So this journal entry is dedicated to some of the submissives I have meet on here that deserve to see this.

Me asking for friendship has NO hidden agenda, I will state in honest words if I was interested in friendship as a starter then see where the wind takes us from there, but I will not LIE about it to you. I tire of the games and the bullshit, I am going to be upfront with you about what I am, who I am, what I am into... and if you are curious to know more about me before deciding if I am worth taking a chance to really know then hell go for it. I will answer any question in an honest open manner as there is no point in lying or hiding something from someone be it slave or submissive that may be a potential. So here it is..

If I am asking for friendship and state clearly " Nothing more then just friends."  Then you are not what I am looking for and would enjoy a nice conversation with someone who is also open minded not caring if the topic is about knitting!

I am NOT hear to appease anyone so if you don't like what I enjoy, love or curious about on my profile it shouldn't affect me wanting to JUST be friends. Just because I enjoy a fetish doesn't mean it will be done on any slave or submissive without their consent or agreement. If they do not like it then its OKAY.

Just because I am young does not mean you can push my buttons because you believe experience is age based... what about all those children who are raised hearing those terms and such if their parents are into the lifestyle does that make them any less experienced then say some 40 year old who has one year..

I have put my heart, soul and passion into this lifestyle.. it is NOT a FAD or a blood GAME. It is a lifestyle that I love and have put years of my life into. Do not disregard the young ones who have the experience to back up their role. I do not judge a book by its cover, BDSM is about an open minded community who not only practice but mentor each other into being better at their roles in it and in life, it is a growing experience and you are always learning new things.. new fetishes, new risks, and new techniques. 

I will clearly state for the record... I am seeking someone or someones to be apart of my poly houshold.. but IF I find that one slave or submissive who just does it for me.. then that is it in my search, but until then I know what I seek and what I want. Also for the record if I wanted to be more then just friends I would outright say it... I can be a ruthless, strict Sadist having bitch of a Dominant but you wouldn't know that unless you asked. I bore easily as I have been on here for 5 years and have made some wonderful friends who have all come and gone, yet I remain wishing to help those new to the site or new to the lifestyle as I wish someone had done for me all those years ago when I first wandered into the lifestyle which ironically enough was offline. 

I have even ventured outside my comfort zone to be a better Dominant to see it from the point of view of the submissive and slave will I do it willingly ever again.. No unless My One asked me to for mentoring purposes as we do not have a submissive or slave to use to help others coming into their Dominant or Switch roles learn fetishes and kinks we have practice in the 5 years of us together, learning new things about the same fetishes and kinks we so enjoy. 

I am 24 with 10 years of experience under my bust but most wouldn't even know it just by judging me by my age.. Yes I know what that would make me 10 years ago and you know what I was willing not everything is about sex.. it is about the mental, emotional and physical aspects of the lifestyle.

My One is 29 with 5 years experience under his belt.. Most don't think to ask.. or assume such and I tire of it. Why not ask instead of immediately showing attention but snuffing me since I am 24, but I was the one to mentor him.. Ironic... 

Do not judge a book by its cover... and do not disregard those who wish to only be friends. I am sorry if others have lied but I am a straight shooter here. I will be blunt  and honest with no care if I piss you off or upset you, life is too short to be sneaky and a liar.. hell even a player.. so do not waste my time if you do not want to be friends... or if you wish to be more then friends then don't play with me.. This lifestyle is my passion and MY lifestyle.

I had an interesting thought today, I realized that just being me attracts the smart submissives with personality. I guess sometimes the idea of a slave is appealing someone to follow my every order submitting to me because they find me worthy enough to give complete control over I will say I am extremely into have control over what one I own wears but I also know to respect the fact many don't like that and it is okay.

My age on the side note makes others turn heads and group me in with the rest of the inexperienced dandies on here.

Age is only a number that doesn't explain the experience on the non-sexual aspect of the lifestyle I have been in it since I was 14 reading up on the different fetishes and terms and such dwelling deeper and deeper into figuring myself out.. My first sexual experience in bdsm was when I was 15 the boy was raised in a bdsm household, it was amazing but I realized I didn't just enjoy submitting it honestly bothered me it was uncomfortable. So at 17 I tried my hand on dominating someone it was amazing reading those books and putting everything to actual hand work excited me I wanted to be a good Domme so I found mentors to help me be a better me and a better Domme, but I felt so incomplete on just learning from a Dominant's point of view... My mindset is odd but I figured what better way to know how a submissives feels then to be one and get a better understand of it all from their point of view. I will admit letting someone dominate me was hard but I was doing it for the bettering of one of my dreams to be a good Domme to any I would ever own doing it properly so I had their submission out of trust and respect. 

