i wonder where  the chatrooms went  i miss it even though i wasnt there often i liked it .. 

i am still with the  the same One .who loves me cares for me and i so do love him 

98% Rope bunny
98% Submissive
95% Pet
94% Degradee
92% Primal (Prey)
92% Masochist
90% Slave
76% Brat
59% Experimentalist
34% Exhibitionist
25% Girl/Boy
11% Non-monogamist
10% Voyeur
8% Vanilla
5% Sadist
3% Ageplayer
2% Owner
2% Degrader
2% Primal (Hunter)
1% Rigger
1% Switch
0% Master/Mistress
0% Dominant
0% Daddy/Mommy
0% Brat tamer

Did this test just for fun :)

98% Rope bunny
98% Submissive
95% Pet
94% Degradee
92% Primal (Prey)
92% Masochist
90% Slave
76% Brat
59% Experimentalist
34% Exhibitionist
25% Girl/Boy
11% Non-monogamist
10% Voyeur
8% Vanilla
5% Sadist
3% Ageplayer
2% Owner
2% Degrader
2% Primal (Hunter)
1% Rigger
1% Switch
0% Master/Mistress
0% Dominant
0% Daddy/Mommy
0% Brat tamer

So many seeking a slave but imo every slave starts out to be a submissive because  she has to learn her Masters way  manners and ways before she can serve him as a slave this transformation starts slowly but  surely  to her Masters perfect slave has  been created 

Live life to the fullest it can be  too short to enjoy if you wait too long .

13 days.. :D  looking forward to it  ..scarey too ... 

 The day I will  travel is coming closer and i am looking forward to it but in a way that' different then anyone will suspect . A choice will have to be made then and that won't  be easy . The choice will hurt me but i have to choose for me what i want and need be selfish for once ...  I always do everything for others to the best of my ability and  knowledge and for once i have to choose for me . I am not getting any younger and life is too short for what if's and but's 

had a weekend with all i wanted and needed no holding backs no reserve just went in completely

Home alone what shall i do.... 

I wish people would write better English  sometimes not that mine is perfect but sometimes  i cringe as to how people spell and if you can't write English then don't try OR use spellchecker 

had a fab weekend with every thing i wanted .and needed

I am me i can not deny what i am no denying my needs wants i want to serve kneel and the miss of that is starting to have a great effect on me ...sorry Sir i can't help it it is how i feel ...

 I am who i am 

i can not deny it .

Sometimes when we are in search of who we are we have to look  back on the past as to where we came from   it can pay of to reflect no matter how pain full this can be .  Only then can you see the growth you've gone through and how far  you have come  in life and in this lifestyle i live . I am happy within this life style the rules  that are set and how they are all coming together there is no doubt in my mind  that this is not for me  I cringe by the thought of having to give up this lifestyle . Yet part of my life is very vanilla  and part of it is D.s style to me  a perfect combination  .I can be me i can kneel before my Master and just be  weather He uses me as a footstool or as a toy he can use and abuse to His liking . He makes me feel loved wanted respected  but most of all loved . Life throws all sorts of things on your path one has to deal with   good and bad hard and easy things . all these things make me grow and sometimes rise above myself  the moments you are thrown back which  puts you with 2 feet on this beauty full earth moments of serenity  even though those moments are  rare it's there i also find peace . 

Loyalty trust honesty faith humor safety 

So i'm a happy girl. I've got a great Sir whom i love i got  great kids who i cherish .Friends that are always there for me  no matter what which means in good and bad days .Play thast getting better and better  so  do i have wishes ... yes i do  just one  to have a long happy healthy life  i may not have much money but i got love laughter  and respect in my life .  

