on your bloated ass, out of the bedroom and toss it in the trash. Go to a gym where the mirrors don't lie so much.

The better you look, the better you'll feel. And please quit posting pics of ugly feet. No one wants to kiss that, much less touch them while wearing safety gloves. It's nasty. I spare the world from the unsavory bits of myself, so should you. Just saying. Don't get upset at the messenger for pointing out what should be obvious to the oblivious.

Have a wonderful day! :-) Toodles my sweets!

^{From the online version of the Merriam-Webster Dictionary:}

¹whore noun \ˈhȯr, ˈhu̇r\

Definition of WHORE

: a woman who engages in sexual acts for money :prostitute

; also : a promiscuous

or immoral woman

: a male who engages in sexual acts for money

: a venal

or unscrupulous person

See whore

defined for English-language learners »

Examples of WHORE

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For writers, to blurb or not to blurb can be a tricky matter. … Blurb too often, or include too many blurbs on your book, and you might get called a blurb whore. —Rachel Donadio, New York Times Book Review, 17 Aug. 2008

[+]more

Origin of WHORE

Middle English hore, from Old English hōre; akin to Old Norsehōra whore, hōrr adulterer, Latin carus dear — more atcharity

First Known Use: before 12th century

Related to WHORE

Synonyms: bawd

, call girl

, cocotte

, courtesan

, drab

,harlot

, hooker

, hustler

, sex worker

, streetwalker

, strumpet

,tart

, prostitute

They seem to forget the term "pro domme". Afterall, isn't a pro domme a woman who is dishing out sexual kink for money? Even if there is no sex involved, you can be damned sure that man who just paid you to beat his ass is going to go home and jackoff in his mother's basement. Or in the bathroom where his wife won't notice the unusually large pile of tissue. Face it. You're a whore no matter what. :-) Pleasant times.

I have stopped viewing women for a time. Why? Several reasons. Judge me if you wish on any of this. That's YOUR problem, not mine. I'm just being honest. With myself, AND with you.

One. If I come across a good looking woman, she usually has only one pic. That looks professionally done. Hmmm. This is obviously a man posing as a woman. Especially if said woman is a "lesbian Domme". There are a lot of those. Interesting.

Two. The misrepresentation that the REAL women give about themselves. Please please PLEASE! For the love of what's fair and honest! Do NOT label yourself as BBW if you are NOT BBW. That's just a BOBS. Bunch of BULLSHIT. Try taking better care of yourselves. If YOU can't find it, chances are likely, piggy sluts, that no one else is willing to either.

Three. Quite honestly, there are very few women I get along with well enough. If a woman is bold enough to send me an intelligent message, and some have, I will respond. Chances are very likely here that I've just made another friend.

Four. The sheer desperation of a lot of women on here simply disturbs me. Dommes, shut the fuck up, sit down like good girls and listen up. No one likes to cater to bitches. Especially bitches who think they shit the sun every morning. Get the fuck over yourselves with that crap. And little subbies, no man wants a whiny, clingy, self-deprecating pile of shit at their feet. Spines. We are all born with them. Maybe you should try using yours. Huh?

If you think I'm being harshly judgmental, I'm really not. I have my eyes wide open. Sometimes I wish I could gouge the bastards out when I logon here. Take a good, hard look at the reality. Do you REALLY want to be a disgusting piece of shit for the rest of your life? REALLY???

When you see the train a-comin', it's best to get the fuck off the tracks and turn your back to it. You REALLY don't want to see the mess the wreck is going to make. And, no, it's not a good mess either. *SHUDDERS*

I only popped on here for a few minutes to check messages. Now, alas, 'tis time to wiggle back under the blankets, curl up with my penguin (For those who wish to poke fun, knock yourselves out, because, yes, I DO sleep with a stuffed animal.), and bid all of you dear ones a good, good night. Toodles!

*sniffles* Those gents who have ass pics up, REALLY nice ass pics I might add, THANK YOU. I do so LOVE a great ass shot. Not so much for the cock shots, but those are nice too. But a great ass is so hard for me to pass up. Again, my many, many, MANY THANKS! Keep them rolling past my screen!

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!!

Okay people... The next time I click to see who's viewing me, I BETTER see some damned sexy asses. If I can't get a face, then gimme an ass! :D I'm not picky. I swear. I'll take either or. Or even both! You know you want to. Even if you don't know.

Fellas, just to let you know. If you have two women, and you're NOT in a poly household, and neither knows about the other... Eventually, they are going to know. And they are going to become friends. And when they become friends, even if they don't like each other much, it's going to become a VERY messy situation for you. Don't be stupid. If you don't want to be in a relationship, get out of it. You just cause more harm in the long run. And in the end, it's YOUR ass that gets used for the target. Target for what? That's anyone's guess. But I like darts myself. Long shafted, sharp darts. Of course, I'm such a bad aim with them, who knows where those bastards will end up? Your shoulders, thighs... Anywhere. :) Good night sweetlings.

Note to CollarMe staff: You really should consider adding Sadist, masochist, and Sado-masochist to your list for orientation. There are those here (waves hand wildly in the air) who would prefer to be known as such, and not as a Dom/me, sub, switch, slave. Afterall, I personally relate most closely to the Sado-masochist. Thank you and good night.

Drifting very nicely tonight. Got some play time in. Okay, so I got my ass bruised. Lovely pain, oh how I've missed you! I seriously need to do this more often. I won't be as cranky as I usually am. LOL. Sometimes it's good to let someone else be right for a change. I'm off to bed to have sweet, sweet dreams. Good night all you good little sadists and masochists, Dom/mes and subs, Masters/Mistresses and slaves. May your dreams be as wonderful as mine will be.

