Why is it so hard to even get a conversation going?????

Actually meeting is probably an impossability....

I have yet to find a good BDSM site to meet others who actually want to meet, explore, play. 

Anyone out there know of a good BDSM site?

Hello....???

Is....

there....

anyone....

OUT THERE????

Thought for the day: I really wish I could find a FemDom who would make me her bitch slave. Use me however she wants. Abuse me, humiliate me, share me with her friends.... 🙃

I need some help in dressing.

Since you cant update profiles on here, thought I would use journal as a way to put this out there.

I want to dress and be used as a whore. Need guidance on what to wear, type of wig I would look good in, make up, etc. 

Years ago I dressed for a guy I was playing with. It was allright but most of what I had didnt fit good. Threw it all out years ago. Looking to start over and build an inventory.

Obviously, whoever helps me can use me how they want as thank you for their help.

My Balls ache so bad. I strap on my ball seperator. Been on for 2 hours. They are dark, swollen, aching bad....just need a Dominant know to smack them and abuse me....

Need to be used, need to be collared and used and abused daily.

WHERE ARE ALL THE REAL DOMINANTS!!! 

This site has becone full of "professional" Dommes, Dommes who don't even respond back! And worst of all, the dreaded soulless scammers!!! The scammers have become so easy to see through, really, what a pathetic bunch of spineless, mindless, loosers these low life scammers are! 

But back to my point.... Finding a real Domme was never this hard! What happened?!?!?! All I see here lately are so called "dominants" (yes small "d"!) who want you to send them a god damn gift card just to say hi!!! This really sucks! A sub or slave used to be able to come on here and find a beautiful, sexy, woman who was creative, and eager to tie a slave up by his balls, make him scream, cry and beg! They would have you crawling on your hands and knees into the basement where you were gonna be bent over and fucked with a dildo, or large cucumber (yes that's happened, more than once)! I want to serve a Domme who gets wet just listening to her gagged slaves screams as she turns up her tense unit on her helpless trapped slave's cock n balls! A beautiful and strong Domme who just might make you suck her male friends cocks, just because SHE CAN!!! Because she has the power, she makes the decisions, she does what makes her feel good, not what you (ME!) thinks feel good!

No! I'm not gonna pay you hundreds of dollars to clamp my balls and tongue fuck your asshole for an hour! Don't get me wrong, I will do that and much more, I'm just not gonna pay you so I can be tortured , raped and photogrsphed!!!! Know don't confuse this with me not wanting to "pull my weight". When beautiful, skilled, smart, sexy Domme has put together a play room or dungeon room and filled it with wonderful bondage benches, racks, tables, crossbeams and has a fine selection of chains, clamps, gags, paddles, plugs, dildos, strap ons, weights, electro toys , etc. I get it!!! I need and will bring something to the table (besides my chained up ass) and will come bearing gifts to add to her collection. Or use my fabricating skills to fix, build, weld her more devices and apperatteses that she can use on her lucky, scared shitless slaves! 

But please lady's, don't expect or ask me to bring you an Amazon gift card to our session of "let's make the slave cry like a little girl" because I'm not gonna do it!!!

So, to all the "REAL" Dominant (yes, capital "D") Women out there looking for a "REAL" slave (yes Ma'am, you get to keep the key to the ball crushing, penis folding chastity device you have locked on my family jewels), I am right here! I have done this before, I will do it again and yes I want it to be with YOU!!!

Thanksgiving eve 8:30 and it looks like I'm going to a couples house for both of them to use and abuse me. Our first time together. They are anxious to put me to good use. Sounds like I'm in for pain, cock sucking, pussy and ass licking, being raped, tied up and degraded. I know she is gonna use me as her piss slave. They won't confirm it but a slave knows when to listen to his head. Something he said about her a few weeks back. Have never been used for WS. Guess I won't be able to say that anymore. He is gonna fuck me bad too. That I know. It's been told to me. Could be my new owners, ya never know. I'll write about it tomorrow. 

Has been a rough past few weeks. When a family looses a member it shakes the whole family to it's core! It's times like these that love, strength, selflessness really mean the most. Now that my life is getting back to "normalcy" (if there is such a thing!) I realize just how important being a submissive in real time is to me. No more games! no more wild goose chases! No more wishful thinking and false hopes! I always know if someone is "for real", and serious about BDSm play and a D/s relationship! yet so many times in the past I have ignored that "inner voice" and replaced it with false hopes that "this person is for real", or that, "this time this person will be who she/he said they were"!So many times in the past I ignored what I already knew, "this person is a fake, a pro, a scammer, has no intentions of meeting and playing, etc". I know I ignored these things because my desire to be used and serve are so strong. I compromised my self in pursuit of false hopes! I have met many "real" Dominant people on line over the years (only a very few from this site but because of those few great experiences I will continue to use this site as well as others) so I know that next great D/s relationship will happen!

I have always enjoyed that incredible look of complete joy, surprise, excitement on some ones face when we are 'playing" for the first time and they have come to the realization that they have just found the sub/slave (me!) who is real and that they will be able to enjoy and use for their BDSM enjoyment. I have seen this "look" many times and it always brings me a strong feeling of satisfaction and purpose. I remember the first time Miss Tara had me tied over a picnic table, my balls tied and hung with heavy weights and as she whipped my ass with MY leather belt and made m beg her to fuck me with that large beige strap on dildo she had tightly secured to her body. She stopped whipping me, walked in front of me and picked my head up by the back of my hair. She had a huge a smile across her face, her face was blush red with excitement and she simply said to me, "your the first real slave I've met" and then pressed her hot soaking wet pussy up against my face, pushing my mouth and lips hard against her pussy and rocked up and down while I orally pleasured her. She came, took a step back still holding my by the back of my hair and said, "Thank you for being real, slave, I am going to enjoy my times making you my owned bitch". I said, "your welcome beautiful Miss tara, know fuck me with your cock and make it hurt so I know you care about me" And she did, boy did she show me! 3+ years as her owned bitch slave and we learned so much about ourselves and each other, and BDSM, and D/s. Sometimes I wish she never moved away, and yet if she didn't move I wouldn't have ever known I just as good as a cock sucking slave as I was a pussy licking slave. She gave me to a Male Dominant friend of hers, and soon I was about to see that same look, that same smile, that same expression of surprise that I was for real and that he was gonna enjoy dominating, using, abusing, raping, torturing me just as Miss Tara had.

Thats what I am looking for. again! A female or male Dominant who wants to build a beautiful, sexual, erotic, fulfilling relationship with me. Wether it's strictly a BDSM relationship or one that is mixed with both "vanilla" experiences as well as BDSM doesn't matter to me, as long as it is real, with someone who needs to Dominant and abuse and own a sub as much as I need to submit, sacrifice, be used and abused and serve a Dominant.

Find me, use me, enjoy me, satisfy our needs and desires by being together.