insomnia is here ... welcome back

 I had a great 2 weeks with all the people i love and cherish .i feel so blessed and lucky had great play sex food drinks what else does a girl want 

i wish you all a very merry christmas

she kneels before Him

With baited breath

Head bowed, her eyes

Will not catch His gaze

she waits for Him 

With her heart a flutter

Arms bound

she stays perfectly still

her breasts are bound 

In intricate twine

Presenting themselves to Him

Proudly

she waits

Reveling in anticipation

Of the pleasure

she knows lies ahead

she hears His approach

And feels His strength

On her fire hot skin

As He brings her to her feet

He bends her body gently

And she arches

her breath a soft sigh

As she feels the first flick of His wrist

her delighted moans

Fill the candlelit room

As the heavy scent of leather

Fills the air

her body comes alive

With each hot lick that grazes her skin

her body does not decipher pain

But to her sheer bliss

He draws her to Him

her hair entangled in His strong hands

her mouth comes alive

With the passion of His kiss

Their eyes at once meet

Tenderness is cast upon His face

His strong hands now caress

Where moments ago leather struck

she nestles in the crook of His neck

He gently brushes her cheek

her Master whispers, you are Mine, My darling slave

Now and Forever

Butterflies and feelings of what is about to happen and the wait makes the heart grow fonder but  for me  its now time to just let it happen , I can't wait for the new start  . I miss You so much it hurts . I want to submit and find myself back in your  guidance your strength and let all my emotions go . I hope it is going to be just as beautifull it always has been . :) 

hurray me happy again :) after a period of misunderstanding and misconception everything has fallen back into place :) so am happy again strange feel within me familiar but new.Let the new start begin now please ...and it will be good i am sure of that i can finally be who i am :)

 I am a mess mentally exhausted totally confused strange how an incident can do so much . It panicked me made me feel so sad i felt it to the core of my being will take a while before i have accepted what has happened .a break which i am taking right now . i have to think as to what i want and how I don't want to hurt anyone but i have to make a choice i can live with and be myself again . "sighs" what a mess

confusion all around ,...

miss You ... not a happy sublet at all 

So i've been so very busy with life that bdsm was almost non existing which is ok but now its a huge craving to get what i need and want , I am hoping Sir can be here in the weekend and we can finally get some alone time .Which is very much needed by me the need to submit to be the real me ! 

so many thoughts going through my  mind . I am so confused . which way do i go what path do i walk . So many questions  I am trying so hard to find the answer within me but i am stuck somewhere i in the middle   I ve always known what i was  and now i am changing if it is for the better or worse i dont know   only time can tell :)

Black book is in ! 

We had a great play this weekend since He had new whips for His b day boy do they sting .Thank You Mstr Luke  for making them for Him .He liked His pressie :D

So He finally read my journals ... and Hmm the Black book is comming back as of 3rd week of september  wonder what that will bring !

wonders if he has read my journals lately .. 

sometimes i wish i had a common D.s relationship which would be so simple and easy to live for me now its so complex in one sense and also extremely boring at times  or maybe its just me . Confused as to what i am still.. again ... cravings i want to suffer beg etc and like really long with the tender touch to sooth me during and then continue to suffer till i don"t know what or where i am no  more .  It it is a lot easier for a submissive to believe in the leadership of her Dominant if he actually is leading.

Needs  .. we all need love and some of us need submission as it is who they are what they are and how they function . they need the control it makes them happier and better submissive's too .they strive for perfection to please those they serve . Yet if they the Dominant doesn't follow through with this they feel they failed are not good enough . the basics for me is to grow/learn /serve in any order that comes first and if not met by any of the set rules there needs to be punishment as that's how bdsm works no matter what view u have actions have consequences always even if you don't want the regular bdsm as it has many forms that's THE  basic rule 

So i  received my collar tonight ..I never expected this already soo proud I will wear it with pride and honour .I love You Aquinasmaster  <3<3<3. Thank You for your trust and faith in me :)

being Vanilla is soo scarey !!!

being Vanilla is boring !!!

So my life isnt boring  at all but sm wise it is as we busy doing other stuff  but its abt time again for a good suffering ... being in a bubble ...

so  how does one explain needs and wants which seem so normal to a sub but not so obvious to a Dom .

i kneel down before U 

i give all that i am to you 

my body as your canvas

my mind to play with  

in trust i give myself 

submission  is  being me 

submission is my life 

which i give in your hands 

in love with love

 <3 <3 <3

so this weekend i ve been used abused i ve been spanked whipped flogged fucked caressed tied and caged ! bliss ..'grin' i still feel it on certain body parts ...

submission is a beautyfull thing given freely willingly with passion and belief .

to kneel is being humble .. is being strong  and yet  daring to be weak .

to surrender your body and giving it as a white canvas to work on to create is the deepest one  can go .

