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I AM OWNED BY TWO MASTERS I AM ONLY ON HERE FOR FRIENDS I WILL NOT TALK TO ANY TOPS INCLUDING FEMALE DOMS I AM HAPPY WITH MY TWO MASTERS AND IM NOT REPLACING THEM

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9/17/2022 3:53:27 PM
orgasms

She lays there air fron the fan caress her body she is trembling with cum running out of her pussy she enjoyed the fuck hair being pulled ass being slapped orgasm after orgasm after orgasm she lays on her pillow covering up she closes her eyes thinking he was done with her he spreads her legs finger fucks her demanding more orgasms at this point she is sore but she gives him what he wants he removes his fingers stuffing them in her mouth she cleans them off he grabs the dildo and shove it in unexpectedly he smiles in the dark he fucks her hard and fast with the dildo she squirms trying to avoid anymore orgasms he slaps her inner thighs she apreads her legs moaning loudly he says you know what i want so give it to me she orgasms 6 more times he removes the dildo and tells her to roll over on all fours he starts fucking her again she says thank you Master he says harshly shut up i didnt tell you to speak he rides her roughly she moans and keeps orgasming for him after he cums again he shoves his dick in her mouth telling her to clean it she does he pulls his underwear up and lays down beside her she lays down unable to walk shaking and sore pussy


9/11/2022 6:43:52 PM

I have just realized tonight that i enjoy blood play my Master at first put zip ties on my tits and to get it off he accidently cut me but i enjoyed it felt amazing and i never thought i would enjoy it but it happens to turn me on 


9/9/2022 9:49:18 PM
i cant

I cant take it any longer i want to behave and make him proud but the walls i have built to hide my emotions to protect myself from being hurt i cant take it i have known him 11 years and i cant take it any longer i am getting mentally exhausted i cant do it any longer im about to crash and burn i know you will be there for me but truth be told the walls are up so i dont get hurt i love you so fucking much and i dont want it to end i know you always say i wont be replaced and that calms me a little but its still in the back of my head i cant take it any longer what can i do i dont want these walls up but i know ill become emotionally wreck i have all these feelings and i know once the walls fall again i will need you more than ever before these emotions i have been hiding will come out are you ready for that?


9/9/2022 8:35:51 PM

I am going to say this as clear as i can be a submissive and slave is two totally diffrent things a sub has a safe word and a say and limits a slave does not yes my profile name is submissive this account was made when i was 18 im 28 now i dont know how to change it bu i am slave now not a submissive 


9/7/2022 8:00:26 AM

Yes im fucking owned by two Masters i am on here to make friends with bottoms its not like i have to explain this to you people i have every right to be on this site i dont come in your pm asking stupid questions so leave me alone the only person or people that may need an explanation is my TWO MASTERS one is no longer on this site and the other is Serenity109 


9/4/2022 10:05:05 PM

He was there when i was broken
He was there when the tears shredded
He was there when my meds wasnt working
He was there walking by my side protecting me
He was there to pick up the pieces when my family threw me to the wolves
He was there for me when i felt alone
He was there to pick up the phone when i needed to talk
He was there for me when i had a mental snap due to my medical problems
He was there for me through thick and thin
He was there tp correct me when i messed up
He was there and has been for going on 11 years
It all started by a simple friend request
He was there for my failures and successes
Can you say that about your Master? If not good you deserve it
My Master is my saver im still breathing because of him thank you Master i respect you and thank you for being there for me and allowing me to walk by you now its my turn to return it if you need me im one phone call away just a text away im here for you


9/3/2022 6:58:32 PM
wheres the pain

Where the pain i need to strive in this world i need pain to feel alive the marks arent there wheres the pain the pain that takes me to cloud 9 here we are no pain no marks am i still breathing am i where i need to be begging for pain this is all confusing why do i strive on pain how did i end up this way Master i feel like breaking down i need the pain i need the guidance you give me your hand around my throat the pain you inflict upon your property where is the pain cause this causing withdrawals i need the pain i need you i am nothing without you where oh where is the pain i want to feel the heat from each stroke of your toys Master what is wrong with me


9/3/2022 12:48:45 PM
the thought

Mmm the thought of my Master pulling my hair to get my attention squirming just the thought of my hair being pulled and his other hand around my throat i cant be the only liking the thought of that scenario begging on my knees for more what is wrong with me i crave to be choked out and my hair being pulled until he makes his point across mmm dont mind me over here squirming just the thought makes me wet


8/30/2022 8:23:46 PM
wanting more

He stole my heart he took my submission to the next level he knows just what to say and the tone to match the way his hand wraps around my throat leaving me begging for more here we go all over again begging to be in your presence i need you to guide me i know im not the easiest to be around or talking to because i seem to put walls up leaving you to break them down you have left me wet and squirming everytime i hear your voice this is the hardest thing to do is keep my composer i love you and for ever will your in my dreams your name being mentioned has me fighting against how you make me feel what have you done your like a drug i cant say no to your hands around my throat at least once when we are together


8/29/2022 5:43:57 PM

If your trying to contact me your best luck is on fetlife my username there is SereneBliss


8/29/2022 5:42:36 PM
playing without permission

She lays there naked covered up with just a sheet right hand inching to her soaked pussy finger finds it way to her throbbing swollen clit legs spread she gently rubs it she lets out a low slow moan her left hand gripping the bed she speads up rubbing the throbbing swollen clit her moans gets louder shes playing with no permission she feels naughty thinking and day dreaming of his hand around her throat squeezing and releasing as he speaks am i understood she doesnt dare to make eye contact the day dream is going so well she cums without thinking she moans louder and no one can hear her


8/16/2022 9:33:07 PM
lyrics

Some lyrics from the song all the ways i can die by the band arrows in action

Self sabotage is an old friend of mine self care just isnt worth the time


8/10/2022 2:01:57 PM

Starting to come out of my depressive state so quack quack mother fuckers


8/9/2022 1:18:33 AM
strength is gone

I am so done being strong im breaking and shattering like a broken mirror i cant stand this feeling im breaking down and i am so annoyed with myself but taking it out on everyone around me as i lay here tonight theres not much more i can take the tears are shedding and my self confidence is non existing just what i fucking need im still breathing so i guess thats an upside but fuck it all im so done pretending that im okay and if you cant accept me the way i am than whats the point of being my friend im just so over it


10/27/2021 7:12:36 PM

This site has gone down hill its sad to see because what use to be collarme is where i met one of my Masters this hurts so bad 


3/6/2018 6:52:21 AM
I AM BACK IN ARKANSAS AND IM HAPPY TO BE BACK

12/31/2017 11:17:54 PM
I had a unforgettable experience on sunday morning

12/2/2017 2:21:10 PM
Giving up with alot my mom has fallen ill and I'm not near her so it's taking a toll on me at this time

2/22/2017 2:58:55 AM
Whats happening?????? Journal Entry | 1 minute ago Wide awake with tears wanting to fall its early am she tried to sleep but couldnt now all she wants to is pull her knees to her chest sit in a corner and cry and bawl and hide in the dark wheres the security at this point shebhas been left exposed to everyonewhere can she hide where is okay to bawl and not be judge she hurting but her pain is evedentally strength she is weak

2/3/2017 10:10:43 PM
Whats this???????? The mirror has brung reflections from the past things changed so much in such little time...she started out in land of unknown of how it was going to go over....october 3rd of 2015 dove into waters of the unknown whether it was going to work out or not i guess it didnt matter.....when december came around she was nervious of the verdict when he placed that training collar around her neck 12/26/15 she knew her life was going to change but did expect it to impact her life as much as it did nine days later he removed the training collar she broke down in tears thinking she failed him but when he threw the tag to her and said read this she slowely read property of Master Serenity she looks up stunned and shocked on 1/4/16 she recieved his permnate collar and as he locked it and threw her to the groumd and place a boot upon her neck she was so proud with her self....than she begun a life changing adventure as many times she thought she couldnt make it he never gave up on her it is now 2/4/17 and looking back now she has came so far....from jumping in unknown waters unsure if it was gping to work have to admit things happened so fast but she wouldnt change it for the life of her cause who she is now is diffrent than who she was....whats this you may ask well this my friemds a reflection upon her journey and everytime she kneels before him it still feels like day one...feels good to look upon reflection of her journey but the person who should be recognized  is Master Serenity and Master Shadow  those two helped her through it all....and there still more to come....heres to a long time a long 407 days.....Master Serenity has to be recognized  for all the changes in this one if not for his patiences and guidance and cprrections who knows where this jour ey wouldve ended....so heres to the Masters who knows whats best and who knows how to treat a girl....who knows when enough is enough who has her loyality and respect....

1/31/2017 12:36:01 PM
The emotions are fucking with my head....the things that wpuld help doesnt even make sense....... Sometimes i wanna give up but that would be a slap in Serenitys face i just want to build a wall and stay in it on my own i am not use to people creing i am not use to people being there i am not use to people wiping the tears away i am use to having to pick up the pieces on my own i am use to being alone in the dark i am i was alone started getting use to it now i hit my fuckin knees bawling like a weak ass bitch her sheild destroyed her wall came crashing down and now everyone is seeing a weak girl hudle in a corner no one understands why she had those walls up amd now theres nothing hiding her misery she wanted this she knows but she hate crying......is a sighn of weak warrior.....

1/28/2017 7:25:02 AM
Searching deep inside my head i am falling and falling fast the walls are crashing and crashing hard necer felt this way before i have to rely on my Masters for safety i have no other security measures the walls i hid behind isnt there all i have now is them for security

1/10/2017 12:54:35 AM
I am the drug in which they are addicted to im the challenge that everyone else couldnt handle so now i kneel before two Masters who enjoy the challenge and is winning now that im slowely breaking is the reason all the ex Doms are wanting me back bitch please u couldnt break me so u wont be rewarded my commitment is made with two REAL MEN cause real men isnt affraid of hard work

1/5/2017 3:39:54 AM
This is not a love story, It started back in october of 2015.girl was always depressed and putting herself down and never beliving a word anyone said when she took the oath to serve under his collar she didnt know things would have changed so much but now its been 377 days since she took the oath and she sits on her bed as the sun is starting to rise and she smiling ear to ear she is so proud of herself for once in 8 years she feels she made the right choice for once in over a year she hasnt sliced her arms with a blad she has found happinees and strength thru her service to Master Serenity and Master Shadow in 8 years she is smiling a real smile and can finally say she isnt faking it and she is proud of herself....everything is looking up all because she accepted a second collar...they seen potential and never gave up on her and she is glad cause now she found strength when she is weak and has found that when she felt she had no reason to continue her reasoning was standing infront of her all along...now she stands on her two feet strong as ever and only kneels before who has made her strong.because they saved her when she was nothing and created something that no one else would take the time to.

12/9/2016 2:47:01 AM
THE WILL POWER TO LEARN IS THE STRONGEST WEAPON AGAINST THE WEAK..... - THIS GIRLS DAD TOLD HER THAT WHEN SHE WAS 10 YEARS OLD NEVER ACTUALLY THOUGHT ABOUT IT UNTIL THIS GIRL FOUND WHAT SHE LOVED....

11/27/2016 2:43:02 AM
She loves her Master she cant imagaine living with out them they are the reasons for her happiness they are the reason for he to live they are the reason she faces the challenges on day to day basis without giving up they are the reason she is still alive people says it is unhealthy but to her its healthy she is to attach they say but to her she sleeps at night and knows she can wake up in place where she can be happy people judge but to her she sees a normal life to outsiders they say its abnormal to her this is her life to them its just another stage to her she found her place and where she belongs....everyone has diffrent thoughts but to her her life is serving her Masters if she didnt have them she wouldnt have a reason to breathe they gave her hope and strength......why question yourself if ur happy? Why let others make u think what u enjoy is wrong? Her focus is on her Masters if u cant respect that than leave no one is holding u against ur will to her she will worship her Masters until her last breath....

11/21/2016 2:55:50 AM
You said you never knew anyone more. Suitable for this lifestyle it was a journey to earn this collar girl wear today it wasnt hard to earn it but the journey to get to this far is achievment for this girl she never earned such a rewarding achievment before her friends thats still beside me knew she could do it but she questioned it alot but everytime you kept her on the straight and narrow how could she have ever made it this far without your corrections or ur love she looks in the mirror sees the collar she reflects upon everything thats lead her here why does she stay people ask her well her answer is As a slave she is to please her Master she chose this life she feels normal livimg to please she feels normal at her Masters feet she feels normal at your mercy in your chains she feels normal with her life im your hands she wasnt forced to submit she chose to submit it came naturaly when u walk in the room she gets weak in knees and body she gives u her submission with her life in your hands cause a woman is only truly free in a collar her trust she has in you not to destroy her completes her life

10/29/2016 8:36:00 PM
Sometimes i wonder if i annoy them no one said anything diffrent been almost a year with new Master and i know he loves me and hes going through alot but i wont let go im going to hold on cause a kajiras job is to be there for masters pleasure and thats sat im gonna do Master hope you see this

10/19/2016 2:50:06 PM
I hate the world today i want everyone to step on a lego until the fall asleep and hope the lay on legos to

10/19/2016 2:49:37 PM
So fuckin annoyed

9/19/2016 5:12:56 PM
Life goes on but the mintute u disrespect my Masters or even touch my collar with out permission ur hand will be vroke and i will show no mercey

8/29/2016 3:38:25 AM
My Master who girl worked so hard to prove myself and well his bday is tomorow and i hope he has a wonderful day tomorow his kajira loves him so much

8/21/2016 5:43:28 AM
His hand her around her throat he pushes her against the wall of the hall Her smile shows him she enjoys it She watchs his next move he slides his other hand down her panties and rubs her ever so wet and swollen clit she moans he gives her what she wanted all along the way he says those words "your mine" in her ear starts to impact on his touch he pulls his hand out of her panties and releases his grip from her throat and keeps her wanting more she stands there with an unsolved issue knowing she is here for his pleasure she smiles and says thank you Master

7/18/2016 4:55:19 PM
Girl will be receiving 361 on the back og girls neck before end of year

7/11/2016 10:14:27 PM
200 days as of 7/12/16 girl is happy she is so happy

7/3/2016 3:32:34 PM
Wont prove myself to someone who dont understand me for me cant u see i been down and out made it out on my own i shown my worth put my best foot forwad for the only coward is the one expecting me to cry and fall to my knees cant u see you wont find weakness here i am who the war created im a warrior of far much worse than wat you can thrw at me beat with words ill still the hold the sword to my fate create a monster only emotions will die i become numb ill have u by the thumb dance away its ur last chance to survive my demons u summoned somthing that u know nothing about i fought stronger creaters you will fear by the end send ur best u will be beat ill survive you will not ill come out as the leader

7/2/2016 5:03:49 AM
So sorry girl has been so busy and taking care of hand girl had snapped at her friend and she punched wall while her Master was outvof state she had to have surgery but shes back

4/17/2016 9:16:46 PM
I have lost my mind and found my place in this world at my Masters feet I am committed and now I lay down holding a leash I will forever treasure such a honor to hold one close to my heart and it shall remind me everyday every second where I belong

4/16/2016 5:01:59 AM
"Only in a collar is a woman truly free" -Tribesmen of Gor- Pg 75

4/16/2016 4:50:51 AM
Share My Notes - Note: Insight who I'm truly becomeing Who Im truly becoming is a bit of a daze but I am not giving up I came to far to quit now I'm becoming a great kajira thanks to Master Serenity leading me down the right road since the punishment he administrated I been thinking and I am glad he corrected me when he did and I know still at the end of the day he still loves me the insight on who I'm truly becoming is who I wanted to become since I was 18 and I'm happy to say with the help of him it's going to happen well got to go got things to do? ? ? ? ? ? ?-lil kajira-? 4/16/16. 7:40am (Ps) the punishment he administrated was 4/15/16 I will learn from my mistakes.

4/2/2016 2:06:57 PM
Pierced my tongue yesterday it's tender

3/31/2016 11:14:22 AM
97 days serving under my second Master as of today. This girl is so happy she has made it this far what more can this girl be happy for 97 days she is doing great job

3/23/2016 6:11:55 PM
Here's to life it's a fuckin tragedy live your life the way you want and fuck what other people say or think life is the only thing to analy fuck you and hurt you in the same hour so again here's to life fuck the tragedy I been through cause you life are my friend no longer cause your the worse tragedy ever invented

3/22/2016 10:01:33 PM
As the day draws to a close for this kajira she lays awake on her bed in her room thinking about what her Master had said today in the car ride so she lays here unsure of how to wrap her head around it her Master says she don't need to think a lot but that's all she has to do so where does she go from here she thinks about the words he spoke oh so softly the tender but caring feel she felt as he kissed her how he laid her on the bed and made her feel as if she was a treasure a precious gem or was it just her head in the clouds she loves his ways to treat her and as another day closes she can't help but to think what would she feel like if one day this just all disappears but she don't want to think about that she wants to focus on what he does when he does it but it causes her to lay awake remembering the feel of him roaming about his property and for some reason in that second he started she lingered for more and it continues so as the day draws to a close she lays awake imagining the feel imagining what she experienced but for some reason she can't question it...

3/11/2016 11:10:33 AM
Each day goes by...

3/10/2016 1:48:25 PM
Live for the day not because u woke up this morning that's a blessing face the lessons that the day brings

3/9/2016 9:15:42 PM
Life is a roller coaster ride and well we learn and go along with it....no e just happens to be better with my asters in it..I love them both they know who they are.... :)

1/11/2016 3:43:29 AM
Well what can girl say shes happy....and sad part is she hasnt been on her meds....shes countered alot of things......and if it wasnt for the help,of a dear friend who placed his permnate collar around my neck and my other owner and couple of other fruends i wouldnt be here today wearing this collar i grante u that much

1/9/2016 10:19:09 PM
Love being choked out.....better when guess getting fucked while being out....

1/9/2016 5:37:14 PM
The darkness surrounds me as i lay in bed music playing aint no one hearing me break......not yet to strong to show to weak not to write the feelings to confused to find my way around these emotions..

1/6/2016 11:22:52 AM
Well move into apartment tomarow at 5pm girl is so happy her Owners are amazing as well...guess girls life is being complete...ever since the move to toledo in october has happened things have been rough but its all looking up...for everyone who is struggling with anything this message is for you....things will work out never give up

1/4/2016 5:27:37 PM
Well got permimate collar this afternoon....couldnt be happier...

1/4/2016 11:16:01 AM
ITS OFFICIAL THIS GIRL HAS PERMNAT COLLAR IN PLACE....

1/3/2016 1:25:00 AM
Well time for this girl to practice postions, Kajiras Prayer, Kajiras Creed/oath.......girls time has to be focused on pleaseing her Masters....

12/31/2015 11:32:58 PM
IAM STARTING 2016 BEING A KAJIRA......

12/30/2015 12:31:47 AM
Here pretty soon this girl is getting branded.....

12/29/2015 10:34:25 AM
Well recieved best news.....besides 12/26/15 recievong training collar....to get ise to it not being able to come off fpr permante collar if u want to be technal i got two things of best news

12/25/2015 5:52:26 PM
FUCK EVERY HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! DONT COME MESSAGING ME SHIT ABOUT HOLIDAYS TO B HONEST THEIR A JOKE FOR FAKE SMILES AROUND PEOPLE U CANT STAND......

12/23/2015 12:24:14 PM
Well guess someone has a suprise for this girl tomarow...and so she asked him wat kinda suprise he replied youll have to wait and see....so now i am thinking well tomarow is christmas eve...wat could he possiabley have for a suprise

12/21/2015 2:33:28 PM
During punishment this morning gave this girl time to think of what she did and she feels really bad....

12/20/2015 4:54:30 AM
Well how can i put this so i came to ohio back in october fell in love with it dont want to leave and refuse to leave i met a friend on here a long time ago and that friend today has became my second Dom so i have two Doms now and i look in the mirror and i see a smile...i love them both thru my second Dom i have found myself enjoying stuff i usaully am affraid of found myself doing stuff i thought would never happen again so if you catch yourself reading this my dear Second Dom thank you

12/16/2015 12:03:50 AM
Firm,hand of correction I never seen it coming when he held my left wrist in submission hold as i laid on my tummy my shorts fell exposing my ass and for the first time in long time i felt somthing upon my ass i let it soak in when i relize its a firm hand of correction and i enjoyed every swing as he asked me do u want the belt now i shook my head saying no he said are u sure i said i dont know,by the last tine he spanked me with his hand i was one more swing away from climax..

12/8/2015 10:48:59 AM
So experenced first time hands on with a whip....i have mix feelings about it

12/7/2015 12:45:59 AM
I did it oam so happy

12/6/2015 12:24:45 PM
Things are well here now.....the cool air does wonders when ur stressed...and so des a best friend ots like he can read my mind when i feel like giving up but he snaps me back and i relize if it wasnt for him beliving in me i would have already gave up but he sees potentional in me that fail to see and thats why iam here today nt cause of me not cause of my but cause of a dear good friend....