If you need me to pay you then your not for me! I'm not looking for a prostitute, I am looking for a relationship, an owner. I do not have a problem "helping" out because you have a well equipped dungeon and equipment that cost money, I get that. And I can certainly respect you for this and I can definitely "pull my weight"  and do my share, wether it's helping with the $, or using my hands on mechanical abilities (ie; welding, building, cutting metal, wood, fixing, creating) to share in the costs and responsibilities.

Sunday, 3/17 and so horny to be used for kink and BDSM. Avail all day/night for use and abuse. Can host or travel. One or more. Open to any type of play you are into. Must be safe. No shit play. WS encouraged (virgin to WS, break me in). Message me here and we can talk, set it up. Lets cut through the BS and actually play!!!

well my search for a Dominant to take me up on my proposal seems to fall on deaf ears. Amazed at how so called Dominant who are responsible, the rulers of the slaves, the ones who follow BDSM protocol can't even reply back to an email message. They want you to fit ALL of their needs and if you do not fit every single one then you are not worthy to be talked to. 

Anyways, I have been searching for a Dominant to take me on to train me in a specific BDSM activity that I have no experience in. In fact i do not even like the activity, crave or desire to do it. Thats why I want to be subjected to it. Forced to do it. Forced, trained thru means of pain, torture, humiliation. To be broken down physically and mentally to the point that I am transformed into a slave who preforms this activity whenever told to, without hesitation. To have my brain "re-wired" so I crave it daily and need it daily. The training shouldn't stop until I am at this point. 

The activity I am talking about is.... WATERSPORTS!!! yes thats right. to be used for drinking piss and to be pissed on, daily, maybe multiple times a day if need be. I want to fink a Dominant who will take me on and begin a very strict, demanding, and sadistic program of constant watersport training. The Dominant can use ANY techniques, methods, motivations and tortures it would take to turn this non loving piss slave into a slave who needs it like he needs water. I would imagine this type of training would entail weekly if not daily forced piss play and reinforced training's. I would sign papers giving my full consent that I am not to be released from the Dominant until he/she is satisfied that I have been permanently changed into a urine slave. I guess this means the Dominant could have me for any length of time they wanted. a month, many months, a year, a decade, life....I will have willingly given them the power to keep/own me until they have accomplished the task, the goal, which is to turn me into a slave urinal. This may disgust many of you, I understand that because it has always disgusted me, kinda still does. Then why would I even try to make this happen? Simple . Watersports is something I have been asked to participate in by many if not all the Dominants I have served. I have always said that is a hard limit. There were a few Dominants who disagreed it was a hard limit. They said it was something I didn't want to do but its not a hard limit. shit play, cutting, blood, castration, body modification can be hard limits I have been told because they are either un healthy, life threatening, or body disfigurement. But being used for piss play is none of these and it's just something I dont like and as a slave I am not allowed to decide to do and not do things I like and dont like. It goes against the very essence of a slave. Weather a slave likes or dislikes a particular activity means absolutely NOTHING to a REAL DOMINANT!!! "You have no rights to choose the activities you will do and not do" I was told by my last owner. we had a heated discussion about this many times. "life threatening, health threatening, or disfigures your body" he told me (while I was strung up by my wrists with his tense clamped to my balls and going off steady at #7, making my balls and cock twitch violently as well as make me scream thru my ball gag) are THE ONLY 3 things a slave can negotiate with his owner". When I failed to agree the tense goes up!!! This routine of "shocking" my cock and balls while we/HE has this discussion seems to happen weekly. My old Master tried several tortures to get me to submit and willingly open my mouth so he could place the head of his cock on my lips and fill my mouth and throat with his hot strong stream of piss. I never gave in. I came very close several times, from some incredibly painful tortures. BUt I stayed strong and never tasted one drop of his piss. He released me from his ownership over this. Pushed out the door of his house and told never come back, never call, "you are of no use to me as a slave. You seem to want to be a part of the decision process of how you will be used, what you will be trained for and unwilling to totally and completely serve your Master with 100% submission. I have no desire to ever see you again" the door slammed. I stood there, in his back yard. naked, holding my clothes in my arms, balls swollen, blue and hurting badly. He had spent half an hour beating them in hopes of breaking me and making me submit as his urinal. As I drove home I was sad. I cried a little. I cried a lot. I just lost the best Owner I have ever been with. over 2 years I was his slave, at his side to serve all his sexually needs, all his desires of tortures, humiliation, degrading me in front of others, all his fantasies he used me...well except for one. Fckng PISS!!! WHY!!!??? why the hell is that so important to him? I thought in the days and months that followed. Why couldn't I submit to it? It's PISS!!! I dont want piss in my mouth, on my body I would justify to myself. 

Well that was over 3 years ago. I have not seen or spoken to him since. I tried many many times but absolutely nothing! No communication back from him. I emailed him pics he had taken of me tied up and being tortured. Pics he took of me being fucked by his friends. Of me naked on my knees in the center of 5 men sitting in chairs ready for me to spend a couple hours sucking their cocks. I sent those pics of me sucking each one and wearing their cum on my face, in my mouth. They all came back "return to sender". I swear this is true. I am not making this up. Finally over a year ago I sent him mass mailings saying I would submit to piss play. I emailed, sent snail mail, texted phone. I got no reply. I decided to goto his house and leave an envelope filled with a letter of apology and my full consent to participate in any play or training he wanted. (I had finally realized what he was talking about. Slaves do not get to decide how they are used, what they do and dont do. Slaves are just an object for Master to us to feel pleasure, power, happy, kinky, etc) When I got to his house my head dropped. He was gone! The house was a different color and the name on the mailbox was different. He was gone. I fucked up, big time. He was the best Dominant I have ever served. I took my role for granted. I didn't respect his power, his authority, I didn't respect him as my Owner and this is why he banished me from himself. been mad at myself about this for the past year. So mad in fact that it's time I did Ive learn to submit. To have no say in an activity I disgust, hate, turns me sick. That is why I must find a Domianant who is skilled, special, strict, demanding, sadistic. I need to find a Dominant who will break me and turn me into the piss slave I should have been for Master.

You would think on a site full of Dominants one would be able to find one who wanted to take a slave willing to give him/her full consent to do with they please. To give him/her all decision making power over me. As long as part of this includes the training of me into a slave urinal for any Dominant to use as such by simply just saying, "slave! get in position to drink my piss!" And my first and only instinct will be to drop to knees, head help back, mouth open and ready to swallow every drop and grateful for every drop. Thats how I want a Dominant to train me. In honor of Master, who I failed so badly.

This is not a "story", not a "fantasy", not this months "fetish". This is for real. And to the first Dominant that wants to take me on for this purpose as well as any other uses they want me for, will have me. There is no NO! Slaves don't decide who they serve, or how they serve. Dominants make those decisions. SLaves are just an object for Dominants to use to get what they want.

Spent my birthday night tied up, tortured, raped, abused, humiliated and forced to do a couple of things I have never done before.... needless to say, it was a great birthday.