to  wear a collar the highest honour a submissive can receive .. the ultimate reward..

eat me, beat me, bite my bum, suck me, fuck me, make me cum, whip me, strip me, lick me out, pull my nipples make me shout!

who and what am i 

where am i in my confusion i lost myself 

 and cant seem to find my way back 

it hurts ..

scared i wanna be who i am just me ..

nothing more nothing less ..

just a submissive is all 

as thats me 

worked in my Garden  physically its enough tomorrow there is another day . 

but i am Bored big time Sir not home he at his ex .. doing some diy as he promised 

So i ve been in England for  5 days which was lovely was so scared/nervous as i wanted to make a good impression for Sirs friends . But i guess i did that ,had a few great meals at friends houses and party's with great music to sing along with or dance . lots of laughter and  i so enjoyed it going to the united kingdom is always a feeling  of comming home i can not say anything else but it feels much nicer to be in the uk then in holland  but yes i live here in holland not in a city  i like very much . prefer to live in a small village where Sir lives .the silence and nature surrounding me there is fantastic . 

and the people in that village too .  Not much s and m going on at the moment just too busy to actuallly  be used and abused extensively with ropes whips cuffs and whatever else he likes to use .. but i so miss it 

I  want to fly again ... 

So many emotions these days 

so many things going on still i am happy 

life  isnt always what one wants it to be . 

I am soooooooooooo tired mentally 

i just wanna curl up and vanish .. 

i wanna fly again ....

I am happy i feel good .

So  after a very hecktic few weeks am trying to relax at Masters house , i am so tired i could sleep a week yet in my bed am awake after 4-5 hours . which sucks big time and yet in the middle of the afternoon i want to sleep again , 

so Sir is gonna kick out the lodger so we can have a play room and have a bedroom available for a new subby ...you can be a short stay sub for training or new  we dont mind as long as U pay for your stay ... glad to help you on the way to be a good submissive and maybe later can grow into a slave for your new Master ... 

 My Master is english and my english is ok too so english speaking subs are welcome too 

just happy .. life is good .

so Sir is gonna kick out the lodger so we can have a play room and have a bedroom available for a new subby ...you can be a short stay sub for training or new  we dont mind as long as U pay for your stay ... glad to help you on the way to be a good submissive and maybe later can grow into a slave for your new Master ... 

 My Master is english and my english is ok too so english speaking subs are welcome too 

soooo insecure hate it ..

 always when am happy something happens and makes the bubble burst .

sighs i dont want it to end 

still  not smoked ... had guests for 4 days been drunk 4 times was great fun seen alot but ..ZERO bdsm too busy too much to do . 

tired  happy proud of me stopped smoking 8 days now . i know i will gain weight which i dont like at all .so we will see how long it takes before i will smoke again cause i dont want to get fat .

this fuckhole well according to my Master is happy .. :D

I can't wait to see my Sir again . and i hope we have  some alone time so we can enjoy eachothers company  . as the comming 2 weeks will be very busy and hectic .I am hoping for a very rough really hard  use abuse some good perverted sex and orgasms no mercy play 

Day 5 no smoking proud proud

OH   DAY 4 NO SMOKING ... SOMEWHAT FRUSTRATED ..DONT WANT TO GET FAT AM FAT ENOUGH AS IT IS ...

LUCKILY  HAD A GREAT  FUN LAST NIGHT WITH ROPES .. WOULD DO IT AGAIN " HINT HINT " WAS FAB 

3rd day of no smoking last night was so hard party at my house almost gave  up thx to Sir i didnt !! So thank You Sir <3<3<3 Am sorry Ive been  bad and all that just blame it on the stop smoking please

Hahahaha  i just received the most hilarious email from a greek  master who never read my profile .friggin troll . guess he wants to leave greece and parasite on an other european but i thought they already did that :P

what a nice day and i feel so happy had a great trip in the shower " grins" 

Trust is earned not taken 

Trust comes with getting to know one another 

Trust to gain it there has to be communication 

Trust once its broken its never to be regained 

I Trust my Master with my body as His canvas 

my mind for Him to play with 

my soul is feels deeply the submission i give to Him 

makes our relationship beautyfull 

 We laugh lots  We feel alive  We Love ...