The grasp of basic English should not be so elusive to those who grew up with English as their FIRST language. It's understandable for those who have it as their second language to use incorrect words, spellings or pronunciations from time to time. But are we so stupidly LAZY these days that basic language arts have fallen to the wayside? Just doing what I do best. Observing. Carry on.

It's been a while since I last posted anything here. Okay, so it hasn't been a week yet, so sue me. Time for another round of... *gasp* No. Do I dare say it? I don't know. Do you REALLY think I should??? Maybe it can wait. Nah, I think you can wrap your head around it. Time for another round of THE TRUTH. *duh duh duh DUHNNNNNN* *falls out in a faint*

Okay, seriously. If anyone REALLY wants to know what I'm here for, well, here it is.

BDSM is a way of life for me, yet it is also about the sex. I'm not going to sit here and pretend for anyone that sex isn't a big part of the equation. It's a HUGE part of it really. Let's face it. I'm a sado-masochist. I get off on pain. Half the time anyway. And if it's a goooooooooood pain. I've been in several situations that have raised my endorphin levels to such a degree that I could barely walk afterwards. Yes, it was THAT damned good when I subspaced.

What is subspace? I don't know about anyone else, but for me, it is quite literally an orgasm of the MIND. Yes, it can be experienced on a more mental level as well as physical.

Anywho, I'm here to talk about what I'm looking for. Let me start off with who/what I am. I am a switch first and foremost. Just because I sub part of the time, this doesn't mean I will automatically sub with just anyone. There has to be a mental/physical connection. I like a pretty mind inside a pretty body. I prefer it actually. Otherwise, the pretty body just bores the hell out of me.

I am a babygirl. Yes, I expect to be spanked whenever a situation warrants it. But, no, I will not dress up in frilly nonsense and wear pigtails to look like a little girl. Okay, so I might wear the pigtails on occasion. But you'll have to deal with the tomboy version. I enjoy the occasional spanking, followed up with a cuddling session on Daddy's lap. Sadly, there is no Daddy as yet, but there's always hope I suppose.

I am a SAMmy. This means that I'm a Smart Assed Masochist. I will mouth off whenever I damn well feel like it. Most of the time, I'm in the right. And only part of this time do I do it on purpose. Why? Well, to get a good beating of course. :)

I love whips, floggers, canes. Handcuffs and rope. Plugs, dildoes and vibrators. Stockings, lacy panties and corsets. St. Andrew crosses and spreader bars.

Underneath all of this is a sensual, intelligent, witty, charming woman. I'm beautiful. I'm flexible. I'm unusual. I'm open. I'm honest. I'm caring. I'm respectful.

Yellow

What do I look for? A sado-masochistic switch who can complement me. I am the half of a whole, looking for the missing piece. Male or female, I don't think it matters. I'm feminine, yet masculine at the same time.

I want someone who isn't afraid of a challenge. Someone who is open to laughing and sharing a quiet moment. Someone who is just as beautiful inside as out. Kind heart, quick wit, keen sense of intelligence.

I prefer men much bigger than me, at least 5'9" tall. Women I prefer to be closer to me in height. Weight must be proportionate in either case. Or athletic in build.

I've enjoyed a wide variety of BDSM activities in the short time I became seriously active in the world. Knife play, electric play, fire play, breath play. I learned a lot. Such as, suspension done in a certain way can second as breath play. And it's much more fun.

I love to be restrained. When that sort of control of movement is taken away from me, it in itself can really turn me on. Being helpless to stop the onslaught of a feather or the sting of a whip, this is what excites me.

And now, to prove you have read this far, I will insert a secret word somewhere in the text. It is up to you to find it. If you wish to chat, then a pic and the secret word, including an intelligently worded message, just might give you that opportunity. Like ABBA once sang, take a chance on me. (Yes, yes. I'm aware that almost no one will know who ABBA is, but I do. Deal with it.)

Took an IQ test tonight and came back with an IQ of 126. If I were a humble person, I would be shocked. However, I'm not as humble as I should be, so therefore, I am not surprised at this result. Should I be ashamed of myself? Why bother? :-) Pride goeth before a fall, and I'm due for a good trip right about now.

I find pictures of people looking "tuff" (It's TOUGH, get a dictionary.) and throwing up the shocker in front of their faces to be utterly obnoxious and moronic. Just saying. It's not cute in the least.

Ah, I'm smelling romance in the air. *takes a deeeeeeep breath* AAAAAHHHHHH!!! Every once in a great while, a REAL winner pops by my profile to show me what kind of "man" he is. I sincerely get the utmost entertainment out of these fools, even though it is but a fleeting moment of humor. It seems that all these boys really are good for is a quickie in the good humor mobile. Not much to play with though. However, I have the info still here, sweet one, just for your viewing pleasure. I do hope it makes you giggle damn near as much as it does me. :D

http://www.collarme.com/personals/v/1180599/details.htm

jortega4
From: jortega4

10/26/10 11:58 PM I am claiming you as my slave!

To: jortega4

10/27/10 0:00 AM You're kidding, right?

From: jortega4

10/27/10 0:03 AM I am not slut! (One must really wonder if he talks to his mother this way.)
Give me your AIM or better off your number now! (Or even his baby mama.)

To: jortega4

10/27/10 0:06 AM Out of curiosity, what makes you think you have the right to talk to me that way? Oh, wait, you think it's because you're a "dom", don't you? Well, let's get something straight. I'm NOT a slave, yours or anyone else's. I am A SWITCH. Secondly, I'm NOT a slut, yours or anyone else's. I have more self-respect than that. I don't play the sort of game you're playing. Sorry, not my playground darlin.

Humor for the day: Someone tried to tell me I was a guy. Hmmmmmm... Last I checked, I had an innie, not an outie. Do people have nothing else better to do? If I am interested in someone, I have messenger, a cam and a phone at the ready to prove to him/her I am who I say I am. It put a smile on my face though. Humor comes in all forms. And human stupidity is the best way to entertain me. THANK YOU! LMAO!

