i am a brat.i go through these moods when i want what i want when i want it  and if i don't,i say and do things unbecoming of the slave that i am.Tonight was such a night.i was told by Master that i would stay as i was,in need,all night.Upon my usual answer of "Yes Sir",i then cursed.Big mistake.Not only did i disappoint,i angered Him to a point i had never seen Him before.Strange as it seems,the worst part was His scolding,and the realization that i had disrespected Him.But i also learned a lesson.Pleasure is a wonderful thing,but pleasure with pain is euphoria.Can you enjoy separately?Yes.But it is so much better together.One begins and joins the other as if in a melting pot and creates an enormous fire in ones body and soul that leads to total exhaustion and collapse.i Have been told on several occasions that in order to know  pleasure,you have to know pain.But knowing them together is an all new ballgame.i will NEVER again disappoint nor disrespect Master ,but i rather enjoyed His punishment.i am very fortunate that Master found me and i am honored to call Him my Master.

If anyone had told me a few weeks ago that i would enjoy even the slightest amount of pain or discomfort i would have called them crazy.Even the thought of my lover sucking my nipples to hard or biting them was more than i could bare.I was a complete wuss.My transformation didn't come all  at once but over time.My first experience came into play one afternoon telling Master i was curious about marking.He had me lift my full breasts upward while they slapped repeatedly harder and harder until they were a crimson shade of red,rubbed and soothed.To my dismay there was no pain,just a invigorating feeling satisfaction as i began to see my breasts turn a beautiful shade of purple.i wanted more.One night i became bratty and as my punishment i was instructed to to apply deep heat to both nipples and my clit along with pinching and pulling of both.What i felt caught me by total surprise.The more i burned,pinched,and pulled ,the more i became caught up in the pleasure and need for total release.The more the pain,the wetter i became,the more desperate i became .i begged for my release to the point of tars.When His command finally can it was like nothing i had ever felt.Every inch of me  was on fire .I had become one huge spasm,shaking uncontrolably,unable to breath,speak,or concentrate on anything but the electricity surging through my entire being,and the sound of Master's voice.When i was granted my release i collapsed into a deep and  satisfying sleep.

I have come to rely on Master for my comfort,and feeling of well being.i will be taking a long trip soon and being with out Him will be unbearable.I hang on His every word,desire,and command.i am His completely,body mind,and soul.

Submission is a journey.Many have said that it is the same as giving up.I tend to think of it more as giving in and experiencing what life to offer.To surrender my body,mind ,and soul towards my personal growth. i have given trust without question,and total control to my Master.He has in turn taught me things i never knew about myself.I always knew i was submissive,but i didn't know to what extent.I have gone from meek and cautious,to someone that will damn near try anything.With His guidance i have become not only His slave,but a His slut,whore,bitch,and the most surprising one of all His pain slut.i always knew i had a high tolerance for pain but i never knew just how erotic it could be.i just may have to be a brat more often.

What a way to begin the day.Never been shy about what i enjoy and i do love a good spanking and marks no matter where they turn up next.If you dont get a mark the spanking wasn't good enough...lolAt least that is my thought.What an eye opening experience to be awaken by the feel of cold metal against a hot pussy first thing in the morning,over and over until the sting of desire hits full force and Master has again left  His mark upon not only my body but my soul as well.i do love that sting***