 i am who i am i know what i am i am me always 

I am missing my Master i miss the hugs cuddles and being in bed together nice and warm to curl up to him .. few more days then i can do it again :D i be so glad ... 

confused sublet been for days now my feelings are all over the place doubting myself ...

as to what i am ..or what i ve become i am so happy with my life right now that's for sure but i also miss things even though my freedom within my relationship is huge .. sometimes i miss the freedom i had within 24/7 i know this sounds weird but this is my confusion as even though i had rules then and continuity and consistency as how my days would be .. i miss that at times .i wouldnt change a thing right now ...i love being the cheeky naughty me and the fun love and laughter i am expiriencing ...for that i thank my Master my Love my dahling  ...

I ve started on a path that was new and its a beautyfull path ... so many news things to see feel hear touch its opening up my world ...and i love it every step .

My Master is  a WHORE  He wants to fistfuck any girl of the age of 20 and he tells me i am a slut :P 

But then again some girls i would also do  lol ..........

I love my Master He is great for i can be who i am  thanks to Him i am happier more down to earth more self esteem  altough there are always things abt myself i need to work on , i am hoping that what we feel for eachother lasts a long time so far every time we are together we have fun do things and expirience thinsg we've not had before and my feelings for bdsm are changing but in a good way .growth  for both of us in every way He is getting more DOminant which is great for me i can feel it in every bone in my body and what it does to me .  Thank You Aquinas Master for letting me be who i am and accepting me with all my flaws !!I am so hoping to find another submissive to join us and expirience the beauty of bdsm together :)

The Most Sexual organ of the human body is the mind ,for that is where all erotic and sexual passions are conceived then formulated in a plan of arousal.

It may be stimulated by an attack of the most titellating and sensitive erogenous zones with a light touch or the caresses of a smouldering hot wet tongue 

 Therefor if you satisfy the sexual hunger of a person physically they are satisfied for a day . But touch and satisfy  the sexual mind of a person they are hungry for that touch forever and are yours

The Book ,

There is this Book its Black

OH I wish i could take it back

and just read it

i am so curious

It was my gift to You

for my Mischievious behaviour

my actions and my sayings

i am a good girl

You know how to take my to my deepest innerself

for your pleasure only

i endure all thats given

i am a submissive

My body is Your pallet to paint on

MY soul is Yours to touch

My mind is Yours to play with

i am Yours

Together we are one

United in D/s

And only few see the beauty

for we are who we are   

So i've had a  good day .. in general and yet now in the evening  i feel somewhat low . too many things to think abt   .

 i ve also written some poetry  deleted a few and kept one .

 been a while since i had done that .

So We've played with ropes and had great fun turned into a fullscene which was great .

And we did a braclet and a rope pentagram which turned out really nice and looked good.And We played harder then we ever did before also which  was nice it became also very late ..which suprised us both when we stopped and I tried  to become me again my cloud 9 was lovely deep and ook quite some time to come down we went to bed snuggled up to Him and when i woke up my high still wasnt gone .

So i want to thank My Loving Master Aquinas for the great expirience . I Love You xx

 my Body is His canvas  my soul is His my mind is my Own but given when He wants it

So Master wants to add another subgirl to our relationship a young girl thats is reasonable new and is willing to learn from us and she and i together makes us complete Since He has given me a task of looking for a girl this is the criteria He would like her to have ,

She has to be able to come and see Him on her own expense and with own transport 

She has to be willing to learn 

She must like fisting 

She is tiny/slim 

She  has IQ 

She has EQ

Ofcourse we will meet in a neutral place to have a chat in real life and see if there is any chemistry between us . 

Ok so i ve been spoiled last ten days or so as Master and i where together ..was great fun but the last few days we both where fluish and pretty much been hanging on the coach . but  we had great talks . we are so connected in many ways at times its  so beautyfull so intense .we went deep in many ways .and Me i am gratefulll i can truly be me with all my inprefections and insecurities .this relationship is so diffrent then my last one there is no comparisant at all .but the D/s. and there it stops .our sex is amazing lasts hours and is intense and so good .Making Love to Him is a beautyfull thing  

Aquinas Master I love You ...

i love the new chatroom on here .. 365 shades of me great group one can find me there alot 

so i ve send him a poem and he laughed abt how i signed it , and things have changed things went deeper  again  .which to me is good and makes us stronger . I love Him 

Ok so I dont know what to write but i have a lot of thoughts abt a lot of bdsm things which to me are important . 