12/6/2015 1:13:55 AM
I think i may end up deleting all social media it cause so much headache.....

11/19/2015 6:13:40 AM
Hey today iam 22. And yeah love it....

11/18/2015 9:27:26 PM
Iam 22

11/18/2015 4:17:04 AM
Tomarrow i turn 22 so yeah

11/17/2015 4:50:29 PM
Two days before my 22nd bday i have amazing friends and people who love me how ever i wish i didnt jave to celebrate my bday but jave no choice anymore.....did full power exchange....

11/14/2015 9:28:52 PM
Its 1230 am which means 4 days till 22nd bday....i have came a long ways in this word i have been up been down along the ways met alot of cool people along the way i cant express alot but iam going to say this....when i begun my journey at 18 i never thought itd land me this far where iam loncated now my best friend you know who u are..has proven to me who i truly am..,.i am thinking if everything goes right i might delete this account and start a new one for fresh start i guess we will see...have a great night...

11/14/2015 9:28:49 PM
Its 1230 am which means 4 days till 22nd bday....i have came a long ways in this word i have been up been down along the ways met alot of cool people along the way i cant express alot but iam going to say this....when i begun my journey at 18 i never thought itd land me this far where iam loncated now my best friend you know who u are..has proven to me who i truly am..,.i am thinking if everything goes right i might delete this account and start a new one for fresh start i guess we will see...have a great night...

11/14/2015 9:28:34 PM
Its 1230 am which means 4 days till 22nd bday....i have came a long ways in this word i have been up been down along the ways met alot of cool people along the way i cant express alot but iam going to say this....when i begun my journey at 18 i never thought itd land me this far where iam located now my best friend you know who u are..has proven to me who i truly am..,.i am thinking if everything goes right i might delete this account and start a new one for fresh start i guess we will see...have a great night...

11/14/2015 2:47:44 AM
Hey everyone anyone have kik? Gmail?wh wants to talk

11/12/2015 3:42:11 AM
So practice makes perfect so i been told but no matter how much i practice i feel i am still messing up on postions....

11/10/2015 11:54:05 PM
Did anal tonight i was proud of myself

11/6/2015 1:20:32 PM
HATE FAKE BITCHES WHO KNOW NOTHING BOUT THE LIFESTYLE AND PRETENDS TO BE SUB TO WEDGE HERSELF IN BETWEEN A DS RELATIONSHIP JUST TO END IT FUCKING HOMEWRECKING TRAMPS

11/6/2015 4:42:24 AM
ATTENTION ALL DOMS OKAY IAM NOT TRYING TO BE A BITCH BUT PLEASE COME WITH RESPECT OR DONT COME AT ALL

10/31/2015 6:21:17 AM
To everyone who talks to me on here.... May not talk alot...was up and down all night puking and really weak..idk cant breathe well hot and cold sweats

10/12/2015 11:59:17 AM
This girl has a job interview tomarow at 11 am

10/9/2015 8:47:17 PM
Have new skype..

10/8/2015 9:26:18 AM
Dealing with horror news and yeah so if you are someone who talks to me and actually has got to get to know me i have to say one thing okay please keep in touch and never stop beliveing in yourself and your dreams even though it seems to me mine is fading after the news i recieved today i love all of my friends on here and everyone i have met. Because of this site i feel normal and this lifestyle has me to the point that i will never hang this lifestyle up but iam going to say one thing i never want to lose my friends

10/7/2015 1:29:29 PM
Go to testing center and yeah iam nevious

10/6/2015 5:13:31 PM
Iam an idiot....believing i could be happy look every lone iam sorry for every fuckin thing

10/6/2015 6:36:42 AM
I have come tk relize that my submissive side shows alot more with something around my throat

10/3/2015 7:07:22 PM
This sucks

10/2/2015 8:44:36 PM
I am in toledo ohio and yeah after awhile i have found the balance i been searching for and well lets put it this way i am having a blast

10/2/2015 3:38:45 PM
In toledo ohio got here this morning and i am so happy

10/1/2015 2:22:20 PM
Been driving since midnight got to st Clair Missouri and pulled off so far 50 dollars of gas has gotten us 298 miles and we are 3/4 tank full can't wait to finish up the trip

9/28/2015 12:48:01 PM
Kajira........grr this sucks girl is stressing she wants her clit pierced but scared so i guess its just bellybutton

9/26/2015 8:14:03 AM
Awaiting punishment....

9/26/2015 12:35:43 AM
So my Master works at mcdonalds right well i just said Sir i can probley give you something better than what your coworkers get he said what i said a good pussy to fuck.....iam so random

9/25/2015 9:38:06 PM
I WOULD LIKE TO TAKE TIME TO ACKNOWELDGE MY ADDICTION AND ADMIT I HAVE A PROBLEM: IAM ADDICTED TO BUBBLEGUM AND BONDAGE AND SEX I AM SORRY

9/23/2015 2:18:42 PM
Tied up laying on floor legs tied togather with dildo in this sucks

9/19/2015 2:01:05 PM
Truth will be revealed...how he reacts will depend on wheather i try or decide against it....15 mintuts till he clicks out she waits calmly in the car in the parking lot...

9/19/2015 3:37:53 AM
I have people on a daily basis asking me with your mental state isnt bdsm bad for you? ANSWER TO THAT QUESTION IS HERE....THE MENTAL DEMANDS AND POSTIONS THERE IS IN THIS HELPS KEEP ME SANE CAUSE THE DEMANDS THATS EASY WITH OTHER GIRLS IS HARDER FOR ME CAUSE MY MENTAL HEALTH BUT WITH THAT CHALLENGE EVERYDAY IS THERE AND IT HELPS ME EVERYDAY....JUST TO KNOW THERES A CHALLENGE TO COMPLETE....AND SO YEAH THERES YALLS ANSWERS...

9/19/2015 2:59:50 AM
Failure is no longer an option....yes its so demanding she is aware but she wants it so bad that failure is no longer accpted....

9/19/2015 12:07:25 AM
They call me a child but since does 21 fall under the child label yes i act like child in walmart or the mall cause i know if i can make one person smile iam living life right..they say smile cheer up...i get hyper and laughing they think iam on drugs...they say why cany you be a good sub...so i become good for a few hours they think iam up to no good....so now here is a statement for u every time i do something it gets contridicted thats why iam the way i am

9/17/2015 4:17:17 PM
So next week or so ill be waiting on my new glasses... Cant wait they look better than mine now....but i have a feeling since my Master is off work tomarrow we will have a long night...i dont know wheatjer to be nervious or excited....

9/16/2015 10:01:07 PM
DONT FUCKIN SAY ONE THING IN UR PROFILE AND THEN BACK OUT AND RUN WHEN THINGS GET ROUGH....SHAKING HEAD FOR DIPSHITS ON HERE

9/16/2015 3:58:01 PM
Okay i know iam a bottom but id like to let all Doms know that there is this guy on here by the user name justinpeterson22 he is a gay sub/slave he says that he likes to be dissed online want his rep destroyed but when it comes down to it he whimps out and starts crying like a lil bitch just to fair warn you like someone warned me he is nothing but a lil bitch please message or post this in your journal hes a coward he cant take the heat.....message me for more detail

9/15/2015 7:20:19 AM
Who has viber and wants to chat or role play

9/15/2015 5:18:24 AM
Morning people hope yalls day shines bright i feel sick

9/15/2015 1:02:44 AM
Well iam calm down....now just laying here

9/14/2015 10:51:40 PM
Iam looking for roleplay....

9/14/2015 8:53:08 PM
Iam on the edge of asking caleb to uncollar me

9/14/2015 6:12:57 PM
So i have a issue going on tonight....i want to tell my Master but just dont know how to say it.....i know i should just be open but i just cant find the words to say it...what can i do....iam lost all over again

9/14/2015 3:40:08 PM
So iam not mad at anyone....i like everyone till you piss me off then ill watch you die slowely from karma

9/13/2015 6:31:06 PM
Is it weird to be turned on while your master is mad?

9/13/2015 2:39:55 PM
So my master had a rough day at work today we played around a bit he took a small nap i rubbed his back he thought i was being my normal brat self then i ran him a bath he is watching me like a hawk cause he thinks iam trying to bring his guard down to prank him but truth is i just want a easy going nigjt tonight but he thinks that iam going to do something but truth is i want him to relax and have some time to his self

9/13/2015 10:27:23 AM
I think iam starting to accept things i cant change....its weird all day i been thinking of alot of shit and my mind wont stop running....maybe i should write some of this shit down

9/13/2015 10:12:35 AM
So i find myself intrested in gorean.....i mean right now i am learning some stuff about it....but this last month or so my intrestes is rising is that bad?

9/13/2015 3:41:19 AM
Tine to take meds and start cleaning i suppose if i get done early sleep

9/13/2015 12:42:47 AM
Has anyone ever felt so dark and inhuman laying in your bedroom with no lights the blind close and just lay on the floor and be with your own demons? As i lay here tonight no one awake except me iam wide awake but feel iam asleep iam suronded by my own demons darkness all around i feel inhuman and confused iam in daze with this abnormal feeling that taughts me tonight is weird to say this is security blanket is this weird to say i could get use to this is this weird to say i beed something more. Is it weird to want your body imprisoned?captive is weird to say that i feel security in this lifestyle everyone looks down on is weird to feel normal in a lifestyle no one knows of is weird to want the captive prison feel is weird to say i feel safe in a room all day all night other than useing the restroom is weird to feel these feelings that most 21 year olds dont have is it weird or have i discovered my destiny and found my place in hell land take me away to a place where this is normal take my freedom away id prefer to feel safe than unsafe

9/12/2015 8:54:57 PM
Shall i attempt the impossiable

9/12/2015 7:11:27 PM
Okay so i finally sit down and spilled my feelings out and i feel like it was worthless maybe i should not talk about anything again...

9/12/2015 6:46:45 PM
Well i finaly opened my eyes on something that may seem childish but i been living with it for years and thats men wearing face warmers or anything covering their face from when i got raped...but my master did something tonight that helped i usaully would go thru panick attack but i didnt tonight one step closer ;)

9/12/2015 12:39:12 PM
So i find myself asking alot of questions and i feel bad asking so many questions......should i just stop asking or stay to myself all togather?

9/11/2015 11:28:16 PM
I cant sleep and dont know why i took my meds and everything...i keep tosing and turning..

9/11/2015 7:18:19 PM
Is it sad that the only way i can fall asleep now is if my master is beside me and holds me? I have found myself these last few nights falling asleep only if my master is beside me holding me rubbing my back

9/11/2015 5:43:03 PM
So my friends....how is everyones night? Iam doing well bit bored but iam okay

9/10/2015 8:49:06 PM
So i have a start of a migrane this sucks but i was out in the heat for four straight hours in a car and then walking into a cold house i hate this....anyone wanna chat?

9/10/2015 8:21:26 PM
IAM YOUR PRISONER FOR A MONTH NAME THE SCHEDULE FOR THE FIRST 7 days

9/10/2015 11:07:08 AM
TODAY MY MASTER LOOKS LIKE FULL PLEDGE PRICK DOUCHE BAG JACKASS...TIME TO RUN LMAO

9/10/2015 8:33:38 AM
GOOD MORNING FROM ARKANSAS HOW IS EVERYONE? I WOKE UP TO ROOMMATES SCREAMING AND FIGHTING BUT WHAT EVER ANYONE WANT TO TALK? TODAY SHOULD BE A GOOD DAY

9/9/2015 8:09:25 PM
So yea iam willing to talk to who ever wants to talk

9/9/2015 7:48:32 PM
Iam mentaly in shock right now.....i recieved bad news and now i am in this numb feeling where even the harses punishment could probley have me laughing hystericaly so yeah anyone wanna talk iam up for it

9/9/2015 12:32:36 PM
Yay so excited......cant wait few more weeks i can hold on just geeting so excited

9/8/2015 2:42:37 AM
Goin on day # 3: Still so gar no punishment.i have been behaving well i think i can officaly say the journal is helping and my meds are balancing out. So everything is looking up i enjoy this side of the paddle lol i have been good and not ounce have i cocked an attitude or talked back he said lay down i did for some reason i am finding it easier each day to obey faster and submit better i dont know what has happened but what ever it is i am in disbelief that this is true....i shall keep yall posted on it...if youd like you can email me on here or kik which is Bdsmbrat93

9/7/2015 6:17:18 PM
So i have been behaving like seriously two days no punishment...iam so excited for myself i have found out that my Master loves to hold me when i behave hes the best Master...he loves me so much and i love him i cant wait till i take my meds and he comes in to laydown with me to hold me i had a bad dream lastnight and evidently bit him but it was an accident he knows it was so he rubbed my back till i fell asleep again...we are moving on the first so if anyone knows of apartments in springdale fayettville or lowell or bentoville here in arkansas please let me know itd be apperciated

9/5/2015 9:22:13 PM
Its funny you help the people who you think are there for you and then bam shit hits the fan and youbget accused of shit this my readers is fucked up

9/5/2015 12:24:35 PM
So today marks 7 years since my dad died i love him so much i miss him so bad

9/5/2015 1:35:16 AM
Hey how is everyone tonight? Anyone wanna just talk and maybe become close friends

9/5/2015 12:52:45 AM
I have a dark fantasy...for some reason it dont feel right to share the dark fantasys that happen to me everyday haunts me at night iam asgamed of having them but just the thought of them has me dripping...what should i do i have no idea do you?

9/4/2015 10:58:36 PM
Its 1 am depression is slowely kicking in....today is the day my father died....i miss him so much i think its time to cry....

9/4/2015 6:42:33 PM
SO SOMEONE CAME TO MY KIK THEY ARE POLITE AND ASKED ME SO YOUR OWNED AND STILL TALK TO OTHER DOMS WHY IS THAT? THE ANSWER IS SIMPLE I COME TO OTHER DOMS AS FRIENDS TO GET POLITE AND DIRECT ADVICE I FIND IT THAT IF I TALK TO OLDER DOMS THEY CAN EXPLAIN TO ME THE ADVICE I NEED AND FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO HELP ME AND KNOW I HAVE MENTAL PROBLEMS AND STILL ATAY BY ME AND HELP ME UNDERSTAND I WANT TO THANK YOU...ANYWAYS TONIGHT I. WILL LEAVE YOU THIS TO THANK ON... IF A YOUNG SUB CAME TO YOU LOOKING FOR. FRIENDS AND IS HAVEING A HARD TIME TRYING TO COMPERHEBD STUFF WOULD YOU HELP HER AND NOT EXPECT PAYBACK? JUST HER FRIEND SHIP....?

9/3/2015 8:12:40 PM
You know its sad that a sub can not be friends with Doms....honestley i think subs should be friends with doms but some people dont think its "apporate" but i am going to say this if you cant be friends and your only looking for one thing please dont bother and another thing please dont take this out of content i am not trying to be rude i will respect yall if you respect me and one more thing if your not looking for friends please dont list you are thanks have a great night i will be on and offline wanna chat i have kik just instamessage me ill see if i will give you my kik

9/2/2015 9:21:22 PM
So anyways how is everyone? Me in severe pain my ankle is in a walking boot and and on top of all that on meds which sucks....

9/1/2015 6:24:46 PM
Well bad news i am in a walking boot and on meds...worse news is i cant move without my Master helping rhis sucks....i guess i got to get use to it for awhile

8/31/2015 1:24:09 AM
So i think i can say one thing....being up earlie...sucks nothing to do so bored...

8/30/2015 12:18:36 AM
GANGNAM STYLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TO HYPER TO SLEEP DANCING ROUND QITH MY ANKLE HUETING I MUST BE CRAZY....

8/30/2015 12:17:32 AM
GANGNAM STYLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TO HYPER TO SLEEP DANCING ROUND QITH MY ANKLE HUETING I MUST BE CRAZY....

8/29/2015 9:00:01 PM
So anyway i been thinking of some stuff and i need another submissive girl to talk to....

8/28/2015 12:47:31 AM
Every song i play is making me think to much

8/27/2015 11:49:00 PM
Cant sleep with this mouth piece in my mind but the dentiest said it should help with me grinding my teeth all the time how does anyone wear these things its getting on my nerves....whos awake and dont mind chatting? Me iam laying awake its 148 am and cant sleep

8/25/2015 9:41:44 AM
Things are looking up finally after so many sleeples nights anxiety attacks and all that fun stuff i go to the dr today

8/25/2015 1:35:58 AM
As the lights go out i silently lay in bed shedding a tear....for 7 years you have been gone off this hell land but the hard truth of the fear of reliving that horrable night haunts me every time i close my eyes i only feel the real pain when i see the blood streaming down my arm i scream for you but you arent here...why does this happen like this why doni feel all alone but i am not here lies the truth that you were the reason i lived with a smile here lies the lie that life gets easier when you miss someone so dear to your heart they say let you go but your the voice in my head that keeps me going day in and day out if i let go now there will be nothing left to live for the memories taught me i see your sprit at the wall but it aint you the flames are being fed by gasoline but when the explosion happens i will have no one left...i hold the flag to my chest but its just laughing to..the walls are closing in no way to escape...whats my next move...you promised to guide me but your not here you promised to wipe the tears from me and now your gone...where do i turn now....you were my best friend but now i only have my self....i let the tears silently fall. At night so no one sees them

8/25/2015 12:09:17 AM
Hi everyone....how is everyone? Me iam doing well just laying in bed thinking i need to start a journal but i dont know.....Whats everyone thoughts should i start wrighting a journal.... ? To express my feelings i cant speak.

8/24/2015 12:20:01 AM
Iam up early looking around for something to do its hard to find something to do at 2:18am and the room is clean and bed is made and the light is off and iam sitting in a chair with headphones on so my music doesnt wake anyone up...who wants to chat? Cause ounce everyone goes to work i got to start chours and that involves sweeping mopping clean the counters and organize the kitchen and my closet ..so who wants to chat dont have to start chours till after 1030am

8/7/2015 4:42:58 AM
Everyones first question to me is what do you do for a living now warning this is a smartass remark...all offenders keep walking Stranger:what do you do for a living Me:blanklet stares at screen then replys Profeesion:mentaly gone crazy i make a living by cleaning house cooking taking care of two dogs two cats and a fish and staring at walls and tv for the most part... What do you do?

8/7/2015 12:13:06 AM
I need someone to talk toright now please i need a friend

8/4/2015 7:16:53 PM
Movie night with myself

8/3/2015 2:08:45 PM
So ill be alone for a week nothi g to do this sucks

7/19/2015 9:25:31 PM
I GIVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

7/15/2015 9:13:57 PM
I need discipline

7/15/2015 3:49:25 PM
Who is bored in or near springdale fayettvile arkansas area who can train me tonight

7/15/2015 1:50:45 PM
Whos around the springdale fayyettvile area in arkansas and wants to host a threesome or foursome tonight

7/15/2015 7:17:48 AM
Who wants to chill today?

7/14/2015 8:42:11 PM
Can some one please email me that id's on springdale

7/12/2015 4:09:08 PM
Chillin in fayettville with some friends

7/11/2015 6:27:01 PM
Please pray for my aunt jan

7/3/2015 12:29:25 AM
Well my Master is trying to protect me but hes so desparently wants to do polyhoushold but cant

7/3/2015 12:18:03 AM
Iam bored

7/2/2015 4:03:49 PM
I hate my family

7/1/2015 9:41:25 PM
SO IT WAS AN EVENTFUL NIGHT WITH A DOM THAT IS A COP WITH MY MASTER AND ME NO NOTHING SEXUAL HAPPENED

6/30/2015 1:16:49 PM
Okay wow so anyway whats everyone up tp

6/28/2015 10:18:51 AM
Anybody want to go to the end of 264 with me in arkansas lmao iam bored want to go swimming

6/27/2015 11:26:51 PM
Been up all night with a headache. Toothache back ache and xant get comfrontable cause of my sun burn on my back...grr i hate this

6/27/2015 11:26:51 PM
Been up all night with a headache. Toothache back ache and xant get comfrontable cause of my sun burn on my back...grr i hate this

6/27/2015 1:22:20 PM
Waiting....i am bored i think iam going to the lake later take a swim and relax

6/27/2015 8:51:38 AM
Looking for friends

6/26/2015 8:11:45 PM
Okay so yeah iam thinking of alot of stuf can i get some drie ds please

6/25/2015 9:36:58 AM
I think ia. Going to walk to the lake and go swimming for the third day in a roll

6/24/2015 12:28:49 AM
Grr life it makes me nausated everyday

6/10/2015 8:44:00 PM
In unbareable pain with it goung thru my my chest ribs and yeah i dont know what to do

6/10/2015 9:34:22 AM
I hate moving but its gotta be done.....sighn the lease and bam my new place will be mine

6/9/2015 4:49:08 PM
Bored love my man moving tomorrow

6/7/2015 5:22:43 PM
ALL I FUCKIN NEED IS MY MASTER EVERYONE ELSE CAN FUCK OFF IAM TIRED OF BEING FORCED TO FUCKIN EAT WHEN I AM OFF MY GOD DAMN MOTHERFUCKIN MEDS I DONT WANT TO FUCKIN EAT IF YOU DONT LIKE MOTHER FUCKERS STAY OUT OF MY FUCKIN LIFE

6/4/2015 3:47:33 PM
So fuckin bored

6/4/2015 11:11:58 AM
Watching fifty shades of grey

6/4/2015 8:42:04 AM
So iam awake before noon missing Briansl

6/4/2015 8:41:54 AM
So iam awake before noon missing Briansl

6/3/2015 1:12:13 PM
yes well I'm just sitting here chilling and trying to figure out something to do anyway if anyone wants to talk to me know how to get ahold of me

6/2/2015 8:49:07 PM
Well got 12 spankings about five mintuts ago

6/2/2015 3:00:41 PM
well just chillin watching orange is the new black relaxing on the couch how is everybody today does everybody like my new profile

6/1/2015 11:08:55 PM
Okay hey guys so i got new pics and everything but havent got to upload them yet on here so if ya wanna talk kik me my sn on there is bdsmbrat93 iam probley going to delete my old photos to update profile more to date so inbox me what yall want to know

6/1/2015 1:19:47 PM
Well i got my new phone today and its AWESOME

6/1/2015 2:58:09 AM
well it is june 1st and we go sighn our new lease today with the sercurity deposit iam so happy yall don't even know and if all goes as plan I get a new phone and number so till yall know otherwise if you have my number keep it if yall want to talk I am here I cant sleep..

