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WELL IT HAPPENED!!!!! The move to Savannah has happened!!!

So what now? Well I'm working on me! I had the gastric sleeve and it is still a work in process. Now I entered this lifestyle almost 23 years ago as a submissive. While I have both experienced being a Switch and Dom I find that those roles do not fulfill an inner need. While I am most effective being dominant in my vanilla life and I suppose even in my Ds life I am always left needing more. More? What is more? I dont know but Im going to find it.

Let me put facts on the table. Im not a little girl in size and over the few years my body is going through alot of changes. I've slow down my weight loss to try and control the excess skin but with the amount of weight I'm losing there will be lots of excess skin. So after the weight loss will do the skin removal. So if you're looking for perfection I'm not your girl even if I wasn't having surgery I wouldn't be her and still won't be her. I am looking for a relationship but there must be boundaries and negotiations. 1. You will never control my credit cards, bank accounts or what I spend. I have my own income and My own credit. That is not negotiable. 2. My daughters will never be part of our relationship. So there is no mother-daughter action here. .3. I am not a slave. I have no slave tendencies. I have no interest in being a slave. 4. I am a baby girl therefore I'm looking for a DADDY not someone who has to fake it. 5. I'm not looking for a poly relationship. I will never be the second place to anything but your children and maybe your dog. I've been down that road and it didn't work. 6. I am a babygirl, you can call me that. Sweetheart honey bun etc you see the pattern? Don't call me cunt, pig or anything else degrading. I will delete and block. I am not a piece of ass so if that's what you're seeking, I'm not that girl. I expect to go on real dates and I expect you to take the time to know and understand me. I'm a little old fashion in the sense I expect a man to open the door, walk on the side of traffic etc. I'm not opposed to someone younger than me but I need you to have an older soul.
2/24/2023 7:20:51 AM

2/24/2023

Soo where to start. I have a friend who said with everything I went through last year something amazing was coming this year.

With that being said I got a new job that is freaking amazing. It allows me to work anywhere in the United States as long as I maintain certain licenses here in the state of Florida. And I'll finally be able to buy and build the house and I've been dreaming about forever. Still need land but I'm working on it.

I'm not sure what I'm looking for with the lifestyle but I'm leaving Florida first of May. I just need to figure out where I am going.

Life's a dance you learn as you go.

 

3/20/2022 2:40:05 PM

Sooo I know I want a relationship but until one is found why can't I just find steady dick? Is that so much to ask for?

2/18/2022 2:51:21 PM

I can't believe this is back.

But for my first rent please do not enter my email telling me how vanilla I am and you don't know me. I may not be the kind of sub you're looking for and that's okay. I'm not going to tell you you're not a Dom just because you're not the kind of Dom that I'm looking for.

This lifestyle is unique and the fact that you can pick and choose what works for you. It is also refreshing because it's a no judgment zone. The minute you judge another person by your standards, you are not living the lifestyle. If that person isn't what you think they should be, walk away.

Any attempt to belittle them, degrade them or plan out bully them shows exactly that you have no business in this lifestyle.

10/23/2017 4:04:43 PM
You know what really cracks me up? When a man enters your email thinks to demand you call him Sir? And when you call him on his bullshit now you're a bitch? Guys let's get something straight I am not a cookie cutter sub that just because you capitalize your name thinks that the sun rises and sets in your ass. A real Dom never has to demand anything it comes naturally. If you if you're the kind of man who thinks that he can call a woman out of her name in a derogatory sense or because she won't bow down to you gives you the right to berate her then yeah you're an abuser and you should really skip my profile.
8/11/2017 11:25:34 AM
I am just having a moment.

Where are all the rough necks? You know who you are.

The ones when you spank a girl her ass can be seen from space.
And when you fuck her, she walks funny for a week.
When you walk out the door all she can do is *sigh* and is willing to do almost anything for you to come back.