I'm not here to judge anyone. I respect everyone for their differences. I enjoy the fact that we're all different. That we can converse on so many levels, including kink. However, I can't seem to understand certain interests. I don't mean any offense, and if I do, I apologize beforehand. Things like scat and water sports, I simply fail to wrap my head around. Of course, I have the tendency to be a borderline germophobe, so it would take a loooooong time of explaining them. But what I'd really like to know is, what is the attraction, fascination, with the adult baby concept? That one is far beyond my grasp. I've seen people invest small fortunes on babyfying a room for an adult "baby". How satisfying is that sort of situation? I ask because I'm curious. I have never had an interest in wearing a diaper myself. And I don't intend to change any diapers at any point in the future. While I can understand they are convenient, it, ironically, brings us back to the scat/urine concept. What does this whole Mommy/Daddy-adult baby dynamic do for the individuals involved? What sort of enjoyment do they get out of it? While I believe BDSM isn't strictly sexually-oriented, there is a sexual basis in most BDSM relationships. Is the same true in a relationship wit an adult baby? I could let my mind wander down this road all by its lonesome, but I'd rather not. That gets me into too much trouble. I would greatly appreciate an explanation to my inquiry, if there is an explanation to give. I'm aware that some things simply can't be explained. Thank you.

Too bad the choices on CM are highly limited. Especially with the labels. While, yes, in some cases I'm a Domme, in others I'm a sub, which would effectively make me a switch. Why, then, do I choose to label myself a Domme? Firstly, I HATE labeling. It's a senseless, shameless venture really. I detest being put into a box like that. Oh well. I choose Domme because at this point, it would take a VERY special person to get me to submit to him/her. Do NOT take this as an opportunity or challenge. It doesn't interest me right now. I chose Domme because of the control of MY own life has been seriously lacking, and it's time to work on that. Again, this isn't an offer for someone to come along and snatch me up as a sub. I am merely looking for friends. I like to see myself as a lifelong student of the human condition. I have never had any formal schooling higher than high school, but this does not mean I do not learn. I learn something new everyday. I do so in order to keep my mind sharp, focused and somewhat organized. But I bore easily. If something is found far too easily, then I quickly tire of the search. I move on fairly easily from one subject to another. However, I come across some things that make me stop and ponder for a bit. Some questions put forth to me make me reconsider and reevaluate situations in my life. Twice I have been asked about "Female Supremacy" and if I believe in it. I've thought long and hard on the subject and have come to a conclusion. I do not believe supremacy of any kind by certain types of individuals. Whether it's Female, Male, Trans, White, Black, sadism, etc. I believe we are all equals across the board, but it is how we mentally, emotionally apply ourselves to our unique situations that determine what we want or need in our lives. I do not believe BDSM is a lifestyle. I believe it is a part of life as we know it. We are all subject to something, someone in our lives, even those who are "Dominant". We are all subject to our own lives and survival. The President of the United States is "supreme" leader of this country, but he still works for me as much as I work for him, for example. Of course, not everyone sees it this way, which is fine by me. I respect anyone's opinion that doesn't agree with me, as long as they respect MY opinion. I will not tolerate, though, someone pushing their opinions and personal agendas. Opinions are like assholes. Everyone has one, and some are full of shit. I don't care if you're poly that is female or male led. Or if you believe in one form of supremacy or another. You're human first and foremost. As long as you respect me and yourself, then it's all good. But do not expect me to bow down or kneel at your feet simply because you're a "Dom/me" who lives his/her life a certain way. Be open-minded. Find a neutral ground on which to meet people. People are fascinating creatures in their own right. Even more so when you get to know one who has a totally different background than you. It can be a real eye opener sometimes.

NOTE: If a person is not willing to show verifiable proof of his/her/its being real, i.e., web cam and possibly phone chat, he/she/it will be blocked. I have no time to waste on frivolous chat exchanges. Thank you.

I find it interesting that someone would take it as personal information when asked for a basic current location. I merely ask for verification of said location. If I ask where someone works, it's simply verification. I'm not asking for full name, home address, social security number, and mother's maiden name. THAT is personal information. So difficult to verify the genuine sincerity of people these days.

I have now started to make serious use of the block button. Those who respond to me WITHOUT a face pic (or unwilling to do so) get blocked. Those who respond without reading my profile get blocked. Those who assume I'm looking for a sub/slave (even though I've explicitly stated I'm NOT looking for that) get blocked. I'm not being mean or disrespectful. I'm simply making better use of my time. I prefer to get to know people as people. Not so hard to understand, is it? If not, use common sense and READ.

Life throws interesting little lessons our way. It shows us just how fleeting time really is. Priorities change in order to fulfill everyone's wants and needs. Some of those wants and needs change, evolve into something different. The unnecessary stuff needs to be pushed to the side or thrown away. The lifestyle is what it is for me. It is an outlet for certain emotions and physical wants that have been learned over the years. I can claim those to be a baser part of me until I'm blue in the face. But is that true? I doubt it. Life makes me what I am, not genetics. And life is calling me into other directions. I have a child who is in more need of his mother than I am in need of more "friends". Besides, apparently, the whole friend concept seems to have gone by the wayside with the majority here, and I simply don't have time for anything more than that. So, now is time for me to bid you all adieu and wish some of you (those I had the genuine pleasure of being friends with) the best of luck in your searches.

Sometimes I wonder why I come here at all. And then I come across a profile that catches my eye. It's then that I remember, "Oh, yeah, the supreme idiocy of the general populace." It is astounding, and oh so amusing. I just finished reading the profile of a "dominate" who prefers to be called a "Lord". This one claims to be an abusive inhuman thing. Funny, funny stuff. WWWWEEEEEEE!!!