5/29/2015 8:47:38 AM
Got a new apartment and got to look at it and got to say I love it its roomie and I love it my Master likes it more and he says next week we can move in

5/28/2015 1:07:03 PM
Well I am bored nothing to do wearing a skirt around the apartment waiting for myaster to get home

5/28/2015 11:51:41 AM
Well GREAT NEWS THE OTHER DAY I GOT ON A BIKE AND RODE IT SIX BLOCKS AND THE FOLLOWING DAY I DID IT AGAIN NEEDLESS TO SAYY ANKLE IS BETTER

5/26/2015 10:22:27 PM
My master ran a bubble bath and lit some candles put on soft music for me to relax

5/24/2015 6:25:14 PM
Well I waiting for my Master to come home I need him to hug and hold me I am not feeling good supprise I haven't puked again

5/20/2015 11:50:22 AM
WELL CLEANIMG TODAY MY MASTER IS AT WORK TILL 8 PM

5/19/2015 11:32:25 AM
Trying to figure out a way to come up with 50 dollars

5/18/2015 3:33:36 PM
I am boredy kitten is going crazy over a chain want someone around my area to talk to and chill

5/18/2015 10:05:55 AM
So my kitten is teething bad I gave him a toy but he won't teeth on it he will only drag it around so I don't know what to do

5/15/2015 10:46:22 PM
BY THE WAY YOU IDIOTS DONT TELL ME TO FILL OUT A QUESTIONER CAUSE I WONT UNLESS YOU ARE BRIANSL/MASTERDARK22/NWADOM/OR MONROEKINKY SO THE REST OF YOU FUCK OFF DIP SHIT MOTHER FUCKERS

5/15/2015 10:38:36 PM
Okay so named my kitten Sniper Recon

5/15/2015 7:31:41 AM
Well just laying here listening to my music

5/15/2015 12:14:49 AM
Yesterday my Master found me a 8 week kitten and I am so happy but its hard to name him

5/10/2015 10:42:40 PM
Nothing can ever compare to the sensation of your owner using you as an object I love it when he just calls me by a number and treats me as if I have no freedom I love it he us training me to to be wet for him all the time and on top of that I can only orgasam ounce a day unless told otherwise....

5/10/2015 6:52:08 PM
IF YOUR GOING TO SIT THERE AND DIS ME AND MY MASTER THEN YOU APPARENTLY ARE JELIOUS OF ME AND HIM SHUT YOUR TRAP AND STOP SPITTING SHIT OUT WE ARE WHO WE ARE AT LEAST WE ARE OPEN WITH ONE ANOTHER AND OUR RELATIONSHIP IS BASED ON TRUST WHICH IS THE MAIN INGREDIENT TO A HEALTHY D/S RELATIONSHIP SO EAT THAT BITCHES

5/8/2015 6:49:23 PM
hi how is every one me I am doing great just a little bored about to go to bed

5/7/2015 4:14:37 PM
I am no longer have a name any doms can call me 381

5/5/2015 6:26:33 PM
hey everyone I am looking for roleplay I can do it on Skype and yahoo or kik but it wont be on cam so don't ask its through text or type only

5/5/2015 11:28:38 AM
Going to the dark side so if I don't answer just leave a message after the beap HEY FELLOW KINKSTERS YOU HAVE REACHED SLAVE ABBY SORRY CANT TAKE CALLS AT THE MOMENT DEATH SKULL HAS CAUGHT MY EYE SO LEAVE A MESSAGE AND ILL REPLY WHEN I CAN.......BEAP!!!!!!!

5/4/2015 9:11:20 PM
Took pain pill and mucell relaxer

5/4/2015 6:40:40 PM
Its all happening all over again my bipolar acts up and I push everyone away that cares

5/3/2015 3:44:47 PM
Grr its going to be awhile before I can get use to this nose piercing

5/2/2015 5:46:43 PM
Just got ears pierced and nose pierced

5/2/2015 8:05:25 AM
I need out of here for the day

5/1/2015 12:17:02 PM
I think iam scaring my Master and my Dom friends

5/1/2015 8:19:17 AM
Well I am happy today and havnt take my meds

5/1/2015 6:25:56 AM
HIYA FELLOW KINKSTERS I AM AWAKE HYPER AND CAN'T THINK STRAIGHT BUT WHO WANTS TO TALK

5/1/2015 2:03:53 AM
Iam tipsy and want to roleplay if your a dom and have Kik let's talk

4/30/2015 10:50:07 PM
Iam awake which is weird

4/30/2015 12:26:00 PM
Well slowely falling asleep

4/30/2015 6:36:58 AM
MUST GET MOTIVATED

4/29/2015 4:12:26 AM
Iam just fine yeah I love him but god damn....be fuckin honest

4/28/2015 5:46:21 PM
I looked in the mirror and I here by take a vow to lose weight I am going to try for 100lbs but even 210 would be great

4/27/2015 6:20:34 PM
well I need a training session

4/27/2015 1:49:33 AM
Hi viewers let's chat

4/27/2015 12:49:23 AM
MASTERMBELLE STOP VIEWING ME LIKE SERIOUSLY YOUR LIKE A TEENAGER BLOCK ADOBE THEM KEEP VIEWING THEM

4/25/2015 12:52:38 AM
I am blah and in stood playing mood

4/23/2015 3:58:34 PM
I am moving to montecitio springs on Butterfield coach road in springdale Arkansas next week got to get out of these apartments or its going to kill me

4/23/2015 7:42:55 AM
well I am doing fine just sitting here bein bored so if anyone wants to talk  I am online here and on yahoo my yahoo id is bdsmbrat93

4/23/2015 4:43:18 AM
Well Sirs and Maams I am willing to talk but the mintut you seem fake I'll call ya out on it don't tell me you will or need to talk to my Master if your not going to reply to him that is pathetic you know who you are don't say yeah we can talk and never reply that to is pathetic be straight forward and honest with me and maybe we can have an everlasting friendship yeah my profile is confusing there's a reason for that cause if you understand my profile you will understand me so read it closely and read in between the lines cause thereigjt be something there you won't see in another profile I will give everyone a chance but the second I feel I can't trust you then you will know it

4/23/2015 12:22:21 AM
lesson continues........................




Birth:  Jun. 2, 1740
Paris, France
Death:  Dec. 2, 1814
Fontenay-sous-Bois, France

Author. French writer of often violent pornography. He had a philosophy of extreme freedom unrestrained by morality, law or religion, with the pursuit of personal pleasure being the highest principle. Though never convicted of any crimes, Sade was inprisoned in various jails and in an insane asylum for twenty nine years of his life; much of his writing was done during this time. The term sadism was derived from his name. Works include: Dialogue Between a Priest and a Dying Man, The 120 Days of Sodom, Philosophy in the Bedroom and others. His will dictated that he be buried in an unmarked grave, allowed to grow wild, so that all trace of of my resting-place should disappear from the surface of the earth as I flatter myself that my memory will disappear from the minds of men (bio by: Medora)

 
 
Burial:
Non-Cemetery Burial
Specifically: Buried on his property near Épernon, Eure-et-Loir, France.
 

4/23/2015 12:09:33 AM
ok here is a lesson of MARQUIS DE SADE

Quick Facts

Name Marquis de Sade Occupation Criminal

, Philosopher

, Author

Birth Date June 2

, 1740

Death Date December 2

, 1814

Education Lycée Louis-le-Grand

Place of Birth Paris

, France

Place of Death Charenton

, France

AKA Marquis de Sade Count de Sade Full Name Donatien Alphonse François count de Sade

 

Synopsis

Marquis de Sade, a French aristocrat, philosopher and writer of explicit sexual works, was born in Paris in 1740. His writings depict violence, criminality and blasphemy against the Catholic Church. During the French Revolution he was an elected delegate to the National Convention. The last 13 years of his life were spent in an insane asylum. He died in 1814.

 

Early Life

Donatien Alphonse François, best known as Marquis de Sade, was born in Paris, France on June 2, 1740. His father was a diplomat in the court of Louis XV, and his mother was a lady-in-waiting. From the start, de Sade was raised with servants who flattered his every whim. Not long into his childhood, his father abandoned his mother, and his mother took refuge in a convent.

By the age of 4, de Sade was known as a rebellious and spoiled child with an ever-growing temper. He once beat the French prince so severely that he was sent to the south of France to stay with his uncle, an abbot of the church. During his stay, while he was 6 years old, his uncle introduced him to debauchery. Four years later, de Sade was sent back to Paris to attend the Lycée Louis-le-Grand. After misbehaving in school, he was subject to severe corporal punishment, namely flagellation. He spent the rest of his adult life obsessed with the violent act.

 

Sexual Offenses

As a young man, de Sade had many affairs with women, most of them prostitutes. De Sade’s father was frantic to find his son a rich wife. The de Sades, although stable in status, had drastically decreased their financial holdings. In 1763, de Sade married Renée-Pélagie de Montreuil, the daughter of a wealthy government official. Married life didn’t slow his sexual pursuits, however, and within a few months, he was renting out rooms to carry on his intense fantasies

His first serious offence came when he forced a prostitute to incorporate crosses into their sexual acts, something that seemed altogether blasphemous. The woman immediately told the police about the event, and de Sade was arrested and imprisoned. They released him after a short time, and he promptly returned to his old habits. Of course, his behavior tested his wife’s limits, but divorce was practically impossible. The couple eventually had three children.

On Easter Sunday in 1768, de Sade invited a chambermaid to his room, cut her, and then dripped hot wax drip into her wounds. The de Sade family paid the woman to keep her from testifying, but after such social embarrassment, de Sade was made to live on the margins of society. Obsessed, he committed sodomy with four prostitutes and his manservant just four years later. Even though the act of sodomy was rather common among the aristocracy, the court decided to make an example of him and banished him to exile in Italy.

Incarceration

While in prison, de Sade wrote incessantly, producing 15 manus in all, including the infamous Justine and 120 Days of Sodom. When the French Revolution broke out, de Sade convinced members of the new regime that he had been a victim of the old aristocracy. Amazingly, they released him from prison and welcomed him into the new government. It was the rise of Napoleon Bonaparte that led to his demise.

De Sade was put into an insane asylum. From 1810 until his death on December 2, 1814, he conducted a relationship with the 13-year-old daughter of an employee at the asylum. He died there on December 2, 1814.

 


4/22/2015 1:00:01 PM
I am back on kik and phone is back on

4/21/2015 2:14:29 PM
hi everyone I wanna start talking to Dommes

4/20/2015 1:38:13 PM

4/19/2015 10:55:50 PM
well I am bored and looking to chat through yahoo so who is up to chat yyahoo id is bdsmbrat93

4/19/2015 3:50:30 AM
 she lays there as the flogger comes down across her back she grits her teeth as she knows that she had
it coming after each hit she says thank you Sir. She cant see but can tell that he is proud of her for taking her
punishment well.He rubs some oil on her back and says good girl as he helps her to the room he places her
face down on her stomach kisses her head and says that is a good girl just rest you did well and you made
me very proud now make this a leason to be learn you will be punished the second you raise your voice,back talk
or anything else that you are not suppose to do. She glances behind her and says Yes Sir i understand Sir.He
kisses her head once again and then walks toward the door and flips the light out says good night girl and
steps out closing the door she lays there for like 5 mintuts and then falls asleep.

4/19/2015 2:18:07 AM

4/18/2015 1:51:20 PM
I can be your best friend or I can be your worst enemy your choiceI do not give respect to people who does not earn it I am a sub I am aware that butiwill not tolerate people being disrespectful to me and my feelings my master is aware of what I say to people online and if you got a problem his user name is master dark 22

4/18/2015 11:43:32 AM
Trying to tell me how to live my life what to believe and not believe and I feel like shit like I am not a good friend and yeah I just wanna scream I can't wait to walk normal again cause I'll disappear for a couple of months for the fact that I need to go away to clear my head I am so fuckin sick and tired of everyone telling me I am always wrong or I am not living my life the right way I am about to fuckin snap and black out I wanna cry but can't cause I am so fuckin pissed off I hate my life I can't carry a baby full term and Caleb has another kid with another woman and his family just shoves it in my face I just hate it I feel like I don't anything right and everyone only points out my mistakes

4/18/2015 10:35:56 AM
I JUST WANNA SCREAM AND I NEED TO BE LOCKED AWAY.....

4/17/2015 5:44:22 PM
OKAY HERE IT GOES IF YOU HAVE ALT MY USER NAME IS BDSMLOVER918 I JUST UPLOADED NEW PICS OF ME IF YOU HAVE YAHOO MY SCREEN NAME IS BDSMBRAT93 I HAVE A NEW PIC UP THERE TO IAM SORRY I LOOK OR SOUND PISSED OFF I JUST WANT TO SAY FUCK EVERYTHING AND FUCK LIFE IT KILLS ME WHEN MY BEST FRIEND IS HURTING SHE IS LIKE MY LITTLE SISTER AND I HAVE FEELING THAT HER MARRIAGE IS ENDING I CANT TAKE THIS SOCIETY RIGHT NOW I FEEL LIKE I AM FALLING AND GOING INSANE JUST TAKE ME AWAY FROM THIS LIFE FOR A SHORT TIME PLEASE ANYONE IF YOU HEAR MY CRY I AM BEGGING FOR HELP PLEASE PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME OUT HERE TAKE ME AWAY FOR A SHORT PERIOD BUT NOTJING LESS THAN 30 DAYS PLEASE

4/17/2015 3:06:36 PM

4/17/2015 6:22:45 AM
Well I am wearing pink camp bdus a call of duty advanced warfare shirt pink digital camp hat today camo boxers camp bra and problem my pink camp sunglasses lol

4/15/2015 8:50:28 PM
I just don't know I am missing some people that isn't around anymore anyone who wants to chat my yahoo is bdsmbrat93

4/15/2015 3:49:56 PM
I PROMISE TO BE THE BEST I CAN TO SERVE I PROMISE TO BE THE SLUT YOU WANT I PROMISE TO BE THE PREFECT OBJECT FOR YOU I PROMISE ILL STRICTLEY ASK FOR ANYTHING I PROMISE TO ONLY PLAY WHEN TOLD THE HOLES ARE OPEN FOR USE TO WHOMEVER YOU WANT

4/15/2015 6:06:50 AM
Well I am sitting here slowely getting tired so yeah I'd anyone wants to ym is bdsmbrat93

4/14/2015 1:49:19 PM
Well I am bored my yahoo is bdsmbrat93 if anyone who wants to talk

4/14/2015 5:04:58 AM
I am back to my normal self looking to meet and talk to new people Doms preferred male and female Doms but will talk to anyone

4/13/2015 7:54:11 PM
There is one person I need to thank for him to opening my eyes about a lot of shit in less than 24hours and I consider him my Best Friend him and his girl they ate so awesome no matter what I can talk to them about anyone and his user name on here is MasterAkatena1 he is so cool he can be loving and caring but he can also be strict but he will give you respect if you give respect and gemal slaves and sub's he can tell if you are fake if you fuck with him I will try to step in if he let's me only contact him if you are who your profile saysthanks Sir for being here for me when I feel alone you are awesome I know you read my journal

4/13/2015 12:16:28 AM
SERIOUSLY PEOPLE IF YOU VIEW MY PROFILE AND DONT GIVE A SHIT THEN DONT FUCKIN MESSAGE ME IT IS THAT SIMPLE AND BY THE WAY SIRSNOOPS YOU ARE A FUCKIN IDIOT

4/12/2015 11:23:02 PM
Well waiting here...not knowing what to do my Master shaved his property's head for punishment.....guess I deserved it

4/12/2015 9:23:29 AM
Okay viewers I will be broadcasting on alt an is bdsmlover918 if you want to see me just a heads up my master did cut my hair

4/11/2015 4:39:35 PM
Well it is official I am collared and excited

4/11/2015 2:43:53 PM
So I got punished today and my Master cut my hair...

4/11/2015 11:47:48 AM
Well tonight is the collaring ceremony I can't wait anyone want to talk my yahoo is bdsmbrat93

4/11/2015 4:15:43 AM
Well waiting for MsAndrea73 so I can talk to her again

4/10/2015 4:37:52 PM
okay so I have been talking to MsAndrea73 and she is the first Domme that I get along with and I can talk to her about anything and  I like that she is amazing and I cant wait to talk to her more

4/10/2015 6:36:40 AM

4/9/2015 3:42:08 PM
Well i need a friend that's a Dom here in Springdale at that's a military man that can help me with physical therapy for my ankle

4/9/2015 5:18:14 AM
Good morning everyone how is everyone me tired

4/8/2015 5:31:36 PM
Head is pounding pussy thorbing and my ankle is thorbing to

4/8/2015 7:55:33 AM
YAY GOT MY FUCKIN CAST OFF TODAY

4/8/2015 3:58:34 AM
Why is it so hard to love someone when they change so much from the person you first fell in love with

4/8/2015 3:30:50 AM
YOU KNOW FUCK IT HE KEEPS THREATNIMG TO CALL OF THE COLLARING GUESS WHAT I JUST DID MASTERDARK22 SO YOU DONT HAVE TO DO THAT OR WORRIE ABOUT NE ANYMORE I WILL DO EVERYTHING ON MY OWN I WONT ASK YOU FOR A FUCKIN THING

4/7/2015 2:27:10 AM
Those who judge shall be judged upon.....

4/7/2015 12:29:19 AM

4/6/2015 7:34:53 PM
looking for play partners I can host at my apartment yes my Master knows what I am looking for on here you must be a MALE DOM  about 24-41 I cant drive don't have a car I am on disability so I only get paid ounce a month I wont pay for a play partner so if you that than move on I want someone who will come see me again I WILL NOT PAY TO BE DOMINATED I WILL NOT PAY FOR A PLAY PARTNER I CAN HOWEVER HOST HERE AT MY APARTMENT

4/6/2015 5:00:00 AM
I just started broadcasting on alt an is bdsmlover9318

4/6/2015 3:07:00 AM

4/4/2015 7:42:04 PM
Okay so next Saturday I am getting permanently collared by Masterdark22 so we need to have at least one or two other people here we will have cake and soda and have a good time so yeah if you live in or near Springdale hit me up or Masterdark22

4/4/2015 7:22:49 AM
so anyway it is the weekend and me and my Master wants to hang out with other people in the lifestyle so if you live near springdale and want to hang out with fellow bdsm people hit me up we have our own apartment so we can hang out here so just hit me up and we can set a time to hang out this weekend

4/4/2015 4:50:49 AM
Wednesday I get this cast off of my left leg I cant wait cause when I get in the walking boot for a few days i am going to get my bike fixed and i am going to go for a ride i cant wait to be able to walk on my own again i feel like shit cause this entire time i have had to rely on other people to help me up and down the stairs helping me to get a shower it sucks i am going to be so happy when i can do things on my own again i am so use to be independent but what can you say when growing up you had to defend your self make your own meals half of the time and hardly getting punished for doing the wrong thing or even having to wake up on your own cause your mom is so ill that shes on oxygen and pain meds and night time meds and mental meds i was the youngest out of four and when it came to me i had to do everything on my own i had to be the responsiable one waking myself up feeding the animals waking my brothers and sister and when it came to the chorus i had to do mine plusmy brothers and sisters.so yeah anyway back to what i am talking about i just cant wait to be independent again cause i am so tired of depending on everyone else to help me do my job which is cooking and cleaning so my Master don't have to and when i can walk on my own again i can serve him better so who ever wants to talk drop me a message cause i am bored watching three stooges

4/4/2015 2:32:53 AM
Went to sleep and now I am wide awake being bored 3 or four days left in this cast

4/3/2015 4:53:02 AM
well my Master headed out to work I guess I am now bored watching law and order svu till about 8am and then I am going to play mine craft until he gets home or if I get a vistor that is my day oh and by the way I have 5 days left In this cast that is on my left ankle I cant wait cause when this gets off I am going to start building up my left leg and left ankle muscels back up

4/3/2015 12:44:22 AM
so I am awake being bored cant go back to sleep but I have a feeling I will end up passing out sometime today cause I never can get a good nights sleep so who wants to chat me I am willing talk to anyone as long as you are respectful to me I will be respectful back so lets chat drop me a line if you wish to do so and we can start a chat

4/2/2015 8:02:01 AM
I am bored about to my head phones on and blare my music and hope and pray that our landlord will srop being a bitch to everyone I am so tired of her attitude I could slap her so hard that shed fall over and look like violet when she puff out on wilie wonkas and the chocolate factory

4/2/2015 5:21:56 AM
I miss my ninja  I am going to just sit here and think about the memories that we have so until I see my ninja again I am going to be bored but the thoughts of my ninja makes me smile so I am going to just think of my sweet but devious ninja  am going to sit here and watch tv be online play minecraft which by the way is a addicting game if you like to create your own wrld give it a shot if you want.