You know you are.  I need you!!!!
3/12/2017 7:34:52 AM
I really hate putting negative things in my journal. But let me be blunt since obviously there's so many people out there that seem to think I care what they think or their opinions matter to me. I'm a big girl. It's life and I love who I am. If you're not into fat girls then bypassed my profile. I don't need your rude comments or your derogatory comments because they mean nothing to me. They aren't going to hurt my feelings. They aren't going to make me cry. They aren't going to accomplish anything so don't waste my time. I am a beautiful woman. I'm a successful woman. I have a wonderful life. Nothing you say is going to tear me down. There are too many men in this world who like what I am. Who I am. I do not need you to justify or validate who I am. If you spent more time working on your own self esteems and your own validation then you wouldn't have time to harass or attempt to bully other people. I am a strong independent woman and there is absolutely nothing you can say to me that is going to change that.
3/17/2016 3:58:23 PM
So I got this email today and I had to share it and share my response.  Well because I hope it drives home a very important message when dealing with women.

EMAIL RECEIVED:

95% SUB & 89% "SWITCH"...FUNNY... COMPLETE BULLSHIT OBVIOULSY BUT FUNNY NONETHELESS...COME ON SMART WOMAN... REALLY ? YOU GIVE THAT BULLSHIT CREDENCE...REALLY ?

ISN'T THAT LIKE SAYING I AM TALL... AND I AM SHORT...?!!! 

THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS A SWITCH...HELLO ! THAT IS 100% VANILLA ROLE PLAYING NONSENSE... HUMANS HAVE 1 PERSONALITY...ONLY 1 !!! YOIURS IS SUBMISSIVE. PERIOD. SIMPLE...EASY..
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A DOMINANT WOMAN... FUNNY TOO... NO YOU'RE NOT... YOU MIGHT HAVE A JOB IN WHICH YOU ARE A SUP OPR A MANAGER BUT YOUR CORE PERSONALITY IS SUBMISSIVE AND WE BOTH KNOW IT SO WHY THE BULLSHIT ?

YOU WOMEN ARE A COMPLETE PAIN IN THE ASS MOST OF THE TIME...EXAMPLE: YOUR SILLY LIL TEST SAYS YOU ARE A HUNTER...RPIMAL... AND YOU HAVE NOT INITIATED CONTACT WITH A SINGLE PERSON HAVE YOU ? NOPE. WHY? BECASE YOU ARE A SUBMISSIVE FEMALE WITH THE UGLY ENTITLEMENT ATTITUDE. YOU ALL HAVE IT. WANT PROOF ? YOU ARE GROSSLY OBESE WHICH MAKES YOU LESS ATTRACTIVE TO MOST MALES...YET YOU STILL TAKE IT FOR GRANTED THT US MALES MUST MNOT OMNLY PURSUE YOU BUT TALK YOU INTO DOING WHAT IT IS YOU ARE HERE TO DO IN THE FIRST PLACE. WHY ? BECUASE YOUR CUNT MAKES YOU ENTITLED TO DO DSO RIGHT ? WE MEN OWE IT TO YOU...
GOOD LUCK PRINCESS


EMAIL RESPONSE: 

I read this email this afternoon and could not wait to get home to set your ignorant ass straight.
Yes I can be 95% submissive to the right man, to one who has earned it and who is not self-absorbed with his own little man syndrome.  And yes I can be 89% switch cause again that is another example of how an insecure man is intimidated by a woman who might have bigger balls than he does. 

That is not the same thing as saying I am tall and I am short. 

See God created man to be dominant however he made woman to be the perfect switch.  Submissive to her spouse and dominant to run her home and care for her family so, again your ignorance shines through. 

I hope the male population doesn’t look at you as an example of what a real man is cause then the human population is doomed.

LOL Humans have 1 personality but they have many facets of that personality. You have a macho personality when you are with your male friends and I am sure you have a different persona when you are trying to get a woman in bed, or when you are dealing with your parents or family. 

So take your 1 personality bullshit and stick it where the sun doesn’t shine. I bet your momma knows you like to spank girls or maybe little boys are your preference.  That you like to tie them up and maybe torture them, but does your boss at work know that about you. No? Oh my, did we just discover a new personality.

Make no assumptions about me because frankly if you want to judge dominance I would eat you for dinner and spit you out.  You are nothing more than a bully who feels the need to attempt to belittle someone you presume is weaker than you.  You are too funny because you chose the wrong woman. 

Women? Pain in the ass? LOL this coming from a man I am quite sure could not turn on a washer or dryer if his life depended on it. Could not cook a meal, clean a house, hell you probably don’t know how to cut grass much less balance a check book or invest in the proper stock or investment fund.

I have not initiated contact with a single person? LOL I would give nicknames but frankly it’s not your business but of course their skin is a little darker, and a bit younger, oh yeah their dick stays up and harder a lot longer than I am sure you are capable of.

