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	not-so-nice jewish girl (and I am anything but a princess) looking for other jewish people to chat with... Waiting for my Master waiting to be cleansed in pain sitting here in the sunrise that follows a hard nights rain dirty virgin skin that begs to torn to be marked and scarred the soft flesh made hard the posession claimed back to creation I am incomplete head at your ankle salt at your feet your leather at my throat to make me complete something violent and precise scars that spell your name stake your claim let me lie down broken skin sticking to sheets or perhaps be kind enough to let me sleep at your feet

3/13/2005 5:40:28 PM

For those trying to contact me, I appologize but my internet has been down for several days off and on (more off than on unfortunatly). Please be paitent as I am also dealing with moving and final exams... I *will* be in contact though. Thank you for your paitence.

3/6/2005 3:47:17 PM

My Thrashing

     -I can almost feel the welts now....
cool where the skin has opened screaming against the air, oozing that stickiness that comes to the surface in an attempt to heal....
the unbroken skin around it red-hot and stinging - salt rubbed across them, as much an anticeptic as a reminder....
i can feel His cold eyes on me,
both of us knowing that this is a kindness He does me....
the pain He now inflicts should be a clensing for me, but i have no way to reconcile the pain i've caused Him.... some bitterness will remain in these wounds....
           i can feel the scars they'll leave under my fingertips, each one with a name and date and time on it... each one for a different sin, all of them earned, and every one a mark of shame, hopefuly forgiven, never forgotten, and most certianly never repeated.....
i feel the leather, and the locking into place of a buckle at the back of my neck... tears of joy and adoration that stream down my face... the salt water tears stinging the fresh welts on my breasts... the chain attached to the hoop at the front, leading to the hand that rested on top of my head a moment ago, as i kneel here in awe of my love and Master... but this is only a fantasy, and a dream to aspire to, and one i'm not yet deserving of.

3/6/2005 3:45:52 PM

pain...
-often seek but rarely find
-a balance between heart and mind
-my body desires one sensation
-but my heart deems this a violation
-my heart seeks pain to drive away
-silly thoughts and silly dreams
-my mind seeks refuge in different ways
-and gives in to what the body needs
-and eventualy what they crave is the same
-the reasons are the difference here
-the heart to dull the ache inside
-the mind to focus and open wide
-the body to thicken a softened hide
-and maintain distance while keeping near

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Paulasthlm

Age: 24

Stockholm, Sweden