4/2/2015 4:33:49 AM
so yeah anyway I am bored out of my mind no onw to talk to I guess I got to take my meds and be bored all day

4/1/2015 11:10:45 PM
so anyway I am going to be up for awhile I cant sleep so I am singing being bored no one decent to talk to on Skype

4/1/2015 8:31:06 PM
so yeah anyway my boobs hurt

3/31/2015 12:21:00 AM
okay iam looking to chat on Skype and or yahoo Doms only MEN DOMS ONLY

3/29/2015 1:16:40 AM
You know I look at peoples profiles read them and think to my self on some of them and say wow that person sounds like idiot but I don't care what they say but if you sound like you know everything NEWS FLASH NO ONE KNOWS EVERYTHING GET A FICKIN GRIP AND TAKE LIFE WITH A GRAIN OF SALT BITCHES

3/28/2015 2:11:01 AM
Well i love orange is the new black but something is not right on that show piper Chapman is getting transfered

3/23/2015 7:00:45 PM
Well I am not bored my ass hurts

3/23/2015 2:19:22 AM
Again really tired but I been used and our friend is bringing his Xbox1 so I can play minecraft all day yay lol

3/23/2015 1:05:15 AM
Good morning people my head ache is gone and I have a feeling today is going to be a good day

3/22/2015 9:26:26 PM
I am bored in pain and hit my head its starting hurt

3/22/2015 7:18:06 PM
I am bored nothing to do can't sleep

3/22/2015 5:39:51 AM
Not feeling good my aunt leta nix died yesterday at work and right after I heard the news I started puking so I am stuck in bed till I feel better anyone want to talk

3/21/2015 5:45:52 PM
I am bored

3/21/2015 3:10:21 PM
ramo noodles with cheese  and tuna and peanut butter sandwhiches

3/20/2015 10:28:34 PM
I have a bad cramp in my left leg

3/20/2015 3:01:27 PM
I am bored

3/19/2015 9:54:26 PM
I can't sleep I am up and down

3/19/2015 8:46:06 PM
Can't sleep even though a pain killer is kicking in so what do I do

3/19/2015 4:39:09 AM
I am awake

3/18/2015 12:44:47 PM
Okay so yesterday I finally told my mom that I am into bdsm and to my surprise she didn't judge me like she use to so last night I went on my facebook and said it to everyone I feel like 150lbs has been lifted off of me so now its out in the open I am going to be able to live my life without being scared someone is going to find out my true lifestyle so I am proud of myself

3/18/2015 10:53:13 AM
There is something that is not right

3/17/2015 8:54:45 PM
Just tried anal with my Master it hurt like hell he was almost all the way in but I am about to crash I have been well used today

3/17/2015 7:06:18 PM
Can't sleep got to eat dinner to take my meds

3/17/2015 4:36:20 PM
My Master shared me with his friend today I am bored I don't know why but I don't feel ashamed I feel like a dirty slut

3/17/2015 11:23:06 AM
okay so I am bored again its Tuesday and my mentor comes by Friday

3/16/2015 9:58:43 PM
My pinkey toenail got ripped off

3/16/2015 9:14:09 PM
okay so I cant sleep once again

3/16/2015 5:30:29 PM
so iam watching law & order svu I am so bored what can I do with a broken ankle

3/16/2015 1:11:14 PM
I think I can pass out but I cant cause after 4pm my Master is going to be needing me again so I guess it is going to be a long evening this evening so if anyone wants to talk we can talk but I don't know for how long

3/16/2015 9:41:39 AM
okay so I just got a hold of my mom and her surgery went well I am so glad cause now I can stop worrieng about it I love her with all my heart and now that I know everything went well I can relax more but I got to make one more phone call that is to my friend to see how he is doing we talked a little yesterday but I still worry about him we are close friends we can talk about anything and I like that so if anyone wants to talk I will be here pretty much all day cause there is nothing to do in this apartment I have a broken ankle and in a cast so I cant do stuff that good and trust me I want to do something but I have no tasks to do and my Master is not here for awhile longer he had to go do some stuff and as I sit here waiting for his return I am listening to music being bored out of my mind so if you want to talk lets talk I mean what else can I do

3/16/2015 8:49:55 AM
well I am sitting here singing on my laptop my friend/neighbor is allowing me to use her wifi I am having a good day today I hope you all are having the same good day cause no one needs to have a bad day so yeah anyway trying to talk to a lot of people on here using my phone is a pain in the ass but hey I am on my lap top now so if you want to talk just message me depending on how you approach me I might or might not answer but I give everyone a chance so who wants to talk?

3/16/2015 4:31:25 AM
I hate this been up and down all night

3/16/2015 3:46:11 AM
I am just laying here in the pitch dark thinking about a lot of stuff I been looking at this the wrong way all along I have to step back evaluate the situation and go from there I beat myself up for ripping up the contract and I have came to realize that I can't do this alone so since I can't get on my knees on the floor to beg for forgiveness I am just to lay here begging for it

3/16/2015 2:49:30 AM
You know what for all of you who gets pleasure calling me names who don't even know me take a look in the mirror and ask yourself what is it in my life making me so angry with other people who has a good but not prefect life? And as you stand there looking at your reflection just remember god made us different for a reason I forgive the haters but that is because I was taught that forgiving is the best medicine I mean just look in the mirror haters I made it where I am today through blood sweat and tears and learning from every mistake I ever made I mean come on people look in the mirror ask your self that question above then ask what am I not happy with in my life then figure out a solution cause you won't hurt me anymore

3/16/2015 2:36:00 AM
I am wide awake can't sleep at all

3/16/2015 12:04:50 AM
Good morning fellow bdsm friends I am awake again and don't know why

3/15/2015 9:00:12 PM
Got woke up by my Master so he could use me and now I have to stay naked oh well everything is okay I am not shy about my body he went to walk to with his friend and I am laying in bed I thank its going to be awhile before I can fall back to sleep anyone want to talk our friends is allowing us to use their WiFi so I can get on my yahoo again

3/15/2015 4:08:02 PM
Maybe I shouldn't be watching porn

3/15/2015 2:52:54 PM
Watching a movie relaxing

3/15/2015 12:46:34 PM
I am so bored

3/15/2015 12:31:36 PM
I am bored watching tv

3/15/2015 10:30:52 AM
So tonight is animation domination starting at 6 I am bored not getting a lot of sleep at night I have tried to go to bed at 7pm and wakening at 6 nothing. So I am going back yo go to bed at eight and see if that works if anyone wants to talk I am here have nothing else to do I am waiting on my master to get back from church

3/15/2015 9:02:53 AM
Well getting ready for another long week being on my best behaviour

3/14/2015 5:24:43 PM
Mental note never ever challenge a Dom

3/14/2015 5:06:47 PM
Okay so BrianSL was messing with my mind mentally

3/14/2015 4:28:23 PM
So I am behaving got allergies not that bad though and I feel a little bit better

3/14/2015 2:49:25 PM
Playing prefect dark zero and behaving

3/14/2015 10:56:49 AM
I think allergies are acting up and I can't find my allergy meds

3/13/2015 9:48:30 PM
I hate this not being able to sleep my ankle is hurting cause of the rain I have four screws in my ankle

3/13/2015 9:26:12 PM
I am up and down can't sleep the full night

3/13/2015 7:51:35 PM
I been up and down since 7:15pm

3/13/2015 5:08:11 PM
Sitting here being bored

3/13/2015 4:11:21 PM
So I guess iwont be going anywhere for the weekend

3/13/2015 3:42:29 PM
I am so annoyed at myself I am sorry Sir BrianSL

3/13/2015 2:27:13 PM
So maybe moving back here was the right thing to do cause I am near my family and yeah I have had a rough time settling in cause I broke my ankle not even a week being back but I am okay who wants to talk I am ready to start over to make my life better

3/13/2015 1:49:59 PM
I WANT MY ANKLE AND FOOT BACK

3/13/2015 12:56:26 PM
Okay so just got my water bill in and I am so shocked its 11.76

3/13/2015 12:25:00 PM
I am bored thinking about trying to cook it will be challenging considering I am on crutches

3/13/2015 12:10:16 PM
Well awake and bored

3/13/2015 10:51:11 AM
4/6/15 I get the cast off and get xrays done if everything looks good I get a walking boot to wear I can't wait

3/12/2015 7:09:54 PM
So goodnight all I got to get to bed

3/12/2015 7:01:26 PM
I am doing better now

3/12/2015 5:37:10 PM
Well trash bag over cast duct tape to hold it in place and take a shower and take my meds and go to bed

3/12/2015 4:29:29 PM
I am sorry....

3/12/2015 3:55:59 PM
I feel so fuckin stupid all I am asking for is one more chance

3/12/2015 3:41:31 PM
What ever

3/12/2015 2:27:21 PM
My Master is getting stricter

3/12/2015 2:16:49 PM
Okay so i am getting nervious

3/12/2015 1:48:14 PM
I am thinking and I can't wait till Friday which is tomorrow and this is the biggest weekend of my life

3/12/2015 1:18:27 PM
I am yawning still and yet this weekend I have to be up at 6am and in bed at 8 pm

3/12/2015 12:49:42 PM
Well watching my Master play the game and while I am on here being bored trying to think what to wear tomorrow and an outfit to pack so yeah I don't know anyone want to talk

3/12/2015 12:10:56 PM
So I am thinking about playing the game

3/12/2015 11:13:59 AM
Don't feel like picking up my phone so leave a message at the tone.....

3/12/2015 11:05:43 AM
I am so blah today I leave sometime tomorrow to my trainer's house for the weekend

3/12/2015 10:45:50 AM
I am going crazy my mind is playing tricks on me

3/12/2015 10:25:58 AM
I am eating cheese

3/12/2015 10:11:35 AM
Damn I'm falling asleep on and off

3/12/2015 8:12:52 AM
I am almost packed all I got left is clothes and meds and I will be ready

3/12/2015 7:33:23 AM
I want this Cass off

3/12/2015 7:17:25 AM
I am bored got yo start packing today to be ready tomorrow

3/12/2015 6:28:34 AM
I am so blah I can scream I have today and tomorrow sometime I won't be on here till probley Sunday night

3/12/2015 6:08:23 AM
Iam bout to pass out again

3/12/2015 5:40:49 AM
I am so tired I could sleep all day if I really wanted to

3/12/2015 4:50:44 AM
I am okay today but people before you message me read my profile it plainly states that IAM IN TRAINING WITH BRIANSL AND OWNED BY MASTERDARK22

3/12/2015 4:07:49 AM
So o am awake after a bad night lastnight

3/11/2015 9:05:55 PM
Why can't Friday come fast enough I mean seriously I am going insane not being able to listen to my music till after the weekend

3/11/2015 9:00:23 PM
So anyways I am calm and meloed out

3/11/2015 8:25:01 PM
I am feeling sick to my stomach and I ate with my meds

3/11/2015 8:08:12 PM
Can't stop thinking of what this weekend may bring

3/11/2015 7:56:01 PM
I hate not being able to run from punishment

3/11/2015 7:44:47 PM
My foot itches but I can't itch cause of the cass

3/11/2015 7:19:32 PM
I am letting my mind run wild and I think its making me sick so yeah

3/11/2015 7:07:38 PM
My nerves are so bad that I feel nausea this ain't good I guess it is cause its getting closer to Friday but oh well I don't know when he will be here Friday all I know is I still need to find what to wear Friday and pack for the return home its hard yo decide cause I am in a Cass

3/11/2015 6:53:03 PM
WHY CANT THE WEEKEND BE HERE ALREADY......

3/11/2015 6:44:11 PM
I am thinking about to much I am going to be thinking a lot tonight

3/11/2015 6:39:48 PM
I can't sleep

3/11/2015 6:15:36 PM
MY ANKLE ITCHES BUT CANT CAUSE OF THE CASS

3/11/2015 6:08:59 PM
I am just going to be me

3/11/2015 5:52:01 PM
BE LUCKY I AM HOLDING MY FUCKIN TOUNG STUPID FUCK....IF ANYONE HAS A PROBLEM WITH ME CONTACT MASTERDARK22 AND BRIANSL FUCK HEADS

3/11/2015 4:54:40 PM
I am okay I think I am going to go to bed and sleep through these last hours with my Master before my weekend with my mentor

3/11/2015 4:48:51 PM
I am bout to snap again

3/11/2015 4:11:40 PM
Yup this night and last month andthis month is going to suck and part of next month as well and probley until summer is going to suck all because i broke my ankle

3/11/2015 4:06:07 PM
I won't lie I am craving my moms homemade cheese cake and fried chicken mash potatoes green been gravy and bisquits

3/11/2015 3:56:49 PM
I FINALLY SNAPPED AND DIDNT MEAN TO

3/11/2015 3:49:54 PM
SO BORED CANT WAIT TILL SUMMER CANT WAIT TO WALK WITHOUT CRUTCHES AGAIN PLEASE SOMEONE ENTERTAIN ME

3/11/2015 3:31:55 PM
People with a big fuckin ego bothers me

3/11/2015 3:16:38 PM
I been behaved all day so far I been listening and my Master has not had to get onto me I am so proud of myself

3/11/2015 3:06:21 PM
Watching cops reloaded for this hour got to go to bed at 8pm tonight and wake up about 5am to watch my favorite show law&order svu and then Friday my mentor BrianSL will pick me up for the weekend

3/11/2015 2:57:11 PM
Okay I am hating crutches and this damn cass it flippin itches

3/11/2015 2:41:56 PM
He he he I am hyper and the day is almost over for me heard the landlord jumping down downstairs neighbors to get out today cause they already had a 30 day eviction notice that's what you get for not paying rent

3/11/2015 2:14:15 PM
IAM HYPER HYPER HYPEELR MTN DEW IS MY DRUG

3/11/2015 1:29:49 PM
Had to take another mood stabilizer for my bipolar hope it kicks in soon

3/11/2015 12:55:29 PM
Grrrr leg cramps on my bad leg

3/11/2015 12:39:19 PM
I am bored I thinking about writing some stuff and just try to relax

3/11/2015 12:36:33 PM
I hate being bipolar

3/11/2015 12:28:26 PM
Getting more and more hyper

3/11/2015 11:56:23 AM
My bipolar is in and out of check today guess I got to take another mood stablizer

3/11/2015 11:37:52 AM
I am hyper I forgot what mtn dew does to me and I still have a half of a 52oz left

3/11/2015 11:28:51 AM
My ankle itches really bad and I can't itch it cause of the cast

3/11/2015 11:03:05 AM
Grrr I am goin insane

3/11/2015 10:57:17 AM
Laying down in bed just thinking of some stuff being bored trying to think of something to do

3/11/2015 10:47:34 AM
DRINKING CODE RED MTN DEW YUMMY TO MY TUMMY

3/11/2015 9:38:52 AM
Master is back and I am so happy

3/11/2015 9:24:29 AM
I need advice anyone who has had a mother who has a boyfriend that you hardley get along with if that's you please message me

3/11/2015 9:04:31 AM
I am alone this sucks I can't wait till my Master gets homes

3/11/2015 8:54:54 AM
So I am bored watching TV wish my Master was at home

3/11/2015 7:25:35 AM
HEY PEOPLE GET THIS THROUGH YOUR HEAD I HAVE A MENTOR AND A MASTER SO DONT ASK IF I HAVE CAM I AM HERE TO PLEASE TWO MEN MY MASTER AND MY MENTOR AND IF IF THEY DECIDE WHO EVER THEY CHOOSE FOR ME TO SERVE SO DONT MESSAGE ME ABOUT SEX OR CAM OR ANY NASTY PICS OF YOUR DICKS THANK YOU

3/11/2015 7:06:35 AM
Alone for a few hours my Master had to go do some things with a family friend so no one to talk to all alone

3/11/2015 6:43:13 AM
Anyone have any ideas on how to stay awake

3/11/2015 6:36:18 AM
So bored

3/11/2015 5:40:42 AM
So today I have nothing to do I think I'll be either playing video game or sleeping maybe I am going to ask my mentor and my Master

3/11/2015 4:52:21 AM
So I have today and tomorrow and Friday until my mentor gets off work and picks me up so yeah I am going to be bored

3/11/2015 4:41:39 AM
I am still tired but If I don't get use to this I'll be in trouble this weekend

3/11/2015 4:20:58 AM
So I have no plans today ass finally stopped hurting

3/11/2015 4:03:45 AM
Well I am awake for another long day

3/10/2015 7:05:44 PM
Okay I am being bored please give me a boring chat so I can fall asleep

3/10/2015 6:50:45 PM
So tomorrow is wensday and that is lesser hours to spend with my Master before going to my mentors house for the weekend if your wondering I am ony meds and can't fall asleep

3/10/2015 6:06:25 PM
I am blah can't fall asleep

3/10/2015 2:57:23 PM
Okay I am getting use to the cast

3/10/2015 2:28:07 PM
Okay so my mentor is right...

3/10/2015 2:23:37 PM
NO MUSIC IS DRIVING ME UP THE WALL

3/10/2015 2:14:54 PM
IAM SO BORED NOTHING TO DO

3/10/2015 1:58:39 PM
Okay so I been getting about 5-6 every morning and yet today I just want to go to sleep till Friday but I can't so who wants to chat

3/10/2015 1:54:01 PM
I am so bored.....

3/10/2015 1:39:49 PM
I just wrote love honor and obey on my cast

3/10/2015 12:47:53 PM
So I have the rest of today wednesday and Thursday then Friday I go with my mentor for the weekend

3/10/2015 11:35:15 AM
I hate being in a cast but hey is OK its colorful and me like it

3/10/2015 11:07:17 AM
I feel drained of all energey

3/10/2015 10:10:34 AM
Today got at least 12 staples out and got a cast

3/10/2015 9:47:32 AM
Well I am home in a cast for four weeks

3/10/2015 9:28:59 AM
Well I am in a neon green cast for 4 weeks

3/10/2015 7:41:22 AM
Well waiting in the waiting room at the drs office I can't wait to get out of here

3/10/2015 7:04:06 AM
Grrr I want to scream so loud that everyone can hear me.....

3/10/2015 6:47:12 AM
I am bored

3/10/2015 6:22:21 AM
Its almost 8:30am and I am about to fall asleep

3/10/2015 6:11:32 AM
I think when I get home I am going to go back to bed

3/10/2015 6:07:39 AM
I am dressed and ready to get these stitches out of my ankle

3/10/2015 5:56:08 AM
Got to get dressed

3/10/2015 5:21:29 AM
Well think about 8 I am going to get dressed and wait till my mom gets here and go to the Dr and get stitches out and maybe hopefully just a black boot but Dr says maybe it will need a cast

3/10/2015 3:51:02 AM
I am awake its 5:50am

3/9/2015 6:32:26 PM
I am awake I am waiting for meds to kick in but not working yet

3/9/2015 5:17:40 PM
Laying in bed trieing to get my ass to stop hurting but its not working guess he got his point across thank you Sir

3/9/2015 4:06:00 PM
Its been at least 5 hours since my ass has been whooped and I still can feel the welts

3/9/2015 3:41:18 PM
Just got done eating and my Master bought me Reese's sticks and cookie cr? Hershey's and some food and 6 Gatorades right now I am drinking green Apple Gatorade

3/9/2015 11:27:26 AM
So thanks to someone for coming over I am thinking of a lot of things I can't go to sleep my ass hurts to much

3/9/2015 9:19:33 AM
Yes I love being called names by Doms who know me yes I like to be choked yes I enjoy a spanking every now and then And yes I am only 21 and I have one tattoo its a heart with BDSM written inside the heart and yes I am a big girl but if you had to test different meds to find the ones that work you would be to I am losing weight and I have lost a baby last month the egg was stuck in my right tube and they had to remove the tube And the egg yes i have anxiety depression and bipolar but BDSM is the only thing that keeps me sane so before you judge get to know me as a person

3/9/2015 9:03:29 AM
BORED AS FUCK NEED TO STAY AWAKE BUT I KEEP YAWNING

3/9/2015 6:32:07 AM
OK I am going to be posting a lot cause sometime Friday through Sunday I will not have my phone so anyway want to talk to me I have until sometime Friday so anyway message me if you want

3/9/2015 5:57:54 AM
Am I the only one who has these weird fantasy's I have yet not told my Master I am thinking about writing them down but then again I don't want to so I don't know

3/9/2015 5:29:54 AM
I am bored and can't sleep trying to get use to staying up till 8pm for this weekend

3/9/2015 4:25:10 AM
So I am awake but some how still yawning

3/9/2015 3:43:14 AM
What a wonderful start to a wonderful day

3/9/2015 3:08:21 AM
Damn went to bed at 8 woke up at 5 some things not right

3/8/2015 5:29:11 PM
I am blah I think I am about to take my meds and go to bed at eight tonight

3/8/2015 4:29:16 PM
I am so tired and its only 6:30pm

3/8/2015 3:49:45 PM
Okay I can't stop thinking about what may happen this weekend

3/8/2015 3:14:52 PM
So anyway I have to try to prepare myself for this weekend.....