And if I was inclined to give that information out I assure you each and every one of them would tell you when a woman has a need it is best not to attempt to tell her no. 

Mostly I do not have an entitlement attitude, I have been on my own since I was 16 and NO one has given me anything. I have earned everything I owned. No man has ever put anything in my house or paid for anything or taken care of me or my daughter. The only thing a man gave me was the sperm donation for my daughter. So don’t fuck up and think you know something because all you show is the constant existence of your complete stupidity.

Finally which is the one I have been dying to come to. Grossly Obese?  The term is Morbidly Obese because I assure there is nothing gross about me. I am confident about who I am that if a man is more concerned about the size of my ass then the woman I am, then he doesn’t deserve me. 

But that also might have something to do with the fact that I am not defined by a man, it is not a man who makes me beautiful, intelligent, independent, or confident. It is me, me who loves and respect me. It is me who looks in the mirror every morning and can be proud of the accomplishments in my life and the goals I have achieved all without a man’s help.
I don’t need a man to pursue me because darlin’ if he can catch MY attention I am quite capable of saying hello. I am sure any REAL man will verify that my “cunt” doesn’t entitle me to anything, it is just something they are attracted to other than dick.

OH AND GET IT RIGHT, I AM NOT A PRINCESS, I AM A FUCKING QUEEN! 

3/13/2016 8:40:11 AM
Just going back to my original comment...

Look guys, we apparently need to be clear, I am not some weak little girl who thinks the male society is superior.  

There are not two sets of rules for men and women.  If a man can do it then so can a woman.  A man sleeps with a woman he is a stud and woman does it and she is a whore? get over yourselves.  

I am independent strong woman, I do not NEED a man.  I WANT a man to satisfy certain urges but I don't need a man.  I have a career, a home, financial stability and none of that was given to by a man. I want to share my life with someone but again I don't need a man cause I like and love who I am.  I have a complete life.

So do not approach me as if I should bow down and thank you for your attention or because I don't live my life according to your rules, I am beneath you cause I have never nor do I now need the approval of a man to justify my existence.  
3/12/2016 3:02:50 PM
Someone please explain to me how a man says he doesn't want commitment or a relationship. And you say ok,  I just want your body and a few hours of play time then he says he thinks it is a bad idea.  

You wanted sex and play time with no strings it is offered and now you want to bitch out.

Seriously guys is there no real men left?
2/26/2016 3:15:15 PM
I am seriously looking for a bit of trouble...any takers
2/24/2016 4:16:31 PM
Ok so my rant for the moment.  The guy that stood me up for the second without any word nothing.  Texts me today hey sexy how are you?  

Needless to say I gave a word or two but then said my fingers would do a better job then he would.  I hope that wasn't rude.
2/22/2016 6:48:02 PM
Guys you really have to learn what the lifestyle is about before you profess to be a Dominant or a Master.

And learn this lifestyle is based on respect.  You want to approach a sub it is about respect, you want her to respect your role as a Dominant then respect her role.

Its not show me your tits or ass etc. Or even if you are seeking a further picture. How about hello, I was wondering if you would share another picture.  

You would be amazed how far politeness and respect will get you.  We are people and many subs are strong dominant woman.  Yes I know that is a naughty word but we are, our submission comes because we CHOSE to give it.  

Just cause your "title" says whatever you want it too doesn't mean it has to say asshole too.
2/21/2016 3:15:22 PM
Where have all the good men gone? 
2/20/2016 3:40:02 PM
There is nothing that pisses me off more than someone who says they want to meet me you but then they stand you up not once but twice.  

So I am all dressed up and no place to go...
1/19/2016 6:45:01 PM
Why can you never find dick after margaritas? 
10/3/2015 6:03:06 PM
I have to put this out here.  I believe my profile is very direct in what I am looking for.  I am not your hit and run, I am not a booty call, I am not a convenience and most of all I don't play second fiddle.

I expect play time but I expect quality time, that is time for us to get to know each other.  Just because we have good sex doesn't mean I am going to like you or vice versa.  If you think of me as a phone relationship or online...I am so not your woman.  i expect to see you once a week at least.  If we go more than that seeing each other then there is a problem and there better be a good reason.