 The changes in me in the last 6 months are amazing .. i feel like i ve been reprogrammed bit by bit in a good way .  am still the sub the way i was but  i dare to say no or ask things i normally never would have done . i feel stronger more confident not the fearfull girl i was before and sure i relapse now and then in my old habbits but not as much as in the beginning . we could be in the supermarket and i would ask whatever i wanted to buy if it was ok now i just dont do that i just buy , cause i want to  or can ..  but that took a while same goes for  doing any other  chore in the house i dare to ask help i would never ever do it .  I feel so much better  and now and then i still panic ... abt little things but those are things i dont know or didnt know and concern my Sir but He will tell me or explain things to me as to why and how and that solves it mostly . like yesterday  i put whipped cream on Sirs coffee  but He doesnt like it and i didnt know .. Panic mode straight away .. he just talked to me in a calm collective way and i was reassured it was ok and no problem .  

 I am soooooooooo Happy with this way of dealing with things no fear  for making mistakes ..  although i can be a bad girl too and that will be noted in His black book ... 

Seeing my Sir today  and i finally get my waterbed yay !! looking forward to it . tY Sir  for all the things U do for me  and all the support in the last few days and the  day to come .I love You  . 

what a weird day today ..

I posted some pics of my first needleplay :) i think they look good for someone who done it for the first time :) Thank You Aquinas Master and  MstrLuke :)  for the great expirience :)

So   I had my first expirience with needleplay . And it was good ! and the pics look great too i wasn't scared at all to start with as needles to me are not scarey at all  . For my Master it was also the first time he did this so that was actually nice to expirience it together and he did a great job i think  under the guidance of an expirienced person in this..And i ve been in a full suspension that was a first too i ve been in semi- suspensions before but never a full one .that was fun  too .

and to top it off i got whipped caned flogged .. and many more things.. all in all i had a great time!!

been sick for a week ugh  and now much much better just a bad cough but thats ok. 

 SIr hasnt been near me all that  time due to other things he had to do. but i  do miss Him and would have been really nice to curl up against Him and relax . am also very tense .. but i am almost certain thats because i miss play to be able to submit and all that goes with it ,so am Hoping He comes very soon to see me but that depends on His plans for the rest of the week . 

I have a Master and yes i can talk to others and chat and have fun but  i won't strip for you Dominate you or anything like that .

 So my Sir started on the second page in the Black Book. since Christmas . so does that make  me a bad girl .. i love to tease my  One . and if i  cross His lines then it gets noted .but hey in general am very good at least that is what i like to think . " grins " am almost Angelic but being good all the time is  soooo boring . we only live once and am enjoying it  to the fullest :)

Happy  new year to Aall may Your dreams all come true

so i am looking for a subby as an extra addition to our (Sir and mine ) relationship even if it is just one time only as a expirience we both like to have but my Master would love a slim tiny girl who likes to be fisted  and would like to expirience with me also and ordered by my Master what to do to one another .so maybe there is a Master who would lend us his subby/slave that would be awesome , as this task was put on my shoulders which is quite a hard one to pull off . so am a little bit worried and scared i cant pull it off  but time will tell if i can .

seeking sub to please my Sir who wants a extra toy you have to be slim young like fisting be bi sex and love laughter and fun if things go wrong but  no doormat

So i got my Master anew black book ....and already He has written in it 3 or 4 times He wont tell me what He has written ... And the book is on His desk within arm reach and am so veryyy curious i dare not to peek in it .cause me reading it without Him knowing or catching me reading it will for sure get me in even more trouble .

 Merry Christmas to All Kinkers and Kinksters :D

So My Sir wants FEMALE subby  serving next to me .  one who is caring  slim tiny  and likes mental part of bdsm not a puppet so you also have to have brains  to be bicurious or bisex  maybe it will be just for one time but who knows if there is a click for a longer period .  of course we will talk first on camera to verify and show ourselves . you must love humor and be able to laugh if things go wrong . its His wish also that i be Dominating you  so you can not have a problem with that either .