3/8/2015 10:20:17 AM
Grrrrrrr

3/8/2015 9:29:20 AM
I have nothing to do so I am lost in thought and I shouldn't think to hard about things or it will make my nerves worse but anyway anyone want to say hi don't be shy I will answer if its not rude

3/8/2015 9:20:47 AM
Killing time

3/8/2015 9:08:58 AM
My head is pounding my ass hurts lol

3/8/2015 8:38:06 AM
I am bored ready for this next weekend

3/8/2015 8:10:24 AM
Its a waiting game I hate waiting

3/8/2015 7:55:06 AM
Turn me over wear my ass out make me beg make think twice before I talk back.....this is what I want to tell my Master

3/8/2015 7:01:31 AM
Geeze wize Its to early there's nothing on TV and I am bored out of my mind I having got a chance to ask my Master to whoop me so yeah

3/8/2015 6:48:45 AM
Anyway I am up for the day....hahaha I don't think I can stay up all day but I am going to try my hardest

3/8/2015 6:33:35 AM
I go to the Dr Tuesday to get stitches out

3/8/2015 6:11:19 AM
ITS OFFICAL IAM SCARED

3/8/2015 5:36:04 AM
(Sad face) I am almost out of soda....I guess it will be the last soda I have for the month I am going away this weekend so I won't be posting anything cause I am leaving my phone here with my Master I got to say goodbye to my music Friday and go without it till Sunday oh well

3/8/2015 4:11:26 AM
I am back to being myself yesterday it hurt but today is a new day I miss getting spanked so I'll ask my Master for it....but I am so happy Tuesday I get my stitches out of my ankle and I am going to try to keep it out of a cast

3/8/2015 4:05:44 AM
GOOD EVERYONE I AM HAPPY AND WITH CRUTCHES FOR BALANCE I CAN PUT A LITTLE WEIGHT ON MY BROKEN FOOT WELL ITS ACTUALLY MY ANKLE

3/8/2015 1:30:22 AM
These thoughts running through my mind won't settle down I slowly feel my old self fading away to find this submission coming out so strong I am scared to show of though

3/8/2015 1:15:09 AM
Well went to bed and I am awake again so anyone who wants to talk don't be scared just shoot mea message if ya want to

3/7/2015 9:52:21 PM
I am singing can't sleep

3/7/2015 6:20:46 PM
So bored

3/7/2015 4:28:13 PM
Today is my beat friends bday but he's not here to celebrate it but Sir Jason Grossman you were a great Dom and a best friend I wish you was here but thank you for fighting for our country and saving your squad

3/7/2015 2:04:01 PM
Just being bored as my ankle is spasming

3/6/2015 11:04:51 PM
I am such a dumbass

3/6/2015 10:32:54 PM
I am so bored think after this TV show I'll go to bed

3/6/2015 8:57:43 PM
So I am bored and I am so not entertained

3/6/2015 7:49:24 PM
I am blah

3/6/2015 11:57:59 AM
Took two of my anxiety meds now I am starting to calm my nerves down

3/6/2015 10:58:06 AM
I am so fuckin stupid haven't eat in since last night and I forgot I have to take my sertelene meds with food now I am so nauseated I feel like throwing up this ain't good can't get out of bed can't sit up with out everything spinning

3/6/2015 10:26:26 AM
IAm so nervous about next weekend I am nauseated and my nerves are so bad I makeing myself sick

3/6/2015 8:59:06 AM
I'm just in need of a spanking a real hard one

3/6/2015 8:37:26 AM
To anyone near springdale Arkansas let's talk

3/6/2015 8:32:55 AM
There's one thing I don't like and that's a fuckin threat if going to say something say it to my fuckin face

3/6/2015 5:31:52 AM
I am so bored.....anyone want to chat

3/6/2015 5:25:08 AM
I have so many things to express but I am so ashamed to express these things

3/6/2015 5:03:47 AM
I WANT TO BECOME A PAIN SLUT I WANT TO BE ABLE TO PLEASE MY MASTER WITH EVERY FUCKIN HOLE

3/6/2015 5:02:15 AM
I WANT TO BECOME A PAIN SLUT

3/6/2015 3:40:50 AM
Its almost 6am and I am thinking of a lot of stuff and so I sit here listening to music I need to say some things to my Master And my mentor so I am trying to figure out how to word it

3/6/2015 2:55:00 AM
There are some idiots on here

3/6/2015 2:46:41 AM
Is it weird that I am starting to listen the first time told to do something I find myself breaking out of my brat shell

3/6/2015 1:03:16 AM
I am here for his pleasure I am nothing but a set of holes for his use and Anyone he wants to share with I am a worthless cunt who deserves punishment or what he says I deserve I love being slapped and I love being helpless at his mercy I keep my head forward eyes down for I am not worthy to make eye contact with a Dom this slut loves pain even when I am crying if I don't use my safe word than I am okay and I hope that one day I would stop using a safe word

3/5/2015 10:41:47 PM
I am so sore i feel like I am going to pass out

3/5/2015 10:35:12 PM
I am so sore I came 22 times with my Master and his permission

3/5/2015 9:07:53 PM
Made up with my Master after we talked and his property hurts

3/5/2015 9:50:03 AM
Well my meds are starting to work I am starting to calm down but it still don't change the fact that my live for my Dom is fading away I don't know what to dowhis it was the 13th already

3/5/2015 7:35:50 AM
Okay so I ripped up the contract out of anger toward my Dom and I don't what to do

3/5/2015 6:34:09 AM
So its almost 8:40 am and I am still awake hurting but I just don't know what to do I am tired of being ignored by my Master whenall he wants to do all day is sleep and then bitches at me and on top of that he smoke cigs like there fuckin candy and bitches at me cause he runs out i am the one paying the bill its not him it is me

3/5/2015 5:14:37 AM
I am not going to lie I am not the prefect girl I get things twisted in my head I even forget to address a Dom right sometimes but that doesn't change the fact I am a bottom sometimes I think I am charge but deep down inside I know I am so not in charge but thinking never killed anyone so before you judge me get to know me yes I have bipolar depression anxiety and its hard for me to fall asleep at night but I am me and if you can't accept that than don't message me don't waste my time or yours its as simple as that thank you for reading

3/5/2015 4:16:46 AM
Fuck everyone on here that shows disrespect to people they don't even know if you don't like something on someone else's profile than don't look at it its that simple now I heard a saying once and it goes with all the cocaine in the world your nose is still in my bussiness why is that?

3/5/2015 4:03:15 AM
Well I can be a good girl but I just get so annoyed with my Master

3/5/2015 3:30:46 AM
MY CANDY LOL I LOVE EATING CANDY EARLY IN THE AM CAUSE BY LUNCH ILL HAVE A SURGER AND CAFFEINE CRASH

3/5/2015 2:40:14 AM
Well almost five am up watching TV being bored thinking of how much I love when I am helpless tied down

3/5/2015 12:46:51 AM
Okay so its almost 3am and I am wide awake

3/5/2015 12:31:58 AM
So its a new day its 2:32am and that means 8 days till the 13th And before that I get stitches out of my ankle and I already can put weight on it so yeah let's chat people

3/4/2015 11:47:46 PM
I am so awake

3/4/2015 11:17:23 PM
I am so not able to sleep I can't get my mind to stop running

3/4/2015 10:21:06 PM
IAM A NIGHTMARE DRESSED LIKE A DAYDREAM

3/4/2015 8:27:54 PM
I am so horny and NY Master won't have sex with me

3/4/2015 8:10:50 PM
I am so bored have nothing to do meds are slowly kicking in wish I had someone to talk to

3/4/2015 7:43:41 PM
I am waiting for my meds to kick in so I can go to bed but my mind is running non stop

3/4/2015 3:34:30 PM
I can't wait till Tuesday I get stitches out of my ankle and then 13-15 I get out of this apartment yay

3/4/2015 1:20:09 AM
I was sleeping so good and then I find my self awake I just don't know what to do

3/3/2015 4:05:20 PM
I am enjoying my music cause next weekend I won't have any and next Tuesday at ten I get the stitches out from my ankle

3/3/2015 11:19:54 AM
My ass and right tit hurts but hey what you get when you don't know how to shut up right? my trainer is cool though he's strict and for some odd reason keeps my pussy wet

3/3/2015 7:08:56 AM
Okay so the 13-15th I am not going to have my phone so I won't be on collar space

3/3/2015 12:35:46 AM
ANOTHER NIGHT OF FUCKIN TEARS I LOVE HIM SO FUCKIN MUCH BUT ITS LIKE WE ARE FALLING APART

3/3/2015 12:24:12 AM
Why does my Dom just point out what I do wrong he ain't no saint either but what the fuck ever iam pissed and I have no one to talk to about it GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!

3/2/2015 11:58:12 PM
Great got a fantasy running through my head and I am to embarrassed to tell my Master it so what do I do I am in a jammed pickel maybe I'll just leave it alone and it might just go awau ...who am I kidding my fantasy's don't just go away what am I to do I guess I'll have to come forward sooner or later but right now is not the time it 1:58am March 3rd

3/2/2015 9:50:59 PM
I FIND IT KINDA FUNNY I FIND IT KINDA SAD THAT THE DREAMS IN WHICH IAM DYING ARE THE BEST I HAVE HAD

3/2/2015 7:57:55 PM
IAM SO FREAKIN BORED LISTENING TO MUSIC ITS GOING TO BE ANOTHER ALL NIGHTER

3/2/2015 6:18:27 PM
Okay I am disappearing next weekend lol

3/2/2015 3:19:18 PM
My ass and nipples hurt

3/2/2015 3:17:04 AM
Okay hey people I am just saying this I get along with everyone but when you act like a stuck up PRICK dont even waste my time I am looking for FRIENDS THAT DONT JUDGE

3/2/2015 1:37:08 AM
I am so bored nothing to do

3/1/2015 11:07:37 PM
SO BORING SOMEONE PLEASE TALK TO ME HAVE NOTHING TO DO

3/1/2015 8:59:08 PM
I am so freak in bored someone please talk to me

3/1/2015 7:31:13 AM
I want to scream I broke my ankle February 3rd been laid up in bed since can't do anything and I am going insane

2/28/2015 11:14:01 PM
Living back in springdale Arkansas and with my Master we are looking for friends that can come see us and hangout that's into bdsm

1/19/2015 11:48:17 AM
Sorry guys can't really sit sown and update profile me and my Master will be moving in February to a new apartment back in my home town to be near my family I am going to be very happy these next few days are going to be stressful for me to get everthing ready to be moved that we are not going to use

1/18/2015 6:06:19 PM
Going to be moving to Arkansas

1/15/2015 5:03:55 PM
Bored as fuck

1/12/2015 8:42:03 AM
okay been talking to my Master and he said that he thinks that it would be best to train me into becoming a slave so yeah I wouldn't mind taking advice from anyone right now

12/20/2014 4:35:27 AM
well y Master has learned new torture techniques and yeah I enjoy it but wow it is also intensed but the best part about it is I am pleasing him by takeing what he wants to do with me and I am smileing about it  but anyway I got to get some rest before he gets back cause I don't know what he has planed for me upon his return have a good day readers and if you want to tell me some more torture techniques to tell my Master by all means inbox me and ill tell him if I think he will like it so tell next time.....

12/14/2014 4:50:07 AM
well I am listening to music and playing video games with my Master

12/10/2014 7:56:22 PM
okay so I have had a long day today I think I may go to be real soon don't know what the point of being online if no one talks to you

12/10/2014 10:49:35 AM
hey another day and I am cold so I lay here on the couch covered up with a warm blanket how is everyone today me I am doing okay going to color another poster and hang it up on the wall with the others so hey if you want to talk inbox me I have nothing better to do today other than watch movies and play video games

12/4/2014 6:46:02 AM
hey ya collarspace how is everyone so far me still feel drained of all my energy so here I sit updating this journal

12/4/2014 3:04:58 AM
okay so these last few days I have felt draind of all my energy I can barely stay awake a few hours I think I am coming down sick so I am going to rest a lil bit and see how I feel

12/3/2014 2:06:46 PM
the days of my childhood have come and gone but yet i seem to be
on the same road i was on when you were alive everyone said i would amount
to nothing but you never gave up on me and i wont give up on you
so what are you waiting for take my hand kiss these sorrows away
cause i am high on your memories living life with the one
you said was right for me so please tell me i am living in a dream and you are really
still alive this world dont seem right with out you so i sit here day dreaming of your
face sometimes i can feel you holding me at night i can feel your warm breath on my neck
and the cold air of you whispering in my ear telling me everything is ok
sometimes i dont believe that but hey who am i to jump to conclusion you
had taught me better and showed me how to smile in the toughest hours of life
so i sit here thinking to myself how is this going to work and i remember what you
use to tell me to smile and say i can do what my mind is set out to do
cause only failures quit and only winners trys and trys again so here
i am standing tall making a life out here in the world without my mom
telling em how to live my life so why dont you take my hand and show me what
it feels like to dance with an angel once again so i stand here waiting in the
rain to see if you show up like you always did so far my hopes
and dreams are fading out maybe this is the way god punishes me for being so selfish
i lay down in the wet grass and look up at the cloudy night and start to sing
forever and ever i will always love you no matter how far away you are
the days are fading and i am getting older if only you were here to see me now
nothing keeps me down but not having you here to hold and to touch you once again

12/3/2014 6:14:36 AM
okay so I am sitting here on the couch thinking like I always do before I go to bed and my Master is asleep and I am on here being bored when I could be playing the video game system but instead I find myself on here updating this stupid journal that nobody reads so I am just going to say it I got a new collar for an early Christmas gift and its awesome my Master has this friend that's not into the lifestyle and I want to hurt really bad he is getting on my nerves and is pushing his luck with me but instead I have to hold my breath and another thing the other day me and my Master was at vid cycle in waterloo and this lady looks at me and says I like your collar and all I could say was thank you with a big smile on my face 

11/28/2014 5:41:39 AM
okay so I am sitting here thinking of a lot of things and I just cant help but to think how can I make my Master happy

11/28/2014 4:28:04 AM
Okay so I lay here thinking of so many things and my life is about to take a turn for worse or better who knows anymore I am lost but so far I think what I told my master might help us even more but who knows anybody who wants to talk inbox me I'll be up for awhile I can't sleep I am listening to music on YouTube so let's chat if ya want to that is

11/27/2014 10:52:35 PM
ok so iam being teased

11/21/2014 4:11:10 PM
it is cold and tired so I don't know what to do

11/20/2014 9:31:34 AM
well things are taking a spin and I am loving it thanks to my Master and our friends I am learning a lot so I am awake with a hang over and regretting a lot of stuff I pulled my ass has welts from my Masters firm hand but I cant help but smile about it cause he loves me enough to correct me when I am in the wrong so I am loving life as I know it as a 21 year old now when my money comes in I am going to buy a lottery ticket cause up here in iowa you have to be 21 to play the lottery any one want to talk hit me up I am wiling to talk to anyone

11/20/2014 2:46:18 AM
so I am laying here on the couch thinking of everything and I think its time for change I love my Master and I have this feeling like there is something more I can do to please him I need someone to talk to that might be able to give me advice so please message me

11/20/2014 1:31:32 AM
its about 330am and I  hav a major headache and I am feeling the after math of drinking the night before

11/19/2014 10:13:16 PM
that was a BAD ASS BIRTHDAY THANKS TO MY MASTER AND OUR FRIEND I AM A HAPPY 21 YEAR OLD

11/19/2014 5:25:13 PM
ALCHOL CHECK MUSIC CHECK FRIENDS CHECK TIME TO GET WASTED

11/19/2014 11:29:47 AM
today I turn 21 a I am so happy

11/18/2014 8:37:05 PM
okay so iam laying on the couch watching looney tunes and looking to talk to more people I turn 21 tomorrow and iam happy

11/18/2014 6:40:55 PM
so i am sitting watching neighbors its a great movie any one want to chat hmu I am willing to talk

11/17/2014 8:39:18 PM
well I have been sick all day I am watching rush hour three being bored and stomach hurting and cramping on top of everything else so anyway if you want to talk message me have a great night

11/16/2014 2:39:56 PM
I am sore and plain out exhausted I didn't expect that today lol so anyway I am learning and I am serious about learning so iam going to take what is handed to me lol well that is one way to put it lol

11/15/2014 10:07:12 PM
i cant sleep but I have to get some rest for tomorrow so what do I do I am not sure what to do

11/15/2014 6:41:40 PM
so iam laying down after a hard day of cleaning and I am so nervious about tomorrow and but I don't want to tell my Master so yeah here I am I want to talk to new people

11/15/2014 12:24:22 PM
today is cleaning day in our household and I am exhausted having company tomarrow I cant wait it will be the first time in the same room as two Doms I am kinda nervious and yet excited as well

11/14/2014 8:47:43 PM
looking for new friends to chat with I am tired but I cant fall asleep so hmu lets chat if you want to that is

11/14/2014 12:14:49 PM
well  my birthday is Wednesday and I have a surprise sunday so I am happy and excited so here I am waiting I got to clean up the living room and I cant wait

11/11/2014 7:13:20 PM
okay so I got a big surprise and yeah I have talent lol so I cant wait till the 23rd or 30th

11/10/2014 2:51:54 PM
okay well I have been a brat all day I been getting punished left and right so iam not looking forward to what happens next

11/10/2014 1:43:43 PM
okay well I just had a taste of public humlitaion

11/10/2014 11:58:36 AM
okauy so I was on youtube recently and I found a video of a stupid woman who claims monster is the work of the devil well I am goin gto state this I drink monster every chance I get and that woman is bat shit crazy she claims the M stands for 666 which if you look at the can closely two lines connect BFC stands for BIG FUCKIN CAN  so I am sitting here thinking to myself how many people actually think that monster stands for devil work I mean get real people its just a fuckin drink

11/10/2014 10:30:23 AM
OKAY PEOPLE I HAVE FOUND SOMEONE CLOSE TO ME TO HELP WITH TRAINING ME SO PLEASE DONT ASK ABOUT THAT I WILL ACCEPT ADVICE FROM DOMS DOMMES OR SUBS OR SLAVES BUT DO NOT ASK ABOUT TRAINING ME IF YOU MESSAGE ME BEING RUDE YOU WILL BE BLOCKED IF YOU DARE TO TRY YOUR LUCK THEN BRING IT ON MY MASTER ALSO SEES ALL THE MESSAGES THAT COME IN AND GOES OUT

11/7/2014 9:18:43 PM
my body is sore and my mind is in a daze everything is blurry lol that is what you get when you get used for 20 orgasims

11/7/2014 1:21:02 PM
so I think I pleased my Master and shocked him he used my mouth to his pleasure and it made me feel good

11/7/2014 10:55:08 AM
oaky so I have been a big brat and I am now on eye contact restrictions which sucks but I don't care he will evendually tell me to look at him and when I do it will be back fire on him

11/6/2014 9:45:13 PM
so iam sitting here just thinking and all these thoughts are so confusing I am determined to change and make my Master proud and happy of me so any advice is taking in consideration

11/6/2014 8:28:47 PM
okay so I got a shock for the night and it made me happy my Master knows how to make me smile and makes me feel better about myself

11/6/2014 10:08:21 AM
so there is a lot of fakes on here if you can not respect me and my confront zone please don't message me if I am not confrontable than you shouldn't push me I have morals and RESPECT is a two way street you have to give RESPECT TO EARN RESPECT my momma taught me that. so other than that if your respectful and approach me in a right maner than I WILL message you back have a great day..

