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	i am blessed to be loved by myhusband of 12 years. i am a BBW..not just curvy..but aBig girl..if that is not Your preference then i amnotthe girl for you. We have lived the BDSM lifestyle since we first met up until a couple years ago. As we know life takes turns and due to medical situations,He has not been on his game and lost interest in lifestyle. He knows i am in need of constant structure and consistency that He is unable to provide and because He loves me so, He is allowing me to find aDominant or Daddy to keep me happy and balanced.... i have never had a Daddy but feel patience is necessary at this time and i imagine a Daddy to be just that... strict yet patient. i miss my submission and wish to find a Long Term or forever DominantDaddy who will respect our situation. I crave structure and consistency. Hewill not interfere in training and will allow me to spend time with that Dominant Daddy to establish a relationship. i yearn to be someonesgood girl ... smiles *** LOCAL ONLY PLEASE** if we cant see eachother, there is no point See OUR profile under mastersfcktoy

12/16/2017 7:21:13 AM

It feels like forever since i have last made a journal entry.
if you read my profile, you know my life has taken a drastic turn.
i have been without a Dominant to keep me balanced.
i did not realize just how much i was missing my submission until yesterday when i was visited by a Dominant i have longed to submit to.
Just an hour with Him resulted in bringing back those feelings....
The feeling of servitude and wanting to please....
i know He is too busy to take on a submissive and i know no one will ever measure up to Him in my head, but i am hoping to find a Dominant who can come close.
Each stroke of the flogger and cane broke me down, yet made my heart smile.
The aftercare touch was soothing and He even wiped away my tears.
i wish to be in that place in a more permanent situation.
Structure and Consistency ....is what i need and what i crave.

3/29/2013 8:58:37 PM

Has it really been 5 years since i updated my journal? lol

What can i say? Life is wonderful..... Master is wonderful and our lives together continues to flurish.

Master says i have become "easy" in that i cum just from His touch...and sometimes just from His words.

i can never get enough of Masters touch and voice and eyes and....well....just of Him.

Every day when Master comes home from work, i am waiting by the door as Master loves to see my face when He enters the house.

W/we have become a bit routine. Master walks in the house and i wait patiently for him to set down His keys etc.... and when he is ready i fall into His waiting arms and W/we just melt into one another which immediately eases all the tensions of the day.

i look forward to a lifetime together :)

4/12/2008 12:48:09 AM

i think its about time to update this journal.......
Life is simply wonderful....
Master and i will be married in October which fulfills my dreams of serving Him forever
It has been almost 2 years since W/we met and Master has taught me so much......
W/we share a very respectful view in that W/we love to please eachother......
i wake each day eager to see His face...and hear His voice.
i make Masters breakfast while He gets ready for work and send Him to work with a "snackbag".....
Now that i work from home Master is able to come home for lunch allowing me a very needed distraction.
i am honored to be His wife/slave/lover/best friend and much more than that.
My true pleasure is in pleasuring Master....
How perfect!.....
Isnt life wonderful!

6/17/2007 7:39:17 PM

i am now a "collared" slave!!......1 year and 1 day ago Master and i met and i have never known such happiness and contentment serving another...On our anniversary, yesterday, Master suprised me with a very simple yet very meaningful leather collar....mine to wear with pride.life gets better each day that i am in Masters care and ownership......i read back on my journal here on "collar me" and i can remember each day and entry as if it were yesterday...my wishes and dreams have come true and i wish for A/all to meet their special someone to share their lives with! " La Dulce Vita"

3/4/2007 5:17:07 AM

although owned, i enjoy reading the profiles of Dominants.
What i have found is quite sad....
Do Dominants not realize that a smart submissive will choose only a Dominant who takes care of themselves and is not a slob...bottom line is.....if You cant take care of Yourself....how in the world would You be capable of taking care of Your submissive/slave??
Take the time to submit a picture that does not make You look like a slob!! Have a dictionary next to You when You write Your profile.....
i am confident these tips will help Your chances of finding a submissive worth having!
Good Luck

11/16/2006 4:45:45 PM

5 months!...seems like just yesterday i was wondering if i would ever meet Him.....yet it feels as though i have known Master forever.
Every day i am thankful i have a Master so wonderful to serve and love....whoever says a Master and slave cant be in love....hasent met the One.......i have come to know just what pleases Him, when and how......i know where He wishes me to be when He comes home from work. i know what that "look" means without Him having to say a word!
....i am actually learning to cook and really enjoy it......it makes my heart swell that Master enjoys my efforts.....He sees how hard i try and is always encouraging me!......So many things have changed....physically and mentally.....i cant imagine life without Him and see true promise for Our future......

10/16/2006 5:34:43 PM

Today is 4 months i have been serving Master.........it gets better and better each day!........
i am on my way to becoming a true and obedient slave.......everyone in my life has been noticing the wonderful changes in me....my attitude, looks and confidence.
That is what a true Master does to and for His slave.....helps to guide and make His slave a confident and happy person.........He shows me love through His words...the way He touches me, and His constant support.......How could i not want to serve Him???? He is wonderful and i am a very lucky slave/submissive/girl/person......
i hope one day everyone can experience these feelings

9/27/2006 5:16:31 PM

Another month has gone by, too quickly i must say.................
Life with Master continues to grow and each day i blossom more and more into a real slave................
i have found i even enjoy domestic duties, such as cooking for Master and laying out His clothes each morning!............i come home from work and put on my ankle cuff and i feel safe and cared for, knowing Master always takes care of me....as i do Him............and that i am so happy being His slave and fucktoy........i do hope every submissive finds a Dominant as wonderful as Master.

8/16/2006 9:20:27 PM

What a special day....and it keeps getting better!!....................
It has been 2 mnths since i gave my submission to Master and today Master has proclaimed His love for me...............
i still cant belive this is truly happening......
i trust Him more than i have ever trusted anyone ..............
He teaches me, and uses me and is always looking out for my safety and needs.......
Tomorrow is my Birthday Day...and i cant think of any present that is more wonderful than Master!!!

7/15/2006 10:58:02 PM

It has been a month now and i have reached a new plateau in my life....
i have come to accept Him as "Master"....
i never imagined i was capable of being a slave but i find pleasing Him comes very naturally....
He is always taking me to new heights, teaching me and accepting my faults....
When necessary He will dicipline and when He has finished says " it is forgotten"....
He does not throw my mistakes in my face, instead i learn from them....
W/we enjoy each others company immensely and share our hearts and hopes....
Now i truly know what the "lifestyle" means!

6/23/2006 11:01:13 PM

Can it be??? Did i really finally find the "One"??...
i feel it in my heart...i feel it in the sting on my bottom...
He treats me with TLC...yet pushes me to learn. He treats me with respect...and i find i do not feel the need to test His control....
I feel His Dominance in my heart and know He is looking out for my best interest.
This is the feeling i have been yearning and longing for ....and it is everything i hoped it would be...and more!....
Only time will tell....

1/28/2006 6:22:06 PM

the yearing continues to build within me.....

the need to please

the need to learn

the need to submit

the yearing for the freedom
when i give up control