I don't know if it's just me, but I believe the spambots are becoming more intelligent. Okay, NOT more intelligent. But they sure are becoming wordier fucks these days. Here's an email I received earlier today. It confused the hell out of me because, at first, I thought it was a "guy". I read on and found out it was a "girl" who thought I was a guy. That's the common misconception all spambots get when they send me crap. However, this was a bit amusing. Any of my comments will be in the {} brackets. Read on.....

"HOLLA its ur buddy madison lol. {Yeah, um, holla back atcha. Damned "gangsta" speak!} Sorry for taking a bit of time to chat ya.. {You took so much time getting to me, I don't even know who you are. Heh.} I also hope u didnt gt this email a bunch of times.. if u do sorry! this email account SUCKS and is soooo annoying.. i am having BIG time problems with my computer in general.. hopefully my new one will be better.. So its soo nice knowing that I will actually know someone when I move now.. {You will? Who?} im glad I found u.. good timing lol.. {Sucks to be me.} you must wanna know more about me and I DEFINATELY wanna know more about you {Uh, yeah, NO! And like you'd really have a chance of knowing more about me.} :) so its not weird when we finally chill.. like honestly i am such a babble mouth anyways so it shouldnt be hard.. {Oh god, did it REALLY use the terms "like honestly" and "babble mouth"???} my aunt is the only person i know who lives there so im kinda scared.. {Where is "there" so I won't be here?} i guess i will just have to be super extraverted for a few months lol. its cool if u have a bunch of other lady friends lol.. thats fine wiht me :) just make sure to let me meet them heheh.. {How cute... A bi spambot.} Id like u to tell me about your work and job and all that.. if you are seeing a special lady or just playin the field lol.. {Yeah, I see a special lady. Every day. Myself in the mirror. :) Some say I'm so special, I ride the short bus while eating crayons. But I can't lick the windows anymore. They duct taped (Yeah, I typed it RIGHT!!!) the helmet to my head.} Have u ever moved before? {I move all the time. When I go from room to room in my house, I'm moving.} its soo stressful ewww.. its soo expensive where i am now!! so i need a nice change.. i need a cheaper place and a cheaper city lol.. {Sounds just perfect for a cheap "girl".} my debt keeps growing its 12 thousand right now :( so im happy to be single again... feels soo liberating..my ex was an IDIOT... he didnt realize how good i was and now im gone so sucks for him.. {I say good riddance. Cheap trash is just that.} its so nice to meet new people again and do what I WANT.. im actually quite excited to finally meet you.. do u mind helping me find work when im there ? {Yes, I DO mind. I'm not a fucking temp agency!} serving is what im good at so maybe a restaurant? {Did you say serving is what you're good at? I know plenty of guys who'd LOVE you then.} i guess just something thats not too boring.. so heres some more info about me... im aquarius. {Yeah? What a coincedence! My sign is "Do Not Disturb".} love to stay fit.. read..dance...club...play sports..cook.. i am always touching myself lol. {I needed to know THIS, WHY???} i cant help it.. any girl who says she doesnt do it is lying.. {I touch myself every damned chance I get!} Everyone i meet I treat the way I wanna be treated.. {Looks like I got myself a bot with a serious case of ADD. Go friggin figure.} I guess its normal that i want to be resoected the same way i respect others.. I moved here when I was 4 years old.. actually born in europe.. i hope you dont judge me about my job... {I only judge you on your spambot idiocy. Otherwise, it's all good.} i am SOO broke and i need the money bad.... I find it lame that some guys are like "thats skanky" when its totally not.. {Yeah, it's pretty trashy to be a guy posing as a girl just to get his rocks off.} im a webcam chat persona thingy whatever u call it.. {No kidding??? I never would have guessed! *rolls eyes*} i guess im usually touchign myself while i chat and pplaying around.. {Here we go with the touching thing again. WHY is this necessary info???} most people are cool.. sometimes u get a jerk but i just kick him outta the room.. i find it kinda funny when people are rude.. {When you're a cam whore, how do you think people will react?} usually means they have problems in life.. so every month they let us have 3 V-I-P passes for free to give to wheover we want to... its 100% free to watch with one of these passes... no billing occurs... I have 2 left this month and wudnt mind giving u one if u want it... ull be VIP soo its easy and free u just sign in basicly.. u need to use a cre dit card but thats just to rpove ur age babe.. they dont bill ya with this pass.. u can see right on the page it shows 0.00$ FREE for your VIP thing cause im giving u a PRIVATE link.. {WOW!!! WHAT A SWEET DEAL! I'M JUMPING ON THAT SHIT AS SOON AS... the moon turns into cheese.} THIS IS ONLY FOR U.. DONT SHARE IT WIHT UR BUDDIES LOL.. if u do give it out i can get in major shit lol. its only for your eyes ok babe? cause we need to chat and get acuainted ASAP. lets definately chat more cuz I move soon. see my email and msn/aim/yahoo keep stalling on me.. {Interesting. First, a crappy email address. And now it has problems with the chat programs. Go figure.} so come chat me in my chat-room.. way easier.. I'll get rid of all the others in the room if you come chat to me.. you know what..you'll be able to see me too..but again..please don't give the link out..I can get in trouble. you can find me online pretty much all the time..so I'll be there when you login. I get a DING when you arrive in my room - so if I'm not there right away don't worry..I will be in a minute or 2 :).. Are u familiar with PARC street? cause thats where im moving.. and can u help me on that day ? {Fuck no! Find your own cheap labor somewhere else, whore!} actually..you can login right now...come into my room..and we'll swap celly numbers babe.. remmeber my email is all screwy so i dont get emails most of the time.. I guess ill go wait for u to sign in.. remember DONT GIVE OUT THE DAM LINK OR PASSWORD BABE... can we trust each other please? wow did i ever babble a lot in this message already hehe. sorry about babbling on...I hope you still wanna meet... I wish i could chat wiht u right now...sign in when u can.. the private link is just below.. your super duper :) lots of love...nicky ---> model guestchat. com/TICKETPASS (without all the spaces)"