 Masters wish list is the following . ofcourse you will travel to see us , but we will meet in a neutral place the first time .

  female

tiny

slim

20-28 

into fisting or would like  to try

must love mild pain

metally strong

 bisex/curious

new to the lifestyle but have some expirience

not have a problem with female Domination obviously under my Sirs guidance

Snowing  cold and today i see my  Sir woohoo .happy happy we have such a good time together and so much fun . He is learning and teaching me so much .for which i am gratefull sometimes its not easy but i am getting there . slowly but surely but the changes also scare me .but i for sure think its worth it ,great to be me again , a part of me that was lost in time is comming to the surface  again . feel like a newbie at times .which is strange s i am for sure not that . 

have a great day :)

Goodmorning :)

so i  was in chat ,,, and no cam :(   but  other then that i had fun and i behaved almost all the time .

 had a good chat  and now its time to go and do some chores , MIss my Sir  but  i be seeing him soon .  xx have a great day

monday  today  going home so very stressed no idea why ... not a nice feeling at all .

as it was a nice weekend. :)

its  sunday morning  nice weather outside sunny and dry for a change . a lazy day . and am just happy and feel good :)

love You Sir , xx thank You for letting me be me

So  i have to think abt a  fitting puishment  for my behaviour ...

i was a bad subby ,,,  i squirted water to my Sir and  talked back 

He has to know by friday .. ponderng what i earn in punishment

whipping .. caning ... deniel ...cornertime .. suggestions are welcome .

what a fab  weekend i had great food  great play and music was the best ever .. little sleep much fun ... i would like  to thank my Sir for all that .

So Sir  thank You for all You've done for me so far and what you mean to me has grown to be something  really special   Ily

Sir is going home today  i will so miss Him but its only 4 days soo i think we can do without one another . we need that too so we kep saying to one another but the fact is   we said it before and he was back within 2 days  lol so we will see it its really gonna be 4 days till we meet again

just happy ... feel good .... feel respected loved wanted ... scarey but true ..

just read all that Sir and i wrote to eachother made me melt and almost cry so beautyfull open and  so honest much respect and trust in that almost like a dream .

 I miss You <3

possessed!!

So I had the most awesome time with Mr .. the feelings are so overwhelming so deep for both of us a match made by heaven almost .everything was great nothing  could stop us in whatever we where doing its the scarey L word that comes to mind .but i live with fun love with Passion  and laugh till i almost cry .Can it really be so deep after just 2 weeks the chemistry is there  to make it grow into something beautyfull. well thats my wish . but we will see what happens time will tell .

Mij views have changed  on many things concerning BDSM  but still  i feel great with it all i see it thx to my Sir in a whole  diffrent way .yet i can still be me with Him in the deepest way one can have those feelings for a  lifestyle Ive chosen  and grown to love in an addictive kind of way ,   the feelings the depth are still there to me there is no life with out it but i can have another lifestyle next to it thats what He has made me see .  and i am so very gratefull for that and  i feel truly Blessed .

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

How can  U connect  so deeply within a  few days .these feelings are so confusing  feel so good scarey sure also that but fuck i wanna live love  and laugh . and i ve done that so much in the last 2 weeks all the love and laughter is just pouring out of me in abundance . same goes for Him .and yes we both have a painfull past in a way we are also healing eachother .we share the pains aches and all that from our past.but still ive never ever met someone like him before .this connection goes right to the core  of my soul

my Master made me feel so special last  night and touched me deeply ... every word He said did . our start was  so intence . craving His touch  the touch of His hands  . i feel honoured and blessed  to find such a great Man  . my wish is  to grow old together but time will tell if its meant to be ...

so tired but yet feel  so good and amazing :) tY Sir ..

owned

Had an awesome  4 days  weekend  with soo many new emotions and feelings .

moving on hard at times but needed ..

so happy Love my life  sun is shining outside .and  for me  i am sure it will shine too  soon :)

http://www.etsy.com/shop/SensualSteel?ref=search_shop_redirect

beautyfull stuff there

every chance gives the ability to grow ...

I speak from the mind and from my heart because i can

why do people that dont  know me add me to their admirers lists ?are they just doing that because they collect pictures of woman ?Or do they really admire me which i strongly doubt as the most people dont know me ever spoken to me so how do they know that i am what i say i am ?I know what i am but do they know what they are?