I have seen the flip side of a coin and learned what not to do or say to a submissive some may like it but others don't not if you don't own them yet or even if they aren't under consideration. So respecting the roles was the first thing I learned and slowly as the years passed it lead me to one man who was clueless on the lifestyle but was such a natural Dominant it kicked something in me to fight.. for once I will admit I wanted him to force me to submit, I respected him and trusted him to not hurt me pass my comfort zone but it was like an animalistic urge to fight him and when he forced my submission I knew that I fought him for the exhilaration. I loved being forced by him alone he knew the sweet spot to bite. He has been the only Dom who I submitted to because I love him and respect him. I noticed also I hate being submissive other wise and wasn't much of a Switch besides just submitting to him not sure where I sit role wise but I am not going to submit to anyone else.. have no problems with kinky play partner encounters with other Dommes and Switches both female as I only am looking for a female to be either a kinky play partner or someone who I can earn their respect and trust to submit to me on their own accord.

My experiences are not based off age but the years I put into the lifestyle. Age is only a number maybe being asked about my level of experience would have been nice before out right ignoring me. *shrugs* It's your loss not mine. I am also willing to learn any new fetishes that any one I own is into so they can have a much more enjoyable play time. My willingness is what pushed me to be a better me and to finally know the real me.

Well after a well versed conversation with my ex-submissive I wished her luck and I am moving on from that point. I know the right one or ones are out there for me and My One, all it takes is patience which I have plenty of. I have been talking to some wonderful submissives on here that prove to me that there are still some good ones out there anyone who gets to own them will be lucky and better be well worth the respect they give, because those women are the rare group on this site still left who haven't been chased off by the posers, fakes and just plain abusers. 

This site was founded on the idea of people of like minds can come and chat finding the one they are looking for. Not all the fakes and hacks that are really here. After being used and toyed with I can say I was almost chased off but I would like to thank those special group of women who helped me believe again in this site no matter how small it is. To you ladies I hope you find the One or Ones you are looking for worthy enough to have you kneel at their feet. 

As my own search continues to drag on I am not losing hope I refuse to let it leave me I am still here whats a bit longer... 

The right one or ones are always worth waiting for.

I wish I could vent out all my frustration at this point towards the one I called my peach. Used me like a toy, thinks the lifestyle is a joke.. a game. Not the life work of many submissives, slaves, Switches, Dominants & Kinksters.

I was gone for 2 weeks and during the whole 2 weeks my collar was disrespected and the rules placed down on her ignored and disregarded. With no way to contact her I trusted she would behave like usual respect the rules and place my needs before another sexual partner may they be vanilla or lifestyle... I come home to the idea I would get a scene in for her to tell me she wanted a steady relationship with a male and that he didn't wish to share her with me. so I released her on the idealism she would be with this one guy.. nope.. she is screwing him and another guy and then trying to Dominate the one male she is suppose to be with.. without proper knowledge of how to safely do it.. denied play for a month before she asked for release. I was too lenient on her I refuse to make the mistake again with another submissive or slave. My past owned slaves were appalled by her actions towards me. I will let this go with the knowledge that I tried to mentor her when she came to me saying she think she is a switch so I could better prepare her if she ever went on to getting her own submissive or slave. she refused my mentoring saying she would not need it since it would be a LONG time before it came out of her to do so as she is starting to learn more about her submissive side.

so on that note I feel no guilt only pity as I know she will never take the lifestyle seriously she clung too hard onto a normal vanilla life without bdsm only doing it when she wanted some spice.. laughing at those who made this their life. I maybe angry mainly pissed off but I must remember not to let it get the better of me cause she isn't worth it.

Well everything I have done is to better myself and to help those around me even when they are simply rejecting me. I suck it up and move on helping them still sort out their own issues while suffering silently. 

I will admit I have never loved another woman after the one that got away but I will say I do care for any who had came into my home and my bed. I had my fun and with Master wiping away the exhausted tears I have had with 2 weeks of no sleep. Finally slept 9 hours then woke up only to trip down the stairs into the door frame that sits at the bottom of the stairs. I am better a bit off balance but nothing major.