Observation #9: There is far too much seriousness in the positions of dominance. Lighten the hell up already. No one pissed in your Cheerios or Wheaties but YOU. This goes hand-in-hand with a previous observation I posted. I think it's highly pathetic, and WEAK, that there is very little humor here. While I am not the best looking chickie here, nor the smartest, I do have a hell of a sense of humor. Tickle my funny bone. I laugh at myself more often than not. Why? Because it's frickin' healthy. Physically AND mentally. I don't particularly enjoy seeing a "Dom/me" scowling back at me if I go to look at their pics. (And I view a LOT of pics.) Smiles are great attractors, frowns detract. Scowls just make people want to hide in the shadows for fear you'll turn that ugly look on them. While the "bad boy" look can be hot, the "bitchy girl" look is a major turn off. You're not so hot that people will overlook your lack of a sparkling wit or clownish personality. If need be, I'll buy the wig, pancake makeup and big red nose and post pics of me looking like Bozo's love child. I'm not above looking goofy just to make people smile. Anyway, I've rambled long enough. Tatas!

Observation #8: There is a noticeable lack of courtesy in the BDSM world. In the vanilla world too, if you REALLY want to look at it long enough. Since when did simply saying "please" amount to being submissive and begging??? I have no problem saying please, but that does NOT make me submissive to whoever I'm speaking with. It means I choose to be POLITE and COURTEOUS. It means that I'm actually a very nice person. It means that I'm not willing to take something or someone for granted. "Thank you" isn't so hard to say either. Maybe, JUST MAYBE, most of you who have it so "hard" trying to find a "decent" person need to take a look at how you yourself treat people. Are you kind and courteous? Are you polite and considerate? These things attract decency. They are magnets for the kind of people you want to serve you or for you to serve. Demands don't need to be made of someone who is WILLING to do everything they can for you. Show your appreciation for all they do, whether Dom or sub, Master/Mistress or slave. Don't be a jackass and mistreat what you have been given, because ill treatment can last only so long before what you need, WHO you need, is no longer there to take care of you.

I have started a bit of a writing project on another site. Literotica is such a fun place to be sometimes. Very interesting stories written by even more interesting people. If interested, I invited you to head over there and take a read. http://www.literotica.com/stories/memberpage.php?uid=1219415

Taking a break from the site. If you know how to get in touch with me elsewhere, feel free. Otherwise, I'll see you when I see you.

I have heard it said that the animals we keep take on our personalities. Or, perhaps it's the similarities in personalities that draw human and animal together. Either way, I've known this to be true. At least, when it comes to me and my two cats, it's true. I have a gray tabby boy, named Mr. Smiles. He does anything but. And a tortoiseshell girl named Bianca. They're a study in opposites. Bianca is a sweet, loving, adorable little girl. She's very shy at first, and will hide away for a bit whenever someone comes to visit. But once she's gotten used to the person, she's a little attention getter. She's very affectionate, and receives a petting with unabashed joy. Bianca is my little clown. When in a playful mood, she flips and flops, dashing madly throughout the house to pounce on a toy or two. Sometimes even ambushing her adopted feline brother. Mr. Smiles, on the other hand, is alternately the monster in the closet or under the bed. Literally. He loves to sleep in either location. He's a tricky little guy to get to know. He's standoffish and aloof, preferring to watch everything going to rather than actually getting into the action of getting a petting. He's not exactly one to mess around with. Once his ire is up, he goes on full defense. He's most likely to back a person into a corner out of the amusement. He's a territorial little beast. As mean as he can be, there's only one hand that keeps him under control. Mine. I'm very much like these two. On one hand, I'm sweet, shy (on the extremely rare occasion these days), eager to make people laugh, always looking for attention. On the other, I'd much rather be left alone, quick to strike when angered, content to just sit back and watch. To see myself so plainly exhibited in these two cats is simply amazing. It helps to ease certain healing processes that I must go through. Self-analysis with an external focus is so much easier to deal with. So, any time you think you have a dumb dog or a demon cat, sit back and think about the things YOU do. Maybe, just maybe, they're showing you what you look like.

Observation #7: TPE is an illusion that not even David Copperfield could conjure. Even as good as he is, he's not THAT damned good. In a TPE setting, it's the sub that gives the dom total control, right? But in BDSM, isn't it the sub who ultimately has control of the situation? Hmmmmmm. Even in an M/s situation, the same is still true. Besides, that's not a situation that can be lived 24/7, unless you're independently wealthy and live on your own island far from civilization. However, it is nice to see that, yes, even adults believe in fairy tales. Congratulations, [this portion edited due to CM's criticism policy] kiddies.

Observation #6: Subs/slaves deeply into humiliation have very serious self-esteem issues that they may need to seek professional help for. I'm not judging. Been there, done that. I'm not into the humiliation portion. You can keep it.

Observation #5: Labeling is a useless activity. It makes it far too easy for a person to "explain" why he/she is the way he/she is. "I behave badly because I'm a brat who needs her bottom spanked." We like to put ourselves into nice, neat little categories, but in the end, we still don't fit. Get used to it. Dom/mes aren't REALLY Dom/mes. Subs aren't REALLY subs. Masters/Mistresses REALLY aren't Masters/Mistresses. And slaves, well, you get the picture. I've been able to top Doms who would "never, ever consider becoming a sub." I've deferred to some subs out of respect and admiration for them as a person. Be who you are. Don't try to pigeonhole yourself. And if you proclaim yourself a Dom/me, Master, Mistress, whatever, you're a bigger fool than some of us thought you were.