I hooked up with a man I served several years ago. I served Master for over two years. He is older, mid 60's, tall, thin, large cock, 7-1/2+ and fairly thick. He called me a few weeks back and we started talking again. We had been talking on the phone for the past two weeks. He told me he wanted me to join him in creating a scene he has had on his mind for many years. It would involve the two of us as well as a female Dominant he has been friends with for over 10yrs. 

"She is very safe, very skilled, extremely sadistic and gets off making a slave do things he doesn't want to do." Those are his own words. He told me she is also very pretty, 35, and doesn't lie to fuck around. If you come to play be prepared to PLAY!!!!

It didn't take me long to say yes. I haven't been used in months, extremely horny, and have always wanted to be used by a male/female Dom couple.

We set it all up last monday so I will fast forward to friday night. The night I would be chained and used for anything they wanted with the exception of my hard limits which were negotiated down to no shit play, blood, animals, cutting, injury and scaring. One of the hard limits I had to give up was water sports. I have never done any kind of piss play. Master said it was a deal breaker, in fact Goddess (the name I was to call her) #1 thing she wanted to do with me was to use me as both of their urinals and this was not negotiable. I agreed (with a semi hard on). Piss play on the whole when i think about it turns me off, completely, but the thought of being forced, tortured into doing something I didn't want to do really did turn me on.

I was to arrive at Masters House in South Windsor at 8PM friday night. Master told me that I should be prepared to be kept the night. I would be released, or let free at the latest 8AM the next morning. 12 hours of being kept bound, chained, restrained, etc and used for sex, torture, humiliation and degrading acts. My cock and balls, and ass were to be shaved smooth. I was to wear a pink thong under my jeans. I was to leave my cell in my car. Master explained to me that once I entered his house, once I walked through the door of his house that there would be no turning back, no backing out, no re-negotiating our already agreed upon rules. He made this very clear. "Once you enter my house, you have given me and Goddess you consent to use you as a sex and torture slave for the next 12 hours.

I was nervous the whole drive to his house. I also had a half hard cock. I was excited. I wanted this, very much! Finally I was going to be used extremely hard and long by a man I trusted and could let go of my fears and submit to this role, to being a slave. As I parked the car in his driveway I turned my cell off ad put it in the center console, along with my money clip. Empty pockets. Nothing but me and the clothes on my back. I walked to the house, through the side door in the garage and stood at the door in his garage that would let me into his house, my prison, my torture chamber. I knocked and immediately felt like I should run. The door opened immediately before I even had a chance of fleeing if I wanted to. There stood a beautiful, slender, brunette haired woman. Dressed in black nylons with red pumps with 6" heels, a very low cut top with half of her large round perky breasts hanging out. 

"Hello faggot slave." she said.

"Hello Goddess" I replied, my heart pounding out of my chest.

"Come in so we can get started, that is if you think you can handle this!" she chuckled.

I took a step through the door and she placed her hand on my chest to stop me.

"One more step and you aren't leaving until I say so. You understand this faggot!?"

"Yes Maam"

SLAAAP!!!!!! right across my left cheek.

"It's fucking GODDESS you stupid slave. Now say it right!"

"Goddess" i yelped out. the whole side of my face was on fire.

She took her hand off my chest and moved to the side so I could enter. I walked in and she closed the door quickly and I heard it lock. Sitting in leather chair across the room was Master, sitting there, naked, his cock hanging out, a smile on his face.

He spoke; "strip, bet on your knees, crawl to me and get to work you cock sucking slave"

I was naked and on my knees in less than 10 seconds. 

"Crawl" Goddess shouted as she slapped my bare ass hard with her hand. I grunted and crawled quickly to master, between his legs and immediately wrapped my mouth around his cock and sucked it. It grew hard in my mouth fast. I could feel Goddess' hands on my balls. She was pulling them down and tying a rope around the base of my balls. She pulled the rope tight, very tight until I yelped out in pain. She laughed and tied a knot.

"Sensitive arent you slave" she said.

I nodded as I continued to suck Masters cock.

Master spoke, "he can take a lot of CBT" he said with a smile to Goddess. "I trained him well in this area"

"I cant wait to have him strung up by these nice large tender balls"

Goddess left the room and Master instructed me to keep sucking until I drain every drop of cum out of his balls with my mouth.

wow I am hard just writing this. I will write the rest later today. It gets good, very good. I am subjected to hours of rape, torture and forced piss drinking. It is a good scene, you will enjoy reading the rest.

Don't know how i am gonna make it to the wknd!?!?!? It is gonna feel so good to be bound in Ma'am's ropes again. When she pulls out her tense unit i know i will feel excitement and dread at the same time. I mean I love it, but I know the hell I will be going thru. She especially likes that elec probe in my penis. I think she gets hard watching my cock twitch uncontrollably as she increases the voltage. I am not sure which is worse, the probe in my penis or the band tapped to my balls. Both different sensations, but both equally painful. She has instructed me to purchase a new butt plug, larger than any I have, and i have a large one! She wants one that will hurt and stretch my hole open. I love going to the store to buy what she tells me. Makes me hard. I have already decided I will buy the LARGEST ass plug they have, nothing less. i will regret it I know, but will enjoy it at the same time. I have been begging her to find another man to join in with her in raping and torturing me. She said she might now of a few she can ask but if anybody is interested then message me. You dont have to be a CD Dom, just a man with a big hard cock who likes to abuse slaves. She says not only will I be tied bent over the bed and a cock in my ass and mouth but my cock and balls will be hooked up to the tense and going full force as I am violated. One thing I have learned about Ma'am, she does what she says she is going to do, always!!!

Come on friday....i am ready for some hard playing, abuse, rape.

Ahhhhh, finally back in contact with my old CD Dominant. She is by far the best Dominant I have ever served and that has ever used me. Looks like this wknd we will be getting back on track with each other. She posses the skills, knowledge, desires and commitment like no other Dominant I have ever served.

Looking forward to being tied, helpless, hooked up to her tense unit and painfully forced to do what she wants....which are always sadistic, cruel, and sexual. She has a way with those tense leads to get what she wants, which is usually to see me twisting, squirming, yelling, begging and pleading. When she slips that elec probe into my penis and taped the leads to my balls I know I am in for a night of cock sucking, being fucked, tortured, humiliated and degraded. I couldn't think of a better way to spend a night.