So I released my peach as she wished for a steady relationship saying that poly wasn't for her, I respected that and smiled releasing her back into the world to continue learning even if it isn't by my hands and words. I told her I will be here for any advice she may need as she is a friend even if our journey together has ended a new chapter begins for us both. My Master was proud to see me let go without a fight even when the male she got with now is a complete douche bag not even a Dominant douche bag, she is with him for the chest hairs, but she loves him so I am happy for her.

I feel happy knowing she will go off and learn new things some I couldn't teach her because I am still learning to better myself as a Dominant for my future submissives and slaves.

My door is always open for a mellow chat with anyone or even some advice or even answering some questions some may have. 

So have spent close to the last 2 weeks in Ga helping family out had a blast hanging out with friends and doing cool things with my mother. Hope to see her more then once every 2 years honestly I would be happy with moving closer to see her more often TN sounds good though. House hunting for a bit and see how everything is in TN.. only a 2 hour drive for my mother to come from where she lives to the TN border so we shall see. Missing my One terribly though but on Tuesday I go back home to his arms and our bed, may not be leaving it for awhile some play would be nice but I am all more for the cuddles, sleeping alone really sucks honestly.

Actively seeking any bisexual males for a night to introduce my pet into a threesome with two males who will be asked to be not only involved with her sexual but each other. There will be a selection process I ask you to leave a message asking for any minor details and such.. Must be in Michigan and has no problems making the drive to either Fowlerville or Chelsea. To those I do decide on I will message you all the important things needed before showing up at the hotel room. I am planning in advance date is still up in the air but will message when a date is decided. I do have restrictions.. no one over the age of 35 please... must be Drug and Disease free.. all drama will be left at the door upon entry.  If you have any questions before deciding if you are game or not just message I check every day so no one will be left unanswered.  Thank you.

Another one bites the dust. She wished to be treated inferior which I did yet she tried to be a slave who orders the Dominant asking me to call her after ignoring a simple request for a photo of her pussy as she had gotten a picture of mine. She skirted around the request and simply acted like a dumb cunt who didn't know the basic commands. My dogs are trained better, hell my Cats are too. How Tragic but I have wasted enough time on those who can not keep up to my ways of running things. Me and My One rule our keep, disorder will not be tolerated. 

So had a very eye opening experience on what can drive someone to hate another being so much they would seek someone of our lifestyle to bring actual cruel pain to someone who is not of this lifestyle. The email was disturbing but I know I wanted to help the poor man who was the target of such hatred... they wished him to know pain in a nonsexual manner and it disgusted me it is my responsibility to bring pleasure from pain I am not going to worsen the imagine anyone has of the lifestyle just for a petty hatred, which made no sense anyways. I was told the reason for such hatred was "because he is cocky and thinks he owns the world." that is not a reason to hate maybe dislike him or even not be friends with him but hate is such a strong word for such a petty and childish reason. Sometimes highschool drama never really ends once you graduate. Spoke with the target felt pain for his misfortune, I asked him is it really worth it just to enter a fraternity? his reply was a yes, wish a warning I hope he and his friends take heed I let them be on their way. My prayers are with that man because in honesty he isn't a true slave and how the fraternity brothers made our lives.. our passion and lifestyle seem like just a passing hobby or fancy actually pissed me off. We work hard and train so we can be better at what we do, our dedication to this lifestyle is too strong to be such. It is NOT a hobby or a passing fancy.. or even a game. This is a way of life for many people, those born into this lifestyle and those of us who have found our true selves here. I am appealed by such findings but not much I can do, except be disappointed in my generation I was not much older then these "men" I use that term loosely with them because real men do not hold such grudges for petty childish reasons like "because he is cocky." well hell he was gorgeous can't blame him for being cocky! I hold my values of being a Dominant very seriously everything done here in the lifestyle is always with pleasure regardless of the act or fetish. What was asked of me was not an enjoyable thought by both me and the target but to let yourself bullied into being a slave to a Woman only to get into a fraternity is absolutely stupid (The act is). I still ponder on my thoughts was it really worth it? I am a box of contradictions my Husband found out but my one honor to cause pain only to get pleasure.. to humiliate for excitement. I can be ruthless and cause that poor boy unbearable pain just because his frat brothers hate him, but where is the honor and values... Every Dominant I have meet has some type of code. Mine tend to be a bit different, I feed of the pleasure I give plain and simple.