Observation #4: Not all of the young folks on here are as naive or stupid as some of us think. Sometimes, they're more prone to doing the right thing because they have more of a tendency to just go with the flow. The older some of us get, the more we overthink things.

Observation #3: A good portion of male Doms are not in peak physical condition. Why is this? I mean, if I were to look for a Dom, I'd be searching for someone who could keep up with ME, not the other way around. Thankfully, I'm not on the market for a Dom. As it is, I'm seeing nothing but a bunch of heart attacks waiting to happen. Been there, done that. You can't expect to control someone else if you can't control yourself. Plain and simple.

Observation #2: If they look just too damned cute or hot in their pics, they're not real. Seriously. In reality, there's a fat, lonely, desperate GUY who is that "hottie" you're chatting up. Do you REALLY want to go there? If it seems too good to be real, guys, it usually is.

Observation #1: Some profile photos are like train wrecks. You know they look horrible, but you just can't turn away from them. *SHUDDERS*

UGH! Why are there so many bots on this site??? There can't be THAT many 18, 19, 20 year old subs/slaves willing to be humiliated and degraded on an extreme level. You boys can cut the crap. It's irritating. I don't find girls under 21 attractive. Cute, maybe. But FFS, if they're not old enough to drink, I'm not touching it! Hell, even 21 is pushing it for me. While I've come across the occasional young'un who seems wiser beyond their years, it's a rarity here. Quit using the model pics. (Even if they're not models, per se, it's highly obvious that the "real" people behind the profiles are NOT the ones depicted in the photos. How stupid do I look?) No, I'm NOT looking for sluts, slaves, subs, puppies, ponies, whores, cumsluts, trash, etc. And no, I most certainly will NOT call some anonymous phone number just because you sent it to me. It's ridiculous to think that someone would be so careless with that sort of information. So, I wish a lot of luck to the pathetic losers who feel the need to hide behind the face of a hot blond, be it male or female. I'm not falling for it.

How is it possible to weigh 70 pounds and stand 6'4"??? If I weighed 70 pounds at 5'2", I'd be DEAD. That's some serious starvation there.

Bits of interesting musings I found quite appropriate for certain times. Enjoy! - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - "The truth that many people never understand, until it is too late, is that the more you try to avoid suffering the more you suffer because smaller and more insignificant things begin to torture you in proportion to your fear of being hurt." - Thomas Merton "The superior man is distressed by the limitations of his ability; he is not distressed by the fact that men do not recognize the ability that he has." - Confucius "Anything, anything would be better than this agony of mind, this creeping pain that gnaws and fumbles and caresses one and never hurts quite enough." - Jean-Paul Sartre "To suffer woes which Hope thinks infinite; To forgive wrongs darker than death or night; To defy power which seems omnipotent; To love, and bear; to hope till Hope creates From its own wreck the thing it contemplates." - Percy Bysshe Shelley "Have compassion for all beings, rich and poor alike; each has their suffering. Some suffer too much, others too little." - Buddha "It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles. Then the victory is yours. It cannot be taken from you, not by angels or by demons, heaven or hell." - Buddha "No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path." - Buddha "Work out your own salvation. Do not depend on others." - Buddha "You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection." - Buddha

Here's an interesting note I just got. No real face pic attached, and just a little too demanding for my taste. "let me and my dad live with you and make him your slave" Hmmmmmmm... How shall I answer this one? Perhaps a "NO!" will suffice, don't you think? Another one for the chopping block list.

Happy Birthday to me!

As humorous as my last journal might have been, it, unfortunately, has a very sad ending. Last night, my sister and I determined the sex of my little bunny baby. It was a girl that I had named Lola. I had gotten into the habit of taking the baby out to the backyard so she could get something to eat. This morning, as I was going about my business of taking care of business, I picked up the carrier that held the baby bunny and took it outside. I clicked my tongue to wake her up, but there was no movement. I opened the carrier and gently moved the bedding (an old baby towel) around to uncover her. I found little Lola stretched out underneath the bedding, in a corner of the carrier. Needless to say, I started my day off with a rather heavy heart. While I survived most of the day without crying, I am a very sensitive person, and cry at the moment. I don't feel a sense of failure. I did what I could. I did my best to help the baby. The odds for this little one just weren't in her favor from the moment I saw her, if not beforehand. Rather, I feel a profound sense of loss. Even for as tiny as she was, Lola was a bright spark. I didn't know her for very long, but she is still missed. And so now I have to brace myself to bury the sweet little baby. Wish me luck.

I've come along a rather interesting point in my life where three tiny loops had been thrown in. Within the past three weeks, I have three adorable babies wander along my path. Quite literally. The first was a fledgling sparrow. Sweet as could be once it calmed down. Not long after rescuing the little thing from the street, where I very nearly ran it over, I delivered it into the hands of the workers at the local bird rehabilitation center. Thirteen days later, I happened upon another young fledgling destined for the wrong side of a tire. I don't remember what species it was, but the poor little thing was hot and dehydrated. Luckily for the little one, I was able to smuggle it into my air-conditioned office to cool it off. Once off work, this one too went to the rehabilitation center. Those poor people. They practically begged me to stop finding the cute little babies. In the end, I offered to volunteer my time and whatever services I could provide. Who knows, if I find more baby birds, I could always take care of them myself after a bit of training. That was last Friday. Today, as I was walking to my car from work, a little bunny decided it didn't want to stay in the safety of its den. This little guy is just small enough that I could just about close my fist around it without hurting it. It is just the cutest, sweetest little thing. So, I made good on my promise to the rehabilitation people not to find any more baby birds. However, if I spot a baby otter wandering about my front yard (part of a joke I made earlier when talking to my boss about the bunny), I know that someone in great blue beyond has a twisted sense of humor. And, quite frankly, it's not funny. :) Okay, maybe a little.