I am actually very laid back but I am very defined in what is ok with me and what is not.  If you have a half of dozen play partners I am not your girl. I expect to have your full attention.  
9/12/2015 6:49:41 AM
My simple rant, let me apologize upfront just because I am in a mood.

Firstly a Dom is just that he is a Dom, he does not have to speak anything to say he is dom.  He walks into a room and his presence commands it.  If you get the chance to actually talk to me then talk to me.  I don't care how important you think you are at work, I don't care about your money, I don't care if you are bad ass in martial arts.  None of that means anything to me.  I want the man not the persona you present to the world.  

Do not email me talking in 3rd person, are you in 1st grade? This is the real world wake up people.  

Do not approach me saying Master wants you.  What Master? cause I don't have one and just because you might equate yourself with a dominant role.  You are not a Master you are a dominant.  Master comes when you have earned the relationship with one person.  Just because you think you are dominant and your dick swings does not make you a Master and further more you have not earned the respect from a person you are approaching to be called Master.

Furthermore, this is real life not someplace to play.  If you are married or attached DO NOT CONTACT ME. I do not share or play nicely with others.


8/30/2015 11:17:53 AM
Why is there never a man around when you need one????
8/30/2015 9:18:35 AM
Journal entry for the day.

Guys I am a real woman, I don't have to lie or pretend to be something I am not.  My pics are real and if you are close I am up for drinks or dinner or lunch etc...I don't do CAM because of my career and just to put it out there.  

I had a friend, I had known for 11 years but when he got married our friendship went to emails and occasionally phones calls because his wife was vanilla. She found our emails and her mind went south thinking I was fucking her husband and she started calling my office. 

If it waves a red flag to you because I won't perform on CAM, yeah I am probably not the woman for you anyway.  I am happy to give my cell and to talk via phone and to meet.  

I realize there is a lot of gamers out there.  I get it cause there is a lot of married men trying to play single because they can't be real with their wives.  

But don't assume I am something I am not just because I won't CAM with you or whatever.
4/25/2015 11:28:35 AM
ok guys I don't care if you claim to be Dom, we should get a few things clear.  I am not an online bunny.  You don't get to make demands of me before you even say hello.  I have been in this lifestyle 15 years as both a top and a bottom.  I am not a bow down and worship me kind of woman.  Respect is a two way street. You want it... you give it and vice versa.  I may be trying to find my place again but never doubt for one moment that i don't know who i am as a woman and what is acceptable and not acceptable to me.  

I may be horny but I am not some lonely desperate woman who will take what ever is given to her just for attention.  If you want a woman who is going to orgasm for you just because you said hello, yeah she is down the street.  I am as real as they get and as blunt as you will find.  I am not here to play games, I am here to experience all of my fantasies and darkest desires.  I am here to find out where and how they define me.  If you trigger something in me that allows me to submit to you, you find that you have an incredible high coming to you.  If something doesn't trigger then take it as it is not meant to be but there is nothing wrong with friends.  

Don't get your boxers in a wad and starting crying that I am not a sub.  I am just not sub to every thing that has a dick.  


4/25/2015 7:57:50 AM
So I think I am going to hit Club Phoenix tonight.  It's taboo night and I think I might be interested.  
4/23/2015 6:39:30 PM
Damn has there been an evaluation of the Tampa Bay Area where all good dick has gone North or hell South even.  I don't want to keep you just borrow you for a few hours.
4/20/2015 5:04:19 PM
Really people, why can't anyone fill out profiles anymore? Its ok just put one letter in front of the other and holy Moses you will find you actually told us something about yourself.  
4/19/2015 2:01:08 PM
why oh why can you never find dick when you need it.
4/19/2015 10:53:47 AM
i guess while i am at it.  Where is the communication?  This lifestyle is not hi nice to meet you lets get together.  Shouldn't you talk a little first to see if you are on the say wave link.  I understand phone and making sure a person is real is important but how do i know i like you enough to call you and give you access to me personally.  I mean do you know how many times i have given out my number and i get 5 calls a day and 30 texts etc...
4/19/2015 5:47:51 AM
Hmmm where to start.  I guess I am learning how many soft Doms there are out there.  Or maybe it is I am too dark.  But this lifestyle is more than bend over let me spank you then fuck you.  Where is the mind fuck? Where is the taboo? Where is the anticipation of the unknown?  Where have all the old guard doms gone?
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