11/5/2014 9:14:45 PM
ok so I was a bad submissive tonight and got punished I fought against it and it turned out bad for me so I lay here in bed just thinking about how things could've turned out better than it had and what I could've done differently and yeah my ass is sore.....peace out love and hate that is what makes the world go around

11/5/2014 4:31:04 PM
so everything is changing before my eyes I can barley take in the changes as I sit here and wait things out I cant help but notice the world around me is still spinning things just hit me hard my Master is so calm as I flip out about the changes happening right in front of me so I slowly grab his hand and allow hi o guide me through all that we stand for I sing my song ounce again and I feel like a different person and I look around me and relize he still is beside me holding my hand every step of the way so I swallow my pride and admit to myself and everyone around me that I was brought into this world to be a submissive yeah I am a brat sometimes but that is no excuse of my actions I am a submissive iam suppose to be on my best behavior everyday and every waking moment so here I stand and say I am going to change with my Masters  guidance I know I will make it through every tough moment

10/28/2014 10:19:07 PM
well this girl is going to bed she is exhausted and can barely keep her eyes open thanks to her meds so yall have a great night ill answer my inbox when I wake up peace and love

10/27/2014 3:27:24 PM
ok so my pc did an update I am back online with it so anyone who wants to chat I am back hahahaha

10/26/2014 3:58:15 PM
My PC is updating....I am so bored

10/25/2014 4:28:45 PM
LLOK IF YOU AINT GOING TO TALK TO ME DONT JUST KEEP VIEWING MY PROFILE I HATE STALKERS THANKS

10/25/2014 1:01:10 AM
ok so here it is my profile states what I am looking for so don't make yourself look stupid by asking me what I am looking for till I find what I am looking for then that's what it will state otherwise keep an eye out for changes to my profile thanks for reading my journal love and peace

7/12/2014 3:15:46 PM
IAM OWNED!!!!!!!!!

4/9/2014 9:37:33 AM
Well i have a drs appointment today monday tuesday and friday fun fun

3/29/2014 2:36:35 PM
Well what can i say....

3/23/2014 11:11:33 PM
Best 3 damn orgasms EVER!!!!!!!

3/23/2014 8:52:25 PM
So anyway...I'm missing my mom.... :-(

3/23/2014 6:11:26 PM
So i try to be clingy to my Master and i get do u have permission to be clingy so i say no and he yanks away.... :-(

3/23/2014 4:48:41 PM
Well I'm tired and my throat hurts

3/22/2014 8:18:38 PM
Doing. just dandy learning a lot and trying to keep behaving...

3/17/2014 12:21:53 AM
A problem. Occurred tonight and i don't understand why

3/15/2014 11:42:00 AM
Well I'm going to go take a nap and maybe just maybe this headache will go away my Master is sick and my head hurts just wonderful. can things get worse?

3/14/2014 3:58:06 PM
Well iam going to be on my best behavior my Master is sick

3/14/2014 7:48:34 AM
Iam exhausted nt feeling well

3/13/2014 6:31:30 PM
BOREDOM HELP ME I'M SP BORED

3/13/2014 3:26:17 PM
Okay I'm bored

3/12/2014 3:57:54 PM
Eating a lollipop

3/11/2014 12:03:01 PM
For ounce i caught myself obeying

3/11/2014 2:43:54 AM
CAN'T SLEEP MY MASTER IS PASSED OUT I'M SO TIRED BUT CAN'T SLEEP WHAT TO DO WAT TO DO......

3/10/2014 7:38:36 PM
My bowling league. tonight sucked mother fuckin monkey balls i am pissed

3/10/2014 12:01:11 AM
Well this morning i don't feel like being a brat i just feel like behaving don't know why but i just feel that way

3/9/2014 9:45:55 PM
WHAT THE FUCK EVER WHY SHOULD I TRY WHEN HE DON'T PUT EFFORT IN...ANSWER THAT FUCK QUESTION I THINK I'M DONE TRYING WHY TRY ANYMORE. NO MATTER THE EFFORT. HE HAS MORE TIME WITH OTHER GIRLS AND VIDEO. GAMES THAN ME SO YEAH WAT WOULD YALL DO

3/9/2014 7:11:37 PM
So i think i may stay up late tonight annoying my Master

3/9/2014 3:54:23 PM
Well i think its time for change i think ill start by saying noone scares me and then i will start by showing more respect to my Master

3/8/2014 8:22:45 PM
Bored my Master is playing video games the tv is to fuckin loud i can't sleep..iam trying to ignore my arousal so i guess tell him to turn down the fuckin tv so i can sleep if that's possible. with my nerves shot doubt i can but it's worth a shot

3/8/2014 1:39:27 PM
Well I'm laying in bed thinking i challenged a Dom and now i regret it i keep apologizing. like there's no tomorrow but i doubt its going to help any guess ill have to lay here and think bout what i done and wonder whats going to happen to me.....

3/8/2014 9:01:31 AM
What should i do? iam going crazy my Master is with his friend i don't know what to do

3/8/2014 2:29:32 AM
DEAR MOUTH WHY DO YOU INSIST ON CONTINUE. RUNNING WHEN YOU ALREADY DUG YOUR GRAVE...WHEN WILL WE LEARN...

3/7/2014 12:46:51 PM
How am i suppose to act? Please someone fuckin fill me in here i am fuckin lost

3/7/2014 3:54:39 AM
Dear sleep where da fuck did u go i hate being up at 6 fuckin a clock. in the morning

3/6/2014 9:52:22 PM
I try so hard to please him but we been fighting i don't know wat to do from here please someone help me

3/6/2014 9:49:45 PM
DON'T BRING A KNIFE TO A GUN FIGHT YOU'LL LOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

3/6/2014 4:33:37 PM
I guess I'm okay need friends to talk to a lot of feeli.gs going thru my mind and boddy i guess i shpuld stay away from everyone

3/4/2014 8:22:06 PM
Been sick these last couple. of days. But. i will. survive

3/2/2014 4:18:51 PM
I'm bored and running a fever

3/1/2014 5:01:06 PM
Just got my ass whooped me don't likey

2/28/2014 9:31:58 PM
Died my hair blue....

2/28/2014 6:27:01 PM
I'm bored....looking to chat lookin for friends

2/28/2014 11:25:48 AM
I'm bored.....and helpless

2/27/2014 4:45:00 PM
I am bored my Master is at. work I'm not feeling good i feel like i can't relax my Master keeps telling me relax question is how can i relax when there's a dumb cunt always around causing bs drama....i wish i knew how to train myself into a better submissive i would so do it just for my Master

2/27/2014 12:05:19 PM
Tired nt feeling good think i may go back to bed....my meds are kicking me in the behind...

2/26/2014 9:37:53 PM
Oh boy wat a day

2/26/2014 12:38:34 PM
Talking with my Master and his friend bored out of my mind

2/26/2014 6:05:15 AM
Yay a fuckin road trip iam not ready for this shit all the way to iowa city

2/25/2014 8:02:29 PM
Wow I'm bored my Master is playing on his phone

2/25/2014 5:26:42 PM
WOW I HAD FIVE ORGASIMS WHILE BOUND UP AND I SQUIRTED. BADLEY

2/25/2014 5:19:55 PM
WOW I HAD FIVE ORGASIMS WHILE BOUND UP AND I SQUIRTED. BADLEY

2/25/2014 12:34:21 PM
At the libary bored and confused

2/25/2014 8:19:47 AM
I placed second place twice in bowling last week so i am very proud of myself

2/24/2014 2:23:00 PM
Heading to my bowling game wish me luck i suck but this keeps me active and helps my add

2/24/2014 12:05:00 PM
Just resting in da car

2/24/2014 11:40:36 AM
I can't argue with anyone and win like i use to

2/24/2014 11:36:52 AM
Heading home rest a lil before my bowling. game tonight

2/24/2014 10:58:25 AM
Bored at the mall here in waterloo

2/24/2014 9:01:50 AM
GOT MY CANDY TAKEN AWAY

2/24/2014 8:45:15 AM
Well with my Master and his friend in waterloo me stuck in the back seat like always...

2/24/2014 6:47:03 AM
Got spoiled yesterday and iam happy i been a good girl

2/22/2014 5:27:28 PM
I'm bored just. looking for friends to talk to

2/22/2014 5:20:13 PM
Listening to crossfade being bored

2/22/2014 4:06:29 PM
Lookin back at me. i see i never realy got it right......GOD I LOVE CROSSFADE

2/22/2014 3:23:28 PM
I'm bored and not knowing wat to do

2/21/2014 3:44:34 PM
Master went to wprk bord and scared

2/21/2014 11:43:32 AM
I haven't cussed since lastnight

2/20/2014 10:11:55 PM
He takes what's his even though i try to denie him just to be a brat....we got rope today and i regret it now....

2/20/2014 9:18:18 PM
Just got fucked yay me well not realy i squirted everywhere which is embarrasing time for bed now

2/20/2014 7:56:23 AM
GRRR MY MASTER WON'T WAKE UP

2/20/2014 7:13:06 AM
How is getting my ass whooped a little warm up

2/19/2014 10:55:43 PM
100 Swats on each tit me likey a lot

2/19/2014 10:52:40 PM
100Swats on each foot and 100 on the pussy with riding crop damn I'm good

2/19/2014 10:36:36 PM
I can take the riding crop on the ass 575 times and still counting i begged my master to whoop mw and he is doing it yeah but hurts a lil but i got a new best friend mr.riding crop

2/19/2014 8:37:06 PM
I love bdsm but i can't stop bein a brat....any pointers. would be greatly. apperciated

2/19/2014 3:29:28 PM
A lot of shit going thru my mind. need new friends...prefed male Doms cause they make the most sense to me right now I'm in bed thinking i guess i shouldn't be but how can i not i mean shit these last two days has been shot to hell.

2/18/2014 3:39:21 PM
I'm drinking way to much water and its nt fun to be running to the bathroom every five mintuts i swear to much water is going to set my body thru a flood what do i do

2/17/2014 7:15:29 PM
My night is shot to hell so no I'm not going to be a princess submissive I'm only going respect hurricane95 and my master......

2/17/2014 7:17:23 AM
I have a long week ahead of me. . and probley weekend to..I'm a brat I'm still nt broke...no one can break me i love my master

2/16/2014 1:48:06 PM
WHAT THE FUCK EVER I'M ME JUST FUCKIN DEAL WITH IT....I'M NOT TRYING TO IMPRESS ANYONE SO DON'T EXPECT IT!!!!!!!

2/16/2014 3:26:25 AM
I love my master with all my heart.i need to change my attitude and my mouth and few other things so maybe i should accept the fact my friend that's a dom is willing. to help I'm going to take a deep breath and let it out slow and accept it

2/15/2014 2:06:00 PM
My master went to work I'm nt feeling good.... who wants to chat

2/15/2014 11:02:31 AM
So woke up today feeling like being good but since when does dark angel be good.....lol my my still not broke...

2/14/2014 10:18:58 PM
Well layin in bed bored fighting against my meds want soneond to talk to

2/14/2014 9:43:52 PM
Hello my old friends I'm bck and I'm with Master Shadow

8/17/2013 8:37:08 PM
i know what i want from life but its like a shooting star i cant seem to catch it so if iam lost or fallin what am i to do? Iam lost iam confused iam done being a brat i want to change so now i need to know whats the first step? Iam needing strictness i need structure so who can help me to become a better submissive?

8/17/2013 7:11:02 PM
she lays back with her hands cuffed she spreads her legs to face her fear he slips the vibrator in and starts fucking her with it he pulls it out puts his finger in her and she starts humping his fingers as she nears orgasiam he stops and she pleads and begs him to cum he smiles and says no iam not convinced that you need to cum he stands up and walks to another room she lays there and doesnt move he returns and pushes the vibrator back in and she bucks her hips and begs him for an orgasam as he says cum she explodes and smiles and says thank you sir he says your welcome slut she lays there and says i cant cum anymore sir he smiles and says we will see about that..............

8/17/2013 1:13:43 PM
everything said can be condricted but that dont stop us from being smart asses lmao you never win

8/17/2013 11:29:49 AM
You only fail when you give up on yourself.......

8/15/2013 7:59:19 AM
she cried when da cane hit her ass 4 da 20th time she was new to it and was training but dat day he came home early caught her in da play room lookin thru things she didnt hear or c him as he stood there quiet as a mouse watched her insert da vibaroter watched her til she was near orgasa he walked up and yanked da vibrator out and he said sternly who said u could play who said to enter tis room her face went white her jaw droped da room went quiet he gave an evil grin...............TO BE CONTINUE

8/15/2013 6:20:46 AM
dont judge a book by it cover people yes iam big so freakin what dont mean iam diffrent fuck this bull shit iam tired of all u judgemental guys on here yall are low if yall judge a girl on looks and weight if you want to chat inbox or call or text 913-689-5235

8/14/2013 9:16:56 AM
i need a strict dom tht wants a 247 sub to train and own iam in des moines iowa at da bus station plz a dom call me 913-689-5235

8/13/2013 8:54:30 PM
hmu if ur a strict real dom 9136895235

8/12/2013 8:05:49 AM
well iam on the bus and so exhausted iam so bored someone lets talk please Doms only thank you

8/11/2013 3:52:36 PM
well i think i may need a spanking or two lol but i came to relize that hoods ankel cuffs and wrist cuffs turn me on who knew lol guess u learn new things about your self you never knew

6/25/2013 11:45:12 PM
so anyway iam safe thinks to a nice great guy who showed some people do care and are respectfuly nice and i will never forget him thank u so much u know who u are and ill be okay thanks again ill never be able to pay u back for all u done......iam going to get sum shut eye but this journal entry is for someone and u know who u are

6/24/2013 10:36:39 PM
i want to chat

6/24/2013 6:17:48 PM
SMILE IT WILL EITHER WARM THEIR HEARTS OR PISS THEM OFF EITHER WAY YOU WIN

6/23/2013 8:15:14 AM
my head hurts and i feel real light headed idk why but i do

6/23/2013 6:42:34 AM
blah blah blah lol my nose hurts

6/22/2013 4:10:41 PM
iam so innocent oh so innocent i think i need a spanking though even good girls need spankings lmfao

6/22/2013 1:24:46 PM
i feel lot better and relaxed is it nite time yet lol

6/22/2013 10:26:04 AM
yeah iam bitch people do u think it bothers me to be called it?do u think it bothers me to state my mind MEN DONT FUCKIN INBOX ME!!!!!!!!!!!!YALL ARE NOTHING BUT IMATURE DUMB FUCKS REAL DOMS DONT JUMP INTO A SUBS INBOX TELLING THEM WHAT TO FUCKIN DO SORRY AND READ MY FUCKIN PRO IAM COLLARED U DUMB FUCKS

6/21/2013 8:19:00 PM
just laying here in bed awake just thinking its nothing important just thinking i guess ill go wright in my diary

6/21/2013 3:56:07 PM
lovin utah ;)

6/21/2013 12:50:58 PM
its all good iam ok and happy so anyway iam blah tired but idc iam awake and it aint going to stop me from doin what i need to do

6/20/2013 1:47:20 PM
well than wat a trip i had glad to be able to relax now wow yawn

6/20/2013 12:10:23 PM
i made it and iam so exhausted oh well it will be alright ;)

6/19/2013 3:41:40 PM
well about to leave salina kansas should get to utah on time now wow i am so freakin tired stayed up for four days iam eating but not like i need to cant wait to get to ol den colarado it will be the last bus i tranfer onto iam tired but know i need to stay awake my ass hurts but ill survive

6/18/2013 5:51:34 PM
well been on the bus for i think over an hour my ass is numb already and a guy put the driver in a bad mood

6/17/2013 10:51:25 PM
well just exhausted and hyper

6/17/2013 7:42:05 PM
iam excited but tired but cant sleep but needs to but dont want to but has to lol

6/17/2013 1:13:24 PM
i leave tomarow night iam happy but this idiot wont leave me alone and its pissing me off the worst part is he is gay and hes makin fake pros when i block him GET THE HINT LEAVE ME ALONE U FAG

6/16/2013 6:00:55 PM
well as of midnight itll be one day away iam so excited dont inbox me cause ur jelious and only woman inbox thanks

6/15/2013 11:37:20 PM
2 days away ;)

6/15/2013 10:45:20 PM
two days away yay bags are packed and ready to go ticket is in my wallet which is in my purse the only things not packed is shampoo condioner one razor shaving cream pillows and charger thats it so yeah other then those items iam ready to go

6/15/2013 7:51:59 PM
SO A FEW MONTHS AGO I GOT ENOUGHT NERVE TO WALK INTO A ADULT STORE AND BOUGHT A BALL GAG I HAD NO IDEA WHAT I WAS LOOKING FOR EXCATLEY OTHER THAN A BALL GAG SO THE GUY KNEW MORE ABOUT IT THEN ME AND HE SHOWED ME THE DIFFRENT KINDS AND I STILL GOT A SHITTY BALL GAG I GOT A BREATH ABLE BALL GAG THAT DONT EVEN STAY IN PLACE SO I AM KINDA REGRETING GETTING IT I DONT KNOW WHAT I WAS THINKING ALL I KNOW IS I SUCK AT PICKING OUT TOYS LMFAO BUT I DO LOOK SEXY WITH A GAG IN MY MOUTH

6/15/2013 2:04:46 PM
iam bored sinus drainage is kicking me in the ass for those who read my journal thanks for reading iam thinking about wrighting short stories inbox me with ideas please thanks

6/15/2013 8:59:05 AM
smiles and giggles two days away as of midnight bags are packed and my outfit is set out to so now what? Oh well iam tired

6/15/2013 12:52:50 AM
cant sleep and not feeling good its hot and missreable my aunt is a fuckin dumb and annoying me all iam saying is to myself iam sayin to myself -three more days just put up with it for three more days-

6/14/2013 10:00:21 PM
3 days away

6/14/2013 9:53:30 PM
iam sexy and i know it lol so iam laying here wide awake nothing to do noone to talk to iam suppose to be asleep but i cant sleep so what am i to do i tryed counting beers on the wall didnt work tried countong sheep didnt work tried to day dream it didnt work so what do i do from here?

6/14/2013 9:15:03 PM
well i was watching bdsm porn awhile back and the pornstar james dean does the job wonders lol anyway iam going to try to wear the smile i wear so well

6/13/2013 4:57:34 PM
am i pretty???????

6/13/2013 2:21:44 PM
i meant june 19th

6/13/2013 2:20:45 PM
so anyway its hot out reaching 100 here in arkansas wow i feel like jumping into the lake its hot and missreable oh well june 16th at precisely 10:20pm ill be in salt lake city bus station so yeah iam excited

6/13/2013 11:58:37 AM
well 5 days away cant wait getting excited and nervious all in one :) i bought the one way ticket and trust me iam ready but scared oh well sometimes u got to leap in faith to get good results

6/12/2013 7:54:31 PM
well every action gets a consquence i guess iam better off not talking to anyone other than my Master cuz if say the wrong thing i get punished please dont email me thank u

6/12/2013 4:41:13 PM
iam my Masters and Mistress bababy girl if u disrespect me i will let them know cause i am owned and if udisrespect me out of no where then yeah anyway cant wait till iam in my Master and Mistresses arms

6/12/2013 11:56:47 AM
well being bored cant wait to board the buss and start my new life in utah

6/11/2013 7:25:27 PM
well boarding the buss 6/18/13 @ 6:35pm and should arrive at my destiation 6/19/13 @ 10:20pm hell yeah i cant wait

5/30/2013 7:30:12 PM
laying in bed sing and listening to stained-epiphany hell yeah the song speaks for its self and i love it

5/29/2013 12:31:08 PM
i need preferabley a Dom thats been into bdsm for at least ten years that dont mind helping me out with something or a sub or slave who has been in bdsm for at least 4years so please inbox me

5/28/2013 10:14:51 AM
looking for fun today and need advice on a shelter around springdale arkansas

5/28/2013 1:49:48 AM
well the day started bad and ended GREAT iam in a chatting mood and happy that i know respect so who wants to chat

5/18/2013 1:05:38 AM
Why reach for the stars when you can aim for the moon?

5/15/2013 9:04:35 PM
So anyway i got a blast from the past to day and wow didn't expect it

5/5/2013 3:30:12 PM
Well lastnight i spent four hours in er and by the way im in school for ged and taking a college course in computer litetacy and customer service one yay

4/26/2013 11:31:10 AM
U live u learn and u die so watch out for those brick walls

3/9/2013 4:27:19 PM
BLAH I'M BORED

3/9/2013 10:56:32 AM
TIRED OF TRYING

3/8/2013 9:09:58 PM
NEED RP PLEASE NON SEXUAL

3/8/2013 12:20:09 PM
So my mouth got me in trouble and lastnight i cussed and my Master tried to shove a dog biscuit in my mouth i turned away and he whoped me and i said he wasn't strict enough so now he's even more strict my mputh has got the best of me what am i to do

3/7/2013 4:05:40 PM
Well I'm in trouble wats new?lmao

2/26/2013 1:56:40 PM
So we got a lot of snow and i tried to get out in my truck guess wat i drove forward to get a run at it and burried the front end how many laughs that get it got my Master laughing at my stupidity but as long as he laughed it is gd i gt pissed cause i was a few inchs away from getting it out the drive way just my luck i guess

2/21/2013 2:35:27 PM
DAMN I NEED SOME ADVICE PLEASE HELP ME

2/17/2013 10:15:58 AM
Well i settled down in missouri with my Master and he's so amazing we been retraining to his likes i got my own ball gag and blind fold yesterday so I'm iam happy about that and i been thinking hard i think I'm doing well he helps me and corrects my every mistake even though i get annoyed i think back at my training with jaarman and it helps i love my MASTER/HUSBAND so yea I'm anyways ill be posting short. stories when i can

1/23/2013 3:36:22 PM
JUST SIGHNED A NOTIFYED CONTRACT AND MARRYING MY MASTER

1/13/2013 8:58:11 PM
LOOKING FOR A SLAVE GIRL

12/30/2012 10:00:25 AM
any race or nationality will be considered.