Why do some of us (speaking for myself, of course) feel the need to do stupid things when we're at our most vulnerable? I'll tell you my reasoning without hesitation. Fear. Plain and simple fear. I find myself in a situation currently where what I want could be within my grasp if I were to give it a chance. But it scares me. I care too much. I give too much. I expect too much. And I'm willing to let it walk away from me. Out of fear of what it could be, what it could mean. Stop the roller coaster ride. I want to get off.

More favorite quotes. This time from different authors. "Most people are unable to write because they are unable to think, and they are unable to think because they congenitally lack the equipment to do so, just as they congenitally lack the equipment to fly over the moon." - H.L. Mencken "Immorality: the morality of those who are having a better time." - H.L. Mencken "A Sunday school is a prison in which children do penance for the evil conscience of their parents." - H.L. Mencken "I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love." - Mother Teresa "In the world there is nothing more submissive and weak than water. Yet for attacking that which is hard and strong nothing can surpass it." - Lao Tzu "We herd sheep, we drive cattle, we lead people. Lead me, follow me, or get out of my way." - General George S. Patton "If everyone is thinking alike, then somebody isn't thinking." - General George S. Patton

What is it that makes a sub/slave a sub or slave? What mental mechanism is thrown to make a person into a Dom/me? I can't answer for the majority of people on CM, only myself. Growing up, it wasn't that I felt an inherent NEED to dominate. Nor do I feel that now. It simply was the independence factor. I grew up relying less and less on people to do for me or protect me. I still don't NEED anyone to do anything for me. But these days I want it. I don't need it to be happy, but it will make me happier in the long run. I never liked depending on anyone as a little girl. Especially men. They were highly unreliable in my experience. Inter-personal relationships were more of a chore than a pleasure. But these days, as I find myself getting older, I feel myself yearning for something deeper, more meaningful. I'd like to think I've found that, but I'm very cautious to believe it. I've thought so twice before and was deeply saddened and disappointed by the callousness of the situations. My heart broke twice, but I put it back together, learned from both mistakes and moved on. Independence does that to a person. The grieving period, if you could call it that, lasts less and less each time. I enjoy my independence and my freedom. I don't feel the need to be hindered by anyone, or to hold anyone with myself. But I am human, and I have wants and cravings. Do I believe in the soul mate philosophy? Sometimes yes, sometimes no. It's something I'd like to find, to be sure, but CAN I find it? Maybe. Who knows? Does the soul mate TRULY exist? I have no idea. But I do feel myself drawn to a certain individual time and time again. Why? Again, I have no idea. But maybe I really do. He calls to that fledgling part of myself that I have yet to truly exercise. Perhaps I should think more fully about my situation. Or just stop thinking about it and just DO it. We shall see.

Just a few of My favorite de Sade quotes. Enjoy! "It is always by way of pain one arrives at pleasure." "Happiness lies neither in vice nor in virtue; but in the manner we appreciate the one and the other, and the choice we make pursuant to our individual organization." ""Sex" is as important as eating or drinking and we ought to allow the one appetite to be satisfied with as little restraint or false modesty as the other." "There is no more lively sensation than that of pain; its impressions are certain and dependable, they never deceive as may those of the pleasure women perpetually feign and almost never experience." "Your body is the church where Nature asks to be reverenced."

So, I have started blocking people who do not have face pics. Either in their profiles or the messages they send to me. How hard is it to understand that... THIS... IS... A... MUST??? I refuse to speak to ANYONE who does not have a face pic. No if's, and's or but's. I will NOT make exceptions. I don't care HOW POLITE your message is, you're being rude when not meeting my requirement. No, I'm not being a bitch. If that's how it's taken, then perhaps someone should stop and remove their head from their ass a while to breathe and think. Just saying. No pic on profile or in message, no response back. Plain and simple.

Just a thought to ponder. Sometimes the things we seek instinctively, subconsciously, have a way of finding us. There is no real thought or action behind it. Mostly just a browsing of individuals, and responding to one that happens to catch your eye. I miss him.

I have finally come to terms with two of my greatest loves. Shoes and panties. Why come to terms with that? Well, it's quite an expensive hobby to collect shoes and/or panties, don't you think? And, no, I'm NOT talking about collecting the panties of other girls. I'm talking about brand spanking new ones. Yes, pun intended. With shoes and panties, I love all styles, except for those that grannies wear. High heels, platforms, sandals, patent leather, matte, black, red, brown, blue, green, etc. Lace, silk, satin, bikini, boyshorts, thongs, g-strings, etc. If I had the money, I'd buy every possible pair. *Le Sigh*

-ANT As Opposed to -ATE... I just love how the majority of you here like to consider yourselves of a higher class of intelligence. The thing is, you're not. Most of the so-called dom/mes here don't even BOTHER to pronounce a word properly. I've seen utter CRAP like "I am a Dominate..." or "I'm a deviate..." WTF is wrong with you people? Do your brains all of a sudden stop at the words "I am..." and fill in the blanks with useless nonsense??? Rene Descartes you most certainly are not! (Look him up. Yes, Descartes was a man.) The difference between dominant and dominate, or deviant or deviate, is quite simple. One is a NOUN. Meaning, it is a person, place or thing. That would be DOMINANT or DEVIANT. The other is a VERB, which means to DO SOMETHING, like THINK. (This is an activity that is rarely performed around here.) DOMINATE and DEVIATE fall into the verb category. If you wish to SOUND intelligent, BE intelligent. Quit using words you don't know the meanings of. Use the words you DO know in a more correct manner. And please, for the love of your family jewels (males) or your jewel box (females), SPELL. Is it so hard to ask you to use that which you were given? You use everything else to excess, why not your brains?