I was just reminiscing about a past Female Dominant that owned me for a little over two years. This was back in 2005. I met her on alt.com. We emailed a few times, then she asked (or rather told) me for my #. I sent it to her without hesitation. For one thing she was very very pretty with an amazing body and most importantly she had an aura of Dominance just in her 3 emails she sent me. She called me 3 days later. I agonized every day waiting and wanting her to call (her first sign of the power she had over me). She told me to meet her at a bar that was right in my town. I had told her what town I lived in and this showed how smart and cunning she was. I felt secure because it was in my town, something she knew I would feel and something she wanted me to feel. She was very smart as well as devious, cruel, beautiful, powerful, demanding and Dominant, extremely dominant. From the minute I waled in the bar and sat down with her (in a small booth in the back which I would soon learn put me in an vulnerable position) I was her property. She owned me that exact minute weather I knew it or not (I didnt then) and would be the beginning of a 25 month experience as an owned slave. We made small talk for about 5 minutes until she first struck. She had me move over to her side of the booth which I willingly and gladly did. Upon sitting she immediately thrust her hand between my legs and grabbed me by the balls and twisted. As I bent over in pain she took her other hand and grabbed my face by the cheeks covering my mouth tightly to muffle my scream. She whispered in my ear, words that I will never forget for as long as I lived. She whispered, "You want me to own you dont you faggot!" I nodded yes, I was thinking no but for some reason I nodded yes. She squeezed my balls even harder and I screamed into her tight hand wrapped around my mouth, my screams barley audible. "From this moment until the day I let you go you will be my bitch, my slave to rape, torture, humiliate, beat, starve. I will keep you in a cage for days and days. I will sell you to male friends who will use you for sex. I'll hang you by your wrists and beat your balls and cock until you are crying and begging me to stop.... AND I WONT EVER STOP! I will do anything I want to you. You will never have any say, you wont have any voice, EVER! Do you understand you worthless cunt!" I nodded yes (I couldn't help it, She had total control of me already). "Good, now get up and follow me to my car. Your about to get your first session bitch!" She let go of my balls which were screaming with intense pain. As I moved out of the booth she got up and walked to the front door. She stopped at the bar turned to me and said, "pay the bill bitch" right in front of everyone. I looked at her, into her eyes. I immediately pulled out my money clip and threw a 20 on the bar. She turned and walked out the door and I followed. When I had looked into her eyes I saw a sadistic and menacing look. It scared the hell out of me and made my cock hard at the same time. I followed her to a van. It was black, the windows were tinted black. She banged on the side door and it instantly slid open. As the door slid open I saw a man. He was older than me, probably in his 50's. "Is this him" he asked my new owner. "What do you think!" she barked at the man. She turned to me and said, "get in faggot, now!". I immediatly jumped into the van, I didnt want to, but I knew I had no choice, at all! Thats the kind of power she had over me allready and we only met 15 minutes ago. She followed, the door slammed shut and I heard the locks click. The man was sitting in the rear of the van, on a bed. Ma'am (as i would call her for the next 25 months) was sitting in a swivel chair. "Strip you stupid fucking slave" she yelled as she slapped me hard, I mean real hard right across my face. I saw stars, fell to my knees, that copper taste in my mouth you get when you hit your head hard. She grabbed my by my right ear, twisted hard and pulled my face hard to the floor, at her feet. "I said strip faggot! NOW!! Unbutton your pants, NOW!!! I am not letting go until you have your pants off you fucking dog!!!" My face was burried in the deep dirty carpet, right at her the toes of her black boots. My ear screamed with red hot pain. I was screaming and whimpering. "Get those fucking pants off slave!!! I will rip your fucking ear off if there not off in 5 seconds!" I immediatly reached for my pants and unbuttoned them as my face was forced harder to the floor. I could barley get my hands to my pants in this awkward position. "You have 4 more seconds to get those pants off before I start to rip your fucking ear off you stupid, WORTHLESS, WHORE OF A CUNT SLAVE" she yelled directly into my twisted, burning with pain ear. I heard the man yell out, "Fuck yea!!! were gonna fuck this faggot up! I got them unbuttoned and pulled them back off my ass. She instantly let go of my ear. I was whimpering in pain. "dont stop until you are completly naked slave" she calmy instructed. (what the fuck!!! How the hell can she go from a screaming crazy lady to complete calm, firm but calm!?!?!?!?!) I stood imediatly, droped my pants, my underware, pulled my shirt off, pulled my socks off and stood there, completly naked. In front of her and a man I had never met. I had never been naked like this in front of a man. I looked at him. He was laffing and pulling his pants off. I turned with panic and looked at Ma'am. "Dont look at me faggot. get on your knees and start sucking his cock!". WHAT!!! I yelled out as i looked at her with panic and fear. She held up her hand, in it was a short wooden club, about 2 feet long, thick, black. "You have exactly 3 seconds to get on your knees and get his cock in your mouth before I beat you in the head with this club until you are unconscious!" I just stood there, naked, starring at her, thinking to myslef, how can this be??? She cant be serious???? she never once mentioned gay sex to me!?!?!?! "ONE!!!!" she yelled....""TWO!!!" she barked as she pointed to the man. I turned and looked at him. He was completly naked, sitting on the edge of the bed in the van, holding his cock, a big thick half hard cock...."Lets go faggot, get on your knees and start sucking and dont stop until you swallow every fucking drop of my cum or we will tie you up and burn you with ciggarettes until you DEAD YOU COCK SUCKING SLAVE!!! FUCKING NOW!!!!"  the man yelled. "THREE YOU SOON TO BE UNCONSCIOUS FAGGOT SLAVE!!!" She yelled. Out of the corner of my eye I saw her arm raise with the large black club. I instantly dropped to my knees in front of the man, his cock right in front of my face. "Open up and start sucking my COCK YOU WORTHLESS SLAVE!!!" He yelled as he grabbed me by the back of the head and pulled my face into his crotch. I heard Ma'am jump up, she was on top of me, her hand wrapped around my balls tightly. "Start sucking his COCK SLAVE...NOW!!! or I will beat your balls with this club until they are smashed open!!!" Mhy mouth opened and I felt his cock push into my mouth. I felt the head of his cock on my tongue. "SUCK IT FAGGOT....NOW!" He yelled as I gaged on his cock that was being forced halfway down my throat. Ma'am was at my ear in a split second, squeezing and twisting my balls hard. "This is your last chance slave. You suck his cock and dont stop until you swallow every drop of his cum or we are gonna string you up to a tree by your balls and torture you until you are unconscious" I started to work my mouth up and down on his cock, feeling it slide in and out of my throat with ever stroke. "Work your tongue sweetie, you know how. You've had your cock sucked my times. You know exactly what feels good now do just that or I'll burn your balls with a cigar" Ma'am said in a sweet relaxing voice directly into my ear. I worked my mouth around his cock and started to swat it with my tongue. She was right! I did know exactly how a good cock sucking felt. "And say Yes Ma'am"...."yes ma'am" I garbled out of my mouth that was full of this mans hard thick cock. I heard Ma'am sit back in her chiar. The man moaned and groaned..."nice you faggot, just like that, keep it going until I cum" My mouth was wrapped around his cock for over 15 minutes. Up and down I went on his cock. I could feel it sliding up and down in my throat. I could her Ma'am..."MMmmmm, I got myslef a good little cock sucking whore dont I. I cant wait to see how good he can take that cock in his ass"....WHAT THE FUCK!!! I thought to myslef. fuck NO!!!.."Well look at that" Ma'am said in an excited voice..."His cock is hard!!! I just knew he was gonna love serving me as a faggot cock sucking, ass fucking slave!!!" WHAT!!! why the hell was mhy cock hard???!!!! I hadnt noticed but she was right. It was rock hard as I sucked his cock hard. "MMM Im almost there faggot! Get ready to swallow and if you miss even one drop you will be beaten hard" the man yelled. Ma'am was at my side, her mouth in my ear. "Swallow every drop my slave. You waste even one precious drop of his load and you will be tortured until you are screaming for us to stop" I concentrated on his cock in my mouth. I could feel his legs tightening around my abdomen. "This is it, faggot" he shouted. I braced my self, wrapped my mouth tight around his cock and felt his hot load hit my tongue. I gaged as I swallowed his load as quickly as I could. "Fuck yea!. keep swallowing faggot, theres more, a lot more" the man yelled. Another large hot load of his cum landed in my mouth. I swallowed as fast as I could but another load filled my mouth, I could feel it at the corners of my mouth, "dont spill a drop" I thought hard to myself. "mmmmfuck yea" the man yelled. God damn, what the fuck!!! is he ever gonna stop I thought to myself as another load, smaller but just as hot filled my mouth. I choked it down and 4 or 5 more smaller loads until he was done. I kept sucking his cock. working my mouth up and down his hard hot thick shaft. "Keep sucking slave, I will tell you when to stop" Ma'am said. "fuck yea that was good. hes gonna make a great slave for you Ma'am" the man said as I continued to suck his half hard cock. My jaws ached badly. All I could taste was his cum in my mouth. For another 5 minutes or so I sucked this man who I didnt know. His cock getting softer and softer.."Thats enough slave" Ma'am barked out. "Get over here at my feet like a good slave". I let his cock fall out of his mouth, i crawled on my hands and knees to Ma'ams feet and kneeled at them. She stroked my hair and talked..."Now you are my slave for as long as I want. From know on you will do everything I say. I own you, I won your body, I won your mouth, your ass, your small pathetic cock and those swollen balls. From know on you will be my whore. I will sell you to men for sex and you will earn me money. You will sleep in my cage, chained by the neck. I will torture you every day and you will beg for more. You will suck and fuck cock every week and earn me lots of money...isnt that right faggot slave??" she looked at me.."Yes Ma'am" I said without hesitation. I was finally with a real owner who would use and abuse me hard. Finally I would be a real slave, with no say whats so ever. she owned me, every piece of me. "Good slave, now lets get ready for round two. Time to teach you hot to use your ass like a good whore. Get over there and suck him until he is rock hard so you can fuck him my new slave ass that I own". I crawled to the man, I could see him grinning..."this time its gonna really hurt faggot" He said as he chuckled loudly. Ma'am laughed out loud too and said, "Oh yes slave, this will hurt very much. Every time you are fucked I will make sure they hurt you as the pound my slaves ass" I wrapped my mouth around his cock and began sucking, i could feel it getting hard quickly, it filled my mouth. I was scared as hell and excited at the same time......