12/30/2012 9:57:40 AM
My master and I are looking for a slave girl or another submissive who will be interested in a poly household and willing to relocate .

9/28/2012 3:14:25 PM
Got woke up and didnt like it one bit but i will get even

9/23/2012 9:01:36 PM
well its about damn time my brain started working again i wake and face to many problems but my light is shining through cant wait to get away from the four walls that surrounds me ill stand tall and say its true i miss my very first dom and my heart still beats for him more then anyone else at the time

9/20/2012 11:04:00 PM
i jst want to scream and jump off a damn bridge but first i got to step back and check myself cause i am lost dnt know wat to do anymore

9/11/2012 7:04:45 PM
the clock is ticking theres clicking in my head who ever said i was pretty thats not true i call bs iam so tired of wearing a fake smile iam tired of people throwing my past in my face i am been up amd i been down i beating and pushed around but my place aint on the ground i am tired of my haterz talking shit behind my back so iam standing here tonight to say got a problem with me bring to my chat line 1-800-gogetanaled fucked or email me fuckyoubitches@gogetanaledfucked.com

9/7/2012 10:56:52 PM
I need to chat with someone it dont matter anymore just need advice

9/5/2012 8:02:40 PM
well i hate math i dont want to do anymore math i will protest as soon as i finish my ged lmao i dont even want to finish my homework

9/5/2012 11:46:22 AM
well just got out of skewl and got homework yay fractions i dont like mathe but got to do things u dont like to get something u wamt or need amd i go to the councler in few and so yeah i am so unrsure what to do

9/3/2012 11:50:41 AM
EXTREMLEY DEPRESSED I HATE LIVING ON EARTH WITHOUT MY DAD I LOVE MY DAD AND AS OF THE FIFTH HE WILL BE GONE FOR FOUR YEARS WHY CANT THIS FUCKIN MONTH BE OVER NOW

8/30/2012 3:18:20 PM
im in skewl getting my ged and i am going blah i hate fuckin math

8/9/2012 10:31:36 AM
Livin life is like swimmin in the lake when ur in over ur head u got to swim toward land if u dont swim u drown so whats ur choice going to be mine was to swim

8/8/2012 7:10:36 PM

8/4/2012 6:17:25 PM
well hello collarme i am bored who wants to talk

8/2/2012 7:10:33 PM
BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH -STICKS TOUNG OUT AT EVERYONE-

7/31/2012 10:41:30 PM
well learning to live through me fighting with my mind stomach is twisted i am getting home sick but do i dare say anything no cause i will be fine i swear so let the pieces fall in place and let me keep pace of changes being made no im nt sad just scared of something that may or may not exsist

7/31/2012 8:10:56 AM
well wat can i say oh yea i have a tooth ache but its ok ill survive i think

7/30/2012 10:59:59 PM
well iam enjoyin my new Dom and Domme they are kewl

7/27/2012 8:59:53 PM
i cant sleep my head hurts

7/27/2012 2:21:15 PM
well im taking a short break from house work so i can keep up its going to be hard to get use to but ill get there lol

7/19/2012 9:40:02 AM
bored and cant go back to sleep Please someone lets tlk

7/17/2012 7:54:31 PM
i cant sleep tonite i feel bad and it aint kewl but wat happens i deserve

7/17/2012 3:38:32 PM
iam to the point of breaking and wow im supprised i shut my mouth like i do oh well thats what i need to do

7/17/2012 10:22:04 AM
iam so tired and cant sleep i guess ill cover my face with my pillow amd scream i am to the point iam going to just chill and if it all else fails i know where to go and what to do my aunt is a bitch judging people i talk to its all good i have a place to go to stay all i have to is sighn a piece of paper

7/17/2012 4:47:28 AM
i am confused on what to do i need to get away from van buren for awhile i have no clue what i should do iam so lost on what i should do

7/15/2012 2:20:36 PM
well i hate to say it but i just found out about a death and i am trying to keep it togather but i cant i just want hit my knees and cry

7/14/2012 10:56:55 PM
I NEED TO ARGUE WITH A DOMIANT MALE THAT KNOWS HOW TO ARGUE

7/14/2012 1:54:33 AM
well i need my ass whoped and then a bigger punishment then tht shit i been bad but i been gd to so wat now

7/10/2012 11:26:06 PM
well countin down da days the closer it gets the more nervious i am dam......but i am on another site lookin 4 a long term non sexual rp thts it thanks bye

7/2/2012 2:44:38 AM
well iam going to be happy by the end of tis month bye bye fucked up arkansas and trust me in da end ill splash water on tis pretty face look in da mirror and say hello new me and it will be thanks to one special person you know who u are and by da way my cm friends yall will c tht is a promise

7/1/2012 12:34:17 AM
well the way its lookin my happy country white submissive ass is goin to be movin to indiana i am done wit arkansas and i have a friend there thts into the lifestyle and who knows where it will go 4rm there all i know is iam not happy here in arkansas

6/23/2012 11:10:18 PM
well dream shattered its all good i think iam going to be to myself for awhile what else is left to do?iam serious about this amd only 2 Domiants know and now it lowered to one so what the fuck am i suppose to do

6/22/2012 6:07:20 AM
FINALY DREAM IS COMING TRUE LOVE MY MASTER THAT IAM WITH AGAIN HE PROPOSED TO ME I CRYED AND SAID YES SIR AND HE SAID IM THE ONLY ONE FOR HIM A DREAM COME TRUE BEING WITH THE MASTER WHOSE TAUGHT ME ABOUT THIS LIFE STYLE AND HES BEEN BY MY SIDE THICK,THIN,DRUNK,SOBER,DEPRESSED,AND HAPPY.WE HAVE BEEN ON AND OFF FOR A WHOLE YEAR I LOVE HIM AND FINALY HE UAS CHOSEN ME OVER EVERY OTHER GIRL HES EVER BEEN WITH I FEEL LOVED AND WANTED AND HE IS GOING TO BE MY MASTER THIS FEELS LIKE A DREAM BUT ITS REAL AND I LOVE HIM SO VERY MUCH I WOULDNT CHANGE THIS FOR ANYTHING HES MY MASTER MY LOVING CARING PRINCE CHARMING MASTER WE MAKE EACH OTHER HAPPY WHAT MORE COULD A GIRL ASK FOR IN A MASTER LOVE YOU MASTER CALEB MWA XOXOXOXOXOXOXO

6/17/2012 12:31:17 PM
wow when will it be my turn to be with a careing and loving master?i am on my knees and still no one takes me serious i mean im true to it i may not be prefect and i may not have a high school diploma but iam tying why cant people take me as me

6/17/2012 11:39:29 AM
well i might not be able to go to job corp in fall i got to move to van buren which is where iam at now i got to find a job and find my own place shit i am even open to having room mates shit i know where theres about to be a trailer or two open for rent

6/15/2012 4:46:07 PM
well i got bit by a fuckin dog and it hurts like hell

6/13/2012 10:24:20 PM
DAM I HATE BEING BORED AND NO ONE DECENT ENOUGH AND TRUE ENOUGH ON THIS SITE TO GIVE MY NUMBER TO,TO TXT AND TALK AND ROLE PLAY WITH DAMN I FEEL LIKE IM SUFFERING FOR SOMETHING I DIDNT DO IF UR TRUE TO BDSM PLEASE LETS TEXT OR SOMETHING SHIT

6/10/2012 8:49:23 PM
I BEEN UP AND ID BEEN DOWN I BEEN BEATIN AND PUSHED AROUND JUST ANOTHER BRIDGE TO BURN JUST ANOTHER LEASON IAM BOUD TO LEARN

6/10/2012 2:57:04 PM
OKTODAY I SAVED THREE ABUSED PUPS TWO HAS A GREAT HOME THEIR GOING TO AND THE THIRD NEEDS A HOME,OK SO NOW IAM WANTING A LONG TERM SEXUAL RP

6/9/2012 11:40:55 AM
under the radar and standing still will i survive or will i die should i cry? No just give me pain so i can gain my strenghth and smile my best smile no im not a pain slut but i do like it every now and then if you know how to do it iam me dont like it well thats you as for my haters thanks for making me famous by mentioning my name to ur friends and thanks for being that big of a fan means alot

6/6/2012 8:53:26 AM
well just taking it slow and enjoyin this thing they call life

6/5/2012 9:34:13 PM
MASS MESSAGE TO ALL FRIENDS AND FANS AND TO EVERYONE WHO CARES I AM GOING TO BE GOING TO JOB CORP SOON SO IF FOR SOME RESON I DROP OFF THE GRID ITS BECAUSE IAM GOING TO BE IN SCHOOL

6/3/2012 8:45:23 PM
well im in van buran and looking for a real master thats cuit and no on over 30

5/30/2012 3:29:16 PM
well people iam going to be gone for a few days to gather myself iam nt alright i just need space to breathe so leave a message ill get to u when i return i hope you all understand iam sorry but its for my own good

5/28/2012 1:19:20 AM
well home and bored but no one understands what non sexual rp means shit i am bored

5/26/2012 6:19:44 AM
im in branson missiouri with family for the weekend iam happy and havin fun

5/10/2012 1:58:28 PM
submissives prayer,allow me strenghth to answer questions fathom,the spirit to know his needs the serenity to serve him peace,the love to show him myself,the light to show us the way,the wisdom to be an asset to him,let me, show him each day my love of service to him,open myself to completely belong to him,learn to ppease him beyond myself,accept my punishment with grace,have the power to give myself to him completely,give me strength to please us both permit me to love myself in loving him.it is my greatest wish,my highest power to make him complete as he makes me

5/10/2012 1:57:41 PM
submissives prayer,allow me strenghth to answer questions fathom,the spirit to know his needs the serenity to serve him peace,the love to show him myself,the light to show us the way,the wisdom to be an asset to him,let me, show him each day my love of service to him,open myself to completely belong to him,learn to ppease him beyond myself,accept my punishment with grace,have the power to give myself to him completely,give me strength to please us both permit me to love myself in loving him.it is my greatest wish,my highest power to make him complete as he makes.

5/9/2012 2:48:57 PM
well i am typing a handbook and when i get internet on my computer i will put it online

5/7/2012 5:42:41 PM
well livin life and enjoying myself i love friends and family iam organizing a fund raiser to earn 500 for my cousin she just got dignosed with throat cancer

5/5/2012 4:19:17 PM
well finaly can relax but i want to talk on the phone might as well theres nothing else to do

5/2/2012 10:35:08 PM
Iam looking for a Master that wants a 24/7 sub and is in or near springdale arkansas who is faith full and is willing to take things slow.please message me if this is you.thank you

5/2/2012 5:13:32 PM
well whats new world

5/1/2012 8:16:23 PM
well i am on twitter as bdsmsub93 come follow me and ill follow you

5/1/2012 3:58:03 PM
well went to walmart got both cartledges pierced and my ears are sore man it hurts and all i can do is deal with the pain

4/30/2012 12:22:18 AM
Well i was laying there wore out and had da best thing i didnt think id ever do had become somthing i would do again jst 4 da hell of it i came along ways and lovin it lookin in da mirror i will alway wear a smile cuz 4 ounce i see who iam in life and wat iam here to do when iam on knees crying i pray to god and he helped me and my friends did to thank u all

4/29/2012 11:33:43 AM
well got back 4rm er

4/28/2012 6:17:57 PM
well love bdsm and iam so happy but nervious and well i need advice

4/28/2012 11:21:54 AM
well i am waiting 4 sunday and iam scared nt just worried

4/27/2012 8:58:05 PM
wow so i was browsing online and came accross somthing cool

4/26/2012 10:57:09 PM
well i think im going to get two tats one tht says sub93 and the other is the BDSM sighn

4/26/2012 6:51:18 PM
well u come home to find out tht u get no alone time when theres a spoilt 5 year old under da roof

4/26/2012 6:22:51 PM
no privacy and sinkin bck into depresion mode

4/26/2012 5:37:20 PM
screw you docter drew and your camera crew....hahaha sorry had to put that its been in my mind all day long

4/9/2012 7:23:37 PM

well i have a job i start tomarrow yay me i am so happy lets talk


4/8/2012 8:11:25 PM

i had a great easter now i am sitting up watching tv eating pickels i cant sleep inbox me lets talk


4/8/2012 8:37:20 AM

HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE AS FOR ME I AM TIRED AND THAT IS OK I AM HAVING A GOOD DAY LEAVE A MESSAGE IF YOU JUST WANT TO BE FRIENDS THANKS


4/7/2012 4:54:33 PM

well for the summer i am living in olathe kansas and i am so happy about that and then in the end of summer i am going to move to witchita kansas so yay me 


4/4/2012 9:50:58 PM
just moved to kansas im so happy and i am going back to school and im underconsideration of being collar by a wanderful guy and im so happy to be out of BFE ARKANSAS i have a better scene up here

4/3/2012 2:37:57 PM
IM IN KANSAS!!!!!YAY IM HAPPY

4/2/2012 7:52:30 PM
YAY ME TOMAROW I LEAVE FOR KANSAS IM SO HAPPY CANT WAIT...I HAVE MY BAGS PACKED AND READY TO GO....

4/2/2012 2:52:52 AM
well heres something to think about iam me and if u cant except tht theres the door dont let it it u on the way out and dont pretend to care cause im tired of the fakes and yall realy piss me off and i am what i know i am dont jump in my fuckin inbox calling all the fuckin names in the dam book i will burn the book and then fuckin burn u if you have to call someone a fake cause they wont give info out then your the fuckin fake I SWEAR I AM JUST STATEING THE WAY I LOOK AT IT

3/29/2012 4:35:06 AM
well yall can hate on me all yall want cause i am more mature than that so fuck every1 that hates me..theres the door walk out it cause i dont need any haters in my life

3/27/2012 8:45:07 PM
forget it all im tired..

3/22/2012 1:21:03 PM
well another journal entry im tired of hurting over something i cant control but i will say one thing when i die i want the word "for ounce lets stop being labeled lets stop being groupies lets all get along..for ounce listen to ur heart listen to anothers story i promise it wont hurt...we all bleed red we all cry tears so why cant we stop judging everyone has wars to fight some fight that war everyday so stop and become friends and people"that is what i want read when i die wander why so many people commin sucide just look in mirror cause its the bullying tht makes people commit suicide...just stop plz

3/22/2012 12:59:17 AM
why cant the war against race end?all the people who judge by color of skinur becoming what u hate it need to end all the brave men who lost their lives to make people free would not want this war to continue and all the kids growing up in gangs getting on drugs cause of the movies and tv shows on tv now all u see around the world is abuse,vilonece,torture it sickens me why cant yall stand up against it i am it sicking to be at a store and watch someone be judged or ignored causethe way they act,the color of their skin,their style...just stop it all if ur racised stay off my page if this offends u im sorry im stating my mind

3/20/2012 12:54:32 AM
well cnt sleep my hand& wrist aint doing anybetter im bored and seems these days that no one understands what NO SEX RP MEANS BUT O WELL IM ABOUT TO EXIT OUT IM ON MY PHONE...SO YEAH CELL PHONE WEB BROWSERS SUCK

3/18/2012 11:51:59 PM
well people my wrist and hand hurts like hell...i am tired cant sleep to fuckin hot...about to read more of the book the da vinci code by dan brown...im bored and want to chat..and rp..with out sex but doubt that will happen

3/17/2012 3:27:23 PM
i must purge my soul of todays sins.the sins commited today had been holy in purpose.acts of war against the enemis of God had been committed for centuries.forgiveness was assured....

3/15/2012 3:56:19 AM
well i fell and hurt my left wrist,left hand and left shoulder blade and it hurts like hell but i refuse to go in and it swollen idk wat to do

3/14/2012 12:24:40 AM
well im thinking about takin a trip to kansas this summer so i can see my bilogical father and a friend but we will see if i do then i might not get online very much do to me having fun and well truth is im scared so the more scred i am the worse things get for me so do me favor here people talk to me...

3/13/2012 2:03:51 AM
she steps into a cold silent lonely room and takes a seat in the corner opens the book she carried in pulls out a pencil and starts study with lack of sleep she yawns but she reads the problem in the book rewrights it in a note book and solves it looks around and still all alone she smiles and says where is everyone at she continues to study waiting for someone to talk to

3/11/2012 4:55:27 PM
out of mental state of mind or emotional...if u could live without one which one would it be and y?

3/11/2012 3:52:58 PM
blog:well heres the thought of the day we all start out weak and we all get weaker but in the end we all end up stronger so look at u weakness and fight through them cause u never know your weakness might end up being your strongest part...

3/11/2012 1:03:44 AM
i have grown alot in this since december but still i think i need to improve my profile more but i aint going to take some disrespectful persons advice so if you have any ideas and ur respectful inbox me if i like the idea ill use it other then that iam bored and need more bdsm friends who wants to be friends must have pic NO PIC NO RESPONSE

3/10/2012 11:52:10 PM
well im bored and i need some advice from a true Domiant Master someone who will call and talk to me for a lil while

3/10/2012 5:00:55 PM
she sits in the corner and waits for someone to talk to saying i am tired of all the fakes and tired of people saying i need more training people i am aware of this but how will i learn when no one will give me a chance

3/10/2012 1:13:09 PM
i been up in the clouds and fell face first on the cement i been at the very bottom when will it be my turn to be cared for and be happy when?who can answer this?

3/9/2012 10:23:31 PM
one step forward two steps bck i had a blast the other night i know a lil bit now and i am excited sometimes people look at u and cant even relize the true you but when it comes down to it the true you is shown and only the real friends stay by you see i have been through good and bad and no matter what i end up back where i grew up and everyone knows it as BFE but ya know what they say the country girls does the best cooking...most Domiants cant keep up with my sex drive and most are scared so tell me whos up for the challenge

3/9/2012 8:07:08 PM
hey now i had fun last night and well wat can i say i did wat i was told half the time and well thins went well so off the record i think i need to talk to someone on the phone before i go crazy

3/9/2012 7:00:45 AM
well stayed the night in a hotel had to get away for awhile and havin fun well going to get offline now

3/8/2012 12:11:02 PM
she opens the door that has never been opened before a new beggining has started for her at a young age people say shes to young but others says she dnt know whats going to happen that she needs to get out but for her this is wat she wants so she steps through the open door and sees a whole new look on life she awaits the arrival of a true Dom that has the time to help her journy and till she shuts the door praying that the special dom walks through the door

3/7/2012 12:38:33 PM
well im sitting here wet as hell and bored out of my mind who wants to chat on phone?

3/5/2012 12:19:53 AM

well how can i put this i want a true master i need communication everyday i need that one person who can hang out with me and show me affection and not affraid to please is there anyone out there for me please tell me there is


3/3/2012 12:18:24 AM

well how can i out this i need a Master in or near springdale arkansas that can devote his spare time with me and yes to me communication is a huge deal if you cant give me that then dont view my profile again your on the wrong profile i have alot i can say but just message me it will be easir that way and ask questions cause as of right now i am looking and no i aint just going to jump into the submissive role with a master i am going to take time out and hang out and get to know him better i am tired of the fakes and i am tired of getting hurt all the time so if you think you can fulfil what i need that message me lets see if we hit it off good


2/22/2012 1:40:36 PM

i need dick i need a training session i need to be reminded of my place but no these whimp of masters around me are to scared to take on the challenge to teach me more so who gives a fuck anymore


2/21/2012 8:21:22 PM

iam wet and i want dick


2/21/2012 1:07:44 PM

hey guys for those of you viewing my journal i am online with the computer so i can accept chat requests so please hmu i am bored and want to chat ok guys peac out...