Okay, seriously. Does NO ONE stop to consider how asinine their profiles are these days? I'm getting sick and tired of prissy bitches spouting off about being merciless and whatnot, but they aren't even educated enough to SPELL properly. And if they DO spell a word right, it's inevitably the WRONG word. I've seen "waisting" used for "wasting" once tonight. And FFS, the bitches really DO need to get the hell over themselves. There is nothing written anywhere that you should be worshiped. (Yes, that's spelled right, by the way.) All that bitchiness is just going to turn you old before your time. Forget about 50 being the new 40. You girlies will make 20 the new 60 before you know it. Lighten the hell UP already. Remove the butt plugs and just let yourselves RELAX. Life is so much more enjoyable when you BREATHE and SMILE.

One more thing...

Happy Valentine's Day!!!

Ever stop to notice...

The rudeness of a lot of "Dom/mes" here? Take a moment to browse the profiles just to see what actually lurks on the site.

These people don't start off rude. They are very insecure people. Some of them may have been bullied in school, so now they become the bully. Others may not have been breastfed enough as babies, or not at all.

Whatever their motivation, their insecurities have created rude creatures out of each and every one of them. They demand this, command that.

They want slaves who have no mind to speak for themselves. What use is there in that? None.

The whole thing is a pathetic display of "control" in my humble opinion. But here is where things get a little hairy in their situations. Total domination over another person without the will and self-respect to control themselves.

A good Dom/me is a kind, loving, nurturing, GIVING person, not some cruel bitch or bastard who has the inability to see past their own nose. A good Dom/me accepts and RESPECTS a sub/slave's limits and safeguards.

A bad Dom/me, however, will be cold, callous, unforgiving, and cruel enough to push a sub/slave to the point of destruction without so much as a care in the world, as long as His/Her desires are met.

I find these bad Dom/mes to be obnoxiously boring and trifling. I have better ways to waste my time, such as watching paint dry, than to cater to the lunatic whims of an insecure egomaniac. Been there, done that. I can smell you ten miles away. Happy hunting!

"They say the wolf bestows its happy spirit to help people. Women who obtain this spirit become skilled in creative endeavors and experience a strengthening of the senses. I would like to think there is some truth to this in my own life." ~ Judi Rideout

I, too, would like to think such a thing of myself. I have been faced with many challenges throughout my life, and, while some I didn't face with the utmost dignity, I have survived them all.

These past few months have been an exciting time for me. There were moments of enlightenment, moments of desperation, moments of elation, and moments of doubt. But through it all, I held my head high and met each and every day with a greater resolve.

I may never be a true sub, but I still feel the selfish need of one. The need to satisfy another in order to fulfill my own need to be needed and/or wanted. To know that I did a job well.

I will never be a true Domme either. But that doesn't mean I don't feel the urge to step up and take charge of someone who gets out of line. I am very understanding, but will only allow so much.

Even though I'm not looking right now, eventually I hope to find my soul mate, my equal, my partner. Someone I can truly call Daddy and mean it. Someone I know I mean the world to, and mean the world to me. Until then, I will continue to explore myself, my mind, my heart, my soul, my body.

Enlightenment comes when we least expect it. It can happen on the brightest of days and darkest of nights, and we're never fully prepared for it. I live for those moments that open up another door into myself. I love learning new things, even if they are my own deepest, darkest, scariest secrets.

I have finally learned that I do NOT need someone else to validate me in order to value myself. I have finally learned to be able to stand on my own two feet and say what I need to say, and not expect someone else to do it for me. I have finally learned to stop being afraid of what life might send my way and just take what I'm given. Those lumps of coal just might be uncut diamonds we search so long and hard for.

"A very great vision is needed and the man who has it must follow it as the eagle seeks the deepest blue of the sky." ~ Crazy Horse

Wiser words were never spoken. We all have great visions. Some of better jobs. Others of a better world. What is your great vision? To be a better Dom/me? To be a better sub? To be a better husband or wife? To be a better person?

Mine is to be that better person. I don't come to CollarMe for the kink in life. I come here for the life in kink. Or just life in general. I've spoken with quite a few interesting people here. And it's been my pleasure to get to know some of them.

I admit that I'm not always kinky. I do like my vanilla side too. I'm trying to balance the two with each other. You can't have one without the other. Life would be boring otherwise.

So these days, I do a little better at being a better person talking with various people, listening to interesting stories, reading intriguing profiles. I noticed that the more interesting person is one who can actually hold a conversation without their personal kink or fetish becoming the focal point.

I have a lot of different interests. Some of them start out vanilla and become kink, and vice versa.

I would like to point out that I am not here for a D/s relationship. I am here because people intrigue me. I am here because I have made friends here. I am here because life draws me to the people who are most interesting. A lot of people here have something to say. I like to be a sounding board for that.

And in talking with various people here, I find myself evolving, growing. I've been given advice, and even gave some. I feel better now as a person than I did six months ago. I've grown emotionally. I'm becoming that better person that I have a great vision of becoming.

Why is it a person claims to be a "no-limits" sub or slave, and then farther into their profile, what is it you may find? A list of... *gasps* Dare I say it? LIMITS?!?!?!?! It's people like these that confuse me and make me go "hmmmm???". Call me a distrustful bitch, I don't care. You just might be right. But I find it hard to trust these people. There is no believability in their profile whatsoever. How can you be "no-limits" and yet have limits?? It's impossible, according to the laws of physics and general laws of nature.

We are all limited, no matter how much we may claim the "no-limits" thing. It's cool to not have limits, right? Right? Personally, I don't think so. I have my limitations, and I'm very comfortable with them. I will state them upfront. NO children, NO animals, NO scat, NO urine. They are not just my limits, but they are my HARD limits. If this cannot be respected, I have no qualms against blocking someone.