O.....

live love laugh respect

i love my life  its good

Listened to music all night which was nice and very relaxing and watched some tv . Since am home alone all weekend .

such great conversations  I really enjoy them make me think alot and if we can connect in rl then i be  happy  as then i can truly be me again

which would be so fantastic

so much more at ease ...

Wondering why people have to be rude there is no need for that .Yes i am a sub but no doormat . and communication skills well some have never heard of this i guess.

the posts  I receive that are plain rude like i wanna fuck you you can be my dog etc will NOT be answered thats just not right . Values and morals are a part of me and i live by them .and bdsm is not just a kinky fuck its is way deeper and more beautyfull but i guess the people that send those kind of mails have never expirienced this . and there for have no idea how deep a girl can go once she is Owned .

 rant over have a good day

so I've not spoken to the person i feel so connected with and i missed it   but i got alot to think about . it feels so good and so right so we will see where all this leads too

 i ve got real good feelings abt it would love to see him and to hear His voice will be very interesting .

Goodmorning Everyone  have a great day !!

so many comversations  so many things to think abt . somewhat overwhelming but always good sometimes it brings emotions to the surface which  ive missed . but thats mainly to  do with the depth of theses conversations

I found a Man  that I like as we have a good connection  and share the same views BDSM wise  we are talking we will see  where it takes us  but so far so good .Time will tell if its meant to be or not .

I am not interested in woman thats just not my thing ..

still single  and looking  made a few contacts which is nice  .deleted a few too not that i didnt like them but our views where too different or just no click ...

be respectfull that gets U further .. then being rude and acting like a moron

Why do people want nude pics ..isnt it abt the person instead of the body after allno matter what u look like there has to be respect always

pondering as how one can GIVE kneeling .. thats worth an explanation ..

so frustrated  sad .. trying to stay positive  dont like being alone  its so hard to get used to that .No one that i can lean on ask advice etc :(

gooooodmorning

So i am  alot on here again now that i can . Many views on my profile which is nice and one person i am talking to we will see where that takes me. Time will tell so far so good .I dont mind if people want to just talk either friends are always welcome too .

Maybe i should seek a male sub to do chores i can not do .. omg  that idea alone makes me giggle  what would i do lol a sub with a sub ...

had a great  day despite what happened this morning

slaves can not submit they jus do as they are told no rules no limits subs submit have limits simple isn"t it

so i ve done my chores i had to do  but one ..so i can have an easy day

have a great.beautyfull dry sunny kinky day :P

so nice to be back online i ve missed it alot ..chatting playing games connecting to many people on here new and old friends .

a new journey started .. seeking a new Dominant hoping there won"t be too many wannabees .

so after painting redecorating cleaning and moving i finally live in my new lil house..its pretty and am proud of it .

now my new life can begin  and my search for a Dominant male can start . Dutch or Belgium prefer (west)vlaanderen

 I am seeking a relationship that can develop into something really special i like the spiritual side of life too so a connection on that part would also be great ,

nothing can make my day bad

one more week now .then i can have my life  happy feel good

just happy

 feel great

just happy

I amnot moving relocating for anyone you visit me i dont visit you if you think am worth it you will do so

  Annoyed as i am by some Dominants who think they can write anything and everything for me thats so not done . If You can't controle Yourself in Writing then how can U controle  submissive/slave ? Dominants demand perfect posture and attitude  of their submissives so why dont they start with  taking controle on themselves as well ??You might wonder why i write this well  i am fed up with people that write me what they want to do to me but a simple conversation they can't maintain .I think every good relationship start with communication and that should always be the case for its the basic element in any relationship in love work and yes also in a BDSM relationship .And no Your not always right sorry to say even though You might think so  for we are All people and we make mistakes .nobody is perfect not even me ....

 Never look back  as tomorrow is another day ..

sitting in the garden contemplating on what once was .. looking  back everything was good harmonie love peace tranquill nothing but positive memories of what i ve left behind he was a great partner  Master lover . I dont  think i wil find again what i had cause it was perfect to me . but one never knows what timell bring me .i was happy and still am even thoug am single now

 I love my Life I am happy  one more thing lacking beside a partner   and that will happen soon too :) thats one thing i am sure of .

 I love life  dispite  everything thats going on .

free... single ...