To Be Continued.... Part 2 of the true story of how I served Ma'am as a sex and pain slave for over two years....

The Beautiful Dome chuckled as her slave with his wrists tied above his head, his cock and balls clamped tight in a wooden stock. the large ball gag streached his mouth open very wide, droll hung out of his mouth. his balls were bright red with dark blue spots from the hour long sesion of her beating them with a wooden ruler. "Ready for some real fun you faggot worthless slave" she barked at him as she went to a tall cabinet. Slave begged no but it sounded muffled and garbled because of the ball gag. Lady Evil walked slowly back to her trapped, helples slave holding a long cylinder type thing in her hand and softly whacking her other palm with it. "You know what this is pig boy/" she laughed. She help in fron of his face and pushed a button. At the end of the cylinder it had two forked fingers and a bright blue electric current ran between the two prongs. "Its a cattle prod and i am going to use it on your balls you sorry pathetic faggot" she looked so happy about what she just said. Slave twisted in his restraints, trying to pull his cock and balls out of the stock but it was clamped down hard with only a very small hole, to small to pull his huge red swollen balls thru. He screamed thru his ball gag, "no, please, no, candyland, candyland" he shouted. that was his safe word. unfortunatly the large gag made his words garbled up. "whats that bitch? I can understand you. say it again for mommy" "candyland, CANDYLAND" "Hmmmm, it almost sounds like your saying fuck you mistress you dont have the balls to use that prod on me. I DONT DO I YOU FUCKING PEACE OF SHIT" Lady Evil yelled and pushed the end of the prod against his swollen aching balls and pushed the button. the zap zap zap noise it made was loud but slaves cries were much louder. He screamed and twisted in his ropes as she lit up his balls over and over. "who owns your sorry ass?" she yelled. "you do, you do" slave yelled and noded his head at her. "lets see what it feels like on a cock" Slaves eyes grew two sizes and in a heartbeat the prod was against the head of his cock. zap, zap, zap Slave screamed, tears rolled down his face. his cock was on fire, a fire of a thousand little knives of electricity. Lady Evil held the prod to his cock for minute after minute watching her slave twist, scream, cry. "Your gonna drink my piss when i let you down, RIGHT! she barked at the slave. slave noded his head as he screamed, cried, begged. "Your gonna drin it right fom my cunt like a dog you fucking faggot, RIGHT SLAVE!" again he nodded, his voice horse his throat burned from the screams. finally she took the prod of his cock. he droped his head and hung there by his wrists, he was breathing very heavy, droll was running from his mouth onto the floor. "Wake the fuck up you cunt" and she pressed the prod against his tender beaten balls. instantly his head came straight up and he twisted and screamed. she removed the prod. "I have some questions and I want you to answer them honestly, you understand faggot" hed nodded yes. "Do you want to suck some cock tonight faggot" she smiled that beautiful mouth of hers. slave new there was only one correct answer and that until he said it she would beat his balls. "Yes Lady Evil" she zapped his left breast and nipple hard and long with the prod. "Yes what you stupid cunt" she yelled as she burned his nipple with the white hot electricity. she removed his ball gag, yes what you cunt she yelled as she moved the prod under his arm. he screamed loudly. "yes I want to suck cock tonight Lady Evil" she dropped the prod away from him. "thats better cunt" slave worked his mouth in circles as he tried to get the blood flow back into his lips. Lady Evil walked around him and stopped when she was behind him. she shoved the prod deep up his ass with a quick hard push and pushed the button. "NOOOOoooooo" slave yelled as loud as he could but it was to late. the electricity in his ass brought a pain more intense than he had ever felt. "Do you want to have men fuck you tonight you cunt" she chuckled. "yes Lady Evil, I want men to fuck me, fuck me hard, lots of men, as many men as you can find I will fuck them with my ass, please stop, please, please Lady Evil. "Shut up faggot. dont tell me what to do. now you get another full minute of this. slave was twisting in his ropes, crying, screaming, hyper ventalating. finally she pulled the prod out of his ass. slave was exhausted and his head hung low, his breathing was in short quick rasps. "One more questio faggot" no, no, please god no, slave mumbled. She pressed the prod against his beaten balls, right in the center and pushed the prod har so it went deep into his balls. she looked him in the eyes, chuckled, "wait for it faggot, wait for it" she teased him, her thumb just above the button. slave whimpered as he stared at her finger and that fucking button. "Do you wanna swallow and eat cum tonight you worthless fagot" she yelled as she pressed the button. slave's screams were ear peircing, tears covered his face, his breathing went shallow as the pain of the electric prod burned into his balls. "Yes Lady Evil, I want to swallow cum, eat cum, all the cum you can find I will eat, please stop, this is to much, your killing me. She laughed and held the button for a few more seconds then pulled the prod away. slave was whimpering and crying. "Shut up faggot. your so dramatic. now im gonna untie you. you can rest for an hour then take a shower and make yourslef look good. put on a nice tight thong, pink and be upstairs at exactly 8. I have 8 men coming over tonight to rape you so dont be late or I'll nail your balls to the table and they can all fuck you from behind while your balls are nailed down. you dont want that do you faggot?" "No Ma'am" "Then be dressed in a thong, short skirt, bra, tight tee shirt, lip stick, heels, make up. you know the drill and dont even be one second past 8 or I promise you your balls will be nailed to the table by five large spikes. You understand sweetie?" "Yes Ma'am, I understand" "your gonna be a fuck toy for 8 large cock men. they are gonna fuck you in the mouth, fuck you in the ass, cum in tyour mouth. they are gonna fuck you for as long as they want, maybe all night who knows. and your gonna be a good little faggot cunt and fuck them all real good. your gonna do whatever they want. if u even hesitate I will nail your balls to the table so be on your best behaviour. fuck them real good, swallow ever drop of cum, every single drop the squirt in your mouth you swallow. These boys are paying me a lot of money for a tied up faggot they can rape and that faggot is you! Your gonna make Momma $10,000 tonight. and you'll never see one penny, hahahahaha. Just remember, fuck them like a pro cuz if I see you slow up even once out come the nails, the hammer, the table, and your balls, and trust me you dont want that to happen. The last time I nailed a slaves balls to the table the doctors couldnt save them. they had to remove his balls. fucking waste of a good slave too. what the hell worth did he have for me then, without balls, nothing. I had to sell him to a bunch of crazy fucked up gypsies. God knows what hell they are putting hei thru but I can assure you its not good and he's not dead. gypsies can keep a tortured man alive for years. anyways cunt, go clean up, take a nap, and be up stairs in the rape room at 8. you know the rape room right? its the one with the thick wooden table with all the hooks for cuffs, and it has that doggy bend over bench you get strapped into so you ass is high in the air and your mouth is right at cock level so two can fuck you at once. she laughs loud "damn your gonna get some serious fucking tonight. these guys have some big dongs, i mean big, 9 10 inches and thick. but thats what they say about black football players, they are hung like a horse, they fuck like a raged animal and they can go all night." slave can hear her chuckling all the way as leaves the room. "you might want to lube your ass cuz i know they arent gonna use any lube once they get at you. at least get a good glob up that ass, might help for the first fucking, hahahahahaha" 