2/20/2012 8:49:45 PM
Drinking havein a good time if only Caleb was here it would be betEr

2/20/2012 7:29:07 PM
I need dick tonight only if ur serious hmu

2/20/2012 9:46:18 AM
If ur viewing my pro either add me to be friends or stop looking at my fuckin pro

2/19/2012 11:07:36 PM
Well life is short and guess wat this girl right here is misbehaving on purpose but it's all good I will soon learn that i am not going to get by with it till then I will enjoy this alot I played again I need to be put bck in my place and so yeah I need a trainer that can train me at least one night a week end any takers someone that lives in or around springdale arkansas hum if ur willing to tale on the challenge

2/19/2012 3:22:51 PM
Well i messed up lastnight I feel really bad about it I said it playing around but guess mastercaleb91 didn't take it that I was playing around sorry Master I didn't mean it

2/18/2012 5:31:48 PM
i got my hair done and i look sexy as hell hmu iam bored lets chat

2/18/2012 7:30:02 AM
well lets see here i had a session the other night an i learnt valuably lessons and i had fun melgrimm ur kewl

2/16/2012 5:19:19 PM
yay me i am getting out for awhile and iam so happy but also so nervious i am wearing my white bandana and i look like in a way dam im so nervious its 7:17 and my Master wants pics lol

2/16/2012 10:46:59 AM
well i am so misbehaving over here and im laughing about it cause i know my Master is in georgia and a trainer is sick so yay me

2/15/2012 7:24:22 PM
I NEED FUCKIN DICK IAM SO FUCKIN PISSED OFF AND HORNY

2/15/2012 6:35:19 PM
this a pervert joke but i took a ride on the washing machine

2/15/2012 2:30:43 PM
i need to get out of the house and do something tonight cause someone dont care for me as much as he says he does so i need dick and to be put bck in my place

2/14/2012 1:44:43 PM
i need a valintine bdsm training session i have condoms and other stuff hmu if ya live in springdale arkansas and a dom

2/13/2012 5:26:12 PM
well i need a trainer who is willing to train me fo awhile cause i do have a mouth and guess need to be put bck in my place...cause my Master and i aint by one another but he wants me to train

2/12/2012 9:16:02 PM
well i been misbehaving and guess need to be punished and be reminded of my place

2/10/2012 3:59:04 PM
well being bored kinda aggravated at my family

2/9/2012 9:36:05 PM
well i am so happy i am moving in with people i dnt fight with dam i am so happy

2/9/2012 4:02:43 PM
me and my mom is fighting i need out of this house....

2/9/2012 10:58:39 AM
well nothing to do my Master had to go to work so he cant talk to me and there is nothing to do here at home...and i am wet but dnt have permission to play so i guess ill have to wait *BUMMER* =(

2/9/2012 5:12:10 AM
my mom and i arent fighting anymore she coming to pick me up from my friends house today i am so happy...i love my mom but when she sits there and lets her bf jump my ass for something i didnt do then yeah i am going to get mad and besides tht shes the one who is saying tht i need get out more...and when i do she bitches at me for god sake i am fuckin 18 years old i am considered as an adult so she needs to stop trying to control me o and i might dye my hair black if i can get a job...

2/8/2012 5:33:31 AM
well u live u learn u die so take alot of breaths take it slow kiss as much as posiable u never know u could be nxt tht people say goodbye to

2/7/2012 10:31:06 AM
theres good theres bad and then theres Master Caleb and me and well hes a bad boy i am the good innocent lil girl LMAO I AM NOT INNOCENT HMU LETS CHAT IM BORED AND OH YEAH LOVE YA MASTER CALEB

2/7/2012 4:13:01 AM
well it hurts when u lose something so close to u...but it hurts even more when u get blamed for it but it aint ur fault

2/5/2012 10:03:02 AM
well i am not feeling well but o well i am going to party tonight after the super bowl but any how who wants to chat on yahoo

2/5/2012 12:15:10 AM
wow just got alot of crap going on so someone chat with me stop being so fuckin stuck up u fuckin screen watchers if thts all u do then delete ur fuckin pro

2/4/2012 9:38:45 PM
well i like the band falling in reverse they are fuckin amazing..and well i am bored who wants to rp?clean perferable or dirty...only people with pick and those who have a yahoo im sn

2/4/2012 8:48:52 PM
IF I DIE BEFORE I WAKE TILL THE DEVIL IAM ON MY WAY-GOODBYE GRACEFULLY-BY THE BAND FALLING IN REVERSE

2/4/2012 11:41:29 AM
LOVE,HONOR,OBEY....PEOPLE SAY THESE ARE THE MAIN IMPORATANT WORDS BUT TO ME IT GOES RESPECT,OBEY,LOVE,HONOR WAT YALL THINK ABOUT THT

2/1/2012 4:43:33 PM
ARGUMENT OF THE DAY:DOM:did i dismiss you to go to another room?..SUB:No but i have to use the bathroom...DOM:WELL ASK FOR PERMISSION TO LEAVE...SUB:I DONT WANT TO SO EAT THT AND BITEE UR TOUNG.....READINS THIS ARGUMENT U HAVE TO FILL IN HOW THIS ENDS SO GIVE ME UR IDEAS AND IF I LIKE IT IT WILL BE IN THE NXT BLOG FOR THE ENDING OF THIS ARGUMENT

2/1/2012 1:35:57 AM
well this sucks im bored and oh wait i am happy about alot....so yeah anyways..hmu

1/31/2012 6:45:45 PM
well u know wat im bored and this is gay i need more friends on yahoo im going to start getting on there and chat hmu if ur interesting ill give u my sn start impressing me

1/31/2012 3:54:20 PM
well my trainier has comanded me to find another sub/slave to train with me please contact me must live near fayyetville arkansas contact me asap..must have pic in pro

1/31/2012 2:50:19 PM
well i may have another session...so yay me bring it on i think im ready...for this who wants to chat

1/31/2012 5:27:19 AM
dear journal readers,most of u read my journal cause either a u enjoy reading wat i say or b cause ur to shy to talk well people i wont bite ask jaarman hope yall start talking to me

1/31/2012 1:40:01 AM
smart ass remark of the day...is coming to my journal starting now...SMART ASS REMARK OF THE DAY 1: DOM:WHY ARE U BEING DISRESPECTFUL?sub:IDK Y DOES ANYONE WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?IT COMES NATRUAL....

1/31/2012 1:16:44 AM
well i few nights ago i hear tht session three is going to be serving training...serving more then one Domiant as called up for service which could be as small as serving drinks or serving sexualy so yeah im scared...

1/31/2012 12:57:09 AM
ok im not very smart...ok so when u have a switch inbox u how should u address him or her?shoul u talk regular like the are a sub or talk to them as if they was a Dom?

1/30/2012 9:56:57 PM
i smile my best smile....BDSM IS MY LIFE....SO WAT SHOULD I DO I CNT SLEEP who wants to chat

1/30/2012 9:00:24 PM
well i am bored and want to chat

1/30/2012 3:32:49 PM
well im bore and want to rp but then again i am so bored and lame tht no one wants to..*sticks toung out at jaarman*lmao

1/29/2012 5:51:00 PM
well im sitting here watching XXX state of the union i am bored and cnt sleep who wants to chat

1/29/2012 1:34:19 PM
i hate my body....when it fights with myself its not fair to anyone...lmao so im looking forward to nxt session...for some reason im excited but then again im not i know i cnt do anything for awhile cause of personal problems but hey u know wat when nature calls it hates waiting...

1/29/2012 1:34:12 PM
i hate my body....when it fights with myself its not fair to anyone...lmao so im looking forward to nxt session...for some reason im excited but then again im not i know i cnt do anything for awhile cause of personal problems but hey u know wat when nature calls it hates waiting...

1/29/2012 5:33:12 AM
theres alot of idiots on her oh well who wants to rp come on people there should be a few out there who want to chat on yahoo and rp anyone?plz lets talk only if u dont have a problem about me talking in txt style

1/29/2012 4:49:25 AM
wow theres alot of idiots that cant take rejection on this site but sorry to burst ur bubble but u cant force a heart to want something that clearly dont want wat u have to off theres no way in hell u been a dom since u were ten....sorry to say but theres no way tht can happen

1/29/2012 3:48:15 AM
well first off people i get online with my cell phone and i cant use chat rooms or accept chat request if ya want to chat inbox me and if i think ur kewl enough ill give u my yahoo im...

1/29/2012 3:25:50 AM
wheres all the role plyers at?im bored mail me plz with ur best scene

1/29/2012 2:53:14 AM
well iam bored and would love to have a online role play partner or a few online role play partners hit me up with ur best scene if im interested ull get a reply but must be for long term...so make it good

1/29/2012 2:35:58 AM
ok so i am typing this entry to all the users i might have offended or disrespected plz mail me asap if tht is u or if havnt did tht to anyone plz wright me and let me know i would like to see reviews of me so plz feel free to wright me and tell me wat u either like or dislike of me id love to know thanks -submissive93-

1/29/2012 2:09:33 AM
well just laying here in bed cnt sleep....but keep yawning i miss my sessions with jaarman hes a wanderful guy and he knows how to take it easy with new learners there no doubt about tht i mean there is nothing bad about him shit i would give everything up to be collared by him but we both agreed tht hes only going to train me so tht is tht...i have nothing else to add to tht so jaarman KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK UR AWESOME AND U GET THRU MY HEAD!!!!till nxt session jaarman...

1/29/2012 1:50:13 AM
dear fellow blog readers,for those of u who may know i am in training with jaarman..he is a wanderful teacher and guide thru this lifestyle but i have recently been sick and just not in the best of shape either and i feel terriable for it so i havnt been able to train lately..but as soon as i do another session i will post wat i learned and how it went till then u can read these other boring posts..sorry fellow readers for the major let down latley

1/28/2012 4:24:30 PM
saltine crackers,mustard,milk,pickels,and ice cream i have weird taste ik say wat ya want idc theres my ass u can kiss it as soon as u say wat ya want just let be drop my pants and panties and bend then u can pucker up and kiss my ass

1/26/2012 5:40:44 PM
i want and need a dick...lmao...but not tonight i am nasus

1/13/2012 8:12:59 PM
i have rope and blindfold from my learning session...i tied my hands up lastnight

1/13/2012 7:53:56 PM
dam i am horny as fuck no doubt abou tht bdsm is the only thing i care bout tht now

1/13/2012 4:57:50 PM
well just got home from er i hate to say it but i have strep throat...and it hurts...but o well i am fine

1/12/2012 10:35:08 PM
session1 PART2:I AM THERE ON ALL FOURS CANT SEE ANYTHING IN DARKNESS I CAN ONLY HEAR COMMANDS AND FOOT STEPS...DARE I DONT LOOK UP OR TRY TO ESCAPE SO I OBEY BUT WHEN HE SHOVES HIS NICE HARD DICK IN MY ASS I CNT KEEP MYSELF IN CHECK AND I LET OUT A SCREAM BUT AFTER THT I STAND ON HANDS AND KNEES AND MY ARMS ARE ABOUT TO GIVE OUT ON ME BUT I ADVISE HIM OF WAT IS GOING ON HE THEN SAYS LAY DOWN SO I LAY ON MY STOMACH AND IT COMES FOR THE TIME TO GET LASHES I DONT KNOW WAT HE USED BUT MY ASS IS STILL SORE...LOL SORRY HAD TO END IT THESE PAST TWO ENTRYS WAS FOR JAARMAN...

1/12/2012 10:05:02 PM
session1 PART 1:driving down the road in complete silence then he commands me to play with his dick i do for about 10 mintus and then we get out in country site and he commands i pull my pants down i do and the go to my ankels sitting there and then he commands i play i start playing and then he commands i lay the seat bck so i do 4 mintuts before we get to the destiation he tells me to pull my pants up i do but i aint allowed to button them so then we pull into a garage and he shuts it he tells me to strip i do and then he commands i get on all fours and crawl into the house i do and i get to a room then he blind folds me...TO BE CONTINUED

1/12/2012 8:10:53 PM
so every one....hope yall like the bondage pic of me tht is up

1/12/2012 4:31:17 PM
yesterday i got my picture takin whill nude and bound up it is so hot

1/11/2012 5:34:50 PM
well my ass is sore and i had a good session i guess i think he was mad....but who knows i kept myself in check so i wouldnt skrew up and make things worst but anyways looking for another session lol...i learned alot tonight

1/10/2012 10:39:39 PM
well i learnt tht i have 4-6 half siblings my bilogical father found me i been looking for him for the past 6 months i prayed this lil prayer "dear lord i come to you on my knees with eyes closed and bowed if there is one prayer i want to come true is tht before the year 2012 is over i need a mircale for this but i pray tht i hear from my bilogical father to get in touch with..amen..and guess wat people it came true dec 31 was his first email to me and two on jan 1

1/9/2012 7:55:12 PM
well i am starting training wednsey day and i am happy and cnt wait scared bit looking forward to it

1/9/2012 2:20:21 PM
hey well i am so tired and cnt sleep cnt wait to start training...but hey who knows anymore me i sure in da hell dont know wat to do or say

1/8/2012 10:06:07 PM
well i am bored and feel like shit so anyways i am bored and learning italian is hard but anyways who wants to chat anyone?no?ok well hmu with email if ur nt interesting i will not answer so dont get boxers in wad if i dont wright bck

1/8/2012 8:34:51 PM
well she stands there and waits so patiencley...and says nothing waiting on an answer.....so please inbox me i am bored

1/8/2012 8:34:47 PM
well she stands there and waits so patiencley...and says nothing waiting on an answer.....so please inbox me i am bored

1/8/2012 1:30:20 PM
well either monday,tuesday,or wednesday i will begin traing yay i am excited but i am scared and vervious as well

1/8/2012 10:44:00 AM
Doms if u were going to train and u had to choose between monday,tues,or wendsday which day would u choose and why?

1/8/2012 5:29:40 AM
today i get to find out wat day training begins...i am so nervious stomach is in knots damn this is going to be a long wait to find out when it is i need to be ready

1/8/2012 5:27:21 AM
vai in culo....i am so fed up with vanella merda...vai in culo=fuck it,merda=shit

1/7/2012 10:56:54 PM
vai in culo testa di merda cazzeggiare=fuck it shit head waste time...in italin...i am getting good at italin

1/7/2012 9:24:21 PM
*she stares out the window listening to music and sings along as she sees the clear night sky and softley thinks of the day she will find out when training starts she closes her eyes imagaining wats going ti happen but who is she kidding theres no telling wats going to happen to her all she seems to think bout is doing her best and obeying and dont speak till spoken to

1/7/2012 8:29:25 PM
nerve racking...its all good though i have to be ready to do wat is asked this is scaryy...someone talk to me pleas

1/7/2012 7:02:51 PM
well i am excited for session 2 i am nervious but o well guess ill get over it and this sucks cock..lol i do...but thts beside the point i am to get prepared for session 2 i understand part 2 but not part 1

1/7/2012 6:15:16 PM
session 1:was freaking amazing...now theres going to be a session 2....nice

1/7/2012 2:39:48 PM
ok wow is there no dom in arkansas who would love to domianate tonight for a learning experiece for me...i have no transpation i live out in back woods but i can suck gd dick

1/7/2012 2:15:54 PM
i am looking to be domianated tonight....i am like so fucking horny and yeah i think doms are mature and i need sex i am a sex addict

1/7/2012 12:52:41 PM
wow i want to be domainated tonight and stay out all night

1/7/2012 12:28:31 PM
i need out of here tonight

1/6/2012 9:47:14 AM
well...i love where i am at right now...to bad i go home at 1am....but i come bck either sat,sunday.or monday...i barely stay home anymore

1/3/2012 8:53:43 PM
i need a ride to fayettville arkansas...this sucks

1/3/2012 2:50:35 PM
i need to make like 150 dollars...any ideas just one time time deal i need to make it before friday more like tonight

12/30/2011 8:12:15 PM
well my ride is on the ride but i still wish it was a Dom o well lifes a bitch if it was a slut then it would be to easy....i am not ready for this long ass weekend so yeah ill probley get on and offline at night but not new years eve

12/30/2011 6:56:39 PM
well nothing to do if my ride dont show i am going to be pissed off....and on top of tht i want to be bound up and dominated by MALE DOMIANT only i am wanting more experience being around a dom this sucks....i am about to fall asleep over here

12/30/2011 2:39:38 PM
well i am disappearing tonight and stay gone till sunday or monday this outa be fun and heres the funny thing no one knows where ill be only me and one other will know its nt to do with the lifestyle either i am excited i get picked up before 10 so i am guessin 8-8:30-9-9:30 one of those times hahahahaha it would be better to spend it with a dom

12/30/2011 12:41:57 PM
went to town with my mom andnow i am bored sitting in my room WANT TO START TRAINING TODAY BUT NO CUTE WHITE DOMS AROUND ME

12/30/2011 9:01:02 AM
I AM HERE LOOKING FOR A DOM THAT IS WILLING TO PICK ME UP AN START TRAINING TODAY

12/30/2011 8:09:31 AM
well dam this aint kewl its friday and i am going to spend new years alone...is there anyone cute thts a Dom that would like to train to me i can start today have nothing better to do

12/29/2011 11:09:09 PM
she lays there on the floor bound up no way of escaping as she smiles the man walks around her and she says nothing as he watches her strugle..she doesnt dare look at him in da eyes she lays there helpless enjoying the bondage scene shes feeling and she starts to get wet

12/29/2011 8:25:47 PM
WAT PART OF TONIGHT DO U FUCKERS NOT UNDERSTAND...PLEASE IF UR BORED AND WAT TO START TRAING A GIRL TONIGHT AND YOUNGER THAN 30 HMU AND UR WHITE I CAN START TONIGHT

12/29/2011 7:55:49 PM
fuck it i need to get out for he remainer night i am willing to start training tonight with a Dome who lives in or near SPRINGDAL ARKANSAS must have pick up truck and white to come pick me up

12/29/2011 3:20:40 PM
I want to lay my head in Doms lap kneeled at his feet knowing i am good

12/29/2011 12:29:00 PM
Dom is in control i belong on knees inless told otherwise..no eye contact is to be made unless told show respect yes Sir or yes Master is respect if tht bothers u then guess u just think its a game save the time and hop off this site for us real people who wants to live the lifestyle i am a girl my job is to please and be pleasing judge me if it pleases u but i do have my limits

12/29/2011 12:17:11 PM
well bound me up gag me DOMIANT me but please wat ever you do dont piss on me...

12/29/2011 12:07:13 PM
we walk the earth to die and we die to come back as after life..

12/29/2011 12:05:15 PM
well lifes a night mare if i was to come back as after life i want to be an eagle so i could fly high and not care

12/29/2011 12:02:30 PM
well lifes a night mare if i was to come back as after life i want to be an eagle so i could fly high and not care

12/29/2011 11:53:15 AM
if i was to die tomarow how would people remeber me?would i come back in after life?would i go to hell or would i go to be a cloud yes i beleave in god but i dont think theres a kingdom with a gate of gold i love god but if i was to die tonight wat would happen how would people remeber me?was i just another girl who has died?

12/29/2011 8:02:00 AM
well today is a intense nerve recking day last night i was told the Dom i was with the other night will give me his decission on whether he is going to train me cross my fingers i hope he does cause he lives close by me and he understands i am new

12/28/2011 8:46:07 PM
I LOVE THIS SITE I LOVE BDSM AN I AM TRYING MY BEST TO FIT IN WAT AM I DOING WRONG

12/28/2011 8:31:57 PM
well waiting to hear from a Dom he said he is going to make his decission sometime tomarow about training me..so yay =) *she crosses her fingers waiting patienctly..if ya want to chat inbox me peace

12/28/2011 7:16:52 PM
well you know wat people if yall think i am a fuckin fake go ask jaarman he knows for fact tht i aint a fake and tht i am 18

12/28/2011 6:01:13 PM
well life tonight is boring last night has got to be by far the best night i have had in awhile...i stayed out of trouble..well tryed to at least lmao it was the good trouble =) i love this site idc who sees this yall say wat yall want i can handel this

12/28/2011 5:10:01 PM
well i am me being controled and to please a guy is huge turn on just not knowing wats going to happen nxt gets me goin...but i have a braty side to me as well...there only been on dom to get me to nt mess up and no one will know tht person

12/28/2011 4:59:11 PM
well i have to admit haveing know idea or clue wats going to happen excites me the most when i am bound up helpless with a Dom walking around me i love that feeling when i have no control...and i get my hair pulled

12/28/2011 4:45:30 PM
well i am ok i guess wish a Dom younger than 40 would contact me tht has a pic in pro and someone wh lives in arkansas and that is white..i want to talk on here and maybe phone

12/28/2011 1:14:56 PM
well people i cant use the chat on here only emailing back and forth and user:jaarman plz contact me....o by the way people i dont cross bread so if ur nt white dont email me

12/28/2011 11:20:54 AM
last nights experience got me wanting to live the lifestyle even more so hmu if ur seriously wanting a live in

12/27/2011 5:57:24 PM
well i had fun tonight you know who you are not going to mention any names...hope to see you again soon i had alot of fun... =) hope you had fun as well

12/27/2011 6:31:49 AM
well tired of answering the same questions over nd over and ovver again...and if you dont intrest me then i wont reply...if you mail me and its putting me down well guess wat i dont put up with people who judges a book by the cover

12/26/2011 11:34:29 AM
well i am new to this site in search of a Dom that is looking for a sub to be a live that can be trained your way that is me never been fully trained but wanting to be

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judiA
 
 Age: 32
 London, Canada