I hope that boy took my warning seriously... this isn't a game and many true to the lifestyle would take offense to their hard work and dedication being treated like a game. Ugh!! I am annoyed thinking about it, But like all great lessons I figure if they don't heed it they will learn the hard way. I was kind enough to speak with both the planner and the target telling them both what I thought.

~H~

So... I have a few things I need to clear up with ANY new people be it slaves, submissives, S/switches, Dominants, and Kinksters of all shapes and sizes. I am just looking to be friends and help... Yes I will admit I am looking but I am NOT going to try and take advantage of anyone New to this site or lifestyle. I will welcome you and offer any type of advice and answers to questions you might have.. Do NOT be fooled by my age have been physically active in the lifestyle for 7 years! I am looking to solely help you... if by any chance you are interested I will warn you beforehand so you can think it through, I would not like you to regret being with me.. My profile is as honest as I can be without being too Lazy been here too long to put too much thought.. Alot of fakes and flakes are on here and most don't read my profile anyways... those that do will sometimes make a comment about something I wrote... that is how I know the difference and I will take interest only to those who seek to be interested.. I will like to apologize to the Male gender of all Kinky ranks.. I am only interested in being friends NOTHING more. I am interested in Females ONLY, but I can for go my personal interests in better helping anyone who needs help or advice. I do not care if you call me a fake.. I know who I am and what I do... my proprieties may be back ass wards but I enjoy helping those who are new.. I only wish I had someone when I was new and scared of things I liked and not sure if I liked.. I was taken advantaged so I am only trying to help prevent someone who isn't looking to be taken advantage for because they are naive to all this the tricks, the promises.. I am trying and any to question it well that is your opinion and I will stay trying to help others...

Thank you to all who read this.

~Huntress~

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      Been on here for so long, I am shocked some days why i even come back. did have a period of hiatus where I disappeared off the map for several months, without a word. It was nice missed being here cause you do meet some interesting people as just friends, future playmates, and etc..  well I am off to pretty much watch the rain. Done my chores for the day for Hubby so am just leisurely have my yahoo up... if anyone is interested my yahoo is saffiresnowflake... just interested in chatting what about depends on what the person wants to talk about and my mood.. see you on the Dark side of the moon. Yay! Pink Floyd reference..

Just another day where  I sit back bored and pondering what book I should read today or should I do some math problems to keep my brain going and stimulated.. The tv is boring nothing really on that catches my attention, did all my chores the animals are all fed and asleep. Guess daydreaming while checking  my email is in order. Wish I had someone interesting to talk to well my yahoo is on so lets see what happens. If anyone interested to just talk just message me.

~Huntress~

      Seems today has been an okay day, did my usually chores on the farm. Would be nice to just sit back on a lawn chair and watching someone else do it in a skimpy outfit, in a bikini or even naked just for my personal enjoyment. Then all the naughty things I would do while outside on a farm... hay does feel prickly yet sensual on the skin if tied right to them. 

       Men... enjoyable and fun... women down right delicious to torture, lick, tease and send to work all hot and bothered. I figured the harder i try to woo it doesn't work for me, so I;ll leave all sweet words to my Master and Husband , Blood. He seems more of the sweet words, I am down to business and curious of what is running through one's mind. Just being myself should be enough for the right female to introduce to our new lives. I am the harder one apparently to deal with. I mean anything we do is done together. The only alone time anyone has with Blood is me... but I am fair to share with other females. It turns him on to see me be Dominant or be Dominated by another female. heck it turns me on but rarely Dominant women would take an interest in just pure play with me.

       Just wanting to hit my Dominant roots again I do miss it very much and Blood is so naturally Dominant it oozes off him I don't feel the urge to even think of Dominating him which would be silly on my part anyways since I am his Collared sub. Just for him though unless he asks me otherwise. Just so hard to find something real, cause some want to be wooed and some want promises of being spoiled and treated like a princess.... and honestly i can handle the wooing.. just not wanting promises of wanting to be treat like a princess and spoiled... I won't spoil or treat like a princess.. I'll treat them as they want to be treated.. if it wants to be treated like a slutty little object then I will use her like that.. if she wants to be treated like a person who bares their soul to us and enjoys twisted minded Dominants.. then I will treat them like that.. either way they will be special to us but not spoiled they will be cherished as either a person or an object but will be well taken care of will not be abused in a wrongful manner... just not many get passed what a profile says and instead of asking what we expect or wish to do to them...