part 2, the raping of a slave coming soon.

After i have spent 20 minutes sucking your cock and you have my hands cuffed behind my back, bent over a table with my legs spread and you take your hands and spread my ass cheeks as wide open as you can get them, with the head of your hard thick cock pressed up against my tight hole make sure you whisper in my ear, "time to make your scream slave" and then drive your cock hard and quick all the way deep into my ass and fuck me hard, long, make me scream, beg, cry...dont stop no matter what, until you have fucked me as hard as you can. And then pull your cock out of my ass, grab my head by my hair, stuff the head of your cock in my mouth and blow your load in my mouth until i am gagging and dont stop until I have swallowed every last drop.....then you know you have the right faggot slave to use, abuse, rape whenever you want....thats what I am looking for...anyone out there able to provide the pain, rape, abuse, torture this slave craves every single fucking day. And dont worry if your female, thats why the make strap ons. Whoever claims me will be one lucky Dom/Domme when they see what a great slave they have found...I am waiting...claim me, own me....

My TV Domme was dressed in her favorite clothes, PVC low cut top, PVC short short skirt, tight red thong, long thigh high black leather boots, long dark red hair, she looked beautiful as always. I was meeting her at a cheap motel. We both liked using cheap rooms, adds to the dirtiness of it all. Tonight though would be a first for me. I would not only be serving her but also 3 men she had hand picked to rape me. I had always wanted to be used by more than one, but FOUR!?!?!?!? I was nervous, excited, and hopefully ready, mentally and physically. I dressed per her instructions. A very short tight mini skirt, pink thong, tight low cut top, and my blond wig. Her chain choker collar around my neck. I knocked on the door,

"Come in faggot whore" she said in a loud voice.

I entered the room, there she stood, in the center, a leather belt hanging from her left hand.

She smiled as I looked around the room. Typical queen bed, cheap small table, two chairs, nothing unusual about that, but it what was behind her that got my attention. A large wooden frame with wrist cuffs hanging from the cross beam and ankle chains attached to the bottom of the two wooden legs.

She turned towards it and chuckled, "you like it". it wasnt really a question, but more a statement.

"Yes Ma'am, I do" and i wasnt lying.

"The men will be here in half an hour. Before they get her I'm gonna warm u up a bit. On your knees whore"

I dropped to my knees. She walked up to me her crotch in my face. She slipped her hand down and pulled her skirt up and pulled her thong down, her thick limp cock dangling in my face.

"Get to work whore" she barked

My mouth opened and I wrapped my lips around her cock and sucked the head as I flicked my tongue across the tip of her head. I felt it expand in my mouth as she got hard. 

"All the way faggot, all the way"

I swallowed her 7" cock down my throat and began to fuck her with my mouth.

I felt the leather belt slap against my back, it stung and made a loud smacking noise.

I stopped, for a second, sucking her cock when i felt the smack of her belt. Quickly another smack, this one harder.

"What did I tell you about stopping!, you are never allowed to stop sucking my cock when its in your mouth"

I mumbled a "Yes Ma'am with a mouthful of her hard cock.

Another whip from the belt, this one really hurt and I let out a yelp. I started sucking again, fast and hard. Her cock down my throat.

"Good faggot" she smirked. "Now make me cum and you know what happens if you waste even one drop of my precious cum"

I knew, I knew all to well. She would crush my balls with her hand until I was crying if I didnt swallow every drop of her cum.