No I wont move  You cant move in

 I wont relocate or travel want to meet me you make the effort I am worth that . If You truly interested .

And the journey continues !!

life is for the living live now not yesterday yesterday is gone over and done with !!

i feel good  today dispite    news that i didnt expect but its ok i deal with it  no one ever claimes life was easy

 I dont repress my submissiveness .its who and what i am  and the right person will see this .just get to know me i am serious person i  have humor am open love good conversations at dinner or at night .i can be your pet / toy /slave/or little girl   . gain my trust the more U give mw that the more deeper and further i can go and  U can create what  U want Your perfect pet. i dont ever  seek punishment on purpose  thats not my thing . get to know me i do not relocate  for anyone .

Sometimes i hate being single because it reminds  me that i have to date again .. ugh ..so hmm having coffee is ok .but geesh  fakers galore ..so Sirs/Doms./Masters be real be honest be just who you are .and please have  communicationskills as that to me are basics  for any sort of relationship

i am me 

i am a submissive

i am a woman

but

who is worthy of me ...

my serving

my body

my soul

my mind

who...

being single ... but not searching i think ...someone will  find me if the time is right .

now focussing on myself .

Home again ... been in Ireland for 5 weeks loved it my country of choice for holidays .. walks sightseeing or just be lazy doing nothing .. i love the silence that one still can find in Ireland  the people are great  . "sighs"i want to go back ..

4 more days in beautyfull Ireland then holiday is over ...

Looks are deceiving how a person looks has nothing to do with the inside nature and character of the person . thats just a shell nothing more . no matter how preety or goodlooking a person is  that doesnt say anything abt the person itself  !!

What a Night .... ugh .. been up since 3 am ... did laundry  cleaned cabinet made breakfast   dishwasher is empty and refilled new laundry in machine .. had coffee   diconnected my pc and reconnected it  on a new place ... and everything works YAY me ..

I wonder  why people send me longggg messages and then when i replay nothing else gets send back so why Bother??

am soo Lazy today .. but who cares am on holiday in Ireland with my ex Mr. yes thats possible  for those who wonder how she does it  we are Bboth adults . the relationship ended because of things beyond our controle  He is and always will be a very special friend .  The bond we have goes deeper then just the D.s part  but thats between Him  and me .And also with a new partner i will always be welcome at His house .

Happy Valentines day to A/all

how big my tits are how much i weigh is no ones business but my own .

i dont ask You how big your dick is  etc , so i wont answer those questions

ugh  offers for holidays  at a slave owners wtf are they thinking ... i am NOT a doormat nor am i am object ..

In the Videochat for a while ... :)

its soooooooooooooooooo Annoying if you cant replay to people that message you  so i ams orry if i didnt replay to messages i cant answer them for some reason

a  date .. and i  am looking forward to it :) if it dont work out well then at least i had a good afternoon :)

 please only  if You are from Belgium or southwest of holland i will react the rest is too far away

my submission is  me and all that i am i give in trust to the One that earns this trust .

 please have some iq  . i am bored easily and love mental games on many levels

" great new years  fun i had i was tied spanked fu**ed whipped etc etc  was great fun and oh i so enjoyed it and i would like to thank this person  for  this . it was a great release and so enjoyed it :D. AND STILL AM

Happy New Year to Aall  i hope U all get what You wish for

maybe  the new year can bring me what i need   :D

 wishes she was able to serve someone... not as a friend  those are always welcome  prefer a bit more .

 life is fab  i am enjoying it or trying to  ...

there is more then the eye can see

blablablablablabla

miss being me ...

Merry Christmas to All people wishing U all lots of Love and Light :)

i feel small in this big world

i wish i could curl up at someones feet so i can be me

and not hide  myself like i am doing now

i so long to be at someones feet  and be the pet i am :D

there is more then the eye can see ...

there is more of everything that surrounds us

 being good or bad there is always more .

communication is the key to ANY  relationship . its number one always .

live love laugh respect :)

i love life . it feels good  am happy  .

my guardian Angels are  helping me :)  and  for that i am gratefull :)

if You are from outside europe  dont bother to contact me there is no use in doing so  .it will never work

good communication brings u further

SINGLE ............

 just here to talk  and chat and maybe  more that depends on many factors