A man once used the word esoteric to describe me. I am very private and only let a few people into my world. My mindset is very much like a little girl. I love to challenge someone with authority. I need someone extremely intelligent, who can always be a step ahead of me mentally. I am very bad to disect people and that causes me to turn many men off. I also bore VERY easily. What I NEED is a man that will MAKE me be his. I need someone who is gentle, yet firm. Someone who will NOT let me back away. When I am bad, I truely need to be handcuffed and spanked. It is a type of "release" for me...if that makes sense I have tried vanilla relationships and they just don't work for me. This lifestyle has become alot deeper than a "game" of something that is "bedroom" play. It is a deep need and desire I have. Guess some people would see me as twisted. But, this is the core of who I am and what makes me happy.