Back and forth my mouth slid along her cock, her hand on the back of my head. After a good 15 minutes of sucking her cock I could tell she was getting ready to explode in my mouth. I felt the hot cum hit the back of my mouth, I gulped it down and another load filled my mouth, I swallowed and another load coated my tongue, I swallowed and two more smaller loads landed on my tongue. I swallowed ever last drop.

"Good faggot" she snickered as she reached down and wrapped her hand around my balls and squeezed hard. I cried out loud.

"I didnt waste any Ma'am" I pleaded

"I know" she answered, but I like to see you in pain, she laughed and twisted my balls until I was on my back crying out. She didnt let go for a good 2 minutes, watching and listening to me cry and beg. Finally she let go of my aching balls.

"get up whore slut" she barked. 

I stood. she pointed to the wooden frame."Over there slave" she pointed

I stood under the top cross beam and she fastened my wrists into the cuffs hanging from the beam. The cross beam was a good 7 feet high and with my wrists strapped tight in the cuffs it left my with my arms stretched straight above my head and up on my tip toes. "Spread your legs whore" I spread my legs apart a good 3 feet and she locked the ankle shackles on my ankles leaving me stretched out, not painful but very uncomfortable.

"The men want to inspect you when they get here, this should do the trick"

She sat down in a chair lit a cigarette and said, "Now we wait"

"Your gonna be tortured and raped by all of four of us tonight. Your gonna suck cock while you are being fucked. You are gonna suck all of our cocks and you will be fucked by all four of us, maybe more than once. I have met each man and they all meet the most important criteria. Do you know what that is faggot"? she asked

"No Ma'am, I dont"

She laughed, a genuine evil laugh."They all have huge thick cocks. All are over 8 1/2 inches long and very thick. Your ass is gonna hurt for a week when we are done with you" she smiled as she told me this. "Your gonna be used like a whore, tortured like a slave and there is nothing you can do or say to stop any of it. You understand faggot"?

"Yes Ma'am" I muttered while I wished i never agreed to this yet was glad i did.

10 minutes later there was a knock at the door.

She jumped up, "they are here" she yelled with excitement.

"Come in boys" she yelled.

The door opened and 3 tall, built men entered the room.

The looked at me and smiled.

They all walked over to Ma'am and kissed her on the cheek

"Your faggot rape and pain slave boys" she said as she pointed to me.

The 3 men waled up to me. The started to touch me. one grabbed my half hard cock and yanked it hard. I yelled out. Another smacked my ass hard, many times. The third dropped his pants and his huge thick cock hung in front of me.

They told me their names, John, Vince, carl.

John grabbed my balls and squeezed them. I twisted in my restraints and yelped.

"Were gonna fuck you up tonight slave. Were gonna fuck you hard, cum in your mouth, whip, spank, and torture you. You understand this right"? he asked

"Yes Sir, I understand"

"And you agree to this, right?"

"Yes Sir, I do" I knew I didnt have a choice and to say no would only mean a hard beating from Ma'am.

"You give your permission for us to rape you as many times as we want, right"

"Yes Sir, I do"

Ma'am got out of her chair, "Good. Now lets get started. Who wants to fuck him first and who wants him to suck their cock first"

I was fucked....

to be continued......

She...was a man, a TV, a passable Tv. I met her right here on collar me. She was stunning all dressed up. The thought of serving a man who looked like a beautifull woman turned me on immensly. I gave her my address and she showed up an hour later. She was dressed to kill, knee high viynal boots, short skirt, tight top, long dark blonde wig, red lipstick. She had a duffle bag in her hand full of her toys. We went to the living room. 

"Strip bitch" she barked, "now"!

I stripped naked, my cock allready half hard.

She grabbed me by my balls and squeezed, I screamed and tried to twist away but her grip was tight and she pulled me uo against her face to face. 

"Your my faggot whore and i am gonna rape and torture you. You can beg me to stop but I wont. When I am done with you your gonna be a crying bitch"

She twisted my balls with her hand until I was screaming and had tears running down my cheeks.

"on your knees whore."

She pulled her skirt up and her thick cock hung in fornt of my face.

"get to work whore. Dont even think about stopping until you swallow every drop of my cum. Waste even one drop and i will crush your balls with my heel'

i wrapped my mouth around her cock and started sucking her off. For a good 20 minutes her cock was in my mouth, i was sucking it with everything I had. Then she grabbed me  by the back of my head and exploded a huge hot load of cum right into my mouth.

"miss one drop and your fucked you faggot bitch" she yelled/

It took three big gulps to swallow the whole load.

"good whore"

"now its time to see how good a fuck you are"

to be continued....