      Everything varies on the person what they want,wish or desire. what will be done depends on our mood or my mood what I wake up feeling that day... I might feel like waking up and feel sadistic, I'll cause pain while giving you pleasure  ripping it away at that almost breaking point for you to cry out in frustration forbidding you to not touch or rub yourself against any object or your hands.. let you stew in your heated moments still fresh in your mind... Or hell maybe we will wake up wishing to see all your holes filled (if you are into it) and arrange a gang-bang.. may it be all females with strap-ons, dildos in all your holes while Blood shoves his cock in your mouth fucking it.. or even all guys as we sit back watching having you blindfolded as they runs a train on you... we have such unique taste.. May feel one moment after dinner that I wish to tease you by making you sit there watching me and Blood fuck in the throws of passion or even a scene... or even let him fuck your tight asshole while I make you eat me out with a vibe in your pussy making overwhelming all your senses. 

     So nothing is really concrete it all bases off my mood and how creative I am that day.. or if I feel like i wish to watch you go about your chores being every strict handing out punishment or praise for a job well done or a half ass job. Depends on if you which area you wish to be.. the sexual, working or serving girl.. or well rounded. so many thoughts in my head currently but I'll keep them all written here on my thoughts desires, fantasies, wishes.

~Huntress~

Well no luck in finding another submissive or sister-in-chains.. realizing that not many are really true here some drop by to be friends which is awesome and amazing cause can never have enough friends in the lifestyle to share stories and advice with may it be Dominant, switch or submissive. I don't have high hopes of finding one on here for both Master Dragon and i.

  Went this passing weekend to go be a trainee for a horse trainer near by, also spent time with my colt he is reaching 8 months here in February. He is doing amazing does amazing on his ground work got his Sire's personality and temperament. Some days I wondering what his Dam's personality was like before she was ruined by being abused by a male.

well lets see what new things await this month maybe W/we'll get to see more real people on this site then pretenders or those who think they want one thing but the reality they want something else..

In Master's words. "if it was meant to be it will happen." so patience is one of the virtues of waiting for the right one to come to us or message us. It's always worth the wait though.

~huntress~

   Back in June I got to witness my first actual foaling it was the most breathe taken moment in my life even more cause it was my Mare who was foaling.. She gave birth to an absolutely stunning palamino colt.. and just recently was he weaned so he is getting all his hands on training now.. Still trying to figure out what color foal halter looks better on him deep red or hunter green.. both bring his eye color out more. I am just rippling with joy even after 4 months he is having that heart stopping affect on me still every time I see him its like my heart just throbs he makes all the fillies follow him around when he runs. *giggles* he is my golden boy. I am also visiting my family down in GA for a few weeks don't know how long I will be visiting but it should be fun.

  I have been thinking lately just relaxing, Master has made points to let me know he is willing to share me with another female no matter their role in the lifestyle if only he approves. That's understandable. I have thought about surprising him with another female to join us in the bedroom as a gift from me to him. I am lost, cause I don't think you randomly go up to another female and tell her you want a threesome with her and your Master??? that's the questions some would think it bloody weird and ignore me. **sighs* well no one can pick a chick like me for My Master cause it wouldn't be a gift from me to him for us if I let someone else pick her. Someone who can be a friend in the bedroom besides outside. I guess I am picky cause I don't want someone who thinks she can try to become my Master's number one. *sighs* well maybe a sit down would do Master and I good but he tells me no to not hurt me but how would I know if I could share him with another if I can't try it? something to think about.sighs

   Just sitting here waiting for Master to get home, started his new job Monday. Had a weird talk with my cousin who is lost on what role she plays in the lifestyle she thought she was a S/switch but realized that she may have Dominant  tendencies she rather be dominated then Dominant, but she thinks it could be she had a Mentor who she didn't agree with his methods of how she handled submissives.. So I suggested she give the Mentoring another try to see if that was it, if not she learned new things anyways. I have learned different ways Dominants learn to understand submissives & slaves better besides being Mentored by someone with more experience under their belt. Some step into the submissive's shoe to learn better, what better way then seeing it from their point of view and thought process.

  Life just got more interesting.