A few years back I was serving a man, for about a year or so. One night he called me and told me to get my ass over to his house. I did as fast as I could. As usual I stripped in the garage and crawled on my hands and knees into his house where he immediately dropped his shorts and said, "get to work faggot'. I wrapped my mouth around his thick cock and began to suck him off. He sat down in his chair and said, "dont stop until you have swallowed every drop of my cum, then we will be going down to the basement". I knew what that ment, torture time. After a good 15 minute cock sucking he came, hard, into my mouth, a big full load. I swallowed every drop, gaged a little but made sure I got it all. The punishment for wasting any of his cum was not pleasant. He stood, put a rope around my neck, pulled it tight so i could barley breath and said, "lets go faggot, down to the room". The room; god that room was a bitch. It was a torture room. It was where he took me to inflict severe pain and sadistic things to me. I had a love hate relationship with the room. I crave to be tortured and yet when I am in the room I am usually begging and pleading for him to stop, which he never does. I crawled to the basement door with the rope tight around my neck. I had to crawl face first down the stairs, always, never an easy task. Once in the room he tied the rope to a support pole and said, "tonight i have something new for you. Your not gonna like it. Your gonna be in agonizing pain. Your gonna beg me to stop. I am not going to stop. You might even cry which is one of my goals. When I am done torturing you I am going to fuck you, hard, long so it hurts and when I cum it will be on the floor and you will lick every drop of it up." Great, I thought, he's in a real sadistic mood tonight. I wondered what he could possibly have in store for me that he hasnt already done to me. I mean he has tortured the shit out of me in that room. He released me from my noose and told me to stand between the two support poles in the cellar. He hung a a strap over the beam and put my hands above my head and tightened them into the strap. Then he took a thinner rope that was very long and proceeded to tie my balls. First around the base then up separating my two nuts and pulled it tight. Then he took the rope and ran it through a small pulley that was screwed into a beam in front of me about 3 feet away. Across the room in front of me was a chair and a small coffee table. He sat down with the end of the rope in his hand. He lit a cigarette and sipped his whiskey. "ready faggot" he grinned and slowly pulled the rope until my balls were stretched up in front of me and i was on my tip toes. It hurt, I yelped. He laughed. "easy slave, save your strength, this is just the beginning. He loosened the tension on the rope and i was back on my feet. for 5 or 10 minutes he continued to pull me up on my toes by my balls and back down, leaving me on my toes ,longer each time. He lit another cigg and laughed, "get ready slave" he barked and with a quick pull I was off the ground, hanging by my balls. I screamed, i twisted my body  and arms. He pulled me another foot off the ground. The pain was incredible. I was begging him with all my might. He laughed and tied the rope to a hook in the wall next to his chair. "Lets see how long you can last" he grinned and got up and walked out of the room and up the stairs. No I screamed, please dont leave me like this Sir. Please, I cant handle this. Please!!! I begged. But he left me there, hanging by my balls. The pain got worse every second. My throat burned from screaming and yelling. After about 10 minutes I could see my balls go from bright red to a shade of blue. I yelled for him to come back and release me. He opened the cellar door and said, "shut the fuck up faggot. the more you scream the longer your gonna hang" and slammed the door shut. 20 minutes later, with my head hanging downward, droll running out of my mouth i heard him coming down the stairs. He walked up to me, grabbed my head my the hear and pulled my head up. "You ready for your fucking slave". I looked at him. "I said are you ready for your fucking or do you want to hang for awhile more" I answered him, "im ready for my fucking Sir". "Beg slave, beg for your fucking" and he slapped my blue aching balls with his hand. I twisted in pain and begged him, "fuck me sir, fuck me hard sir, please fuck me and make it hurt. fuck me like a whore" i begged him. he loosened the rope and dropped me to the tips of my toes. "Im gonna fuck you so you cant walk straight for a week faggot" he barked. He walked behind me, "no lube either slave, your getting it dry". He spit in his hand and rubbed the head of his swollen thick cock. I bit down on my lip. my balls were on fire. His cock was thick, very thick. it always hurt when he first puts it in my ass and that is with lube, now what am I gonna do i thought to myself. I felt him spread open my ass checks, i felt the head of his cock up against my hole. "hope its as good for you as its gonna be for me slave" he laughed. My asshole burned like it was on fire as he pushed the head into it. I twisted in my ropes and yelped as he slowly pushed his cock deep into my ass. He fucked me a good 15 minutes. My ass was in constant pain as well as my balls. He fucked me hard. each stroke slammed deep into my ass. "you got a nice tight ass faggot" he snickered as he pounded his cock in and out of it. Finally he pulled his cock out of my ass and jerked his cock until he came on the floor. a large puddle of his hot white cum. He took a knife and cut the rope attached to my balls. I dropped to my feet. He untied the rope and my balls burned as the blood rushed back into them. I was whimpering. My ass hurt, my balls hurt, my wrists hurt from the rope i was hanging in. He released my wrists, "on your knees slave and clean the floor. Get every drop or your gonna hang from your balls again". I dropped to my knees quickly and sucked his cum off the floor and then cleaned it dry with my tongue. "now get dressed and get the fuck out of here" he said. As I drove home my balls ached, my ass hurt, I couldn't wait for him to call me again.

Maid Lauren came over tonight. I sucked her cock for a long time. Then She spent a good hour or two doing CBT on me. It was a good thing she taped my mouth shut with electrical tape otherwise the neighbors would have heard me screaming. Then she took me into the bed room and had me on all fours. She used a very large plug on my ass for a long time. Then she fucked me for a good 30 minutes. Oh yea she put a gas mask on my head the whole time she raped my ass. She would block off the air hole and watch me gasp for air. What a great session. She has great skills. Cant wait for her to pick some people to join in on our sessions. 

Saturday night was very intense. Maid Lauren come over and took it to a knew level. I was dressed as a slut, tight mini skirt, bra with tight top, heels, wig, lipstic, thong. She immediatly had me on my knees sucking her cock. Then she put a weighted ball bag on me. She enjoyed swinging the three weights back and forth and picking them up and dropping themone at a time. Quit painful. I was then tied to the couch face up, my arms streached over my head and tied tight to the leg of the couch. My legs were seran wrapped together and then pulled straight up and tied ove my head. I thought she was gonna fuck me with her big dildo but she had another plan first. She brought her electro toy. I had never experieced this kind of play. The apparatus fit around the head of my cock with a short stem that was inserted into my penis hole. She turned it on and set it at #1. my cock twitched as i felt a shooting pain go from the tip down inside the shaft. She laughed. "It gets worse" she chuckled. She continued to play with the dial for a few minutes bringing it up to 4 and back down. The pain was intense. It also had a band that wrapped around my balls so i was getting it from both ends. Then the big strap on came out. With my legs stung straight up in the air it left my asshole vulnerable. There was nothing i could do but prepare for penetration. She slid the big thick strap on slowly into my ass about half way and reached over to the eletro box and turned the dial to 5. My screams would have probably been loud but a tight ball gag was firmly in my mouth. She then pushed the dildo all the way into my ass and turned the electro up another notch. My cock twitched and flopped around as i felt a shooting burning pain in my penis. This shit hurt and she loved it. she fucked me for a good 15 min while changing the eletro's pulse to fast and then to constant. I squirmed in my ropes as my cock burned with pain and my ass hurt with every pump. Maid Lauren was having the time off her life as she fucked the shit out of me. My cock was in constant pain. I tried to yell stop, no more but the ball gag just made me sound like i was grunting. Finally she was done. She pulled the electrode out of my penis and jerked me off while the strap on was burried deep in my ass. I came like a gyserr. Then she swiftly pulled the dildo out of my ass which hurt like hell. She told me next time she was gonna really give it to me. I cant imagine what that will be like but i have no choice. She owns me and she can do what she wants with me and believe me she will. Thursday we are going shopping for a bigger strap on. She said she wants one that will really make me scream and squirm. I am excited. Cant wait. 

3/17/11  Finally served a real Dom. tues. night. He knew what he was he doing too. After a long session of sucking his cock and balls he tied my cock and balls tight. Put me face down on the bed, hands tied behind my back, ball gag tightly in my mouth. Legs spread and tied to the bed legs. He whipped my ass for a good ten minutes. Knew what he was doing to. Never broke the skin but had me yelping and screaming thru the ball gag. Then he got on top of me, put the head of his cock against my hole, told me I was his whore and torture slave then pushed his cock into my ass. He fucked me a good ten minutes. Then stopped, put a pillow under my crouch to get my ass in the air and started fuckingme again. For a good 15 min. he fucked me hard, squeezed my balls until I worked my ass back and forth up and down for him. Made me do the work. He finally came. He filled my ass. Then he spanked my ass a couple of times and said next time he is gonna use elctro on my balls until I am begging him to piss in my mouth. I have never played with urin before. He said I wont have a choice, said he know how to make a slave beg for mercy and will make me beg for his piss to stop to the torture.

It felt so good to be tied and raped. I loved it. I loved the pain. I want more. i want to be used and tortured so bad. I am looking for Doms/Dommes who know how to use a slave. Know how to make a slave into a whimpering begging whore. Contact me if you want to abuse me. I need to be tortured, violated, beaten. I can satisfy your needs to control someone. Email me here or at pjcr_22 hot mail.

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